Years of Intoxication

He Gu stayed in the detention center for six days.He once thought that celebrating the New Year alone for ten years was quite uncommon, but celebrating the New Year in the detention center was even more ingenious.

Sun Qing came over to accompany him for a while, brought him some vegetables, and promised to release him on bail soon.

He Gu put a dumpling into his mouth, and whispered, "You made it?"

Sun Qing was startled, her eye circles turned red all of a sudden: "You still remember."

He Gu lowered his head a little uncomfortable, he didn't expect that he still remembered this smell.

Sun Qing covered her mouth and began to cry, saying repeatedly: "Mom is sorry for you, mother is sorry for you."

He Gu's eyes were moist, but he held back the tears: "Mom, let's have a good New Year."

Sun Qing wiped away her tears, picked up vegetables for He Gu, peeled the shrimp, and did what a mother wanted to do.

He Gu comforted himself, at least he was not alone this year.

On the second day of the Lunar New Year, he was released on bail, but he had to report to the police station every now and then to cooperate with the investigation.

His immediate boss, the director in charge of the real estate business, told him through his mother that Nanchuang would suspend him temporarily, and further processing would depend on the judicial results.

He Gu had already expected this disposition. If his mother hadn't been involved with the relationship in advance, he would have been fired directly. A big state-owned enterprise cannot tolerate such a stain. The matter was pushed to the cusp of public opinion, and Nanchuang had to make a statement.

He worked in this business for more than six years, and although he thought about quitting many times, it never occurred to him that he might be fired.

Thanks to Song Juhan, the world is so unpredictable.

His mother took him to the hotel, that house, no, Song Juhan's house, he could not go back, his mother said that he would find someone to move his things out.

Coincidentally, he didn't want to go back and see the mess there. Even though that house left the worst memories before he left, it also recorded every bit of sweetness that he and Song Juhan had. He didn't want to see it run down. look.

When he arrived at the hotel, He Gu took a good shower, then lay on his back on the bed, and after making mental preparations, he turned on his phone.

Countless missed calls, text messages, WeChat, and QQ messages popped up like an explosion, some cared, some asked, and some questioned.

Among them, Feng Zheng, Zhuang Jieyu, Gu Qingpei and Chen Shan made the most calls.

He replied to Zhuang Jieyu, Gu Qingpei, and Chen Shan respectively, saying that he was released on bail and he should be fine. Then he hesitated for a long time after looking at Feng Zheng's text message, but still replied out of politeness.

Feng Zheng's phone call came first, He Gu pressed the call button, and his voice was weak: "Hello."

"Why, how are you doing now?!" Feng Zheng's voice was full of anxiety, "I took my dad's lawyer there two days ago, but I heard that your mother has already hired a lawyer."

"Yes, I have been released on bail. I just need to cooperate with the investigation. I have a lot of evidence and witnesses to prove my innocence. It's fine." After going through such a mess, why did he no longer have the strength to complain to Feng Zheng, To him, Feng Zheng is just a friend who cares about him now.

"That's good..." Feng Zheng gritted his teeth, "Song Juhan, an idiot, why did you bring someone to your house?"

"I don't know." He still doesn't understand why Song Juhan brought so many people to his house, harming others and himself.

"How is your company doing?"

"Suspended."

"Why, come to me, I'll give you double the treatment, aside from everything else, we used to cooperate very well at work, didn't we?"

"Feng Zheng, my mind is in a mess right now, and I can't think about these things." No matter what, it was impossible for him to go to Feng Zheng's place, and he was no longer willing to face this person.

"I'll wait for you. I have your place here at any time. Even if you don't want to come or what you want to do, I'm willing to invest in you, not only because it's you, but also because you are a reliable person."

"……thanks."

Feng Zheng paused, "Why, I don't know why, I can't let you go, please don't ignore me."

He Gu opened his mouth, but didn't know what to say. He just wanted to stay away from Feng Zheng, because Feng Zheng's existence would remind him over and over again of how bad he was back then, and how sad and ridiculous the six wasted years were.

Apart from going to the police station, why didn't he leave the hotel for a few days. His mother was afraid that he would be bored and wanted to take him out for dinner, but he refused to go.Like every law-abiding person all his life, he felt a little ashamed of being in the detention center, as if the whole world was staring at him, even though Song He tried his best to block the news, not a single photo of him leaked out.

However, there are too many capable people on the Internet, and it has been found out that he is one of the protagonists in the last incident of Song Juhan fighting in a restaurant. In addition, this time the incident happened at his home, contacting the rumors of Song Juhan's homosexuality, the name "Why" It has also become one of the hot spots of the event.He was afraid that someone would recognize him when he stepped out of the hotel, even though he knew it was just his imagination, he still didn't want to meet people.

On the third day after he was released on bail, he saw the news that Song Juhan was also released on bail.

The gate of the police station was quite lively that day.

In order to avoid congestion, they deliberately asked Song Juhan to leave at six in the morning, but even so, hundreds of people surrounded him, including the media, fans, and righteous people holding banners to protest against Song Juhan's moral taint as a public figure. Almost lost control.

Many people said that Song Juhan had a bad year, and tasted all the frustrations, accusations, insults, and setbacks that he hadn't experienced in the past 26 years in one year.On his Weibo alone, there are more than [-] messages, most of which are scolding him.

Many netizens don't believe Song Juhan's innocence in this matter. They prefer that Song He's energy has affected judicial justice. The whole matter is no longer purely entertainment news, but has risen to a bloody height.

In the torrent of public opinion, a small voice began to appear, saying that Song Juhan was taking the blame for his homosexual lover, because the incident happened in the home of that person named "He Gu", and it was accompanied by a detailed analysis, as if he was in the presence of its environment.

When He Gu saw this statement, he felt extremely ridiculous, but he couldn't laugh.

One day, he was sitting in front of the French windows, looking down at the endlessly flowing streets from the [-]th floor, and suddenly found that he had never been so leisurely since he entered high school.

After his father passed away and his mother left, his life focused on his studies. After he went to university, he was filled with various internships and social practices. After all, in this world, it seems that only work really needs him.

But now I don't need him for work.

No one is irreplaceable, as is the case with people.

The doorbell rang, He Gu guessed that GuQingPei and Zhuang Jieyu had arrived, got up and opened the door.

"Suprise!" Zhuang Jieyu held two large plastic bags in his hands, which were full of food at first glance, and excitedly raised them in front of He Gu's face.

Zhuang Jieyu has recently become popular, and he wears sunglasses when he goes out, but his bright and bright smile cannot be blocked by any disguise.

GuQingPei stood aside with a smile: "We bought a lot of food and brought cards."

He Gu smiled lightly: "Great, I'm just feeling bored."

"I'm bored, let me take you out to play. Although I'm easy to be recognized when I walk on the street recently, it's okay to cover up a little."

"I don't want to go out." He Gu took the bag.

GuQingPei went over and patted He Gu on the shoulder: "He Gu, don't think too much, you go out boldly, no one will know you."

He Gu laughed at himself: "That's true."

"Besides, anyone who really knows you knows what kind of person you are, so you don't need to take it too seriously."

"Thank you, Mr. Gu." He Gu said, "It smells so good."

"Hurry up, let's eat, and play cards after dinner." Zhuang Jieyu rubbed his hands, "I haven't eaten meat in order to lose weight recently. I'm so hungry."

They set up a table full of miscellaneous food, Zhuang Jieyu also brought a small portable Bluetooth speaker, and played music on his mobile phone, the three of them chatted while eating, Zhuang Jieyu was very funny, Gu Qingpei was humorous and amused He Gu laughed straight, he couldn't remember how long he hadn't laughed so heartily.

After eating, they played cards for a while, Zhuang Jieyu kept laughing and acting coquettishly, He Gu and GuQingPei let him go, they were a little bit envious of his vitality, as if the sky was not worth worrying about.

At night, Zhuang Jieyu had something to do, so he left first.

GuQingPei asked the guest room to pack up his things, then made two cups of tea himself, sat on the sofa by the floor-to-ceiling windows, said with a smile: "Sit down, let's have an adult conversation."

He Gu smiled: "The little monkey can really bluff."

"Children, I don't know how tired you are." GuQingPei pushed a cup of tea in front of He Gu, "I was quite worried before I came here, but seeing that you can regulate yourself, I feel much more at ease."

"Hey, it means losing my job. I have already thought about it these days." He Gu has a lot of time to think about his future these days. He sorted out his property, including the house and hands left by his parents. With 80 in savings, it's okay even if he can't find a job for the time being, not to mention that his mother has left him a very wide road, even though most of that road is not easy to walk, he is still hesitating whether to take it or not.

In fact, what makes him feel sad is not the loss of the job itself, but the effort and energy he has put into this job.He can't say that he likes this job very much, and he often feels very tired and unfair, but after so many years, bit by bit, he has achieved the slight achievements and status he has today, but because of other people's mistakes, he is almost destroyed. He couldn't help feeling sad.

"It's good if you think so, and even if you lose your job, you don't have to feel sorry at all." GuQingPei said confidently, "The most you lose is a copper bowl of rice, come to me, I'll give you gold. We are a private company, so we don’t pay much attention to it, the only thing we pay attention to is strength.”

He Gu nodded: "I have really thought about it these few days, but now I am not in a good state and I am quite confused. Please give me some more time, Mr. Gu."

Right now, if Nanchuang can't stay any longer, GuQingPei's place is the best choice.Although his social skills have improved a lot over the years of working, he still feels repulsed from the bottom of his heart to unfamiliar environments and people. He hesitated for so long and did not resign. What would it be like to adapt to an environment and colleagues, so where there are acquaintances, it will be easier for him to integrate.

"No problem. I promised to answer me after the year. I'm not in a hurry."

He Gu took a sip of tea, and suddenly felt a little panicked in his heart, and a sentence came out without thinking: "Mr. Gu, have you ever liked anyone?"

GuQingPei was stunned for a moment, apparently he didn't expect He Ge, who has always been cautious and reticent, to ask such an emotional question, he was a little dazed, as if he had thought of something, but he soon came back to his senses, "No, I'm 20 years old. In those ten years, I put all my energy on work and missed a few good people. Now I have too many worries and too few impulses, but I can’t realize what it’s like to be purely fond.”

He Gu looked out of the window and said flatly: "It's pretty good. I think that if a person persists in understanding one thing in his life, he is considered his own success. But I have been confused for so many years, and I haven't understood anything." All of a sudden, he lost his two major focuses of the past six years. Thinking about how impermanent life is, it's a little... interesting.

"Why, the so-called self-success has different standards in everyone's heart. I pursue success and fame, so I gave up my feelings and many hobbies, but some people pursue emotional satisfaction or spiritual freedom. Material and fame are to them It's not that important. Why, you are the latter, although no one may believe it, but I know you are the latter, and you must know it yourself. You pursue what you want, and I pursue what I want Is there any essential difference between things? As for whether you want something or not, there are many objective factors, and you can’t prove that the pursuit is wrong or incorrect because of the difference in results, don’t you think so?”

He Gu pondered for a while, his voice trembling slightly: "Then what if it turns out that the pursuit is not worth it in the end."

Before he knew the past of Song Juhan and Feng Zheng, he never felt any regrets. He chose a muddy road by himself and made himself into a mess. He was neither special nor regretful.He even thinks that if one looks beyond the emotional framework, pain is just a kind of emotion. Since people can be happy, angry, and helpless, why can't they suffer.

In order to excuse his stupidity, he even let out such idealistic thinking, but it couldn't change anything.In the end, he could only comfort himself and experience the benefits that "like" brought him, such as occasional joy, occasional satisfaction, and occasional sweetness. His best friends joined together and slapped him hard.

At that moment, all the steps disappeared, and he fell off the high platform of self-sacrifice he had piled up. His nose was bruised and his face was bruised, painful and embarrassing. In fact, he regretted it in the end.

There is no more hopeless awakening than this.

Seeing the pain in He Gu's eyes, GuQingPei couldn't bear it, he said very seriously: "Then I congratulate you, you are only 28 years old, it's not too late to find out." GuQingPei raised his teacup.

He Gu smiled wryly, raised his teacup, and touched him lightly.

"Take it as if you have been drunk for a while, and let this cup of tea relieve you."

Just like being drunk, wake up.