[Comprehensive] Kazuya's happy life

However, no matter how turbulent the emotion was, no matter how passionate the love was, at the moment when Ren Tsuruga lowered her head slightly and met the eyes of those black eyes that were too clean and clear, they all calmed down silently, and even fell silent——

No.

Now is...not the time.

He still couldn't express his heart clearly in front of Kazuya.

Not because of fear of being rejected by Kazuya.

It's not because of some ridiculous "I don't deserve happiness" - after seeing the news on TV at noon today, Tsuruga Lian suddenly woke up and realized that in the real "worried to death, completely unbearable life lost In front of this level of care and love for this person's existence, the bondage of past heartbreak, darkness, and past sins... etc. are completely meaningless.

It's a terrifying emotion that can't be contained, that can overwhelm all reason and self-control in you like a monstrous wave.

The thought of "I'm not qualified to be happy" that has bound him for several years is simply a joke in the face of such surging emotions.

——Although this kind of cognition made Tsuruga Ren, who has been troubled by such guilt and deep self-blame for a long time, feel like a fool in the past few years, but the fact is true, and he cannot help Reluctant to admit it.

Therefore, the past can no longer restrain him, let alone hinder his feelings for Kazuya—although he will also feel deeply guilty for this, and those promises to Rick may never be fulfilled again. But he will never regret it!

In other words, if he chooses to be right and let go here because of what happened back then, then he will feel infinite regret for making such a decision at this moment all the time in the future!

However, even so, he couldn't express his heart to He Ye right now.

Because...he is not strong enough.

Although in recent years, with the development of society, people's understanding is constantly being refreshed, and the acceptance of many things that they were unwilling to admit and could not agree with in the past - such as same-sex romance - has increased a lot, and even not long ago , the U.S. Supreme Court has just ruled that same-sex marriage is legalized in all states in the United States, making North America the first continent in human history to achieve marriage equality in the entire continent. In Japan, there are not many people who can truly understand and accept same-sex relationships.

Especially him and Kazuya. He himself is a very popular national male god. Although he is not an idol, he has spoken with his strength since his debut. He has won several domestic actor awards, but it is undeniable that the outstanding While his appearance has brought him a great deal of strength and extra points, he has to be like many idol artists, and has many fans who regard him as an idol and find it difficult to accept his love. .

Although Tsuruga Ren himself doesn't really care about losing this part of fans after announcing his love affair or having someone he likes, he can't help but care whether there will be some people who love him and hate him, or be with him. Also do something irrational.

And Kazuya...

Since he entered high school, especially since the opening of the Koshien Games in the summer, as a freshman talented pitcher, he has also attracted national attention.

Baseball, as Japan's "national sport", has a degree of attention among the people that even football cannot completely match.With regard to the talent that Kazuya has shown so far, I believe that many fans have already regarded him as one of the powerful players of the new generation, and I am afraid that he will continue to pay attention to him from now on.

In the field of athletes, the acceptance of same-sex romance has always been much lower than that of ordinary people.

The most representative of these is the field of football. There was once a European player with good talent who came out as gay while active, but ended up committing suicide. This shows the rejection of homosexuality in the football world.

Baseball's attitude toward same-sex romances isn't as extreme as football's, but...

Tsuruga Ren silently lowered her eyes.

Kazuya is now nothing more than a talented and gifted high school player.

If he doesn't choose the path of professional baseball player in the future, that's okay, but if he intends to become a professional baseball player, then unless he reaches the top of the professional player circle, becoming the top, the dream of any team I want a player of the level that he joins, otherwise, once the relationship between him and Tsuruga Ren is exposed, the time to greet Kazuya, Tsuruga Ren believes, will never be a friendly treatment.

Therefore, until she becomes strong enough to cover up all the negative effects that the relationship between the two of them will bring to him for Kazuya, Tsuruga Ren will not rush to confess to Kazuya.

But he also can't do nothing.

Otherwise, when he really becomes strong enough to easily remove all the obstacles that stand in his way and Kazuya, only to find out that he and Kazuya have already found a lovely girl ♀♀ in love and even married, then But there is nowhere to cry!

So what he has to do now is to subtly improve his status and influence in He Ye's heart, slowly change his identity, and let He Ye become more and more used to his presence by his side while getting along, bit by bit land, becoming unable to leave myself...

It sounds a bit cunning and even despicable, there is no room for Kazuya to choose, just because he likes it, he has to play tricks to win over his best friend, but Tsuruga Lian is surprised that she has no guilt at all for this feel.

Perhaps it was because of Kazuya, from the moment when he supported his small and weak body, even if he was on the verge of exhaustion and his legs trembled, he refused to leave him and walk out of the jungle alone, and insisted on taking himself out together. He couldn't let go anymore...

So whether it is cunning or despicable, since God has given him the chance to regain peace, how can he let it slip away from his hands in vain?

The various emotions surging in her heart gradually converged and then slowly settled. Tsuruga Ren slightly raised the corners of her mouth, raised her eyes in Kazuya's eyes that gradually became a little puzzled due to his long silence, and looked at him Showing a dazzling smile (...) that makes even a calm and calm person feel a little stunned for a moment:

"Anyway, I'm relieved to see that you're fine."

He said softly, looking over Kazuya's shoulder to the entrance corridor behind him:

"And it seems that I didn't come at the right time? I interrupted your celebration..."

Hearing this, Kazuya turned his head subconsciously, only to see Tatsuya putting on his shoes and walking towards himself standing at the door...

"I still want to talk about why you are so slow... It turned out that it wasn't a salesman..."

While muttering, Tatsuya walked up to Kazuya and stood still, at the same time, he turned his eyes to a certain national male god standing opposite with a bright and gentle smile:

"Yo~ Long time no see, Mr. Tsuruga."

Tsuruga Lian gritted her teeth secretly—for the other party's untimely appearance, but she smiled back:

"Good evening, Tatsuya-kun."

"Is Mr. Tsuruga looking for something to do at this late hour?" While Tatsuya was speaking, his arms rested on Kazuya's shoulders in a very natural gesture, and he looked lazy, as if If it wasn't for Tsuruga Ren's existence, he would have put himself completely on Kazuya.

Although he knew that the other party's actions were just habitual, and he didn't intend to "demonstrate" himself, but it is undeniable that at this moment, Tsuruga Ren still loves Tatsuya who can do such an intimate behavior to Kazuya in front of others , produced a trace of jealousy.

However, he has always been very good at restraining his emotions.

The deep black color flashed past in the depths of the eyes, and when the eyelids were raised again, the slightly curved deep eyes were already filled with a sincere (?) and soft smile:

"Well, there is something urgent to confirm, so I ran over without saying hello without thinking about it. Sorry to disturb your party."

"Ah...you mean this?" Tatsuya turned his head and looked at the corridor where there were faint cheers and out-of-tune singing, and the expression on his face changed from the slight laziness before to carelessness:

"It's not really a party...it's just looking for a reason to have a good drink, those guys."

"elder brother!"

"...I'm not wrong →_→"

"Even if that's the case. After all, it's my uncles..."

"Tsk. The guy who can't even remember his 'uncle' identity... If I hadn't run fast last time, they would have tried to coax me to drink! Really, who is the underage..."

"Of course it's you, brother."

"...Why do I feel that your tone seems to be full of malice towards me?"

"That's your illusion."

"...Do you think I will believe it?"

"Why don't you believe me. What I said is obviously the truth."

"..." What to do→_→Suddenly I want to beat my brother again!

"........."

Tsuruga Lian silently watched the scene of brothers and sisters in front of her.

Although he knew that the boy opposite with the same face and figure as Kazuya Chance was Kazuya's closest twin brother.

Although he knew that what they had between them was a deep bond from blood that he could not replace or cut off anyway.

Although he knows that no matter how intimate he is, the relationship between the two is in his own eyes, the "family relationship" that should appear to be the safest and least threatening.

but……

I don't know why, but I feel that the picture on the opposite side, which looks so warm and healing, makes people feel particularly... an eyesore.

Tsuruga Lian silently pursed her lips.

How to do.

He suddenly felt that perhaps his endurance was far less reliable than he had thought——