The president always wants to act

When Zhang Zhaoyan arrived at the hospital, his back was already soaked.

There is always that one person, no matter how many years have passed, is the most untouchable pain in your heart.But even when the pain is the most unbearable, you can't bear to goug it out.

Zhang Zhaoyan just couldn't let go.

He just couldn't let go.

If he can let go, he won't always compete with Li Chongshan.

Even if he doesn't meet each other, he still insists on tying his name with Li Chongshan's name, and insists on seeing others lament that year and today.

He was even a little bit malicious, maliciously wanting to see Li Chongshan repent at the beginning——

You see how good I am, do you regret it?

Li Chongshan knows him better than anyone else!He is indeed a very vengeful person, and he even takes revenge on the people he has in his heart. Can you blame Li Chongshan for worrying that he will "bring down" Lin Shuo?

Can you blame Li Chongshan for hiding those things for so many years?

Li Chongshan had an accident yesterday.

Yesterday, the film crew waited for the rain, everyone was very happy after that, and celebrated happily after the filming was finished quickly.At the same time, it rained more heavily on Li Chongshan's side, and the rain came suddenly. The crew members were unprepared, and in a panic, Li Chongshan fell from a height of three to four meters.

Li Chongshan was no longer young, and he couldn't wake up after a fall, so the assistant director rushed him to the hospital.The news was blocked, and his friend couldn't find out more.

Zhang Zhaoyan felt that he was lying on the hospital bed.

The one who feels pain all over is himself.

His breathing became labored, and each breath seemed to be stolen from someone else.

If Li Chongshan dies—if Li Chongshan is no longer in this world, what should he do?

Zhang Zhaoyan has never faced this issue squarely. He always feels that they are only in their 50s, half of their lives are full of life, and they still have most of their lives to be entangled with.

So Li Chongshan didn't want to face it, and he didn't want to face it, so he just hid, hid, and hid.As long as he knows that both of them are still living in this world safely, he won't force anything.

But he forgot how fragile life is.

It is very likely that life and death will be separated in a blink of an eye.

If you don't say something today, if you don't say it tomorrow, you may never have the chance to say it again.

Zhang Zhaoyan got out of the car in a daze, and walked into the hospital alone. It was still raining, and his hair and shoulders were quickly wet by the rain, but he didn't realize it, and strode towards the hospital.

The door of Li Chongshan's ward was closed.

Zhang Zhaoyan raised his hand and knocked on the door repeatedly.

Tee, Tee, Tee.

Zhang Zhaoyan felt his heart beat as slow as the knock on the door.

Someone inside finally said, "Who?"

Zhang Zhaoyan spent all his strength and finally managed to say: "I am Zhang Zhaoyan."

The door was opened.

The person who opened the door was Li Chongshan's assistant, a 27-year-old young man with a vigilant look on his face.The assistant saw that he was a loyal fan of Li Chongshan. Even Zhang Zhaoyan was not at ease. Instead of opening the door completely, he asked, "Mr. Zhang, why are you here..."

Zhang Zhaoyan said: "I..." He said a word, but couldn't continue.He had no choice but to ask straightforwardly, "How is he?"

The assistant understood that Zhang Zhaoyan was here to see Li Chongshan.It was rumored that Zhang Zhaoyan and Li Chongshan were at odds, but Zhang Zhaoyan's concerned expression and worried tone seemed to be different.

The assistant invited Zhang Zhaoyan into the room.

Li Chongshan lived in a special ward, and he was the only patient.The ward was very spacious and well lit. If it wasn't for the smell of potions in the air, it would probably be more like home than his own.

From the moment he stepped into the ward, Zhang Zhaoyan forgot about the existence of the assistant.

His eyes were fixed on Li Chongshan.

Li Chongshan's face was very pale, that kind of sickly white.

Years of wind and frost left many marks on his face. When his eyes were closed, that face finally became a bit more vicissitudes.When a person keeps running forward, no one can see how tired he is, but once he stops, he may not be able to run anymore.

Li Chongshan's forehead was wrapped in gauze, and he must have hit his head.After fifty, the cardiovascular function is already declining, and it is very common to be unable to wake up after this collision.

When Zhang Zhaoyan saw Li Chongshan's chest rising and falling, he was relieved.

Zhang Zhaoyan finally recovered his voice: "How did you get hurt?"

The assistant has determined that Zhang Zhaoyan should be Li Chongshan's friend, and a very good friend at that.He said honestly: "Director Li is not in a good state recently, sometimes he is always in a trance, and his appetite is also very poor. Yesterday, it suddenly rained heavily. We were filming outside. After the rain fell, the scene was very chaotic. Accidentally stepped on a space, fell to the side, bruised his forehead, and needed six stitches. Director Li woke up in the middle of the night last night, and the doctor announced that he was out of danger, but his body was too tired. He couldn't sleep again, so he had to be injected with a tranquilizer."

After listening to the assistant's words, Zhang Zhaoyan felt as if a sharp knife had been stabbed in his heart.

If you don't sleep well, eat well, how can your energy and spirit be good.Let alone encountering a chaotic situation in this state, accidents may happen if one person is walking on the road or alone at home.

Why can't Li Chongshan fall asleep?

It was nothing more than seeing him——meeting him, reminding me of the past.Think about the past and then think about the present, let alone Li Chongshan, he can't close his eyes.

Why did it just fall on them?

Zhang Zhaoyan suddenly felt a little unbearable.

He really couldn't take it anymore.

Don't care about his hatred, don't care about his hatred, don't care about his previous generation's grievances.

What's the matter with Li Chongshan!So what's the matter with Li Chongshan!Why should Li Chongshan bear it!

Zhang Zhaoyan sat on the edge of the bed and held Li Chongshan's hand tightly.

Li Chongshan's hands are too thin.

He almost lost his grip.

Under the astonished eyes of the assistant, Zhang Zhaoyan clenched Li Chongshan's hand, and wept uncontrollably.

He was the one who provoked Li Chongshan, he was the one who liked Li Chongshan, and he was the one who wanted to be with Li Chongshan like crazy.It has nothing to do with Li Chongshan at all——

Therefore, everything that Li Chongshan endured should be borne by him.

The assistant didn't know when to back out.

Only Zhang Zhaoyan and Li Chongshan were left in the ward.

Maybe it was the effect of the tranquilizer, after Zhang Zhaoyan finished crying, Li Chongshan still slept soundly.Zhang Zhaoyan calmed down and held onto Li Chongshan's hand.

Zhang Zhaoyan sat quietly for over an hour.

The doctor came in to change Li Chongshan's dressing and check him. He was a little surprised to see Zhang Zhao guarding him strictly, but he still completed the work meticulously.

After the doctor was done, Zhang Zhaoyan asked about Li Chongshan's condition.

The doctor hesitated for a moment, seeing that the assistant next to him did not object, he signaled Zhang Zhaoyan to go outside the ward and talk about Li Chongshan's situation.Li Chongshan fell into a coma this time not entirely because of yesterday's accident, but also because of his disordered work and rest and poor mental state, and he had to slowly recuperate if he wanted to fully recover.

Zhang Zhaoyan nodded while listening, and wrote down the doctor's orders one by one.

The doctor finished what he could say, hesitated for a while, and couldn't help but said: "I like "War Eagle" filmed by you and Director Li very much. Will you cooperate with Director Li this time?" The doctor was about 47-[-] He is old, and a few silver threads appeared on his sideburns. He said with emotion, "Actually, many of us hope to see you join hands on the screen again, even if it's only once."

If he hadn't seen Zhang Zhaoyan guarding the hospital bed just now, the doctor would not have said such words.Back then, Li Chongshan and Zhang Zhaoyan were much better friends. Zhang Zhaoyan's interview topics revolved around Li Chongshan, and Li Chongshan was similar, every sentence was exaggerating Zhang Zhaoyan.

I didn't expect to fall out when I said I fell out, and I didn't mention the other party on any occasion for 30 or [-] years.

Although Li Chongshan's most famous movie is "Ben", his films before that are not unknown. At least at that time, "War Eagle" jointly created by Li Chongshan and Zhang Zhaoyan influenced a large number of people-"War Eagle" The heroic feelings shown in the movie made many people feel excited.

The image of Zhang Zhaoyan in the future will more or less give people the feeling of "iron man tenderness"-this feeling is derived from that "War Eagle".

However, Li Chongshan's subsequent films gradually changed.

I can no longer find that sharp and direct sense of passion.

Those who don't know will not feel anything, but those who have seen them in the past will inevitably have some regrets in their hearts.It felt like pouring a dipper of water to extinguish a fire when it was burning the most.

Li Chongshan never told the audience the sharp-edged story of "War Eagle".

Zhang Zhaoyan sent the doctor away, turned around and walked back to the ward.

The sun shines in from the window, brightening the room.Maybe it was because of the effect of the medicine, Li Chongshan's complexion slowly returned to blood, and the miserable morbid pallor no longer existed.

Zhang Zhaoyan sat back on the bed.

He remembered that many years ago, he was a bad student and Li Chongshan was a good student.Li Chongshan is very good from the inside out, he studies well and has a good character. Once he was punished and he was not feeling well. The teacher and others thought he was putting on an act, but only Li Chongshan believed him.

Li Chongshan explained to the teacher for him, and then sent him to the school doctor's office.The sun was also very good that day, there was a thick shade from the trees outside the window, the cicadas were constantly singing outside, but the school doctor's room was very quiet.Someone was injured on the sports field, and the school doctor left after watching it for him, leaving only Li Chongshan to accompany him.

He was in a bad mood, sullen and silent.Li Chongshan usually doesn't like to talk to people, so he reads with a book.

Li Chongshan reads, and he reads Li Chongshan.

After being quiet for a long time, he finally couldn't take it anymore and said, "What are you doing here? I don't need you to accompany me!"

Li Chongshan paused, and said honestly: "It's the third class now, it's a self-study class, the class is too noisy, I'm here to read a book."

He was embarrassed for a while, and felt that he was being sentimental!

So he turned his head away again and ignored Li Chongshan.

There were only occasional rustling noises in the room.

He held back for a long time, and couldn't help turning around quietly to look at Li Chongshan.

No wonder so many people like this guy, it's as pretty as a painting.

Li Chongshan, Li Chongshan, Li Chongshan.

It is always like a heavy mountain weighing on his heart.

Overlapping, shadowy.

I can't move, and I can't see clearly.

Zhang Zhaoyan reached out to hold Li Chongshan's palm again.

This time Li Chongshan's hand moved.

Li Chongshan opened his eyes.

Zhang Zhaoyan felt his heart skip two beats.

Like a big boy in love.

Zhang Zhaoyan didn't move his hand away, let alone let go.

He looked straight at Li Chongshan, his eyes never evading in the slightest.

Li Chongshan wanted to speak, but found that his throat was a little hoarse.He quieted down, half-closed his eyes, avoiding Zhang Zhaoyan's sight.

Zhang Zhaoyan said: "Li Chongshan, I thought you were going to die."

Li Chongshan's palm trembled.

He also thought he was going to die.

There were countless voices ringing in his ears, and countless figures moving in front of his eyes, but he couldn't hear a word clearly, and couldn't see a single person.If a person is dying, that’s probably how it is. There is less and less contact with this world, and there are less and less things that can be heard, seen, and felt—fewer to almost nothing.Before he lost consciousness, he thought of what he would do if he had known that he would die soon——

He suddenly realized that he didn't know what to do.

He had no way to say to Zhang Zhaoyan, "Actually, I like you, you can divorce me and live with me."He also had no way to say to Zhang Zhaoyan, "The enemy you have been brooding over is actually my grandfather, can you stop hating me".

Maybe the path that Shi Lirong had chosen for them was the best path.

There is no intersection in this life, and naturally there is no love, no hatred, no pain, no struggle——

So he thought maybe it would be nice to just die like that.

Li Chongshan suddenly understood why Lin Yiqing, who was once famous for a while, chose to jump off the stairs.Because when a person is trapped in a net and cannot break free, death is like a relief.

Li Chongshan lowered his eyelashes, hiding all the emotions in his eyes.

He has lived to this age, so naturally he won't be as indifferent as Lin Yiqing.

He felt that Zhang Zhaoyan was holding his hand tightly, the palm was obviously generous and warm, but somehow it made him feel cold.

He wanted to take his hand out.

Zhang Zhaoyan held on tighter.

Li Chongshan finally raised his head and met Zhang Zhaoyan's gaze.

Zhang Zhaoyan said: "I have been divorced for many years. Divorced not long after my godfather passed away. I didn't let anyone know about the marriage, and of course I didn't let anyone know about the divorce. The child belonged to her fiancé. At that time, her fiancé died unexpectedly, leaving only her And the child in her womb—now the child’s surname is Shi, and I will return the godfather’s inheritance to him when he becomes an adult.”

Li Chongshan listened quietly to Zhang Zhaoyan's words, but there was no emotion in his eyes, and he couldn't see whether he was happy or sad.

Zhang Zhaoyan grasped Li Chongshan's thin hand tightly.

He said, "Can't you accept that?"

Li Chongshan couldn't answer.

Zhang Zhaoyan said: "I know, I know everything - including what your grandfather participated in. I am very vengeful. If I knew about it 30 or [-] years earlier, I would have done a lot of terrible things. So Godfather kept it from me, and you also kept it from me, right?"

Li Chongshan was shocked.

Zhang Zhaoyan said: "It's been decades, everything is enough, don't you think? Even if you are the principal offender, two or 30 years in prison is enough, don't you think?" Zhang Zhaoyan tightened his five fingers and let the two His hands clasped even tighter, "We've been in prison enough, you let me be released after serving my sentence, and I'll let you be released after serving my sentence, will it work?"

Li Chongshan stiffened his back, not knowing how to answer.

He thought about many possibilities after Zhang Zhaoyan knew everything, thought about the countless endings between himself and Zhang Zhaoyan, and finally found that the best result was to forget each other and be irrelevant.

Released after serving his sentence?

Li Chongshan suddenly realized that he really seemed to be sitting in prison these years.As long as he thinks of the three words "Zhang Zhaoyan", his head is like a knife that will fall at any time.

So after being strangers for so many years, they lived in peace.And since seeing Zhang Zhaoyan last time, he couldn't sleep anymore.

I have nightmares every night.

Li Chongshan's Adam's apple rolled twice.

He finally found his voice: "Zhang Zhaoyan..."

Zhang Zhaoyan came alive when he heard Li Chongshan's hoarse voice.Li Chongshan was so quiet just now that he was terrified, the feeling that he no longer belonged to this world - made him extremely uneasy.

Zhang Zhaoyan said, "Want to drink water?"

Li Chongshan looked at Zhang Zhaoyan quietly.

Zhang Zhaoyan went to pour a glass of water for Li Chongshan, and then he raised the bed so that Li Chongshan could sit up.

Zhang Zhaoyan fed water to Li Chongshan's mouth.

Li Chongshan said: "I will do it myself."

Zhang Zhaoyan said solemnly: "You just woke up, I'm afraid you won't be able to hold it steady."

Li Chongshan: "..."

Zhang Zhaoyan watched Li Chongshan drink the water contentedly.

Li Chongshan wanted to continue the topic just now, but Zhang Zhaoyan said again: "Are you hungry? You sit down first, and I'll buy you something to eat." After finishing speaking, he put down the water glass and strode out.

Li Chongshan: "..."

As soon as Zhang Zhaoyan left, the assistant who was guarding outside came in.Seeing that Li Chongshan was in good spirits, the assistant said, "Director Li, I was really scared to death yesterday."

Li Chongshan said, "I'm sorry."

The assistant said happily, "Director Li, as long as you're fine!" He moved a stool and sat down in front of the hospital bed, "Brother Zhang came here early, and has been watching over you."

Li Chongshan listened silently.

The assistant knew that Li Chongshan wanted to hear this on behalf of him, so he quickly told what happened after Zhang Zhaoyan came over.Finally, the assistant said: "I was really shocked when I saw Brother Zhang crying. I also wanted to cry when I saw you fall, Director Li, but—how should I put it, it's not the same as Brother Zhang crying. Same."

Li Chongshan's palm trembled slightly.

There seemed to be the temperature of Zhang Zhaoyan's palm on it.

Zhang Zhaoyan has been very stubborn since he was a child, and he would never cry in front of outsiders.

Zhang Zhaoyan actually cried out loud in front of others?

The assistant continued: "Director Li, I think there is some misunderstanding between you and brother Zhang..."

Li Chongshan's mind was blank.After a long time, he slowly regained his ability to think.He said: "It's not a misunderstanding," Li Chongshan paused, "But after a long time, some things will fade, and some things—may or may not change."

The assistant was a little dazed.

Seeing that Li Chongshan didn't speak anymore, the assistant had no choice but to swallow his doubts back.

Zhang Zhaoyan came back soon.

He was holding a food box, which contained hot porridge and a few small dishes of light side dishes.

Seeing this, the assistant quickly retreated to "guard the gate" for them.

Li Chongshan's status assistant during this time saw it in his eyes and kept it in his heart. Although there are so many people who like Li Chongshan, in fact, there are not many close people around Li Chongshan.

Like yesterday, when Li Chongshan collapsed suddenly, he didn't know who to contact, so he could only deal with the hospital operation with one hand.Seeing that Zhang Zhaoyan wanted to get back together with Li Chongshan, the assistant was very happy.

He doesn't know what happened between Li Chongshan and Zhang Zhaoyan, but if a relationship can make someone like Zhang Zhaoyan cry like that the moment he confirms the other's well-being, it must be so deep that others can't imagine.

He very much hoped that Li Chongshan could have such a person by his side.

Only Li Chongshan and Zhang Zhaoyan were left in the room again.

Zhang Zhaoyan laughed: "I'll feed you porridge."

Li Chongshan felt that Zhang Zhaoyan was in a good mood.He knew that Zhang Zhaoyan didn't want to talk to him for the time being, so he didn't speak again, and he didn't refuse any more. He opened his mouth and ate the porridge that Zhang Zhaoyan fed.

Zhang Zhaoyan finished feeding a bowl of porridge without rushing.

He said, "Do you want more?"

Li Chongshan shook his head.

Zhang Zhaoyan said: "I really wanted to feed more slowly just now, but I was afraid that you would be hungry."

Li Chongshan didn't speak.

Zhang Zhaoyan said: "I knew you would definitely not eat the second bowl I fed you." He filled another bowl with the empty bowl Li Chongshan had finished eating, sat on the side and said, "I'm hungry too, so this The bowl is mine, you can watch me eat it."

Li Chongshan wanted to laugh a little.

He shouted: "Zhang Zhaoyan."

Zhang Zhaoyan looked at him while drinking porridge.

Li Chongshan said: "You are still as naive as before."

Hearing Li Chongshan mention "before", Zhang Zhaoyan's heart ached slightly. "Before" ah, how long ago was that.Hearing what Li Chongshan said, it seemed like it was still in front of their eyes.

As if all that had just passed, they could see it just by turning their heads.

Zhang Zhaoyan said: "What about you? You are not the same as before. You always keep things in your heart, and you always feel that you can handle everything. You don't feel uncomfortable. Do you know how uncomfortable others will be?" He took three sips and two sips, finished the porridge in the bowl, and then said again, "Do you know why I like that young man Lin Shuo? Because I think he really resembles him, really. If you spend more time with him, you will You will know how much his temper resembles yours. The movies he makes are also like you," he paused, and added, "like you before."

It was before again.

Li Chongshan was also a little silent.

"Li Chongshan," Zhang Zhaoyan looked at Li Chongshan and called his name, "We have missed it for so many years, don't we miss it again in the future? We don't have a few decades, and we don't have a few 20 years to spend."