Transformation of Rebirth

Han Yi didn't sleep that night. He was lying on the bed in his pajamas. There was no sound in the dark and quiet room. He just lay flat on the bed like a dead body with his eyes wide open and kept looking at the ceiling.

In the middle of the night, feeling stuffy and hot, I opened the window, kicked the quilt and threw it on the ground, and just lay on the bed.

People's thinking has a coherent thinking habit. Every time Han Yi thinks about a problem, he likes to think from the original reason and motivation, just like if he thinks about a chemistry problem, he will start from the first principle and Think about the characteristics of the elements, and then follow the thinking step by step.

Of course, the time to think about an experiment is very short for him, usually only a moment or a dozen seconds, but if he thinks about the question "Why do I like my brother", it is a question of tracing the source. Going back to the original thinking, one night may not be able to get along with the profound problems of the clue.

Why does he like Zheng Haiyang?

Han Yi starts with a hypothetical premise, which is - there must be a reason for assuming that he likes someone.

Han Yi recalled a lot of things, starting from his childhood that he could still remember, that period of memory will be relatively vague, and now there are no memory fragments in his mind at all, he only vaguely remembers that he was very close to Zheng Haiyang when he was young, The adults have no time to take care of him because his brother is taking shit and urinating.

Later, when he grew up, his brother returned to China, and the memory fragments after that are very comprehensive. Basically, as long as he thinks hard, those fragments will be in his mind.

He remembered the time when his brother had just returned from abroad, and the business at home happened to be in trouble, and he himself was taking the junior class, but Zheng Haiyang was trying to help the family with ideas.

Han Yi didn't know exactly how Zheng Haiyang helped his family get through the difficulties at that time, but in fact, from then on, Han Yi had vaguely regarded Zheng Haiyang as a benchmark for struggle.

My elder brother is smart, capable, can give ideas, can make money, and my elder brother is powerful.

Han Yi may not have such a consciousness in the past, but in retrospect, in fact, at that time, he had already started to worship his brother and Zheng Haiyang.

Then there was what happened after he entered the juvenile class. At that time, Zheng Haiyang was helping out in the company at home. They were not common. Zheng Haiyang was in Beijing, and he was in the provincial capital. In fact, he is completely independent, he is no longer attached to Zheng Haiyang, and he no longer needs someone to teach him things.

Especially in the past few years, he went to graduate school and went straight to study for a doctorate. What he studied and studied was completely unknown to Zheng Haiyang. They grew up together, but they grew up separately, and now they have become two completely different people.

Yes, they have grown into two completely different people, but why does he like Zheng Haiyang now?Will you like this brother who grew up together?

Thinking back rationally and calmly, he has no reason to like a brother at all, aren't they brothers?They should be like brothers, just like his father Han Zhijun and Zheng Haiyang's father Zheng Pingyang.It should be like that!

Han Yi couldn't think of a result from this way of thinking, so he changed another one. He assumed that liking someone doesn't need a reason, and it's not appropriate to put love at first sight on them, but love over time fits their situation very well.

Growing up together, accompanying, and growing together, two completely independent personalities, with their own careers and studies, but able to support each other, they have different personalities and behave completely differently in the world, but in the process of getting along, he still fell in love with Zheng Haiyang .

So the problem came back again, they are completely different in every aspect, and they have different ideas and concepts when looking at the same problem, so there is always a reason for him to look at a person for a long time, right?

Even if it was purely based on feeling, where did the feeling match up? Where did he fall in love with Zheng Haiyang?

Han Yi lay on the bed, the more he thought about it, the more dizzy he became, and finally he sat up angrily, and poured two mouthfuls of cold water on his head, but his back was covered with hot and humid sweat.

He felt that there was no reason, it shouldn't be like this, but his heart was spinning like clockwork, and he could think of Zheng Haiyang's hundreds of thousands of messages all the time, the people he missed, the people he met, People I like...and people I love...

Han Yi sat up from the bed, went to the balcony and looked at the next building. The small villa was completely dark, and Zheng Haiyang had already fallen asleep. Han Yi just stood under the cold night sky in early spring, thinking on the balcony .

He never smoked. All the men in the family smoked because of business. He used to think that there was nothing good about smoking. Isn't it just nicotine?Now I desperately want something to soothe the anxiety in my heart.

He felt that he was not standing on flat ground, but like standing on a piece of duckweed hanging in mid-air, with no leaning, no handrails, nothing, and he was standing on it alone.He clearly realizes that his liking is not a feeling that can be seen in the light, it is not a liking that can stand upright in the sun.

If he liked Gao Qiqi, no one would embarrass him if he said it; but if he liked Zheng Haiyang, how would he speak?What should I say?How do you get the people around you to agree?How to make his brother accept it?

Although he is only 16 years old, Han Yi understands that this kind of love and liking is a bottomless black hole, with no light and no support, and he will never be able to fill the desire in his heart.

Han Yi wore his pajamas and blew in the cold wind for a while. The hot sweat on his body evaporated and turned into a layer of cool water vapor that adhered to his back. The pajamas were completely soaked, and he shivered from the cold.But the mind is getting clearer and clearer.

Quiet night, in the dark, is the best time to think. His mind is clearer than in the daytime. During the daytime, he was dizzy, and the fat man told him all kinds of drumming in his heart, but now he understands his inner thoughts so clearly.

It is so, so it is, he thought, but what to do?what can he do

He felt that he was stepping on the edge of a black hole of nothingness. He was reluctant to come out and enjoy such feelings, but he didn't know what to do.

Han Yi spent half the night without sleep, walked from the room to the window sill, walked back to the room from the window sill, went downstairs to drink water, and then went to the study to read. After a long night of tossing, he lived up to expectations... Really sick the next day.

Early in the morning, Han Shi came to knock on the door and asked him to go downstairs for dinner, but when he opened the door and came in, he found Han Yi lying on the bed like a dead dog, covered tightly by the quilt, and he couldn't see a single person on his forehead.

Thinking that his brother was sleeping, Han Shi walked in on tiptoe, pulled the quilt, and whispered, "Brother, wake up, go downstairs for breakfast."

The dead dog in the bed didn't move, there was no movement at all.

Han Shi pushed again, but there was still no movement, so he stretched out his hand and pulled the quilt off his head, "Brother got up!! The sun is drying his butt!"

My ass has nothing to do with me, Han Yi thought dizzily, turned his head, turned his head to face Han Shi, and continued to sleep.

Han Shi didn't dare to call his brother anymore, knowing that his brother was a little angry, so he ran down and said to Zheng Haiyang who had already prepared breakfast at the dining table: "Brother Yangyang, brother don't get up."

Zheng Haiyang looked at his watch, opened the chair and asked Han Shi to sit down, and said, "You eat first, I'll go up and call him, don't dawdle, you know? I'm going to be late for school later."

"Okay." Han Shi ate obediently, and Zheng Haiyang went upstairs to call Han Yi.

In the end, he ran upstairs, and just touched Han Yi, he felt like a dead pig scalded by boiling water, even the skin was hot.

Zheng Haiyang hurriedly turned Han Yi out of the bed, his body was as soft as a dough cake, he slumped on the bed, touched his forehead, the temperature startled him.

Zheng Haiyang patted Han Yi's face, Han Yi fell asleep dizzily, top-heavy, opened his eyes in a daze, saw him, and smiled, but the smile was too complicated, because he saw someone he liked, So it was a happy smile at first; but because of a fever and illness, the smile didn't open the corners of the mouth, and it turned into a weak smile; but when I thought that I liked someone, I could only like it secretly, so the smile soon turned into a smile. gave a bitter smile...

Zheng Haiyang was dazzled by Han Yi's smile early in the morning, and he didn't react at first. After a while, he said, "Laugh! Why did you catch a cold? I'll take you to the hospital when you wake up. Your forehead is too hot." gone."

Even though Han Yi's brain was burnt out, his IQ was still higher than that of ordinary people. At this moment, he was clutching the sheets and pillows tightly, paralyzed on the bed, and said very forcefully, "If you don't go to the hospital, just take some medicine."

Zheng Haiyang frowned: "You can't do this, you have a fever and your brain will burn out, so go to the hospital with me. Be good, be good."

Han Yi just refused to go to the hospital. Of course he didn't go to the hospital because he was afraid of needles. He was not the heroine of Xiaoyan. What is there to be afraid of needles? He was just thinking with his remaining rationality. If it is better, it will be better and slower, so his brother will definitely stay and take care of him.

He likes the man next to the bed.

Zheng Haiyang couldn't move Han Yi, so after some thought, he went to the medicine box to get a thermometer and measured his body temperature. Fortunately, it was just a little hot, and he didn't have a high fever.He brought white porridge from downstairs and fed Han Yi a little, then gave Han Yi some medicine, and covered him tightly with a quilt.

But he couldn't just take care of Han Yi, Han Shi still had to go to school, so he had to send him to school first, so he gave Han Yi some medicine to comfort him and covered him in the quilt, then said: "I'll take Xiao Shi to school, you sleep for a while , It should be fine if you cover your sweat, I'll be right back."

Lying on the bed, Han Yi slightly opened a slit of his eyes. Because of the illness, he looked listless, his face was a little pale, and his lips were bloodless. It was like this when Han Yi saw Zheng Haiyang's heart tightening. This child has been so strong for so many years. And arrogant, she hasn't shown such a soft expression for many years, the last time I remember seeing such an expression was when Han was a child.

Zheng Haiyang seemed to have seen the little bun when he was a child, bent down, stroked Han Yi's head, and said softly, "I'll be back later."

As soon as Han opened his mouth, he yelled "Brother", his voice seemed to be full of sugar and honey, almost dripping water, more like a melody pressed in his throat, with a thousand times of devotion.

Zheng Haiyang's heart skipped a beat when he was called "Brother", and couldn't help but patted his head again, saying, "What's wrong?"

The corner of Han Yi's lips moved slightly invisibly, his eyes were watery, he looked at the person close to him, and slowly opened his lips and said, "Come back early."

"Well, I know."

Zheng Haiyang left the room, went downstairs to send Han Shi to school, drove back soon, went upstairs and opened the door, and found that Han Yi had already fallen asleep. He closed the door after taking a look, and called Lao Yang to ask for leave.

Lao Yang said on the phone: "It's okay, it's okay, you take care of your brother."

At noon, Zheng Haiyang cooked some porridge. Fearing that Han Yi would lose his appetite after drinking the white porridge, he made some lean meat and diced vegetables and radishes and cooked it together. After cooking, he brought it upstairs. Han Yi had already woken up.

At that time, Han Yi stared at the ceiling with wide eyes, as if he was about to stare at the ceiling. When he heard the sound of the door opening, he raised his neck and took a look. His eyes lit up, just like a 10W light bulb instantly turned on to 1000W. like.

Zheng Haiyang went upstairs with the porridge, and when he looked up and saw the bright eyes, he felt like the delicious mutton ordered by the wolf. Did the child faint from hunger?

Zheng Haiyang brought the porridge to Han Yi, who was still lying on the bed.A man taking care of a man is different from a man taking care of a boy. In the past, Zheng Haiyang took care of Han Yi. He could bathe the child three times a day in the hottest summer and sprinkle prickly heat powder after washing it. But now Han Yi is not a child when he grows up. Zheng Haiyang didn't think of him as a child in his mind.

but--

Han Yi lay flat there, with a natural "softness" and "delicacy" of "people are very weak", a layer of water vapor suddenly appeared in the originally bright eyes, With a sickly appearance, he lay still and did not reach out his claws from the quilt to pick up the bowls and chopsticks. He just lay flat like this, raised his eyes and looked at Zheng Haiyang pitifully: "Brother, I feel weak."

Zheng Haiyang originally wanted him to sit up and eat by himself, boy, he is so weak when he is sick, he must have the strength to get up to eat after a nap, but Han Yi came up with such a trick, he just didn't He caught the trick, sat down beside the bed, put two pillows under Han Yi's neck, scooped up the wrinkles with a spoon, and brought them to Han Yi's mouth.

The edge of the spoon stained with porridge touched Han Yi's dry lips due to long sleep. Instead of opening his mouth, he turned his head sideways, frowning slightly, and said, "It's hot."

hot?

Zheng Haiyang took the spoon to his mouth and blew, and after blowing it to his mouth, Han Yi opened his mouth and swallowed it in one gulp. After swallowing it, he chewed and swallowed slowly, with a careless tone, slowly, showing She was very delicate and pitiful, and said, "It's tasteless."

It has been many years since Han Yi has shown such a soft demeanor. In addition, recently, he has been poking around like a bee with needles on his buttocks. Comparing the attitudes of the two sides, Han Yi at this moment It's all kinds of people.

Zheng Haiyang is soft and hard towards others, but he is different towards Han Yi. He brought up this child, and if he is soft, he loves him and loves him.

Zheng Haiyang held the bowl in one hand and the spoon in the other, and while scooping porridge with the spoon, he blew into the bowl, thinking sadly that his brother was still cute when he was sick and weak.

Zheng Haiyang feeds porridge to Han Yi. The two brothers haven’t gotten along like this for many years. Zheng Haiyang still remembers that when Han Yi was very young, he fed the child before he went abroad. It's big.

Zheng Haiyang silently fed porridge to Han Yi, and Han Yi ate obediently, his long eyelashes fell down, casting shadows under his eyes, covering his expression.

Woke up after sleeping, Han Yi suddenly figured it out, although last night he tossed him so much that he wanted to hit the wall, but it was worth the suffering. He figured it out, why he has to worry about whether the person he likes is Zheng Haiyang or him brother this thing?What's wrong? !

He is 16 this year, and he has known Zheng Haiyang for 16 years. Except for the four years when he went abroad, they have been together for more than ten years!They were actually together all the time, even though they were brothers, so what?As long as we stay together from now on, won't it be all right?

Besides, he likes Zheng Haiyang, why should he unilaterally feel that he is in love with someone he cannot like?Maybe his brother likes him too?

He can suddenly find that he likes Zheng Haiyang after being together for 16 years, why doesn't Zheng Haiyang like him suddenly, even if he doesn't like him now, what about in the future?He didn't think much of his brother before, and he fell in love with him suddenly recently. Maybe one day Zheng Haiyang will suddenly fall in love with him too?

Also, although liking a man is different from liking a woman, it is impossible for him to yell and let the whole world know that he likes a man, but haven't he and his brother's family been together for more than ten years?

They do business together and live together, and the two families support each other. Zheng Haiyang's parents are just like his parents, and his parents also regard Zheng Haiyang as their own son.In this case, wouldn't the two families be even more intimate if they were together in the future? !

As a super university bully, a 16-year-old Ph.D., Han Yi's thinking...is really...unique, and logically...has no bankruptcy, it can be called impeccable.

Han Yi was struggling with what to do in the future last night, but now he doesn't worry about it anymore. It's worth it for him to be sick. He figured it out. He doesn't need to worry about it at all.

Who else in this world can make his brother leave work when he is sick, and stay at home to cook porridge for him, serve him tea and water to take care of him, and even feed him the porridge bite by bite! ?

Who else? ? !

Han Yi lay down obediently, his eyelashes drooping, concealing the light that suddenly gathered in the pupils of his eyes, he thought - only me, only me, Han Yi, can do it! !

As soon as this kind of arrogant and arrogant thought appeared, Han Yi suddenly felt relieved, and he was no longer hanging in the air like last night.He figured it out, it's no big deal, he can start junior class at the age of eight, graduate with a Ph. Just like his brother.

After thinking about it, Han Yi felt relaxed, but the little sapling that he had a crush on in his heart began to sprout as if being nourished by the rain and dew, and began to be dishonest. growing up.

Han Yi saw through his heart, after one night, getting along with Zheng Haiyang is no longer the feeling of the past, after the recent transition period, now he sees that Zheng Haiyang is not just an older brother, a partner, and a brother, he likes it A person is a person who has a crush on, a person who wants to catch up with someone, and a person who wants to hug, bite and kiss.

Han Yi was fed half a bowl of porridge, and kept his eyes down "weakly" without saying a word, but his eyes were fixed on the slender, white and clean hand holding the bone china spoon that was feeding him the porridge all the time, his heart was itching to death I can't wait to kick my legs under the quilt, I really want to grab it and take a bite! !

But Han Yi felt that he had to bear it. He thought that he was only sixteen and his brother was only nineteen? !The days to come are still long, don’t be in a hurry, don’t be in a hurry, it’s like doing a long chemical experiment, chemical elements are always slowly fused and reacted in a beaker, and finally there will be an unexpected result after the reaction.

He lay lazily, his mind spinning rapidly, Zheng Haiyang had already finished feeding a bowl of porridge, and asked, "Are you full?"

Han Yi was "awakened", his eyelashes moved and raised, a pair of eyes that were harmless to humans and animals, peaceful and pitiful.If he was usually sick, he would not be bothered to drink porridge, his mouth faded like a bird, but today he shook his head very obediently, and opened his mouth and said: "I'm not full, I'm hungry!"

With the bowl in his hand, Zheng Haiyang trembled three times at the sound of pinching water, while smoothing his hair in his heart, while trembling, he thought that it was not his intention to cultivate something like his younger brother, but The younger brother's softness is to attract people to love and to be hurt by others! ~Zheng Haiyang couldn't help but reached out and rubbed Han Yiyi's head, got up and said, "Wait, I'll serve you another bowl."

Han Yi climbed along the pole: "Brother, I still want to eat eggs."

Zheng Haiyang said as he walked out, "Okay, I'll cook another egg for you."

Han Yi felt completely refreshed because his hair was patted down. Zheng Haiyang hadn't experienced the feeling of being needed by his younger brother for a long time, and his heart was overwhelmed. One of the two brothers was lying upstairs, and the other was frying downstairs. egg.

Lying on the bed alone, he broke his fingers and thought, how many years will it take him to catch up with his brother?

One held a shovel in his hand and cracked an egg into the frying pan, thinking, if my brother has always been so soft and obedient, he might be jealous if he falls in love with other girls...

Oh, by the way, Zheng Haiyang was standing by the pot and suddenly remembered the phone call from the fat man yesterday. Talking, Han Yi has recently begun to fall in love, who is he in love with?

Ah, it's not that he brags about himself. To be liked by Han Yi, that person must be very good!

Zheng Haiyang fried the eggs and went upstairs on a plate, and continued to feed his younger brother who was so cute because of his illness, while feeding him, he said, "By the way, Fatty called me yesterday, and I want to ask you something. "

The egg in Han Yi's mouth almost fell on the bed: "Huh? Fatty?"

Zheng Haiyang nodded, and said: "Don't blame my brother for being too lenient. The main reason is that you are young and have a puppy love, and your family doesn't know about it. My brother will always ask."

Han Yi: "..." Puppy love...

Fatty, you are a pig-like teammate and a god-like existence! ! ! !Who told you to talk nonsense! ! ! ?