The emperor married

"At that time, I really wanted to dig out your heart and liver to see what color it was." Chu Ci looked at the tall treetops, a few broken leaves trembling in the wind, and finally Blown off by the wind, it landed on the dirt.

Chu Xuan lowered his head, his voice was dim, "Cici, you didn't."

Chu Ci reluctantly twitched the corners of his mouth, "Yeah, I didn't, I still can't be hard-hearted." He knew that he was soft-hearted and cowardly, even if he lived for many years, he still couldn't do it.Look, that's how people are. In his heart, he is just a peaceful little commoner. Once he becomes a dragon, no matter how much he looks like, he is not.

"I know." Chu Xuan raised his head slowly, looking at Chu Ci's back with nostalgia, "Actually, I always thought that even if Ci Ci hated me and hated me all the time, it was better than not caring about me at all."

"When did I stop thinking about you?" Chu Ci raised his eyebrows, he was a little strange, even a little angry, but he didn't show his anger on his face.

"I hold you in the palm of my hand, ask for your warmth, I am obedient, when will I not take you to heart, Chu Xuan, if you say such a thing, touch your own conscience, people in the world can say that I am sorry for them, Only you can't do it!" His chest heaved violently, Chu Ci felt a little ridiculous after saying this, even if he raised his own son, it was nothing more than that, right?

Chu Ci himself really felt that there was nothing wrong with Chu Xuan.

"Look, that's it, Ci Ci, you are still so selfish and conceited." Chu Xuan approached Chu Ci, "You never thought about me, did you? You just thought you were right, so you did it, but You never considered my feelings."

"Yes, I am a white-eyed wolf." Chu Xuan bit his lip, his eyes were a little moist, "What about yourself? Selfish and conceited, have you really thought about me? You never asked me, you are superior gifted me, but never asked me if I wanted it!"

Chu Ci turned pale, and was about to speak, but Chu Xuan interrupted him.

"Cici, please, please don't talk, listen to me first." Chu Xuan waved his hands anxiously, "Let me speak first, okay? I'm afraid you won't let me speak, and I won't have a chance to speak again " He looked at Chu Ci pleadingly, his eyes were full of anxiety and fear, and overflowing with sadness.

Chu Ci stared at Chu Xuan gently, and finally nodded, "Okay, tell me, I'll listen to you."

Chu Xuan heaved a sigh of relief, and a gleam of light appeared in his moist eyes.

"You know? Actually, I've always wanted to tell you that I don't want to be your child."

Chu Ci frowned slightly.

Chu Xuan grinned, "You must think I'm abominable, right? You obviously took advantage of it, but you still think the whole world owes me."

Is not it?Chu Ci's lips twitched, but in the end he said nothing.

"I thought so too." Chu Xuan turned his head away, "I used to think that you were extremely hypocritical. You were obviously not my child, but you still pretended to be so affectionate and loving. That hypocrisy made me sick."

Chu Ci frowned deeply.

Chu Xuan laughed at himself, "You probably don't know what I have experienced in the cold palace. Also, you are so bright, how can you imagine my life like a mouse and bug in the cold palace?"

"That woman is like a mother mouse, leading me, a little mouse, to live in a dark ditch. Why can you get everyone's favor, all the love of that man, and I can only be with that woman Are you struggling in hell?" Chu Xuan's expression became ferocious, "I'm afraid that man has never thought about how a woman and a child can survive in hell, right?"

Chu Ci shook his head, Chu Xuan never mentioned those things he didn't know.

"Cici, you have no idea how hard life is in the cold palace." Chu Xuan sighed, "You also don't know how dark the hearts of the people living there are."

Chu Ci shook his head, he really didn't know.

"For a rotten steamed bun, Ci Ci, that woman has to wag her tail like a dog to serve those eunuchs."

Chu Ci trembled, his hands were entangled unconsciously.

"Those eunuchs know how to have fun. I was there, and the voice I heard the most was that woman's scream." Chu Xuan's expression was calm, as if he was not talking about himself. The dropped steamed buns were stuffed into my mouth, and they kept pinching me with their nails, if I resisted, that woman would pinch me even harder, even if I cried and begged for mercy, it was useless."

Chu Ci took a step back.

"Later I learned that as long as I don't cry, she will let me go after pinching enough."

"Stop talking..." Chu Ci hoarsely shouted.

"She also told me that everything in Dachu is mine, as long as that man can pick me up, everything is mine, so I have to live."

"At that time, I swore, when I go out, I will kill all the people here! No, I can't let them go so easily, I will use the method they tortured that woman to torture them all to death!"

"do not talk……"

"Later, I finally tasted the taste of flesh and blood. Cici, you know? It's the taste of that woman."

"You..." Chu Ci looked at Chu Xuan in horror.

"One day, I finally couldn't take it anymore, and when that woman was crying and beating me, I bit her hard." Chu Xuan's eyes were empty, "She was crazy at that time, she said I was no different from that man , I also bleed the dirty blood of that man."

"I ran out later, and then I met you." Chu Xuan showed a sweet smile under Chu Ci's frightened eyes, "The cake you gave me was really delicious. I have never eaten such a sweet pastry. Delicious food."

"I didn't know that woman was dead until I went back with the remaining pastries."

"Dead?" Chu Ci's eyes widened.

"Yes, dead." Chu Xuan's face was numb, "She cut off a piece of Yun Ni's clothes, and hanged herself on the beam."

"That dress was given to her by that man when he married her."

"My maternal family's surname is Li. It's the Li family that ruled the country and ruled the country for three generations. It was also the Li family that embezzled the army's salary and was exiled by the whole family. Before that woman died, she probably knew the news of my grandfather's death in a foreign land. Right. Before my grandfather died, he had already declared that he did not recognize that woman, and my uncle, nephew, and niece were all killed by horse bandits on the road to exile."

Chu Ci's face lost all color.

"That man said at the beginning that he would help her to be a queen, but in the end she died in a dirty cold palace with her eyes open. How ridiculous, she actually believed that man's nonsense."

"I swore afterwards that I would definitely get back everything I deserved, and I would take back everything that belongs to me with my own hands."

"So I'm in your way?" Chu Ci squeezed his cold fingertips.

Chu Ci's voice seemed to bring back the sanity of Chu Xuan who had fallen into darkness. Chu Xuan's eyelashes trembled, and he fell silent suddenly.

"You think I'm really His Majesty's son?" Chu Ci suddenly had an extremely ridiculous idea, so he said it too.

Chu Xuan could only remain silent.

"Haha." Chu Ci couldn't help laughing out loud.

"You think I'm His Majesty's son, your own brother, so no matter what I do, in your eyes, I have ulterior motives?"

Chu Xuan bit his lip tightly, his mouth full of salty smell.

He didn't want to deceive Chu Ci, and he couldn't deceive Chu Ci anymore.They began by deceiving and using him. He used him, took advantage of Chu Ci's sympathy, so in the end when they got to that kind of situation, it was his own fault.

"Haha." Chu Ci felt it was even more funny. He laughed so hard that he couldn't straighten his back, his legs went limp from laughing, and finally he just sat on the ground.

"Ha." Wiping away the tears from the corners of his eyes, Chu Ci looked at Chu Xuan in confusion, "I remember, you told me that you were lonely, cold, and hungry."

"Your hands are so thin that they are only bones. You grabbed my robe and said, 'Brother, I'm so hungry', and I believed you."

Yes, I believed him.

He picked up that thin and thin body, and carried it out step by step.At that time, he himself was a bone, and his life was only half hanging, and he couldn't even move the pickle jar, but he carried that person out.

How proud he was at that time, how proud he was, look, he saved a life, he was the savior, how great he was!

Great fool.

Chu Ci's laughter gradually fell, and finally fell completely.

"Aren't you very proud? Look, how powerful you are. You can use a self-righteous fool around. You only need to hum, and that fool will immediately only circle around you."

Chu Ci became expressionless.

Chu Xuan slowly knelt down in front of Chu Ci, straightened the messy skirt for him, and finally held onto it tightly without letting go, "Ci Ci, believe it or not, I didn't take you for a fool, never. "

"Really?" Chu Ci asked mockingly.

"..." Chu Xuan only shook his head lightly.

After a long time, Chu Ci's gloomy voice sounded again, "When did you start thinking that I am His Majesty's child?"

"I've been suspicious since the people around you called you." Chu Xuan didn't hide it.

"Really? It's early enough."

Chu Xuan shook his head.

"Haven't you ever wondered if it was true?"

"They..." Chu Xuan hesitated this time, "That's what everyone said."

"So you just believe that?"

"That man, he, he is so kind to you." So good that everyone is jealous, "I can't help but think so."

So I can only rely on this to convince myself, distorting the feelings and jealousy in my heart, discarding all the truth, closing my eyes, plugging my ears, and walking one by one until my head is bleeding, and it is beyond redemption, beyond regret.