Years of Intoxication

After dinner, Zhou Heyi went to the hotel to pick up his luggage.When he got in the car, he lowered his voice and said to He Gu mysteriously: "Mr. He, no one found us."

He Gu was a little funny: "I'm not an agent, so relax."

Zhou Heyi made an OK gesture: "Then where are we going now?"

He Gu thought for a while: "Do you have any friends in Germany?"

"Yes, I have."

"First ask your friend to open a hotel for us with his ID."

"Okay." Zhou Heyi frowned, "But what should we do when we get to Eastern Europe?"

"Where there is money, there is a way."

"By the way, I know a website where you can find people who provide their own guest rooms for tourists. There are people in every city. The requirements for documents are not strict. Some of the conditions are very good, and they are more expensive than hotels."

"Okay, let's get in touch."

Zhou Heyi looked a little excited, probably getting into the drama.While driving, he called his friend in Berlin. The friend was very enthusiastic and helped them open the hotel. They took the room card and went upstairs directly.

He Gu sat in the quiet guest room, staring quietly at Zhou Heyi's T-shirt thrown on the bed, on which the words "Song Juhan" could be vaguely seen.

He just wants to come out to have a good time, can you not bother him...

After a while, Zhou Heyi came out wearing big shorts and topless. He was not tall compared to Europeans, around 178, but he had a good figure, his chest and abdominal muscles were faintly visible, his waist was thin, his legs were straight and Long, coupled with that always smiling face and full of vitality, very flattering, always reminiscent of the sun, sea and beach.

Why couldn't help but take a second look.

"Mr. He, go take a shower. I've wiped off all the water spilled on the ground, but you should be careful when you go in. The floor is a bit slippery."

"Okay, thank you." He Gu took a change of clothes, went into the bathroom, and took a shower comfortably.

When he came out, he saw Zhou Heyi was playing with his mobile phone with his legs on the armrest of the sofa. Hearing the movement, Zhou Heyi turned his head and looked at He Gu with awkward and strange eyes.

He Gu probably guessed something, tilted his head and looked at him, waiting for him to speak.

Zhou He blinked his eyes: "Mr. He, I know why you are avoiding Song Juhan, I... I checked on the Internet, it turns out that you..."

He Gu rubbed his hair with a towel, and said calmly, "I didn't avoid him, I just didn't want him to disturb my trip."

Zhou He said guiltily, "You won't be angry with me, will you? I'm just curious."

"It doesn't matter, anyway, it doesn't make any difference if you know more."

"Mr. He, don't worry, your way of life and choices are your freedom, and they can't change my respect for you."

He Gu smiled: "Thank you."

"I don't like him at all now." Zhou Heyi lifted his chin towards the trash can, with the T-shirt thrown in it, "I don't believe what the media said, I believe you are a good person."

He Gu solemnly said again: "Thank you." Hearing such a sentence, even from a person who has only known each other for a few days, is a little comforting to him.

"Hmm... Well, Song Juhan has a wound on his face." Zhou He gestured, "He must have been beaten. Would you be happier hearing this?"

He Gu said helplessly: "I will be happier if I don't hear anything about him."

Zhou He nodded quickly, his eyes sparkled a little as he looked at He Gu's slender calf exposed under his bathrobe.

Song Juhan waited at the hotel until ten o'clock in the evening.He has always been irritable. He has never waited so long for anyone in his life. At the end of the sitting, his back was sore and his legs were numb. Finally, he couldn't help but took out his mobile phone and called He Ge's accompanying driver, but he didn't expect that the phone had already been turned off.An ominous premonition arose in his heart, he walked to the front desk, wanting to make sure if he had come back while he was going to the toilet for some reason.

Checked at the front desk and said why had already checked out.

"Retire?!" Song Juhan's expression instantly became fierce.

The receptionist took a step back in fright and looked at him in horror.

Song Juhan gritted his teeth: "When? When did you retire!"

"Around eight o'clock in the evening."

Eight o'clock... Song Juhan recalled, wasn't it when the Chinese youth who asked for his autograph turned back to the hotel for the second time?He did go to the front desk at that time and still had two pieces of luggage in his hand.

Why are you with that person?

Song Juhan growled angrily, turned around and left.He got back in the car and made a phone call to return home: "Send me the photo of the accompanying driver immediately."

After waiting for 3 minutes, the mobile phone received a ID photo, Song Juhan clicked on it, and it was the young man.

Song Juhan was so angry and anxious that he wanted to kill someone.

Why did you travel Europe with this handsome young guy?Two people still live in one room? !And he missed He Gu because of this person!

Song Juhan felt like he was going crazy.His hand holding the phone was trembling, and he said coldly, "Find out all the information about this driver."

After hanging up the phone, Song Juhan closed his eyes, he felt something heavy was squeezed on his chest, his throat seemed to be clenched by a hand, and every breath required great effort.

He Gu was avoiding him, not only leaving without saying goodbye, but also avoiding him.

Where did the reason for liking him for so many years, hugging him and coaxing him, saying what he said?Why can't he keep that kind of He why no matter how tightly he hugs him and how he shows his affection, he disappears little by little?

Why do you actually avoid him, so you don't want to see him...

He regretted that he didn't notice He Gu's strangeness earlier, but He Gu has always been strict with his words, what was thinking in his heart, he didn't say it, and it was hard to see it, so he ran away without a sound, which really fit He Gu's personality.

After getting along for so many years, he still doesn't seem to understand why. He wants to know, very much, he wants to use the next time to get to know this man bit by bit, maybe then he will understand, how did he go from He didn't care about He Gu at all, and it became hard to let go step by step. For He Gu, a man who can't even say a nice word, what kind of drug did he give him!

Why did he wake up and saw that the bed next to him was empty, he had a regular schedule and got up early every day, unexpectedly Zhou Heyi had already gone out?He yawned and got up to wash up.

As soon as he packed himself up, Zhou Heyi came back. He was wearing a tracksuit, the headphone cable was dangling around his neck, his hair was slightly wet, he had obviously just come back from a jog, and he was still carrying a paper bag. He laughed whenever he saw why. Showing a mouthful of white teeth: "Mr. He, I don't think you are used to Western-style breakfast. I went to Chinatown and bought you steamed buns and porridge."

He Gu was startled, a little moved: "Thank you, I actually eat casually, and I trouble you to get up so early."

"It's okay, I just want to eat it too." Zhou Heyi opened the bag and sniffed it, "Well, it smells so good, come and eat it."

He Gu is really not used to things like bread and cheese, and always feels that he is not full. The traditional Chinese breakfast is the most appetizing.

"Mr. He, today we are leaving for Cologne and will take you to see Cologne Cathedral."

"Okay."

"Our last stop in Germany is Munich. The beer in Munich is great. If you like football, I can take you to the game."

"Okay, you arrange it."

Zhou He smiled and said, "Mr. He, you are the best guest I have ever seen."

He Gu smiled: "Really."

"Really, polite, talkative, and generous." Zhou Heyi pursed his lips, "He's handsome."

"Thank you, you are also a very good driver and guide."

"If I go to China in the future, can I play with you?"

"Of course, you are welcome."

The two got into the car and drove to Cologne.

On the way, He Gu found that there was no song by Song Juhan in Zhou Heyi's car music. Along the way, this young man's thoughtfulness had already made him feel very happy, and this kind of kindness and thoughtfulness made him even more happy. Good impression.

As soon as Zhou He saw that He Gu was extraordinarily silent today, he tried to find a topic in different ways: "Mr. He, Mr. He."

"Ok?"

"There is no speed limit on the high speeds in Germany. There are so few cars now, do you want to experience the feeling of a speeding car?"

"Okay, how fast can this car go?"

"Two hundred and two is not a problem."

"Come on." He Gu tugged on the seat belt, it was very firm.

Zhou Heyi changed to an explosive heavy metal rock song, let out a "yo hoo", pushed the accelerator to the end, and the Buick commercial vehicle flew out.

He Gu was taken aback. He had never driven such a fast car in his life, and he was somewhat nervous. Even after the treatment of the speed reduction glass, the visual effect in front was still shocking. If he turned his head to look at the side windows, The scenery outside was speeding backwards, and the car body seemed to be erratic.

He Gu clenched his fists, and the pores of his body exploded. Tension was nervous, and fear was fear, but the excitement was unprecedented, and he couldn't help laughing.

Zhou Heyi also laughed loudly: "Hahahahahahaha!"

"Cool!" He Gu responded proudly.

The pointer on the instrument panel exceeded 200, and the two of them drove along the empty highway for a full 2 ​​minutes. The tense feeling of oppression made ordinary people unable to hold on for too long. Zhou Heyi slowly slowed down the speed of the car. .

Why does it feel like my back is full of sweat.

"Phew, it's fun." Zhou He let out a breath, and smiled at He Gu, "Is it fun?"

"Fun."

"There are many interesting things in the world. If there is anything unhappy, just throw it away as garbage. The Chinese say that it is a day to be happy, and it is also a day to be unhappy. Can it solve the problem?"

He Gu chuckled twice, he was actually educated by a boy who was several years younger than himself, he was really embarrassed.But what Zhou Heyi said made sense, and he regretted it at first, what could he get by spending so much money and traveling to such a far and strange place, and now he felt that his trip was worth it. There are so many new and interesting things waiting for him to experience, why should he always hang his eyes on one person, he can obviously try to get joy, fulfillment and satisfaction from other places.

When they arrived in Cologne, they visited for a day, and went to Chinatown at night to buy a lot of snacks, cooked food, and instant noodles, and then went to the private house that Zhou Heyi was looking for.

The room was provided by an Italian couple working in Germany. The company rented them a large house, and they rented out the spare rooms to tourists to earn some pocket money.

On this day, the three guest rooms were all full. Besides him and Zhou Heyi, there was also a young Japanese couple who came to travel.

Coincidentally, today is the birthday of the daughter of the owner and his wife, and a bunch of friends, big and small, came. The owner invited them to the party.

He Gu drank some wine that day, and had the courage to speak a few words with foreigners. In fact, his English is very good, but he is easily nervous. After chatting for a while, the psychological burden was much lighter, and he was able to speak smoothly.

Zhou Heyi said in surprise: "Mr. He, it turns out that your English is so good. I thought you didn't speak it very well."

"It's been a long time since I talked about it." He Gu smiled and watched the warm and happy gathering, feeling very relaxed.When he was in the capital, he always felt that the air was oppressive and his breathing was not smooth, but when he arrived here, he no longer felt that way.

After the party ended, He Gu got a little drunk, but he was still sober.

Zhou Heyi supported his waist: "Mr. He, let me take you back to your room."

"It's okay, I didn't drink too much, I can go."

"It's not safe to go up the stairs, I'd better help you."

"Ok."

The house is very big, but the stairs are designed to be very narrow. Zhou Heyi helped him up the stairs, and the two of them bumped into each other. It was more troublesome than walking alone, but Zhou Heyi was always so hospitable and enthusiastic. Hard to say no.

After finally reaching the room, He Gu fell back on the lavender-scented quilt and stretched his body vigorously.

"Mr. He, are you feeling unwell? There is anti-alcohol medicine in the car."

"It's okay, I didn't drink much." He Gu looked at Zhou Heyi, his eyes clouded, and asked casually, "He Yi, how old are you?"

"21." Zhou He stared at He Gu intently, his Adam's apple rolled slightly.

"You're so young...why don't you go to college?"

"I don't like reading." Zhou Heyi said with a smile, "I like surfing. I'm going to work for a while, and when I save enough money, I will go to surfing holy places around the world to challenge. I also want to open a surfing training class in the future."

He Gu said with a smile, "That's great."

Zhou Heyi sat down beside the bed unconsciously: "Mr. He, what about you? Do you have any dreams?"

"Dream..." To He Gu, these two words are a bit ironic.

The dream he understands is what he wants, or the goal he wants to achieve.The only thing he wanted strongly in his life was Song Juhan, but he didn't remember until the end what he wanted Song Juhan in the first place.What he wants is Song Juhan's single-mindedness, loyalty, and companionship for a lifetime, not just the occasional companionship he thought would satisfy him, which is just a "sufficiency" that he has compromised step by step over the past seven years, as time goes by , He didn't even dare to think about the original desire.

Because Song Juhan is just a person who can never be loyal in his relationship. Song Juhan is a selfish and greedy taker. He never minds giving, but what he gives can't be exchanged for Song Juhan, who he wants only belongs to him, so he Just don't want anything.

In the past seven years, he was able to watch Song Juhan linger in the flowers and pretend to be indifferent, because he was not qualified to manage, but in the end Song Juhan gave him a promise, a promise was an invisible rope to him, but to Song Juhan it was just a sentence Nonsense, Song Juhan even wanted to upgrade him from a friend with benefits to a "mistress", but he became sober in the face of that hopeless despair.

He clearly knew that he would never get what he wanted from Song Juhan, if he continued to stay in this quagmire, he would definitely become distorted and crazy because of Song Juhan's endless derailment, and eventually destroy the two of them.

So even if he prevented the nightmare from happening.

Zhou He didn't speak for any reason when he saw it, and said with some emotion: "They say that the older they get, the more they will forget their dreams. I don't know if I will forget it in the future."

"If you forget, it's probably because you have more important things in your life to do."

Zhou He smiled: "That's right." He looked down at He Gu with focused eyes, "Mr. He, this is the first time you've talked so much to me."

"Really, don't we chat every day?"

"That's what I'm talking about. You occasionally answer a few words. In the first few days, I was a little afraid of you."

He Gu smiled: "What are you afraid of me doing?"

"You're too serious." Zhou Heyi lay down on the bed, looking at He Gu, "Later, I found out that you just don't talk much, and you are a very good person. Silence is also the charm of a man."

He Gu turned his head to look at him, with a faint smile in his eyes.

Zhou Heyi's heart skipped a beat, he couldn't help swallowing, and he dodged his eyes on He Gu.

He Gu was taken aback for a moment, then suddenly noticed something, and sat up.

Zhou Heyi also sat up quickly, his face flushed slightly: "Mr. He, then you should have a good rest, you have to play tomorrow."

"OK, good night."

Before going to bed, He Gu opened the mailbox, and everyone who knew the email address wrote him an email.

His mother sent the information about the summer study tour that Susu participated in, Gu Qingpei told him that everything is fine now, Zhuang Jieyu said that Song Juhan was looking for him everywhere.

He Gu replied to the emails respectively. In the email to Zhuang Jieyu, he only wrote a few short words: let him find it.

Song Juhan tracked down Zhou Heyi's mailbox and found out the homestay they booked. Just as he was about to kill him, he was found by his father's bodyguards.

He didn't expect his father to be so ruthless this time and send people to Germany to arrest him.

Seven or eight people blocked him in the hotel, carrying electric shock devices with them, and swarmed him.

As soon as Song Juhan put down three of them, he felt a pain and numbness in his body, and fell heavily to the ground.When he opened his eyes, he was already on his father's private jet, flying home.

When he got home, he was locked up again.This time it was a real pass, and people were sent to watch it 24 hours a day.

Song Juhan went through perhaps the most difficult time in his life, a hundred times worse than when he was locked up in the detention center.

His mind was full of why.

Every day I think about where I am, what I am doing, whether that driver is also gay, and what if the two get along.He has been with He Gu for too long, and sometimes he even forgets He Gu's charm, but the men around He Gu, Feng Zheng, Zhuang Jieyu, Gu Qingpei, all of them have eyes above the top, which is enough to prove that He Gu recruits more people.

He was increasingly unable to sleep and eat, and spent most of his waking hours in anxiety.He doesn't know what's wrong with him, he seems to be crazy, like a person who has been hungry for ten days is hungry for food, why is he hungry.

He wants to see why, why he wants to see, why he wants to see.

He wanted to ask why He Gu dared to treat him like this. He wanted to take He Gu home and lock him up, so that no one could see him or touch him. He wanted to tell He Gu that he could not marry or have children, as long as the one he liked was He Gu. can come back.

The cognition of "why might not like him anymore", even thinking about it, made him very irritable.

After he tried to escape twice and kicked a bodyguard's ribs, Song He finally realized that something was serious and called Vanessa back from abroad who didn't know.

After Vanessa and her husband had a big fight, they walked into Song Juhan's bedroom and frowned deeply when she saw her son's dejected look.

Song Juhan looked up at her and said weakly: "You are back."

Vanessa squatted gracefully in front of him, her slender fingers raised his chin: "Baby, how did you make yourself like this, you are 27 years old, not 17 years old, how can you still be so childish."

"Mom, why do I want to see you?" Song Juhan said hoarsely.

"Why do you want to see you?"

Song Juhan was startled, pursed his lips, and shook his head.

"In this case, why do you force him?"

"I want to see him." Song Juhan said stubbornly, "I can find out where he is, as long as I can go out, I will find him immediately."

"What happens after you find him?"

"Bring him back." Song Juhan stared at Vanessa, "Mom, why does he like me, he said it himself, I know, he liked me for many years, he was reluctant to part with me, he was just angry with me, it's not that he really didn't want to talk to me I."

Vanessa looked at her son sadly, and said softly: "He likes you, everyone knows, probably only you can't see it, I reminded you several times, why should you be nice to him, are you nice to him?"

"Of course I treat him..." Song Juhan suddenly couldn't speak when he was on the verge of speaking.

Is he nice to why?

He gave He Gu a house, a car, and countless gifts, but He Gu didn't care at all.When he was in a bad mood, he would always get angry at He Gu, because he knew He Gu would let him go. Sometimes he would deliberately mention others in front of He Gu, just to see if this serious man would be jealous. He lost his job for some reason, his personal information was exposed on the Internet, and he was harassed and abused by countless people.Finally, he plans to marry someone else...

Is he nice to why?

He suddenly dared not answer this question.

However, he never thought of breaking up with He Gu.No matter how many stunning beauties come and go by his side, when he is tired and bored, he just wants He Gu to be with him. After Feng Zheng appeared, he said in a fit of anger to let He Gu go, but he knew that He Gu would not leave him. He will definitely come to him, but He Gu really didn't come later, it doesn't matter, he went to find He Gu.

For seven years, this person has occupied the best seven years of his life, sharing his joys and achievements, frustrations and setbacks with him, no matter what happens, as long as he looks back, He Gu must be waiting there silently He, as long as he needs, he can do anything to He Gu and get what he wants from He Gu.

He never thought about why why would leave him one day, he couldn't imagine what life without why would be like.

Now that he realized it, his life was in chaos.

He was not afraid when he was handcuffed, he was not afraid when facing the accusations of the media and the abuse of netizens, and he was not afraid of his career plummeting, but he was really afraid of why he was drifting away.

No matter how hard he tried to hold it tightly, the powerless feeling that the sand flowed faster and faster made him feel unprecedented fear.

In fact, it's not that he hasn't thought about why he should be so persistent because he likes him, but he doesn't bother to think about it, to prove it, he is still young, he hasn't played enough, he doesn't want to respond to troublesome feelings, even if he doesn't respond , Why don't you also hold it well in his palm? What's the difference.

Why is he so smart, will he know everything?Would he know what he was thinking in his heart? If, if he knew for some reason, how sad it would be...

Song Juhan hugged his head, only feeling a dull pain in his heart.

What kind of mood did He Gu stay with him for seven years?

Song Juhan didn't dare to think about it anymore. During the few days under house arrest, he thought too much, and the more he thought about it, the more frightened he became, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt that why might not come back.

Vanessa sighed and stroked her son's hair: "Honey, my marriage with your father is free and unrestricted, but it's just a special form of marriage. Most people's feelings require loyalty and Single-mindedness, I'm sorry your father and I didn't teach you that."

Song Juhan shook his head, his voice hoarse: "Mom, I want to see why, he likes me, he will come back."

"He may not come back." Vanessa gently stroked his arm, "Hegu is a person who does everything to the extreme. His feelings for you have reached the extreme. Now that he is leaving you, he will ..."

"Impossible!" Song Juhan raised his head suddenly, his eyes were bloodshot, and he said viciously, "He likes me, he will come back, as long as I see him, I will coax him well."

Vanessa sighed: "I'm going to communicate with your father, you want to leave, it's fine, but you have to promise me three conditions, first, stop doing things that hurt others and yourself, you know how many you have hurt Are you a bodyguard? Second, you can’t act willfully. Your career has finally improved. You can’t just disappear at this time. Third, you have to promise me that you won’t force He why to do what he doesn’t want to do .”

Song Juhan nodded and held Vanessa's hand tightly.

Vanessa touched his flawless face and said sadly: "Maybe I didn't set up a correct view of love for you, but I taught you humility, sincerity and kindness, why do you become so arrogant, selfish, Thin feelings, are you influenced by your father, or this circle has brought you down."

Song Juhan lowered his head, speechless.

"Even if you go to him, you may not be able to change anything. If you think about what you did to He Gu, if He Gu did this to you in turn, you will understand that he will not come back."

Song Juhan's body trembled, he clenched his fists, his eyes were a bit blurred, he gritted his teeth and said: "He will come back, he will definitely come back."