Years of Intoxication

When He Gu left the next day, Song Juhan was still awake.

He rushed to Tang City for a business trip, and had to come back in the afternoon. The time was tight, and he didn't want to wake Song Juhan up, so he left in a hurry. When he arrived at the high-speed rail station, he found that he had left his phone behind.

He stood in the ticket hall where people were coming and going, he was completely out of breath.He has a cautious personality and rarely makes such low-level mistakes. His ticket purchase information and the people he wants to contact when he arrives in Tang City are all in his mobile phone. Without a mobile phone, he might not be able to do things today.

He hesitated for a while, and had no choice but to drive back to pick it up. Fortunately, Song Juhan's house was not far from the high-speed rail station, so he hurried back and took the next train, and he could still arrive before lunch.

He rushed back in a hurry, he rang the doorbell anxiously, after a while, the door was opened, why did he think he would see Song Juhan who was sleepy and unhappy, but unexpectedly, Song Juhan looked very sober, only his eyes It was frighteningly cold.

Why didn't he have time to think about it, and went in one step: "Did you wake up? I left my phone here." He went into the bedroom to look for it, but couldn't find it, and returned to the living room, only to see Song Juhan leaning against the wall with his chest in his arms, holding his hand. His mobile phone, with a piercing cold light bursting out of those deep eyes, was staring at him viciously.

He Gu was startled, not knowing what happened for a while.

"Are you looking for this?" Song Juhan shook his phone, "Aren't you on a business trip? You came here to get it because you were worried that you wouldn't be able to contact that bitch Zhuang Jieyu."

He Gu was in a daze, Song Juhan looked at his phone?

Song Juhan gritted his teeth, and a hostility surrounded his body, as if he could transform into a tangible blade, piercing He Gu's body in an instant, "When did you guys do it? Before I knew it, you were already so affectionate? He turned on the phone, "Little monkey? Uncle He? Fuck, it's so fucking disgusting!" He threw the phone hard, and the fragile machine hit the wall and fell apart!

"Song Juhan!" He Gu said angrily, "I have something very important in my phone, can you listen to someone explain it first!"

"Explain." Song Juhan narrowed his eyes dangerously, staring at He Gu, "Last time I drank too much and didn't explain to you. It was my fault. Now I will give you a chance to explain how you two met and how to contact each other. Yes, how is the development going, you have become more and more indifferent to me during this time, is it because of this fucking bitch!"

"No!" He Gu shouted not to be outdone, "We met by accident. We have a mutual friend who likes to joke with me, that's it!"

"Fuck your mother! Do you think I'm a fool? Would you believe this kind of nonsense! Are you joking or flirting? I can't see it? Zhuang Jieyu seduced you first, right? You are also very enthusiastic about him, right? You and Is he asleep?"

He Gu took a deep breath, barely suppressing his turbulent emotions, and said in a deep voice, "No, nothing."

"No?" Song Juhan laughed, "You know he's a zero, right? 'No', because you don't know how to use that thing? Also, you've been fucked by me for so many years, do you know how to fuck others? .”

He Gu turned a deaf ear to his sarcasm, he looked at Song Juhan coldly, and the words escaped without processing his brain: "Ju Han, first of all, whether it is Feng Zheng, Gu Qingpei, or Zhuang Jieyu, there is nothing between me and them. It's all innocent, I want to ask you now, from the very root of this matter, what right do you have to control who I make friends with and sleep with?!" The words fell like sharp ice, no matter how sharp The body, no matter how cold the coat was, would end up being smashed to pieces. Why did he feel a sharp pain in his heart, almost so painful that he couldn't straighten up, his hands trembled, his brain was dizzy, and his vision was a little blurred.

He said it, he really said it, how many times he wanted to blurt out this sentence, but he held it back?He knew it was unfair, but he didn't dare to refute, because if he said it, the relationship between him and Song Juhan might come to an end.

But he really said it, maybe he regretted it the moment he said it, but he has no way out.

Song Juhan stared straight: "What the hell did you say? Say it again?"

He Gu really didn't have the courage to say it again, so he could only press his lips tightly, waiting for Song Juhan's verdict.

"I don't have the right to control you?" Song Juhan was like a beast that was cornered, he took two steps in the direction of He Gu, He Gu took two steps back instinctively, he stopped again, and turned around on the spot Circle and circle, as if the whole person was about to explode, his fists were clenched and rattled, and finally, he swung his chair and threw it towards a row of bogus racks against the wall!

There was a loud crash, and the things on it fell to the ground, and the scene suddenly became extremely messy.

"I have no right to control you?!" Song Juhan yelled, pointing at He Gu, "Who is to blame if you get sick? Do you know how many people Zhuang Jieyu has slept with? Why can't you bear the loneliness so much? Is it me?" It should fuck you so hard that you can't get out of bed every time!"

"Enough!" He Gu's eyes were red and his voice was trembling, "Then how many people have you slept with?!"

"Am I the same as you! How many people have you met? You can't wait to bite the hook just to hook you up. You haven't even worn a fucking condom in your life."

"Song Juhan, don't go too far!"

"So what if I go too far? You've gone against the sky and dare to control me!" Song Juhan was really annoyed and furious.

"You can control me, but I can't control you!" He Gu snapped.

"Yes!" Song Juhan's extremely beautiful face was distorted so terribly at this time, "Yes, that's it. If you are not satisfied, just fuck me. Who is this good to me? You are so fucking shameless! You can't fucking smile at your face. I'm tired of seeing it, and I've been tired of it for so many years, get out of here!"

He Gu was trembling all over, his legs were so weak that he was almost unable to stand still. He barely held his last dignity, walked to the wall step by step, picked up the broken mobile phone, and then walked towards the door step by step .

When passing by Song Juhan, Song Juhan suddenly showed a fierce look in his eyes, grabbed him by the collar, pressed him against the wall, and said in a cold voice: "Remember to tell your 'little monkey', he won't If you have any chance to play again, go back to your hometown and do what you should do."

He Gu grabbed his hand, gritted his teeth and said, "Don't do that."

Zhuang Jieyu, a 19-year-old child, wanders alone in the huge capital city. Needless to say, he knows how hard and difficult it is. Song Juhan can block all his roads with just one word.

"Are you distressed?" Song Juhan was so angry that he wanted to eat He Gu, "I warned him, I warned him not to touch you, if he dares to fight against me, he should bear the consequences." After finishing speaking, he pushed He Gu hard .

He Gu clenched his fists, knowing that there was nothing he could do, he couldn't even protect himself, so he could only rush out the door quickly before he was shattered into pieces.

The moment the door was closed, He Gu heard the sound of house demolition coming from the house, violent and full of hostility.

He Gu leaned on the wall to stand still.

has it ended?

has it ended?

Is it really over?

He kept asking himself in his heart, but there was a small voice retorting.

No, for more than six years, the relationship between the two of them has formed an inertia, as if they should be like this, as if they will be like this forever... So, how could it end all of a sudden?

no way...

What if he went in and apologized now?What if he explained it clearly?if……

He Gu raised his hand and slapped himself hard.

Come on, why, get out of here and end this.

But his footsteps were hard to move, as if stepping out of here would kill him.

Song Juhan, he wants to leave Song Juhan, the one he wants to leave is Song Juhan!The person who occupies the most weight in his life.

Can't touch it again from now on?Couldn't hug him, kiss him, stare at him again?Will there be no more Song Juhan in life?

No... can he do it?Can he live without Song Juhan?

He Gu felt a severe pain in his heart, and slowly slid down against the wall.

The noise in the room stopped, He Gu put his ears against the wall, as if he could hear Song Juhan's breathing and feel his presence.

Maybe this was the closest he was to Song Juhan in his life, and he didn't have the courage to leave.

But he has to go.

He took a few deep breaths with all his strength, managed to prop up his body, and walked away from Song Juhan step by step...

The steps are difficult, just like every step he has taken in the past six years.

He Gu went home straight away. He was in such a poor condition that he couldn't work. He put the card on his spare phone. He called his boss and told him that he was sick, so he went to another person temporarily.

Then he curled up on the bed, replaying everything that happened this morning over and over again in his mind.

The more he thought about it, the more painful it became, and the more he thought about it, the more he couldn't figure it out. He couldn't figure out why liking someone so beautiful could bring him such despair at the same time.

Why can't love just keep the good part, instead of mixing blood with honey.

Maybe it's because his love doesn't deserve to be called love at all, he's just wishful thinking.

Fell asleep in a daze, He Gu had a particularly cruel dream, in the dream he was running away all the time, he was even more tired than awake.

In a daze, he heard a knock on the door. He woke up from his dream. Before his brain could react, his body had already stumbled out of bed and ran to open the door.

Outside the door was Zhuang Jieyu.

He Gu looked at Zhuang Jieyu with red eye circles in a daze, feeling numb in his heart.

Zhuang Jieyu pursed his lips, his face full of grievances.

He Gu sighed, a little at a loss.

Zhuang Jieyu took his hand and placed it on his head, He Gu understood it and touched it.

Zhuang Jieyu came up and hugged him, He Gu patted his back, and said softly, "Don't play tricks."

Zhuang Jieyu said bitterly; "You really don't understand style."

Why let him in.

"I'm hungry." Zhuang Jieyu sat on the sofa and wailed twice, "I'm so miserable, I offended a big guy in the entertainment industry, I can't go on anymore, I'm going to die "

"Keep down." He Gu rubbed his temples, feeling a headache.

"I'm hungry." Zhuang Jieyu made a voice like a bird.

He Gu really didn't have the energy to cook, so he boiled a pot of water and made him a bowl of instant noodles.

Zhuang Jieyu picked it up with his chopsticks in disgust: "This one has a lot of calories." After speaking, he started to eat.

He Gu has regained his calm, or numbness, he looked at Zhuang Jieyu, and said in a deep voice, "He warned you not to approach me, why do you still approach me?"

Zhuang Jieyu sniffed: "I thought he wouldn't know, besides, I don't think it's a big deal, why is he so stingy? I'm not at a loss, if I really sleep you, it's fine I'm not asleep yet!"

How do you know that children of this age do things without thinking about the consequences, all on the spur of the moment, and Zhuang Jieyu is right, what a big deal this is.

Zhuang Jieyu blew his nose, took a mouthful of noodles, "I don't know what to do, I'm so wronged." Zhuang Jieyu pitifully picked his chopsticks with his fingers, "I owe tens of thousands of credit cards. Woolen cloth……"

"What are you going to do?" He Gu said without emotion.

"I don't know..." Zhuang Jieyu scratched his hair, "Actually, my family is quite rich, but my dad beat me out because I'm gay, so I just wanted to show him a trick and let him Regret to go..." Speaking of the sad place, Zhuang Jieyu started to sob again, "I will never go home, even if I sell, I won't beg him."

He Gu sighed: "You might as well find a job steadily."

"What do I know? I'm good-looking and good at acting." Zhuang Jieyu bit the noodles again, "Forget it, it's okay to think about it, I'll ask the boss sometime, Song Juhan doesn't cover the sky with one hand, I should be able to make a living. Hey? Why don't I just open a Taobao store, I can be a model myself, but where can I buy..."

He Gu looked at Zhuang Jieyu's face without worry, and felt envious in his heart. He was young enough not to be afraid of making mistakes.

After Zhuang Jieyu finished eating, he wiped his mouth and said that he was overwhelmed and wanted to rest. Why was he helpless? There was only one bedroom at home. Seeing that Zhuang Jieyu was so pitiful, he felt embarrassed to drive him away.

Zhuang Jieyu took off his clothes and got under the quilt, revealing his long legs, and looked at He Gu pitifully, "Uncle, you have to be gentle with him."

Why did you turn around and leave.

"I'm fucking shameful of you! Do you have any sympathy!" Zhuang Jieyu was so angry that he grabbed the pillow and threw it at He Gu, but missed.

He Gu returned to the living room, sank his body into the sofa, stared ahead, staring blankly, with no strength at all.

Until now, he still can't believe that he and Song Juhan are over.

Song Juhan didn't say it was over...

Maybe, maybe there's still a little leeway?

He Gu closed his eyes tightly and had a splitting headache.

He deliberately distanced himself from Song Juhan, just so that one day when he left, he would feel freer and less painful, but when that day really came, he just wanted to escape.

How can people be so contradictory and cheap?

Song Juhan's eyes and every word he said pierced his heart like a knife, and he no longer knew what to do.

Zhuang Jieyu, who was so dazed until the night and woke up after a nap, still wanted to spend the night at Hegu's place, saying that he was blocked by Song Juhan as soon as he didn't sleep, it was too bad, at least he had to prove the adultery, Why was he kicked out.

He doesn't have the energy to deal with anyone or anything now, he feels like he's useless.

He spent three days like this, and it was Xiaosong's phone call that brought him back to reality.

When he saw the caller ID, his hands were shaking. That call was like a trial, and he would know the result immediately.

He mustered all his courage, connected the phone, and said hoarsely, "Hello?"

"Brother He Gu." Xiao Song asked cautiously, "Are you okay?"

He never showed the slightest timidity in front of people, but said softly: "Not good."

"I knew it... Hey, how did you get along with Zhuang Jieyu? He's heartless, and he can't be serious about you."

"I have nothing with him." He Gu closed his eyes. He tried his best to isolate his senses, just to make his hearing more sensitive. He was afraid that he would miss every word Xiaosong said, as well as the tone of that word and the possible meaning behind it.

"I believe you, you and him, I really don't think we can make it together, but Brother Han is so jealous, it's like eating gunpowder these days, even his own father dares to spray it, it scares me to death " Xiao Song said with lingering fear.

He Gu said wearily: "What did he... say?"

"I didn't say anything, but about your affairs, as long as I ask, he will basically tell me. In fact, Brother Han didn't want to break up with you. Really, I know Brother Han has a lot of affection for you."

"Really." He Gu didn't feel any ups and downs in his heart.

"Really, the two of you are exhausting."

"Xiao Song, you have always comforted me and said that he cared about me. In fact, what you see is just the appearance. Do you know how many years I have been with him? It has been almost seven years, and I probably know him better than his parents. "

"Brother, sometimes you think you know a person very well, and it's easier to fall into preconceived misunderstandings, so you can't see clearly."

"……yes."

"Hey, do you remember your birthday last time? We all forgot at first, but after you called me, I suddenly remembered and told Brother Han that we had a very important reality show that afternoon, 1 minute 100, liquidated damages of [-] million, Brother Han is a very dedicated person, if you don’t want to go, you won’t go, and you said that you first promised to spend your birthday with you.”

He Yuan opened his eyes, and finally his heart fluctuated: "Really..."

"Really, Mr. Song is going to die of anger because of this. Brother Han won't let me tell you. Also, Brother Han forced me to call you when I went to Saipan last time. He has been thinking about you all the time. Well. Actually, Brother Han...Although Brother Han is a bit flirtatious, he is definitely the best for you. To be honest, don't scold me. In private, we all think you are the right wife. "

He Gu smiled wryly, feeling his face tightening: "Xiao Song, you are scolding me by saying that."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry Brother He Gu. I really don't mean anything else. I just think that I know Brother Han quite well. He is usually mature in everything, but as soon as he encounters something related to you, his IQ will plummet. You Believe me, Brother Han doesn't want to break up with you at all, he's just angry. Today is my birthday, you give me a face to have fun, and Brother Han will come too, let's explain the misunderstanding clearly, and we'll be fine, okay? "

Why is it silent.If he went, he might be humiliating himself. If he didn't go, he might regret it for the rest of his life.

"Brother, come on, please, just treat me as a face, and take pity on me. I work hard and it's not easy to find a wife. Really brother, as long as you have a harmonious relationship, Brother Han will be easy to serve you, and your work will go smoothly. It's awkward, brother Han is a powder keg that can walk, I know I'm a dog, don't be as knowledgeable as me, I beg you, please, please, come on, come on, come on."

He Gu took a deep breath: "Okay, I'll go."

Just treat it as giving yourself one last chance, treat it as seeing Song Juhan for the last time, and treat it as an end to your ten-year fruitless secret love.

He knew that he and Song Juhan had gone too far, and it was impossible to go back. He didn't expect to reconcile with Song Juhan at all. He just wanted to meet Song Juhan, simply to see him, otherwise we would see each other on TV. up.

Why did he pack up and go out.

When he arrived at the hotel entrance, he called Xiaosong and asked which box he was in, and Xiaosong said to pick him up.

After a while, Xiao Song ran out, grabbed He Gu's arm, and almost burst into tears as if looking at his savior: "Brother, thank you for coming."

"It's nothing, don't thank me."

Xiao Song was afraid that he would regret it, and grabbed him and walked in: "Brother Han hasn't arrived yet, I have to greet other people, let my girlfriend accompany you, she is so funny."

"Ah."

The two walked in side by side, but they didn't want to meet unexpected people - Peng Fang and Yuan Yang.

"Hey, is this with Xiaosong for no reason? I said it's small in Beijing, where you can meet acquaintances wherever you go." Peng Fang bumped Yuan Yang with his elbow, "Remember, we drank together last time."

Yuan Yang obviously didn't remember, he nodded and smiled at He Gu as a greeting, it seems that this young master is in a good mood today.

"Mr. Peng, what a coincidence, come to eat." Xiaosong said and passed a cigarette, "It turns out that you and Brother He Gu also know each other."

"That's right, my master has a lot of connections."

"Mr. Peng, hello." He Gu shook his hand.

"What are you doing here today?"

"Komatsu's birthday."

"Yo, it's your kid's birthday." Peng Fang squeezed Xiaosong's neck, "Happy birthday, next time you come to my winery, I will give you a free order."

"Thank you Mr. Peng." Xiao Song said with a smile, "Then you guys talk first, I have to greet other people, brother He Gu, room 203."

"Okay, you go first."

After Xiaosong left, Peng Fang asked curiously, "Why do you still know Song Juhan's assistant?"

"Oh, Song Juhan and I are schoolmates."

"No wonder, then, does Feng Zheng know that you know Song Juhan?"

"I know."

"Tsk tsk." Peng Fang showed a playful smile, and he glanced at Yuan Yang, "It's interesting."

Yuan Yang gave him a blank look: "You gossip."

He Gu vaguely smelled something: "What's wrong? Is there any problem?"

Peng Fang blinked his eyes mysteriously: "You don't know, do you? Let me tell you a little gossip. Song Juhan and Feng Zheng used to be better off."

He Gu stared straight at his eyes, and there was a buzzing sound in his mind, and suddenly went blank.