back from trouble

Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche once proudly issued a declaration to the world——

He said: "I am the sun, with infinite light and heat."

However, he eventually died of too much scorching light.

He was deceived by himself.

but I do not have.

I was never the sun.

"Why are you in a daze." He stretched out his hand and grabbed it in front of my eyes, and smiled at me: "If you don't hurry back, Mom will call again to ask."

Passengers flowed through the capital airport like a weaving, and the announcement of the flight was staggered overhead.

He didn't ask me to answer, he took my hand naturally.

"Go, go home."

We have been traveling abroad for the past few years.After I finished my studies, we traveled all over Europe for a year, and then, because of a project, we went to Africa.

That is where the human species germinated and was born, and is now backward and poor.There are vast grasslands and tropical rainforests densely covered with the river of life, which is quiet and deep.

And when I arrived, I found out that he had taken over several aid projects in Africa at some point.

Due to various reasons of the local government, in addition to the policy funds allocated by the country, most of the initial investment has to be digested and resolved by the enterprise itself.

That is, no money is made.

At that time, I was a little puzzled. This kind of project, apart from increasing the favorability of the zg government, would not help him expand his overseas business.I asked him, he just smiled, and then came up to kiss me, but didn't answer.

After that we settled in Mexico City.

So far, this is my favorite city. We built a lawn tennis court in the yard. The first time we played against him, I was amazed because our balls were almost the same, from grip to grip. Shooting habits to serving posture and then to playing tactics.But he wasn't as good as me.

After I won, I went to ask him. If he didn't say anything, I hugged him around the waist and insisted on him answering.

He couldn't get away from me, so he turned his head and kissed me.

Every time he encounters a question that he doesn't want to answer, he always deals with me like this.

I was a little unhappy, I grabbed his hair and kept going in, kissing him almost out of breath.

The neighbor next door who has a dog whistles when he passes by.

He wasn't angry either, even though I bit the corners of my mouth, I ended up being found back on the bed at night.

The night of our wedding we did a full set for the first time.

Can't say I wasn't looking forward to it, but the truth is, that night was nothing like what I was expecting.

We were both drunk at the time, and although the force value was not much different, my body couldn't resist him at all.

When I woke up the next morning, I felt so strange that I hardly dared to look him in the eye.But he kept looking at me, smiled, his eyes were very bright, turned over and pressed me up.Before I was ready, he went in again.

We went to the Australian Open, and often went to the National Gallery to see exhibitions, and then had a cup of coffee in Carlton, or ordered a takeaway to sit on the old pier for a while.I have been to many places by myself, but I never paid attention to the scenery around me, I just passed by indifferently.Only when he is around, I can see the incomparable beauty.

I just feel fulfilled.

Only then do I feel that life is interesting.

In fact, I have no light, and all my light is on him.

He is my sun.

We lived in Mexico City for four years, first as a hotel, then as a long-term rental apartment, and then we simply bought our own house.

Some time ago, he suddenly mentioned to me to go back to China.

It's not the kind of short few days for visiting, but to return to China for a long time.

He held my hand and told me that Mr. Shao has not been in good health for the past few years, so he can take a closer look when he goes back.

Only then did I know why he took those projects in the first place.

It's just to please my grandfather.

After I went to the UK that year, the domestic contact was almost cut off.Except for a few close family members who still have a little contact, Li Yuanbin is the one who has not broken off.As for those classmates in college, they have long since lost their involvement.

The people around me all dispersed away for the first time, but I no longer felt lonely.

I don't care if I'm the same as others. Over the past few years, I've been able to completely control the inappropriate things in my body.

I don't want him to worry about me or be hurt by me.

I'd rather let him think I'm fine.

Probably the peak passenger flow, we waited for a while but there was no car.

City b has just entered autumn in September.

"Is it cold?" Smiling, he turned his head and asked me, taking off his scarf and putting it around my neck.

I turned my head away, grabbed his hand to test the temperature, put the scarf back on him, and wrapped his hands in mine to warm them up. It took me a while to warm up.

I'm a little dissatisfied.

In the past few years, his career has been on the rise. He works hard, often suffers from stomach problems, and his body is not resistant to cold. It is obvious that his physical fitness has not improved when he was studying.

As his exclusive doctor, I am very annoyed at his behavior of not fully following the doctor's advice.He is quite afraid of me in this regard, and basically obediently does what I say, but sometimes he is busy with work and has to stay up late, so he will quietly avoid me, or get up while I am asleep.

I have been doing research for the past few years. Although I am busy, I am not as tired as him, and I exercise regularly. On the contrary, I am in better health than him, and I have never been sick a few times.In addition, the body is more prone to heat and is not afraid of the cold, so I wear thinner clothes when I go out.

He is also too unconscious. He is obviously not as strong as me, but he is always worried that I will be cold.

I lost my temper with him.

Seeing that the bus would not be able to wait for a while, I didn't want to stand here and let the wind blow. I took the luggage from him and said, "Let's go, we will take the Airport Express."

I almost ran out of money when I bought the ticket, and I forgot to change the currency when I came back from abroad. Fortunately, domestic electronic payment is very fast now, so I temporarily withdrew the money and scanned the QR code to pay.

After getting the ticket, I turned around and pulled him, and my hand went back cold again, and the heat that I just covered was gone.

When we got home, two hours later, Mom called twice on the way, one to Xiaocheng and one to me, both urging us not to delay on the way.

We went back to have dinner, and we went to bed for a while, we were still quite tired after flying for so long.

The next day I went to see my grandfather with him, and he was indeed not as energetic as before.

Xiao Cheng probably said hello in advance, and he was not surprised, he was quite happy to see me.It's just that I haven't seen him much since I was a child, so I can't help but feel a little unfamiliar.

But I knew in my heart that he really cared about me.

It's amazing that although his attitude towards Xiaocheng is not very good, he shows appreciation in a few words.

The old man is not someone who can be bought by a few construction aids in Africa, I guessed in my heart, and laughed as if I did some money-losing business without telling me.

Not long after returning to China, the news began to report his deeds, calling him No.1 in the national industry.The voices were all mouthpiece-level media, without any personal space, and had been quoted many times. Not long after, the National Development and Reform Commission issued a public speech mentioning Xiaocheng, saying that what is lacking now is young entrepreneurs like him.

Things about the two of us were also reported on the Internet, but they were all very positive, and some people even wrote articles discussing whether that speech revealed any signs of amending the Marriage Law.

I laughed right away, how is that possible?

You must know that because of this sentence, Xiao Cheng didn't know how much money he lost in it.

I read the comments on the Internet, but I thought to myself, when Xiaocheng proposed to me, he probably considered everything.

It's like he clearly doesn't like spicy food, but he never mentioned it to me.Every time he eats out, he always pays more attention to my taste when ordering.

I don't even know when he knew me so well.

Before I knew it, he was already very nice to me.

"Why did you get bored when you came back?"

Suddenly being surrounded by someone from behind, he kissed my temples and excused himself: "This year coincidentally, I just missed it, it's not that I won't let you go."

I know what he's talking about.

The F1 race car was held in Mexico City. A few friends felt that they were not satisfied after watching the race, so they insisted on getting someone to race in person.

Then there was a small competition or something, which also pulled me in.

After I got together with Xiaocheng, I seldom race cars, and I never mentioned it to him. I used to use this kind of extreme entertainment to vent and indulge.

I used to play crazy, and I know it all when I laugh, but I don't want to mention it again.

I don't think he actually likes me that way.

So even though it was a very good friend who initiated this time, I still didn't agree.But Xiaocheng probably heard it from somewhere but didn't hear it all, so he bought the ticket early on purpose, trying to make me drive by mistake.

This kind of private competition is very dangerous. He is worried about me, but he always indulges me.

I didn't explain it to him either.

I like to see him nervous about me.

"It's okay." I said it very easily, stood up and hugged him into my arms and kissed him tightly, from lips to ears to neck and down: "Isn't it going to be next year, Luman said that every year in the future .”

His breathing made me mess up, and he was immediately annoyed when he heard my words, and he didn't let me hug him obediently, he hugged me hard to the bed and pressed me up.

This feeling of being thrown into bed is really indescribable. Anyway, I never thought about it, so I felt embarrassed immediately.

But it didn't take long for me to think about it anymore.The temperature on my body rose, making me feel very hot, while his body was very cold.

After we came back, we took the time to meet many friends, laughing, and mine.

Everyone else was fine, but Li Yuanbin surprised me.

He's off to the army.

Seeing him with a neat shaved face, it has nothing to do with the appearance of a literary young man in the past.

"It's really good." I took out one hand from my pocket, hammered his shoulder, and said with a smile.

Li Yuanbin was still tense at first, but now he was caught up, and he rushed over and hugged me excitedly: "You are the one, you are finally willing to come back!"

When we eat, the two of us sit together so that we can talk.

Li Yuanbin didn't mention me and Xiaocheng. There are so many reports on the Internet, so I really don't have anything to be curious about.

But Xiao Cheng probably didn’t think so. He sat next to me and waited for a suitable opportunity before interjecting. While filling my mouth with food, he had a good conversation with Li Yuanbin, and gave him a popular science about where the two of us have been going in the past few years. What are you doing.

It was only in the past few years that I gradually realized that laughing is actually very jealous.

It's not obvious from the surface at all.

When I chased him once, he was very rude to me.

If I didn't know that he has done a lot for me, I probably wouldn't be sure that I have such a heavy place in his heart.

He just doesn't talk about it.

Seeing that Li Yuanbin was being targeted by him, I couldn't help laughing.Li Yuanbin obviously felt something, he let out a long sigh, and looked at us innocently, which made him laugh into embarrassment.

In fact, he just can't see me getting too close to others.This time I cleared my cough, but concentrated on serving me food.

I don't know where he came to the conclusion. I always feel that I am not in good health. Maybe it is a lot thinner than when I was in college, but there must be nothing wrong. After all, I am a doctor and my mind is open. Naturally, I won't bother with my big appraisal. division.

But he is always worried.

Before going to bed at night, I always have to reach into my pajamas and feel my whole body. I feel that I have lost some weight. Sometimes I am too sleepy to be teased by him, and he is quite surprised.

It was unbearable.

I can actually remember it.

It's like we never went to the movies together, and when we came back, we found a chance and asked him to go together.There's nothing great about the movie, it's mostly the experience of being with him.We talked and laughed and walked out, but we ran into acquaintances.

I really don't want to see - Mo Shan.

In fact, I never forgot this man.

She always reminded me from time to time that Xiao Cheng would have taken another road of getting married and having children, and that road would not have me.

Sometimes when I think about it, it might be fate that I was attracted to him.

Even if he does nothing, he can trap me in it, not to mention that he has done so much for me.

To be honest, when he was quarantined with me, I almost thought he liked me because of the lessons learned from the past.It turns out that I was thinking too much, but at that time I was not very tempted.

Maybe I was tempted at that time, but I don't know it.

I've been chasing him for a long time, but I don't think it's hard, but rather...very interesting, with a sense of...fulfillment.

He will be mine.

Just thinking about it makes me feel hot all over.

Then he really became mine.

I didn't notice it at the time, but when I think about it later, I can't help but feel that he has liked me for a long time.

He loved me early on.

"I really didn't expect to see you here." Mo Shan looked back and forth on us, and suddenly remembered something and laughed: "By the way, the romance movie released today is very suitable for couples to watch."

She looked at me as if she was talking to me specifically: "I also came to see it with my boyfriend."

I smiled at her.

He exchanged pleasantries and asked about her recent affairs.

But it didn't take a few words for Xiaocheng to end.

He took my hand directly, interlaced his fingers, and clenched it tightly: "I still want to buy you some clothes."

He didn't intend to say anything unnecessary to Mo Shan, even if it was just a polite greeting.He is such a person, if he becomes yours, it will be all yours, and he will not leave a single bit to others.

And he already belongs to me.

I knew early on—

I am sick.

I am not happy.

I walk alone in the desert of the soul.

I want to live well.

until--

I love someone ever since.