him and his duo

It rained heavily that day, and the ground was so painful when it hit the ground.

The nearby traffic was all jammed together, and the impatient horns rang from far to near.Pedestrians on the road were in a hurry, as if they didn't want to stay outside for a second.Even the birds that just got up and wanted to go out to look for food were trapped in their nests by the heavy rain, enjoying the rare comfort.

Everything in the world is in a hurry to go home.

Gu Shen stayed in Shengge for a long time without saying a word, pouring wine cup by cup into his mouth.

He suddenly remembered that the night after Wu Lian left, Xu Ke told him in a deep voice that he had no home.Until now, he hadn't had a similar feeling.

This is a kind of floating weightlessness, the whole person seems to have stepped on the cliff, and there is boundless darkness behind him.I can't find a place to return to, no place to settle down, it seems that the surroundings are empty, except for the darkness in front of my eyes, there is no light infiltrating.

Feng Yin was sitting behind the bar, playing Monopoly with his mobile phone.

Xi Luo couldn't see it, so he stretched out his hand and grabbed him, "Go and take care of your brother, didn't you just vomit yesterday, and drink so much wine today, how can your stomach bear it?"

Feng Yin raised his eyes from the phone, looked at Gu Shen for a while, and then fell back, "What should I do? You can't even give him a chance to drink away your worries, can you?"

Feng Yin and Xi Wei just came back from the outside, and within a day they knew that their cheap brother had a date.Who knew that after finally seeing what his sister-in-law looked like, he witnessed the scene of the breakup with his own eyes, and a psychological gap disturbed Feng Yin even when he was playing Monopoly.

Xi Wei is a typical good old man, he couldn't help feeling a little worried when he saw Gu Shen like this, "Didn't you say your brother was a very arrogant person before? I thought he was sure that no matter what happened, he would never let go of anyone."

Feng Yin smiled, "Arrogance can only be prestige in school. The school hasn't opened yet. When something big happens, I keep thinking that the other party is a brother. It's different when I go out of society. gone."

With a large social circle and a lot of things to see, there is no such thing as an arrogant school bully.But they are all mediocre, ordinary people who live from nine to five for a living.

So some things are destined to only belong to that carefree age. Once that specific atmosphere is released, the silly and bubbling youth will pass by like this.

Feng Yin picked up his glass and took a sip of wine, looking at Gu Shen's back sitting alone by the window sill, he felt a little emotional, "My younger brother seems to have grown up a lot."

It is said that people should not drink alcohol, and it is easy to go crazy when drinking alcohol.

When Gu Shen was with the party before, he fell asleep when he was drunk, and he couldn't even dream.But tonight, it was estimated that the green plum wine had a bit of stamina, and after drinking countless glasses, he began to cry loudly.

At first, there were only silent tears, and then there was a little sobbing from behind, and then it became more and more unbearable, and finally began to wail.

Where did Feng Yin see Gu Shen like this, so he quickly took a pack of paper and handed it over, "Are you all right? If there is anything unpleasant, tell brother, brother can help you make up your mind."

"Brother Feng," Gu Shen calmed down slowly, covering his eyes with his hand, the sobs became quieter, but his voice still sounded sad, "I'm a bad person sometimes, and when I'm tired, I think , Why, why should I continue this mess? How much do I owe Gu Chuxuan, and I want to work for him for the rest of my life?"

"They all say you don't give up your studies, don't torment yourself. But if I don't want to be in debt, hide, or have a lifetime of uneasy conscience, then I have to get the fuck out of this mess."

"Brother Feng, I really like him, but I can't help it," Gu Shen's tears dripped from his fingers, his whole body trembling uncontrollably, "I know how it feels to be trapped in one place." , can’t let him be trapped here with me for the rest of his life?”

"I want to keep him, but I have to get rid of him. What should I do? I can't help it. Here," he poked his chest, where the heart is, "it seems that there is a leak, it really hurts."

Feng Yin was a little out of breath after some heart-wrenching words. He and Gu Shen have known each other for a long time, and it can be regarded as watching the little boy grow into his current appearance step by step.

To be honest, it's quite embarrassing.

If you have seen a person who is unrestrained and unrestrained, you can't bear his downfall when he falls into the dust and is covered in dirt.

"Is the company short of money?" Feng Yin patted Gu Shen's buried back, "How much is missing? I'll see if I can get you some investment."

Gu Shen didn't speak, just shook his head stubbornly and silently for a while.

He took a few more sips of wine, and then started looking for his cell phone all over the place, trying to call Xu Ke.

When Xu Qiang arrived, he saw such a scene.

Gu Shen was lying on the bar counter, sweeping his hands back and forth, overturning countless things, and still muttering: "Where is my mobile phone? Why is my mobile phone missing? I want to make a call, where is my mobile phone?"

Xu Qiang nodded to the flustered and helpless Feng Yin, then took out his mobile phone to call Xu Ke, and raised the mobile phone to Gu Shen's ear, "Nuo, I've dialed it for you, you have a good talk with your deskmate. .”

The phone was a bit hot to hold, Gu Shen stood there dumbfounded, looking at the screen of the phone, not sure whether he wanted to hang up or what to do.

After 1 minute passed, there was a busy tone on the phone.

Gu Shen finally calmed down, holding the phone at a loss for a while, like a child who has lost something.Standing there, half dazed, half sad.

Xu Qiang sighed, took the mobile phone out of his hands, and dialed the phone again, "You said you did it, why did you break up properly? It's not a day or two that you don't deserve someone, what happened before? Haven't you ever seen yourself ashamed?"

There was another busy tone on the phone, Xu Qiang pressed the hang up button, and made another call, "I'll be fine after chasing him back, if you want to take the initiative to break up again, I'll beat you up for my deskmate first."

Xu Qiang made several phone calls one after another, but the phone was always busy.

"Don't dial it, just hang up." Gu Shen seemed to be finally discouraged, he took out a cigarette from his pocket, lit it, took a puff in his mouth, moved his chapped lips after a while, and said: " Let's do it first."

When we were together back then, I wished that the whole world would celebrate together, and all kinds of coquettish operations almost blinded Xu Qiang's eyes.No one expected that their breakup would be so sloppy, just like a summer dream, when you wake up, you can only see the bleak Han Qiu.

The college entrance examination questions that year were unexpectedly difficult, and many people walked out of the examination room crying.Only the group at the end of the crane was having a carnival, even if they got a multiple-choice question right, it was worth crying for joy.

The tenth class's performance was quite satisfactory, especially the two exams of English and politics were quite good.After the scores came out, everyone was busy filling out their volunteers, cleaning up their chaotic youth, and rushing to their wonderful future.

Graduation parties were also very popular at that time, and almost every class had similar group activities.Class 40 also mobilized one, but not all the people arrived, there were [-] seats, and just two chairs were vacant.

Xu Ke seemed to have lost contact with everyone after graduation, as if he just suddenly appeared in everyone's youth, and only showed his face in a glimpse, silently amazed people, and then disappeared without a trace No trace, not even a serious farewell.Walking in a hurry, I couldn't even find a shadow in a blink of an eye.

Without the two big bosses, there was no atmosphere at the farewell meal. In the end, I didn't know who cried or what it was crying, and no one asked.Everyone couldn't hold back anymore, and their eyes were red in the silence of the room.

They made a hasty farewell during Faye Wong's hasty year, and just scattered all over the world.

Gu Shen approached Father Mei to quietly ask where Xu Ke's final application was. He didn't ask the name of the university, but only the province.

Finally, I learned that Xu Ke still went to Beijing.

Since then, they have been separated by mountains and seas, three thousand miles apart, as if they have reached the real end of the world and the cape of the sea, and it is difficult to see each other again.

Many people don't understand why they broke up, but Gu Shen knows that Xu Ke understands.

Of course Xu Ke understood, otherwise he wouldn't have kept his wish to stay in the province without telling Gu Shen.Otherwise, he wouldn't have only asked two questions when Gu Shen mentioned breaking up, one was an extravagant request and the other was a threat.

When these two sentences didn't work, Xu Ke knew that he couldn't keep Gu Shen.

But knowing doesn't mean not being angry, disappointed, or sad.

After filling out the application form, he didn't stay in Huayuan City, and took the earliest flight to Beijing.He didn't bring anything, just a few long clothes and a few hundred dollars in cash in the suitcase.

The rest of the money was left in the living room of Capital One with the card, and there was a sticky note with "room fee" on it.

University life is fulfilling and busy. Xu Ke found a job as a tutor during the summer vacation. It costs 200 yuan an hour, 6 hours a week, and can save 2000 yuan a month.

He would keep the saved money every month, and then put it into the card left for Gu Shen.

He signed up for several clubs in college, Sudoku, art, skateboarding and cooking.He actively participated in all activities, not for credits, but just wanted to try everything.In college, he still ranked first in his major in every exam, but after studying for a year, he unexpectedly switched to science and studied medicine.

He has become more and more taciturn, and it's not that he doesn't fit in with others, it's just that he's used to being an iceberg, and he never met anyone who would make him laugh with a shy face.

But there are still many men and women who confess their love to him in the school, and sometimes they can receive a bouquet of flowers in front of them whenever they walk.Among them, there are many outstanding ones, and all of them were rejected without exception.The reason given is also very wonderful:

"You're not 1 meters tall."

"You don't wear black t-shirts."

"Your surname is not Gu."

"..."

There is also a Lanzhou ramen restaurant outside the school, and the owner is also a young couple.Xu Ke often went to eat noodles, and he was often sweaty from the heat.

When he ate it for the first time, he could only stuff half a bowl down, and his throat was sore from the heat.Then he suddenly realized that he didn't put vinegar.Facing the remaining half bowl of noodles that day, his eyes became blurred inch by inch, which shocked the proprietress.

When he was a sophomore, Xu Qiang came to look for him, the two had a simple meal, and then Xu Qiang handed him a card, which was the room fee he had left for Gu Shen.

Xu Ke didn't say anything, just accepted the card, and still sent money to it every month.

He had secretly gone back twice, once he waited for two days at the gate of Capital No. [-], but no one came.One time I saw Gu Shen getting drunk and coming out of the bar with a boy in his arms.

He never went back after that.

It's just that once he was walking on the campus' tree-lined avenue, and when he looked up, there was a tall boy in a black T-shirt and a black baseball cap in front of him, who was playing with a skateboard.

Xu Ke stood there in a daze for a long time, and he came back to his senses only when the boy turned his head from the skateboard.

Oh, it wasn't him.

The sun on the boulevard was a little glaring that day, Xu Ke lowered his eyes a little, and when he followed his fingers and raised his head again, the four seasons had just passed.

Spring passes and winter comes, cold passes and summer passes, so the year that brought people infinite misery has become a vague and distant concept, and when it is mentioned again, it can only be mentioned as a year without any time range.

That year, there was no major event that shocked the world.

It just witnessed what the two boys said they would never see each other again.

The author has something to say: this volume is finally finished.

I swear I will never write such a lengthy memory line again, the person who wrote it wants to die =A=