nine year itch

Thinking of this, Youqing plucked up the courage to look directly at Meng Chuan, and said seriously: "Meng Chuan, in fact, you have always known that most of my feelings for you are family and friendship."

When Meng Chuan heard this, he could already predict what would happen next.Sure enough, Youqing still wants to take the initiative to pierce the paper between the two today.

"You are very kind to me, and I am very grateful to you. But I can no longer just accept your kindness without giving you an answer." Youqing read to him the manuscript he had already typed.

"I'm sorry, I can't date you." Youqing choked up a little at this point, "But you are always my best brother, I respect you and love you." The last words came from the bottom of my heart, Without the slightest suspicion of fabrication.

Meng Chuan looked at Youqing, whose eyes were red, and pulled him into his arms with heartache. He gently stroked Youqing's head with his hand, "Youqing is fine, don't blame yourself, I never blame you. "

Youqing's heart was full of wind and snow, and all thoughts were all hopeless, while Meng Chuan's heart was full of ups and downs.

The two hugged each other tightly for a while.

Youqing got out of his arms first, wiped the corners of his eyes with his hands, picked up the suitcase and stood up, "I'm leaving tonight, Meng Chuan, goodbye."

Meng Chuan hurriedly took his arm, "Are you in such a hurry, where are you going to move?"

Youqing shook her head, "It's not convenient for me to tell you, but I will definitely come to see you and godfather and godmother in the future."

When Meng Chuan heard this, his eyes were filled with disappointment.He let go of his hands helplessly.

Youqing left in a hurry with her schoolbag and suitcase on her back, leaving the room alone and quiet.

Meng Chuan sat quietly on the sofa for a long time.His eyes touched the wad of money on the table, he suddenly remembered something and hurriedly took it out of the door to return it to Youqing.

But at this time, there was no one in the corridor.

He returned to the room tiredly, sinking his tall body into the sofa.Sure enough, Youqing still couldn't accept herself, did he still pretend to be the one named Gu in his heart?

The two broke up because of Gu Ze, and they reconciled because of Gu Ze, and now they are separated because of Gu Ze.

Meng Chuan didn't believe in fate at first, and believed that man could conquer nature.But now I can't help but start to think, is this fate.She tried her best, but still couldn't grasp Youqing's heart, and Youqing finally chose to leave her.

Youqing carried the suitcase and walked to the door of the unit, then turned around and looked at the lights on the eighteenth floor.After living here in Meng Chuan for more than a month, he felt the warmth of home for the first time.He couldn't give up, but had to leave.

After several times of tossing, Youqing now has very few clothes with her, and only diploma certificates and two coats are left in the empty suitcase.

Probably from a long time ago, Youqing knew in her heart that a person like herself should never expect to have a family.He had already made a plan to be alone for the rest of his life.

Until Gu Ze reappeared in his life, which gave birth to his longing for a beautiful love and a happy family.Although there are neither old people nor children in the family they formed.But with Gu Ze by his side, he was already content.

But Gu Ze not only sent his fantasies into hell time and time again, but also forcibly broke his and Meng Chuan's originally smooth and peaceful life.

So much so that 29 is almost 30 years old, and he is still wandering in this city, living in no fixed place.

Maybe I shouldn't have come back to Xi'an in the first place. If I didn't come back here, maybe everything wouldn't happen.

If there were no thieves during the Chinese New Year, then I should be able to return to Burqin smoothly, and there would be no follow-up of these messy things.It's time to embark on the journey back to Burqin again.

He went downstairs and sent Gu Ze a text message: I will move out tomorrow, please stop as soon as possible.

After sending the text message, he threw the phone card into the roadside trash can.

Youqing, who has always been extremely frugal, decided to take a taxi to the train station at this time.He was tired, and he wanted to be more comfortable.

It's dark now and there aren't many cars on the road.The taxi galloped all the way to Xi'an Railway Station.

Youqing came to the ticket hall with her bag and suitcase on her back, and lined up at the manual window to buy tickets.

"Excuse me, is there a hard sleeper for Urumqi?" Youqing handed the ID card to the conductor.

The conductor checked on the computer for a while, "No, there are only hard seats."

Youqing gritted her teeth, "Okay, hard seats are fine."

More than 30 hours of hard seat on the train, it is estimated that the body will be very uncomfortable to sit down.But right now there is no other way.

Youqing desperately wanted to go back to Burqin, the only place where he felt safe.

At this time, there were not as many people at the train station as during the Spring Festival travel rush, Youqing found an empty seat in the waiting room, and sat there quietly to rest.

What can I do when I go back to Burqin?The school will definitely not use him anymore, and opening a coffee shop in that small county is also a very risky thing.Or just to be a tutor for others, but the income is not stable.

Hey, that's all, let's go back now.Youqing only knows that she is like a small animal bitten by wild beasts, and urgently needs to return to a safe place to lick the wound and recuperate to heal.

"Dear passengers and friends, you are about to leave Xi'an Railway Station. I wish you a smooth journey. The ancient city of Xi'an welcomes your next visit."

Accompanied by the sound of the announcement in the exhibition hall, the gate of the ticket gate opened.Youqing held her ID card and ticket, and slowly moved to the ticket gate with the flow of people.

Youqing took her luggage and came to her compartment. Although it was not the Spring Festival travel season, the hard-seat compartment was already full of people.

An old man sat next to Youqing, and opposite sat a rosy-cheeked old lady with a little granddaughter.

The old man was very enthusiastic, and when he saw Youqing sitting down, he chatted with him, "Where are you sitting?" The old man had a strong accent from northern Shaanxi.

"I'm going to Urumqi."

"It's far away, but that's the terminal." The old man sighed.

Yes, it is almost half the distance of China.But what can I do?

He used to think that he belonged to Xi'an, a child of this yellow land.But after going through twists and turns, he gradually realized that he did not belong here.

How many migrant workers have left their hometowns, is it because they don't love their hometown?It is nothing more than being forced by life, being forced to be helpless, and choosing to be displaced.

It's ten o'clock, and the lights in the car have been turned off.The old man next to him was already snoring like thunder, and the old lady on the opposite side also fell asleep leaning on the seat with her little granddaughter in her arms.

Youqing looked at the dark sky outside the window, and listened to the clanging of the train.I don't know how long it took, but he just endured it like this, climbed to the seat tiredly, and dreamed in a daze.

The scene in the dream was also on the platform of a train station. Gu Ze stood in front of the train door and said to Youqing with a smile, "I'm only good to you."

Then he pulled a girl who was wearing a wedding dress and her face could not be seen clearly, turned around and boarded the train.

Youqing desperately called Gu Ze's name on the platform, but Gu Ze turned a deaf ear and disappeared into the car, and the train sped away.

After a while, another car stopped. Meng Chuan got off the train, stretched out his hand gently and said to himself, "Be my man."

Youqing had a messy dream all night, and when she woke up, the train was almost at Lanzhou Station.The old man next to him got out of the car at some point, leaving only the old woman and the little girl on the opposite side.

After waking up, Youqing's legs had been cramping, and her upper body was also numb and painful.Sure enough, after crawling and sitting up and sleeping all night, my body felt extremely uncomfortable.

At this time, lunch has already started to be sold on the train, and the conductor walked along the road until he reached Youqing, "Sir, do you need lunch?"

"How much?" You Qing asked.

"A box of thirty, two meat and one vegetarian."

Youqing looked at the crumpled dishes in the small transparent lunch box, pursed her lips and shook her head, "No need."

The food on the train is really too expensive, and it seems that people have no appetite. Youqing feels uncomfortable and has no appetite. Now he just wants to drink some water.

"Come on, let me go, let me go, beer, mineral water, rice pudding with peanuts and melon seeds." After a while, the salesman pushing the small truck also began to sell along the road.

"Please bring me a big bottle of mineral water." Youqing stopped the salesman.

"Okay, 15 yuan a bottle."

Youqing gritted his teeth and took out the money. If he didn't eat a meal, he wouldn't die of hunger, but if he didn't drink water, he would die of thirst.

I left too hastily this time, and didn't buy any dry food to prepare on the way, it was really a mistake.

But we will arrive at Lanzhou Station soon. Lanzhou Station is a big station. There will be food vendors below, and the prices are cheaper than those on the bus.

When they arrived at Lanzhou Station, the passengers got off the train to purchase things one after another.Youqing also went to buy a beef noodle to eat, and then bought a scallion pancake as dry food.

The little girl sitting across from her kept watching Youqing eat the noodles with her fingers in her mouth, drooling non-stop.And the aunt coaxed her in Gansu dialect and fed her white cakes and water.Seeing that both of them are dressed in old clothes and are sitting hard, they must be from poor families.

Youqing thought for a while, then got out of the car to buy a beef noodle, and served it to the aunt and little girl opposite.The aunt blushed at first, waved her hands and said no.

"It's not much money, eat quickly, don't starve the child." Youqing said with a smile.

Seeing her granddaughter staring at the bowl of oily noodles with relish, the aunt nodded shyly to Youqing and said thank you, then fed her granddaughter to eat noodles, dipped in beef soup and ate white cakes.

The car just swayed like this, seeing that it was getting dark again.There are fewer and fewer people in the car. It seems that Xinjiang in the extreme northwest is still a destination for a small number of people.

There was no one in the seat next to Youqing.There was only one person sitting in the row next to the aisle, and that person was lying on the row of seats with his clothes closed, ready to sleep.

Youqing also imitated others and curled up in the row of seats that she owns. Lying down is better than lying on the table to make it through the night.