Remember the glorious years of redemption of Hei Lian

Qingfengmen is located on Fuyao Mountain, and there is a small village at the foot of the mountain.Surrounded by mountains and rivers, the village grows wheat fields and eats fat fish. The life is rich and worry-free. The village is small, and there is the world's number one fairy gate next to it. There is no need to worry about ghosts and monsters, and nothing will happen all year round. , live a flat and comfortable life.

In the dead of night, Qiao Xishui led a child with a lantern, went down the mountain and entered the village.

He knew that An Xichen was afraid of frogs, so he let him ride on his neck.An Xichen has been working in a brothel since he was a child, and he has been bullied with white eyes. He doesn't have much flesh on his body, and he can hardly feel the weight.

Qiao Xishui felt a little uncomfortable, and silently led An Xichen down the mountain.

But the road is not smooth sailing.There is a village at the foot of the mountain, and there are countless frogs croaking along the way.

Qiao Xishui has already experienced how An Xichen reacted to the frog.He is a child who can't spell now, so the expression of fear is more direct——

He plucks his hair.

As soon as the frog croaked, he croaked too, and then he started to pluck it furiously.Qiao Xishui's facial expression was distorted by An Xichen. Fortunately, his hair and his scalp were so inseparable, otherwise his head would have turned into a cratered surface of the moon at this moment.

But An Xichen's hands were strong, even though Qiao Xishui's hair was strong, it couldn't match his strength, so a few strands of her hair were pulled down.

Qiao Xishui watched his strands of hair fluttering down to the ground, and felt pain in his head and heart, no matter how much he hurt An Xichen, he couldn't bear it anymore, lowered his voice a little, and said, "An Zhao! "

He felt the child on his back tremble suddenly, he probably reacted immediately, let go of his hand quickly, and apologized in a panic: "I'm sorry!"

Qiao Xishui didn't even look up at him. As soon as the words "I'm sorry" came out, the anger in his heart disappeared immediately.

He even wanted to see the grievance and guilt on An Xichen's face.

So the sentence "Don't squeeze anymore" turned around and turned into: "No, I just want to say...you squeeze it in another place."

Qiao Xishui felt the child on his shoulders suddenly froze.He didn't put his hands on his head again, he didn't know if it was because he was stunned, or because he didn't have the courage.

"Put your hands up." Qiao Xishui raised her head slightly, and said with a smile, "You sit on my neck, don't drag me a little, what if I fall? Anywhere, hug me."

Qiao Xishui couldn't see him, and didn't know what his expression was.But he finally put his hand back on Qiao Xishui's hair, and moved it carefully to cover his ears.

Qiao Xishui didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and said, "What are you covering there for? I'm not afraid of frogs."

An Xichen blushed and pursed his lips, not knowing how to answer, so he urged, "Let's go."

He spoke with a shrunken voice, Qiao Xishui listened to him, and suddenly an evil thought rose in his heart.

He said gloomyly: "Okay, sit still and support me."

After Qiao Xishui finished speaking, he stretched out his hand to grab one of his legs, lifted the lantern in his hand, bent over, and said, "Let's go!"

Then, he ran out like an arrow from the string.

Unexpectedly, An Xichen screamed in surprise, leaned forward quickly, pressed against Qiao Xishui, and stretched out his arms to hug him.

They ran all the way to the river with the wind on their feet.Qiao Xishui was still fine, but An Xichen, who was put down, staggered a few steps forward, knelt down, and panted wildly with his hands on the ground.

Seeing this, Qiao Xishui squatted down, reached out beside him and patted his back to comfort him, and said with a smile: "You can't do it, why did you end up like this without moving? Elopement with your brother is so exciting?"

"It's dangerous!" An Xichen raised his head and said angrily, "There's fire inside the lantern! It's a paper lantern! What if the fire catches the paper? There's nowhere to throw it! The road just now was full of wheat fields! Who is responsible for the wheat!?"

Qiao Xishui: "..."

At such a young age, he has the demeanor of a neighborhood committee.

An Xichen seemed to be really frightened, and stared at him stubbornly.

"Okay, okay, count me in

wrong. "

Qiao Xishui was stunned by his stare, and after sincerely apologizing, he smiled again, scratched the back of his head very guiltyly looking for a reason, and said, "It's not your birthday, I want to find something fun for you."

An Xichen froze for a moment, half of the pent-up anger in his heart dissipated suddenly.

He blinked, a little dazed, and asked blankly: "...you, how do you know?"

"you guess."

Qiao Xishui replied, with a smile still on his face.He reached out and patted An Xichen's back, and said, "Okay, it's a good birthday. If you kneel on the ground like this, you will lose money. Come on, brother will catch you some fish for your birthday."

After he finished speaking, he stood up and hugged An Xichen.

Qiao Xishui held him in his arms. An Xichen was small and thin when he was a child, and he was hugged in a small ball in his arms.And it's not like he's cold all over after he got Nirvana - he has warmth.

He is warm.

Qiao Xishui suddenly remembered a time when he grabbed An Xichen's hand by accident, and the Nirvana technique absorbed his temperature, and it seemed as if he had been dead for a long time.

He paused, sighed imperceptibly, led him towards the river, and put him next to a tree.

Then he put down the lantern, looked down, picked up a thick, long and pointed branch on the ground, and said to him, "You wait here for me."

Seeing that he picked up such a branch, An Xichen almost understood what he was going to do, and asked, "Are you going to stick fish?"

"Yeah. It's your birthday. It's boring to eat whole grains." Qiao Xishui smiled again, and said, "You haven't eaten good ones since you were a child. I'm going to grab a piece of fat for you today. Wait. !"

An Xichen was stunned.Perhaps it was because no one had ever said such a thing to him before, but he didn't react, and blinked, a little dazed, not knowing what to say.

Qiao Xishui didn't wait for him to reply, she took off her fairy-like robe, rolled up her sleeves, and all the fairy-like energy on her body was replaced with human-like fireworks, and then she picked up the lantern and branches, and looked at him. Thumbs up: "Let's go!"

As soon as he said he would leave, he walked to the river, put down the lantern, took off his boots, rolled up his trousers, and took a branch into the water.

Although he was a dead house in his previous life, he was wild when he was a child.At that time, there were no electronic products, and the greatest joy of childhood was building sand castles.He also had a grandfather who was wilder than a child.

Because of the blessing of a goddamn fortune teller, his family has an extra creed: boys should be wild.

So Qiao Xi can do everything from climbing over walls and climbing trees down to catching fish and chickens—that was what he did when he was a child.

After graduating from elementary school, his mother took him to study in the city. There were no fish or chickens in the city, and he was not allowed to climb trees. The wild boy became a dead house within a year.

Since then, he hasn't done this for seven or eight years, so naturally he has to pounce on it for a while to find out his feelings.

So, the young An Xichen saw him from afar——thumping about in the water.

"Don't run!"

Then he swooped down suddenly and made a beautiful splash.

An Xichen: "..."

Qiao Xishui struggled with the fish in the water for a long time before standing up again, wiped his face, and took a sip of water, his hands were empty, and he didn't rush at anything.

But he never gave up. He turned his head and stared at it with wide eyes. After finding the trace of the fat fish, he immediately let out a "hey" and plunged into the water again.

An Xichen looked complicated.

It is true that he suffered a lot when he was a child, so as long as someone talks to him and treats him better, he will be satisfied, and there is no need to go to this point.If you treat him too well in one go, he will feel uncomfortable instead.

What's more, if the other party has worked hard, he will feel even more guilty.Qiao Xishui didn't seem to know how to do this, and even slapped his swollen face to pretend to be fat, which made An Xichen feel so uncomfortable to death.

An Xichen stood up, and being worried about the frog, he carefully rubbed a few steps towards the other end, and shouted to the water, "Come up!"

Qiao Xishui was fighting with his grilled fish in the water, and there were only bubbles on the surface of the water.

An Xichen was very disturbed, and took a few steps towards the other end.opposite

As the river was far away from the village, he didn't hesitate, and shouted again: "Don't grab it, come up—"

As soon as the words fell, Qiao Xishui suddenly broke through the water.He stood up and shook his head, and many drops of water flew around from his hair.

Where Qiao Xi was in the water, the water was neither deep nor shallow, and only above his waist was exposed on the surface of the water. His clothes were soaked, and the water splashed down.

Qiao Xishui panted and turned her head, her eyes were shining brighter than the bright moon in the sky.

He didn't mean to smile at first, but when he saw An Xichen, he immediately raised the corners of his mouth and smiled.He raised his hand hanging in the water, and An Xichen took a closer look, and there was a fish flopping around in his hand.

The fish scales were shining brightly under the moonlight, and the fish tail flicked, throwing out many drops of water.

"Look! Brother!" He shouted excitedly, "I caught it!"

An Xichen's heart suddenly moved.

He couldn't tell what it was like, but there was a moment of déjà vu, as if he and this person were not meeting for the first time.

After a long absence?

No.

If you describe it, if you describe it...

Fall in love at first sight?

Something is also wrong.

There was a wind blowing from the river, and it was a clear and cool night, but he felt very hot.

That senior brother was obviously inferior in seniority, but he didn't feel anything wrong.

As if it was supposed to be like this.

But his heart seemed to be burning with something, itching with pain, this fire that came from nowhere suppressed all his heartbeats.

While he was in a daze, Qiao Xishui had already come ashore, holding two big fat fish with rolling eyes in his hands, he seemed to know that his life was not long, so he just kicked his tail and killed himself on the spot.

"Come, come!" Qiao Xishui said with a smile, holding the tail of the fish, "Make a fire!"

An Xichen suddenly came back to his senses, and hurriedly responded twice.

"What are you in a daze for?" Qiao Xishui said, "It's your birthday, don't be a daze."

After that, he passed An Xichen and walked over.

Too.An Xichen rubbed the back of his head, wondering what he was thinking.

Qiao Xishui inserted the fish through two branches, turned around and told An Xichen not to run around, then turned around and ran into a house to steal a knife.

Under An Xichen's condemning eyes, the thief Qiao Xishui touched the back of his head and said with an apologetic smile, "I will return it."

The gentleman An Xichen let him go and stopped staring at him.

Qiao Xishui held a knife, raised the knife to the ground, removed the gills, scales and internal organs, and then went back to the branch, climbed to the tree and broke a bunch of branches, lit the fire neatly, and finished A simple grill, put two fish on the grill and grill.

After a while, the fish was cooked.

An Xichen was stuffed with a fish in his hand, stared dumbfounded, and said, "Why do you know everything..."

"Take a bite." Qiao Xishui didn't answer his question, but smiled triumphantly, "See if it's delicious."

The fish was steaming hot, and he also cut a knife on the belly of the fish, the meat inside was white and tender, and it was roasted and oily.It was so hot in his hand that it was hard to eat, An Xichen blew on it for a long time before he took a small bite.

Qiao Xishui looked at him with a smile on his chin. An Xichen raised his head immediately after eating the meat, his eyes glowed, and he mumbled, "It's delicious!"

"It's delicious!" Qiao Xishui narrowed his eyes and smiled, and said, "I never lied to you!"

An Xichen swallowed the meat in his mouth, blinked and asked him again: "Why do you know everything!"

"Amazing when I was young." Qiao Xishui wrote lightly, "Actually, when I was a child, I was a slow-witted fool, but there was a fortune teller who had a mental illness and insisted on telling my grandma that boys would live long if they didn't wash. My grandpa was terrified. Lead me to run into the woods every day, catch fish in water, catch pheasants, light fire and cut bamboo, I can climb trees.”

After all, his eyes drifted to the side, and he thought to himself, who would have thought that these things would be used on An Xichen.

An Xichen suddenly said, "I really envy you."

"..."

Qiao Xishui didn't speak, but looked at An Xichen.There was a dancing flame in his eyes, but there was no brilliance.

"I can't see my mother all year round," he said. "The madam raised me up, and everyone calls her the madam. She said my mother is busy, so I can't see her. If she does, she won't let her live."

After all, they are prostitutes.

Qiao Xishui thought to herself, the romantic girl in the brothel has children or something, if word spread, not only the girl's own signboard would be smashed, but even the brothel's signboard would be smashed as well.

But having a mother who can't see her is like the end of the world for any child.

"My mother said that when I have a lot of money, she will take me away... It happened a long time ago, and I don't even remember when it was."

"I remember something very clearly. In February this year, one night, for some reason, the brothel was deserted, and the madam asked me to go out to do the laundry. I went out without thinking much about it."

"It's so deserted outside. I don't know why, every house is so lively, and the candles they light look so warm, but I'm so cold outside. There's an inverted letter on their door, I can't even read it , I just feel that they seem to be very happy inside the door."

When Qiao Xishui heard this, her heart felt depressed, and she said, "Is it Chinese New Year?"

During the Chinese New Year, some people will paste the word "Fu" upside down, which means blessing.It was the reunion festival, which could also explain why the brothel business was deserted and the streets were deserted.

They all went home for a reunion.

An Xichen buried his head between his knees and nodded.

Qiao Xishui's face darkened, and then asked: "Then have you seen your mother?"

An Xichen shook his head and said: "The madam won't allow it. She said my mother went out to pick up guests, and I didn't know what special day it was, so I thought it was an ordinary day..."

"...No one told me, I didn't find out until several days later."

Qiao Xishui's face was already ugly.

He probably knew what An Tingyu was thinking, maybe he could get more money during the Chinese New Year.A prostitute like her has no family or love, and her only flesh and blood is suffering every day. Instead of having a reunion festival, she might as well earn more money and redeem herself earlier.

But doing so, he is too pitiful.

He doesn't even know what a holiday is or what a reunion is.No one taught him how to read and no one told him about these customs. His mother lit a warm candle lamp on the bed of another house, and he looked at the upside-down blessing outside, envious of other people's happiness.

"Are you having trouble?" Qiao Xishui asked him with suppressed emotions, "You can't see your mother on days like Chinese New Year. You probably haven't seen your mother a few times."

"No." An Xichen muffled, "My mother doesn't like me being disobedient, so I always..."

"Why are you so obedient." Qiao Xishui's voice was a little cold, and she couldn't help raising her voice a few degrees, and said angrily, "Will you go if someone tells you to die!?"

An Xichen trembled when he shouted, raised his head, saw that his face was dark, he quickly rubbed his back, and explained in a panic: "I...but I'm disobedient, the madam will beat me... ..."

"..."

It does make sense.

Qiao Xishui was still in a bad mood, his eyes drifted to the side, and he sighed.

An Xichen flinched and asked in a low voice, "Are you angry?"

"……No."

"Then why aren't you smiling?"

"..."

"You're really angry."

"……I do not have."

The child was very stubborn, maybe it was because Qiao Xishui was always gentle and timid, he stood up, put down the fish in his hand, walked towards Qiao Xishui, gently tugged at his clothes, The baby's voice comforted: "Don't be angry, I'm not even angry."

Qiao Xishui glanced at him, finally couldn't help but soften her heart, sighed, and said, "I'm angry just because you're not angry."

"But I don't want you to be angry. Don't be angry, just smile."

Qiao Xishui twitched the corners of his mouth, he really couldn't laugh now, and asked, "Why do you have to make me laugh?"

"If you don't smile, you feel sad."

"...It's you who's sad, I'm just sad for you."

"It's not sad." An Xichen blinked at him and said, "I don't feel sad when I see you smiling. I've always been like this. I'm used to it. It's not sad."

Qiao Xishui lowered her eyes.

He was silent for a long time, and called him: "An Zhao."

An Xichen tilted his head, and said "um", which was regarded as an agreement.

Qiao Xishui looked at him, speechless for a long time.

He has something to say.

Although I don't know why the past surgery arranged such a passage for him and An Xichen to have an intersection, but it is just like the script Liu Wusheng read - "going against the current and going back, karma and sin cannot be changed".

The cause cannot be changed, and the result cannot be changed.

No matter what he said, it would turn into a gust of illusory wind, and nothing could be changed.An Xichen would still worship into the Qingfengmen, would walk towards the dark step by step, would pick Fang Ximing back to the master's gate, and would be forced to deceive his master and destroy his ancestors to slaughter his fellow disciples.

He could only watch An Xichen fall into the abyss.

But even so, he still has something to say.

Even if nothing can be changed, even if An Xichen can't hear anything.

"An Zhao."

"Ok?"

"..." Qiao Xishui turned her head, looked into his eyes, raised the corners of her mouth, and finally smiled a little stiffly, and said, "Happy birthday."

The child didn't seem to be used to it, he opened his mouth for a while, and then stammered, "Thank you, thank you..."

"Don't thank me in the future."

Qiao Xishui pursed her lips, and her smile disappeared.He stretched out his hand and stroked An Xichen's hair, and said, "I know you're having a bad day... I've always known it. People can't empathize with them, and I can't say I understand you."

"An Tingyu is your mother, and I can't say anything about her. You know in your heart whether she is right or wrong, so I won't say anything."

"It doesn't matter if you are allowed to be sensible, or if you are not allowed to be self-willed, it's just that they think you are troublesome."

"But there will be someone who doesn't bother you. After more than ten years, you will meet someone. This person is a bit stupid, not too smart, and his cultivation level is not high. But he likes you very much, and he can take over You are self-willed, it doesn't matter if you are moody and lose your temper, or the resentment in your heart is bitter, he can take it all, and never thinks you are troublesome."

"He will accompany you to celebrate your birthday and New Year. When it is your birthday, he will accompany you to put a Kongming lantern, walk with you to a bridge, and look up at the stars, moon, sunrise and sunset. He is also willing to accompany you through life and death. He likes you very much , you have never been any trouble, and you never have to be obedient and sensible in front of him."

The child looked up at him blankly, half understanding, and asked nonchalantly: "This person is so nice, will he like me?"

"Of course he likes you." Qiao Xishui finally smiled. He lowered his body, put his forehead against his, closed his eyes, and said, "I have always loved you."

An Xichen finally realized what he meant, and asked with some surprise: "Is this person you?"

"It's me," he said. "It's always been me."

"...An Zhao, you have to grow up well."

"When you grow up and become Mr. Ta Xue, I will come to love you."

As soon as the words fell, he felt a burst of light.

Qiao Xishui opened his eyes, and as expected, the scene in front of him was being completely illuminated by the past art.There was daylight in front of him, and An Xichen could not be seen anywhere.

The scene changed again.

And his heartfelt words finally became a gust of wind that was burned into light, and was annihilated in the art of the past.

In the end, karma cannot be changed.