nine year itch

In fact, Youqing didn't want to go to such an occasion as the class reunion.Counting from graduating from high school, for nine years, everyone went their separate ways, busy with their own lives, how many common topics will there be?

It's nothing more than polite greetings and secret comparisons.Those who did well became the protagonist of the banquet, while those who did poorly became a supporting role.The level of mixing is similar to see if there is any opportunity for benefit exchange.

Besides, the high school memories of his student days were really not good for him. He didn't have any good friends in class.Because of his sexual orientation, although the others didn't ridicule him in front of him, they would gossip behind his back more or less.Everyone is avoiding him, and no one is really close to him.

In fact, when he first entered high school, his classmates didn't know Youqing's secret. Seeing him usually reticent, they thought it was because of his poor family background and low self-esteem and introversion, so they put him in a corner where no one paid attention.

Since he was a child, Youqing couldn't play with other boys. They liked to go out to swim, touch fish and play in mud, but he felt that those sports were dangerous and dirty.He prefers to play house with a group of clean and quiet girls. Because of his pink and jade-like appearance, he is often covered by a group of little girls with red pillow covers and plays the role of the bride.

Probably since junior high school, Youqing has gradually realized that he is different from other boys.Although children in small counties are not as precocious as those in big cities, everyone also begins to have a strong curiosity about the opposite sex during the youthful period of junior high school.

At that time, the boys liked to gather in the dormitory to discuss which girl in the class had the best looks and which girl had the best figure.Youqing never joins this kind of discussion, because he is not very interested in women's soft bodies that are different from his own.

Instead, he likes to watch the sweaty teenagers on the playground.Their tall and strong bodies, the Adam's apple protruding from the neck, and the FU muscles exposed with the movements, are youthful and full of male hormones.

Youqing knew that his thinking was very abnormal. From then on, he began to hate himself and felt that he was a different kind. However, this pain could not be expressed to others.

Youqing's childhood was not happy.My father has a low education level and no ability to make money, but he has a big temper and likes to drink and beat his wife.Soon after his mother gave birth to him, she went away with other men.He lived with his father since he was a child.

When he was a little older, his father left him alone in his hometown and went to Beijing to work alone.

Youqing sometimes thinks that perhaps it is because of the lack of family affection in childhood that she becomes a different kind after growing up.He has no relatives or friends around him to whom he can confide these things.For him in his youth, these fears and fears, unspeakable secrets, were as devastating as heaven and earth.

Until an accident in the second year of junior high school, Youqing inadvertently browsed a website of Hong Kong and Taiwan in computer class.

At the end of the 90s and the beginning of 2000, there were very few male-female exchange websites in the mainland, only some small websites on the gangtai side.Most of the websites are novels adapted from personal experience, and some beautiful photos between men and women.

This small website opened a window to Youqing's lonely and painful long night.It turns out that in this world, there are still a handful of people who are the same as me.This made him, who had been in pain and fear, feel great comfort and redemption.

But even so, although there are a few people like him in the ends of the earth, Youqing also knows that he is still the outlier in the group.

So he has always been cautious, carefully guarding this secret until a weekend in the first semester of the second year of high school.

Youqing was admitted to a key school in Xi'an in the senior high school entrance examination. Most of the class were local day students, and there were very few boarding students like him.It was a Saturday school holiday, and Youqing came to the empty computer room alone.

As usual, he picked a corner and opened the website he often browses.The autobiographical novel he read recently was updated. In the latest chapter, the two protagonists in love chose to separate because of worldly eyes. Seeing this, Youqing's eyes couldn't help but turn red.

Youqing was immersed in the scene of the novel, when suddenly the door was opened with a bang, and the people who came were the classmates in the class, Da Ma and Xiao Li.Youqing panicked all of a sudden, before turning off the computer in time, he unplugged the power socket in a hurry.

Da Ma and Xiao Li obviously didn't expect that there would be people in the computer room on the weekend, and they were also taken aback.

"Youqing, why are you here? What are you doing here?" Da Ma came over and asked.

"I, I'm here to read study materials online." Youqing faltered with a flushed face.

"What study materials are you looking at?" Xiao Li who was at the side saw his face flushed and asked a little maliciously.

"No, it's nothing, I, I'm going back to the dormitory." After saying that, Youqing stood up straight and left the classroom in a hurry.

Both Da Ma and Xiao Wen are day students, and their homes are close to each other, so they often play together.Xiaowen went to play at his cousin's house last weekend and stole a colored disc to brag about to Da Ma. The two agreed to go to Da Ma's house this weekend to see it.

As a result, Da Ma's aunt brought her little cousin to visit today, so Da Ma and Xiaowen had no choice but to say that the school temporarily notified the make-up class, planning to take it to the school computer room to peek.

Seeing Youqing running out in a panic, the two looked at each other and smiled badly.

"This kid probably didn't know what small website he was looking at just now, he blushed." Xiaowen said.

"This Youqing stared at Wen Wen weakly, and was sluggish. I didn't expect to be so courageous." Da Ma said.

"Why don't you say that people should not be judged by their appearance? I said, let's open it and see what website he is on." Xiaowen looked up and down, and at this moment another bad idea popped up.

The two of them opened the computer's browser and clicked on the history.As a result, the computer screen was not the beautiful woman they expected, but a picture of two men hugging each other affectionately. The two of them almost dropped their jaws to the ground in surprise.

"I kao, this kid can't be gay!" Da Ma said in shock.

At that time, people of the older generation had never heard of this term.The younger generation has heard a little bit about this matter, but no one has actually seen a homosexual in real life. Everyone thinks that this is extremely abnormal, some monsters, monsters, ghosts and snakes.

Xiaowen looked through the gallery of the website again, and they all showed intimate photos of two men holding hands or hugging.

"This is too disgusting, I just said that this Youqing doesn't usually play with other boys, so he is a second chair." Xiaowen couldn't help cursing.Erzhi is a dialect of curse in the north, which describes a man as neither male nor female.

Youqing was assigned to the science class in the second year of high school, and the majority of the class was male.Afterwards, this matter was spread among the boys, and it became an open secret.

Every group of boys would gather together and joke around with a playful smile on their faces. If Youqing passed by, the boys would be instantly silent.When he walked over, everyone would laugh a little strangely.

Although no one mentioned this matter to Youqing face to face, Youqing also vaguely felt that everyone knew her secret.After this incident happened, although he was still taciturn as before, and his classmates still rarely talked to him, their attitude towards him had changed.

In the past, his classmates just ignored him, and he also tried his best to minimize his sense of existence.But now, although the students still seldom interact with him, they look at him with a strange look in their eyes.

Youqing was also sad for a while because of this, but then gradually became numb, since others didn't want to see him, he simply put a shell on himself.Except when he had to talk to others, such as handing in homework and cleaning, he usually stayed silent and buried himself in his studies.

Many people in the class are local students, and many of them are from well-to-do families. Of course, they can not only focus on their studies, but also make friends, eat, drink and have fun in their spare time.

And Youqing was admitted to a key high school in Xi'an from a small county town, and it was the whole meaning of his coming here to concentrate on studying and get admitted to a good university.No one wants to talk to him, so he simply treats himself as air and others as air.For a person like him, friends are a very luxurious thing.

In this way, Youqing lived a three-point and one-line life in the canteen, classroom, and dormitory day after day.Every day is busy and fulfilling, but also lacking in anything.

Until Gu Ze appeared.

At that time, it was the first semester of the third year of high school. Less than a week after the start of school, the teacher said that a transfer student was coming here to take classes.As soon as the morning reading was over the next day, Gu Ze appeared at the door of the classroom.

"Students, let me introduce you. This is a new student in our class, Gu Ze."

Gu Ze just came here today, so he didn't wear a school uniform. He was wearing a gray hoodie and black sweatpants, and he was wearing a pair of expensive brand-name sneakers.With his hands in his trouser pockets, he stood awkwardly on the podium.

Gu Ze was tall and thin, with slender legs and broad shoulders.His chin is sharp like a knife, his nose bridge is straight and his facial features are profound, his skin is ivory white like that of Westerners, and his brows reveal a bit of arrogance and disdain.

Similarly, Gu Ze's height has reached around 1.8 meters. Although he is a bit thin, his tall frame and the thin layer of muscles covered him are already in the transition period between a boy and a man.

This is like a handsome young man walking out of a celebrity poster, obviously completely different from the rough and slovenly men in science and engineering in the class.This new transfer student, Gu Ze, exudes a rebellious and aloof air all over his body, as if a phoenix has come to the chicken coop.

When the few girls in the class saw this new transfer student, they couldn't help but secretly blush.Even Youqing couldn't help but look up at Gu Ze twice more.

"Student Gu Ze, please introduce yourself." The teacher said kindly while standing on the podium.

"I have nothing to introduce myself." Gu Ze said with a cold face and disdain, his voice was clear and magnetic.