him and his duo

The sky in autumn always dawns late. Xu Ke woke up several times in the middle of the night, closed his eyes and called Gu Shen's name. After getting a response, he slipped into his arms and fell asleep again.

After waking up from a full sleep, it was already afternoon. Xu Ke fumbled under the quilt with his head in a daze, found the phone and opened it. He opened his eyes a crack and glanced at the screen of the phone—"2019 September 9, 8:14."

"Gu Shen?"

He called Gu Shen's name, but he couldn't tell which two words he said.His voice was unbelievably hoarse, a name was shattered by him, and even the tone of voice was muttered in his mouth.

go to work?

Xu Ke closed his eyes and lay on the corpse for a while. After being dead for about 10 minutes, he sat up with his body propped up and leaned against the head of the bed to relax.

really……

A little too edgy.

Teacher Xu made a deep reflection and summary on his performance last night.

At the age of 17, he could never have imagined that one day he would play a hooligan to Gu Shen, and play it so righteously and unreasonably...

Thinking of every word I said and every action I made last night, Mr. Xu, who is invulnerable to oil, salt, and invulnerable to guns and guns, blushed a little bit at the thought.

In fact, both Gao Mai and Xu Qiang mentioned to him more or less before, saying that Gu Shen has changed a lot.He could understand the meaning behind the words, it was tactfully persuading him to let go.

Xu Qiang University is also in Beijing, but it is more than ten miles away from him, and he has to pass several stops by bus.Except for the few times when Xu Qiang came to him specially, they hardly met each other in Beijing.

Sometimes I feel that the bond between people is really amazing, Xu Ke also thought about it, especially in the first few years after we separated, wondering if he would suddenly run into Gu Shen at a certain time and place .

But later, this kind of thought gradually faded away with the passage of time, and the chances of encountering each other in the same city are not high, let alone at the two ends of the world.

In the past, they always felt that there were too many fetters with each other, and their bodies were tightly entangled with threads, which made people breathless.But when they tore off those lines, they suddenly realized that it was so easy for two people to break the connection.

The sea of ​​people is so vast that it is impossible to even talk about a greeting during the New Year and holidays.

Fate is amazing.

Xu Ke lifted the quilt and wanted to get out of bed and take a shower.As soon as he moved his body, his whole body was sore and uncomfortable. He was silent for a moment, and resigned to his fate, he pulled up the quilt again, and leaned against the edge of the bed to take a rest.

Gu Shen picked up all the peeled off clothes last night and put them on the bedside table, neatly folded.The white T-shirt and slacks that Xu Ke is wearing now should be Gu Shen's change of clothes left here, and there is a layer of mint smell on them.

Xu Ke unlocked the phone again, and was about to send a message to Gu Shen, but suddenly realized that he didn't even have Gu Shen's contact information.

When we broke up, I lost my QQ number and my mobile phone number neatly. Now when I log in to my old version of QQ, I even forgot the password. It is hard to remember.

Xu Ke was burying his head in fiddling with the "forgot password" operation in the lower right corner of QQ, when suddenly there was a sound of dragging footsteps outside the room, and two seconds later, the door was gently opened from the outside.

Seeing Xu Ke woke up, Gu Shen was stunned for a moment, and then a laughing voice came from the door, and the joy in his tone could be heard from several meters away, "Are you awake? Are you hungry?"

Xu Ke raised his head from his mobile phone and glanced at him. Seeing that student Gu was alive and kicking, he suddenly felt unbalanced.

Teacher Xu's eyes fell lightly, and he didn't even make a sound in a cold voice.

With a glass of water in his hand, Gu Shen raised his head and drank a couple of sips, then handed it to Xu Ke's mouth, shaking the glass, "Do you want some water?"

Xu Ke still ignored it, and concentrated on looking at the phone, tapping his fingers on it from time to time.

Gu Shen's tone was rather helpless, but full of connivance, "Mr. Xu, what did I do to make you angry again? Your temper that turns on you right after getting out of bed is really bad."

"Then don't go to my bed in the future, go find someone else." Although Xu Ke's voice was still hoarse, he managed to speak clearly without swallowing.

"Yo, I'm really upset," Gu Shen raised the cup to Xu Ke's lips, coaxing him: "Drink your saliva to moisten your throat first, and then settle the matter after drinking the water."

Xu Ke squinted at him, took a couple of sips of water as he held the cup, and finally recovered his voice when he spoke, "When did you wake up?"

"I didn't wake up much earlier than you, just about 20 minutes." After feeding a glass of water, Gu Shen put the empty glass on the bedside table and asked, "Do you want to drink more?"

Xu Ke shook his head, looked at the time, and asked, "Are you out of work today?"

Gu Shen fell down on the bed, "I won't go to work if I have a job, and I have to wait until the day is over to talk about the big things."

He put his hand under the quilt and put it on Xu Ke's lap, and pushed him, "Don't get up too, it's raining outside, lie down for a while."

Gu Shen took off the coat on his body, got into the quilt in twos and sat on the edge of the bed with Xu Ke, the two of them seemed to have just woken up from a nap, enjoying the rare comfort under the quilt after the rain.

This scene was something they had all wanted to look forward to for many years.

"Do you still remember the day we broke up?" Xu Ke looked at the window covered by curtains and said softly, "It was also a rainy day."

Gu Shen's heart skipped a beat, it was time to settle the score.

"Remember." After a while, he replied.

"The rain was really heavy that day. I went to Capital One to get some clothes, and then took the car back to Spring City." Xu Ke's tone was calm, as if he was telling someone else's story.

He dug up that old scar with his own hands, in order not to make the culprit feel bad.I just feel that if I want the old sore to heal completely, I can only squeeze out the pus first, and it doesn't matter what the medicine is.

"The old man passed away. Five years ago, the doctor said that he had cancer. It was actually a miracle that he could survive for so long. It was also on the day of his funeral that I found out that he had a son and a daughter. The children gave him a medical treatment." A moderate funeral, followed by an embarrassing disturbance over the little family property he left behind."

It is best to have a cigarette at this time, but when he thought that he had made an appointment with someone to quit smoking together, Xu Ke paused, licked the corners of his dry lips, and continued: "I started college I was studying economics and management, and after a year of studying, I found it really meaningless, so I switched to studying medicine."

"I have applied for several associations, and now I can cook and draw some pictures. The only thing that hasn't improved is probably the interpersonal relationship." Xu Ke laughed at himself, "Everyone in college is very busy, I didn't hand in What kind of friends, so far the only ones who still have contact are the two or three people in the dormitory."

"Over the years, I have met a lot of people, and I have received a lot of confession messages, men and women, tall and short, fat and thin," Xu Ke looked down at his phone, the screen was already black, he I can only see my own face through the glass, "but it's strange, maybe the timing is wrong, or maybe there is something wrong with me."

"This sounds a bit hypocritical, but... Gu Shen," Xu Ke briefly pursed his lips, "Really, I have never been interested in anyone else except you."

"I'm currently working in the cardiology department of a second-level hospital in Beijing. I'm a small doctor. I have no position and no salary increase. I have a small house in the third ring road of Beijing. I rent it and live in it well."

After explaining, Xu Ke's eyelashes flickered slightly, and the shoulder and neck line slowly lowered, finally not so stiff.He breathed a sigh of relief and said, "You said back then that you didn't have the time or energy to talk about relationships. Do you have it now?"

Gu Shen sat next to him and remained silent the whole time.

He thought that Xu Ke was going to settle accounts with him, but he didn't expect Xu Ke to open up the scar and sew it up without even letting him take a look.

He actually wanted to say something, saying that I called you on the day we broke up but you didn't answer; he said that I wrote you many letters over the years but didn't dare to send them...

But I always feel that blurting out these words is just sophistry, and it is a deliberate show.

After all, no matter how much affection is hidden in the dark, it can only move yourself.

It's as if Xu Ke didn't tell Gu Shen that on the day of the breakup, he was hit by a car on the pouring rainy street, and he was lying in the hospital for a month, and his phone was also smashed, leaving nothing left...

In the world of adults, even a single explanation has to be pondered over and over again before being swallowed back into the stomach, becoming a memory that will never see the light together with the past.

Gu Shen's heart felt uncomfortable, he wanted to open his mouth but he didn't know what to say.

Xu Qiang has often scolded him over the years, saying that he was trying to die, and scolding him for not knowing how to cherish.

The scolding is in place.

In fact, in the eyes of others, Gu Shen has always been the one who gave more.

They were all wrong, but Xu Ke was the one.

No matter how he tried to die, Xu Ke turned his head in the end, came to him, and wanted to take him home with him.

Gu Shen's Adam's apple rolled a few times, and finally said: "Didn't you agree to quit smoking together last night? Quitting smoking should be a lifetime thing."

When they were young, they always liked to carry the word "forever" in their promises, but later they realized that the concept of forever is too broad, so big that it has no boundaries, and they always feel empty.

Gu Shen didn't say "forever", he said "a lifetime."

There are only so many decades in a person's life, they have wasted 27 years, and there may be more than 70 to [-] years left, which is enough to kill all love and hatred.

Xu Ke talked so much about the past, and there was reciprocity between courtesy and courtesy, Gu Shen felt that he should also express something.

The first sentence is to show loyalty, "I haven't touched anyone in these years, they are clean."

Xu Ke glanced at him and nodded: "Well, I can tell from your performance last night that this is indeed the first time."

Gu Shen: "...Are you saying that my skills are not good enough?"

Xu Ke pursed his lips and suppressed a smile, "It's really a bit rotten to say something."

Gu Shen lifted the quilt, rushed towards Xu Ke, and said righteously: "Then, Mr. Xu has worked hard to practice more with me. After all, Mr. Xu has also experienced it personally, and knows that my learning ability has always been very strong in this respect."

Xu Ke: "... Get lost!"

Gu Shen obediently rolled away, even taking Xu Ke with him for two hours.

Because of the "accompanying training" that afternoon, Mr. Xu couldn't get out of bed for two days, so he had to ask the hospital for a few more days off.

A few days later, he met Xia Zian.

He gave Xia Zian a card, telling him to stop working as a bartender and go back to school.

Xia Zi'an confiscated it. This child does have a stubbornness. When he spoke, his tone was still cold and indifferent, "I don't want money, just you and Brother Gu can get along well. He really... loves you very much."

Xu Ke understood the reason for the pause in the middle of this sentence.He took the card back, leaving only a business card, "I work in this hospital. If possible, bringing your parents here for treatment will be of great help to their condition."

After doing everything that could be done, Xu Ke stepped out of the coffee shop and sent a message to Gu Shen, "I'm done, come and pick me up."

Gu Shen's QQ account has not changed for so many years, not even his nickname, it is still "xkdsyw."

Looking at these letters, Xu Ke suddenly remembered that they cleaned up the room this morning and found Gu Shen's English notebook from back then.

The one-dollar soft noodle was oxidized badly, but the crooked English on it was arrogant but beautiful.

English has three tenses—"ed," "ing," and "willdo."

past, present and future.

From now on, for them, there are only two tenses, present and future.

- "I'm loving you." and "I will keep loving you."

Forever.

The author has something to say: This article... should be over soon~ [Rub hands/][Rub hands/]