soul probation

【9】

The shoulder pole is wide and the bench is long. If you want to tie the shoulder pole to the bench, the bench says yes. ——rapper Wang Jue

Li Wei, who is happy to take his annual leave, nestles in the master bedroom. He is very indulgent to the newborn creatures at home, as long as he does not leave the prescribed range, he doesn't care about anything.These days, Wang Jue works hard on walking and tongue twisting, and the soleus and vertical tongue muscles have been significantly improved; in his spare time, he reads medical professional books on the bedside bookcase, and eats more and more.I insist on rehabilitation for four hours a day, and I just huddle in a corner after completing the exercise, sometimes panting with my mouth covered in sweat, like a live fish in boiling water; Skittles chewed with his mouth closed, puffing his cheeks like a hamster eating melon seeds.

Although the person who had died twice was no longer afraid of death, he still didn't give up the idea of ​​escaping—if the lady boss hadn't reported him, the phone call wouldn't have hung up before being dialed.

So Wang Jue embarked on a journey of escape beyond his means.

The first time was when he sneaked into the kitchen in the middle of the night and stole a kitchen knife - he didn't dare to take Li Wei's idea, he came to cut the bracelet.It turned out that the thing was really strong, and when the knife fell apart, it didn't move at all, and even accidentally injured his own tiger's mouth.Immediately after the light came on, without waiting to turn around, he stretched out a hand, held out a spoon in front of his eyes, and pinched the head and handle together with one hand, as a warning to others.After that, Wang Jue stopped for a while.

It's the second time.While Li Wei was out, he tried to run to the phone booth downstairs to make a call, but the boss pointed at his neck in horror.He was just about to say don't panic, it was the neckband, when he saw a red laser dot dancing around his neck in the mirror behind him.Just as he was trying to trick the boss into not panicking, maybe it was a laser pointer, but the gun hit him at his feet with a "swoosh".After firing three rounds, they all hit him at his feet, forming a line segment with a scale at a distance of no more than five centimeters.

He raised his hands in an instant and fled, and went back to win a chain.

After Wang Jue tried to escape many times, he seemed to be open, eating his clothes and wearing his clothes, and decided to take advantage of him.

Now he is lying on the bed with his legs crossed, flipping a book of "Fracture and Dislocation Diagrams" in his hand, wearing Li Wei's white shirt, which looks empty, but has a faint scent of soap.These days, he put on a face like an old man who lives here, and he seems to push his nose on his face.

"I want to eat chocolate." He said lazily to Li Wei.

Li Wei passing by:?

"I, want, eat..." Wang Jue pursed his lips, prolonging his tone on purpose, determined to disgust him.

Li Wei was stunned for a moment, rolled his eyes, and then said, "Your stomach is weak."

"Then I want something sweet, a snack."

"..."

Li Wei readily went to buy it.Wang Jue watched his leaving back, and said to himself: I rely on you.

Li Wei came back with the bag and threw it on the bed, watching Wang Jue come one by one from among the three thousand beauties, he was dazzled.After a long time, he finally asked nervously: "If you want to eat, you will be happy when you get it?"

"Not at all, it's not a three-year-old kid." Wang Jue never took his eyes off the snacks, "It just relieves stress."

"Isn't it because sugar stimulates dopamine?" Li Wei broke off a piece of chocolate that he couldn't get and put it in his mouth in front of Wang Jue, "I don't feel anything after eating it."

"For a person like you who relies on killing to bring satisfaction, the excitement threshold is too high. What is chocolate?" Wang Jue curled his lips.

"There is no sense of satisfaction, it's just work." Li Wei said lightly, with a soft sweet aroma in his mouth.

Seeing his sincerity in what he said, Wang Jue felt cold behind his back, "Are you a robot? Then you didn't feel a sense of accomplishment when you invented those new medicines?"

Li Wei: "No, it's just work."

"Then you...are you loving your work...?"

"No, it's just that if you don't work, you will die." Li Wei briefly stated the killer's rules, "If you don't complete the assassination mission, you will become someone else's assassination mission. If you don't invent a new medicine, you will become an experimental product of an old medicine."

"...Your company is 'well-governed', interlocking and leak-proof." Wang Jue looked surprised, "Is there anything else you want to do besides work?"

Li Wei's side face was sunk in the shadow of his hair, and the line of his jaw was smooth and sharp.

"I just wanted to be alive before," he mused hard, "and...seeing things other than circles?"

"It's not counting, it's not wanting, I want to take the initiative, I want you to take the initiative." The above statement was rejected by Wang Jue.

"Then all I have to do is talk to you."

Wang Jue was taken aback.The weight of these two things obviously shouldn't be put together, which made him shake his head uncomfortably.But he understood that it was just a literal objective fact. After all, the person lying there listening to him could be anyone, regardless of subjective will.Although Li Wei still had no expression on his face, it was really creepy to say such ambiguous words with a deadpan face. He suddenly began to miss that slick doctor who talked and laughed happily with the nurse.

But it is even more frightening to think that the slippery doctor actually has such a paralyzed face under his skin when he is talking and laughing happily.

Wang Jue had no choice but to smack the popping candy in his mouth, and said with a crackling voice, "Then congratulations, you finally have some humanity. If you have anything else you want to tell me, I'm here anytime."

"I, I don't know..." The ending was infinitely prolonged, and Li Wei was at a loss for words.

"I don't know..." he repeated, his eyes were still expressionless, and he pursed his lips——

But Wang Juezuo has caught the pattern.

It seems that when a certain keyword appears, Li Wei will react.

"I, want, eat." - Li Wei went to buy it, "I want to live", "I want to talk to you", "I have nothing to do"... combined with his concerns...

"You don't know what 'want' is, do you?"

Wang Jue hit the nail on the head.

Li Wei looked at him and acquiesced.

"Is that why you didn't kill me?"

Wang Jue hit the nail on the head.

Li Wei looked at him and continued to acquiesce.

Wang Jue said in his heart, then if you know what 'thinking' is, will you let me go?

But after thinking about it, he once said outrageously "I want to report you" outrageously, swallowed his saliva, and swallowed what he wanted to say.

He tilted his head and asked quietly: "Then you don't think about this or that, why do you live?"

Li Wei: "..."

He seemed to be lost in thought.

The two looked at each other without blinking, entering a century of silence.The sweet and greasy chocolate fragrance lingers around the tip of the nose, which seems to be incompatible with the current abstract philosophical atmosphere.

"I think, I personally think." Wang Jue sat up straight without waiting for him to speak, and said slowly, "Most of the hard work in life is for the realization of feelings. Everything that can bring fulfillment and joy is composed of thousands of things. It is made up of thousands of 'thoughts'. A little girl may give up dinner because of maintaining her figure, and a suicidal person may also give up suicide because the saury for dinner is too delicious. People pursue sensual pleasure, and this is nothing." He paused After a pause, he raised his eyebrows, "But if you're stuck in paranoia and madness, once you can't quit your addiction, you'll be lost forever."

"Because pleasure comes at a price. Girls may only suffer from hunger," Wang Jue smiled. "People who commit suicide may continue to suffer from the end of the day."

"So if you don't know what 'thinking' is, it's not necessarily a bad thing. It's nothing more than a personality disorder, so you don't have to worry about it. If you really want to experience the sufferings of the world, it's not impossible—you say you work to live, then Just recall, what feeling of being alive makes you feel relaxed...or...pleasant?"

"...Do you want me to introduce you to a reliable psychiatrist... Hey, don't look at me, I'm afraid. You can solve it yourself, anyway, you still have to explore your heart by yourself. You first put your Get those fake skins off, pull yourself out and have a good look in the mirror."

"what do you want?"

Wang Jue spoke vaguely. He wanted to stop, but he had no obligation or need to say more.As a result, when he lay back, the hot water bottle he kicked fell apart.The so-called hot water bottle turned out to be a large square towel wrapped around two small plastic bottles like origami, and the bottles shrank to half their size when exposed to boiling water.It turned out to be specially made for myself... But thinking about it, Li Wei doesn't seem like a person who knows how to use a hot water bottle.

……

Depend on.

What a shock, is it really Stockholm?

Wang Jue came back to his senses, shook his head slightly, and gave him a ruthless look.

Li Wei:?

He didn't understand the series of changes in expression, and asked slightly puzzled, "And then?" Looking at the hot water bottle, he said naturally, "Is it hot?"

"..."

Wang Jue sighed.

"No."

He knew it.

"Since you told me, I will take a little responsibility to you."

He clearly knew that the concern was just the actor's inertia.

"Otherwise..." Wang Jue looked up at him suddenly, "Shall I start by teaching you how to sneeze?"