One-way first love

"Chu Sheng, Gu Fanzhou said you can't go to his wedding?"

"Well, I have something to do in those days, so I can't go back."

"It's okay, there's nothing we can do if we can't catch up. But...in fact, we can all see that he is very disappointed. He drank a little too much at the class reunion that day, and he dragged us to talk a lot. Damn, don't you You think I'm long-winded, but he has always cared about you, and he's very sad that you can't come... Why don't you see if you can spare some time that day."

Chu Sheng didn't say anything, he changed the topic and chatted for a while, then hung up the phone.Some things are not humane enough for outsiders too.

It is autumn now, and Chu Sheng is sitting on a bench in a park in Milan, with an apricot grove above his head, holding a mobile phone tightly in his hand, as if he has a grudge against the mobile phone.He looked at the apricot leaves all over the sky above. The apricot leaves in autumn were bright yellow. Kazuki's apricot leaves were shaking with the wind and falling down. Elegance and liveliness seemed to be in the apricot leaves all over the tree.

In Chu Sheng's eyes, the numerous apricot leaves turned into emerald green sycamore leaves in midsummer.It seems to have spread from the summer many years ago.

Chu Sheng and Gu Fanzhou are family friends. They have been in the same class from kindergarten to high school, and their relationship was once so good that they wore a pair of pants.The classmates around me changed a few times, and many friends came and went, only they stayed by each other's side all the time.

It is not clear who is influenced by whom. Although the two have different personalities, they have many similarities in interests and hobbies. For example, they both love painting.They are both art students, and their art grades are not too different. They were assigned to the same class in the art training in the last semester of the third year of high school.

Chu Sheng has a secret that he has never told anyone.He likes Gu Fanzhou, he likes his brother who he played with since childhood.

At this moment, sitting under the apricot grove, he thought of two paintings for no reason, which were the sketches they drew during the training camp.Obviously, the appearance of the young male model is not much similar to the two of them.But I don't know why, but the avatars they drew are the appearance of each other.They are not exactly the same, but the clear expression between the brows and eyes is familiar.

Chu Sheng used to use pencils, but he delicately drew Gu Fanzhou who was young and frivolous at that time; and Gu Fanzhou loved to use charcoal, which made Chu Sheng, who was strong but full of books, come to life on the drawing paper.

The classmates and teachers at that time kept making fun of these two people because of this incident. When those rotten female students in the school saw them on the road, they couldn't control the corners of their mouths and almost stood shoulder to shoulder with the sun.

Gu Fanzhou is also a person who loves to laugh and make trouble. When the two of them mentioned this matter while chatting, Gu Fanzhou even gave Chu Sheng a wink with a smirk.Chu Sheng suppressed a smile on his face and rolled his eyes back, but no one knew what kind of turmoil was going on in this young man's heart.

Those two paintings disappeared inexplicably. They were pasted on the wall in good condition, but they disappeared the next day.Chu Sheng searched alone for a long time, but couldn't find it.After the training camp, he changed the classroom. Chu Sheng didn't give up, and searched for it a few times. He almost turned the classroom over to look for it, but he still couldn't find it.

Even though there were only two paintings, Chu Sheng somehow felt a sense of loss in his heart, as if something else disappeared along with the paintings.

Later, he probably knew, it was probably because he could play with Gu Fanzhou unscrupulously with peace of mind.

After graduating from Chu Shengmei, he went abroad for further studies, and only returned to China during the holidays.He went abroad not only to improve his artistic accomplishment, but also because he wanted to see more of the outside world, to see more clear clouds and clouds, and to feel the customs of foreign countries.Let the wind, cloud, sunshine, grass, or even someone from a foreign country take away this sin, and there will be no fruitful relationship in the end.

This stay lasted for three years. During these years, Chu Sheng had been deliberately ignoring his inner feelings, and had been in love with others several times.He thought he had really forgotten the emotion that he couldn't forget after four years in college.

Chunye will not always remind him of that person's eyebrows; Xiahua will not make him miss that person's smile; seeing Qiufeng will not always want to send it to him; It's ridiculous to expect that person to appear on the streets of Milan.He thought he could finally face Gu Fanzhou calmly.

But Gu Fanzhou's phone call last week caught him off guard and called him back to his original form.

He is getting married.

When he heard the news, Chu Sheng was actually calm on the surface, as if he couldn't see anything except the twice as many cigarette butts in the ashtray.Chu Sheng blessed Gu Fanzhou from the bottom of his heart, which is of course a good thing, but he is.The moment Gu Fanzhou heard the news, he decided to escape, he wanted to deceive himself and others to keep a little last room for himself.It seems that if he doesn't watch Gu Fanzhou and another person step into the palace of marriage hand in hand, he still has hope.

After running away for so many years, he still didn't have the courage to face this final and heaviest blow.

A week later, Chu Sheng received an overseas call from Gu Fanzhou. His wedding ceremony should have just ended at this time.Chu Sheng looked at the familiar yet unfamiliar name displayed on the screen, paused with his outstretched hand, and picked it up anyway.

The voice on the other end of the phone was a little drunk: "Sheng'er, thank you for the painting you sent me all the way..."

Suddenly there was no sound from the other side. Chu Sheng waited for a while, but the other side still didn't speak: "Gu Fanzhou?" Chu Sheng called softly.

"Ah" the other side replied, it sounded like being awakened from a dream. "Oh, I'm sorry!? Just lost my mind, what did you just say?"

"I didn't say anything just now, by the way, you... Happy newlyweds." When Chu Sheng said that, his heart felt as if he had been hit by a hammer, and his heart ached. "I have an appointment later, so I won't tell you more, goodbye."

"Oh~, girlfriend" Gu Fanzhou's voice was suddenly full of gossip, and Chu Sheng could imagine the eyebrows raised when he said this.

"Thinking too much, it's a friend, I hang up."

"Hey hey hey, you said that you are the eldest and not the youngest, and I have never heard you say that you have a partner. You can't... it's Narcissus."

"Let's go, you've changed so much when you just got married, go do your job well." Before Gu Fanzhou could speak again, Chu Sheng hung up the phone. He stared at the phone for a long time, shook his head with a helpless smile, Gu Fanzhou has not changed, he still likes to make some semi-embarrassing jokes as before, it is Chu Sheng himself who made the relationship between them so twisted, and he doesn't want to.

As for the painting he sent, it is a piece of golden rice ears connected to the blue sky. There is a house with red tiles and white bricks at the junction of the rice ears and the sky, which is blurred into two shaped colors in the picture.

Of course, it was impossible for him to tell Gu Fanzhou the true meaning of this painting. The piece of pure golden straw was actually mixed with some weeds. Chu Sheng hid them in the middle of the golden straw with a darker yellow.

If I send you a book, I don't send you poetry.

I'm going to give you a book about plants, about crops.

Tell you the difference between rice and tares,

Let me tell you about the spring when a weed is in fear.

——Yu Xiuhua

In the blink of an eye, two years have passed.Chu's father and Chu's mother resorted to 36 tricks before finally persuading Chu Sheng to return to China.After all, his parents are getting older, and Chu Sheng can't justify not spending more time with them.Fortunately, they are very open-minded and will not always force Chu Sheng to marry and have children.

He heard his parents tell Gu Fanzhou's parents about this matter, and Gu Fanzhou knew about it soon, but he just made a phone call and made an appointment to get together again when he had time.After all, Gu Fanzhou's wife gave birth to a fat boy last year, and his new dad probably doesn't have time to deal with this old friend whom he hasn't seen for a long time.

After Chu Sheng returned to China, he packed his things and accompanied his parents to visit relatives. It has been a week since he was really free.It was a comfortable day with bright sunshine, fresh air and mild climate. Chu Sheng decided to take a bus trip.Chu Sheng got into a car casually at the bus stop in front of his house, the familiar sound of the bus announcement, the warm August sun in his hometown, the noisy crowd, these things that have been lost in Chu Sheng’s life for a long time, passed through 5 years , came to him again.If there is no uncle with a loud voice on the phone behind him, all this should be more perfect.

The uncle spoke with a strong local accent, and his bang bang bang bang sound hit Chu Sheng's nerves like a hammer for nearly 10 minutes. Chu Sheng silently rubbed the center of his brows and sighed.

Fortunately, the bus is about to arrive at the bus stop. Next to this stop is a small green forest. Chu Sheng is walking on the road beside this small forest. He actually doesn’t know where it is, but this is what bus travel is all about. The way, do not ask the feeling of the way back.As he walked, he looked at the surrounding sky, vegetation, and suddenly he found a familiar building, the one he always liked to sneak a peek at when he was distracted in class when he was in high school. At that time, the building was still covered by a layer of green cloth Yes, it's built now, but the huge yellow sign of XX Garden is still hanging on it.

Chu Sheng looked at the yellow sign, then lowered his head and smiled slightly, "So I came here, so let's go to my alma mater to have a look." He thought.

He walked through several unfamiliar intersections, crossed several unfamiliar zebra crossings, and finally stepped into the boulevard he was familiar with. He and Gu Fanzhou used to go home together every day.He can now see the bell tower of the school when he looks up, and the green and red stone bricks under his feet look dull after years of baptism.

Chu Sheng's thoughts were dragged into his teenage years, as if there would be someone calling his name briskly behind him.

"Chu Sheng?"

He was a little dazed, and looked behind him. Gu Fanzhou, who was nearly 30 years old, smiled and waved to him: "It's really you, I thought I was wrong, and I would be ashamed if I lost face."

Chu Sheng smiled and asked, "What about you? What are you doing here?"

"Brother, you didn't look at the class group? Today's class reunion, the restaurant is set near here. I came early, and everyone hasn't arrived yet, so I'll go back to school to have a look. What about you?" Gu Fanzhou said to he comes.

"I just walked around and looked around, I haven't been here for many years."

Gu Fanzhou nodded: "Yes, yes. Hey, since this is the case, you must come to the class reunion tonight. You haven't been here for so many years. If it weren't for your face that makes the girls in the class miss you, they would really Forget about your classmate."

Chu Sheng didn't go to the class reunion before because he wanted to avoid Gu Fanzhou. Now that many people have caught him, there is naturally no reason not to go.