The people I chased later became my backup tires.

Xie Yu's departure was too hasty, like a castle that was destroyed for no reason.

Li Yang stared blankly at the empty seat, and his heart seemed to be emptied accordingly.

It's a hard feeling to have a habit broken.

At least Li Yang couldn't ignore that weird feeling for quite a long time.

Some sour, sad feeling.

He thought that he should be just an ordinary friend in that person's heart.

After all, Xie Yu has too many friends like that, and he always faces his classmates or suitors with a perfect smile.

Xie Yu is like a gentle white lotus that emerges from the mud and is not stained. He is restrained and polite, elegant and handsome. No one will dislike him.

So he was left behind... which was perfectly normal.

Li Yang is not a sharp-eyed person, but perhaps because of his childhood experience, he is always stubborn.

He wants to be excellent, to be the most unique existence in Xie Yu's eyes, not the kind that can be thrown away at any time.

But in the end he is still a boy, even though he is precocious, he still can't restrain the thoughts in his heart.

There are two photos of Xie Yu stored in Li Yang's mobile phone, one is Xie Yu smiling at him, holding a glowing red apple in his hand, his eyebrows are flying high, his jet-black hair resting in mid-air, his eyebrows are gorgeous and good-looking, like the most beautiful Brilliant oil painting.

The other one is just the straight back of a teenager, the school uniform is a bit loose, maybe because of the angle, that slender waist looks particularly prominent in the mirror.

This is a person who can make people addicted just by looking at him.

Li Yang printed out the photo and made it into a big poster, which was pasted on the wall of his small bedroom.

Day and night, he is devout like a believer in the gods.

That feeling was too secretive, like a shadow under the sun, and like Xie Yu was by his side, accompanying him day and night.

Li Yang knew that there was probably something wrong with him, if it was someone else, he might have let it go long ago, how could he do such a thing.

He paid close attention to the news of Xie's family, and even went to buy magazines about Xie Yu. In the photo, the young man looked indifferently, polite as always, as if he was looking at him through the mist of mountains and seas.

Li Yang is like a secret collector, collecting everything about Xie Yu.

It was precisely because of this kind of attention that Li Yang was able to discover Xie Yu's abnormalities more and more.

For example, in the interview, Xie Yu's smile is exactly the same as Xie's father, but if you are careful, you will find some abnormalities.

Xie Yu's smile is like a high-level imitation. In some shots, Xie Yu's real reaction is actually more expressionless.

Indifferent, detached, like icy snow covering the sky and the earth.

However, Li Yang only felt that he saw the tip of the iceberg faintly exposed through the meticulous shell of that person.

It's a shame that he should be happy.

But when time settled down and those trance thoughts became clearer, he would feel distressed again.

The boy's love is pure and pure, and he only hopes that the person he likes will be carefree and happy, and will never be eroded by any darkness.

After graduating from high school, Li Yang worked in a coffee shop.

This is the place where he met Xie Yu again. As time passed, Xie Yu was wearing a smoky blue sweater, with his slender legs casually erected, lazily and casually.

It's still as beautiful as in memory, but with a little more calm posture.

Xie Yu didn't recognize him, Li Yang steadily brought a cup of coffee to him, and said in a calm and steady voice, as if he really didn't recognize him: "Your coffee is a little hot, please use it slowly."

Xie Yu raised his eyes and just glanced at him casually, smiling: "Thank you."

Li Yang's heart bumped slightly, and a strange feeling came over him, as if he was holding a rabbit in his arms, constantly restless.

It's fate, maybe.

He lowered his eyes to serve the other guests, but his peripheral vision wandered uncontrollably.

Li Yang was tall and handsome, wearing a black clerk's uniform, showing a somewhat good figure.

A lot of guests came for him, and there were not a few people who asked him for his contact information.

Li Yang returned to his senses in a daze, and smiled at the guest in front of him who asked for his contact information: "Sorry, this is not in compliance with the rules."

Li Yang worked in the coffee shop throughout the summer vacation, and Xie Yu seemed to be a frequent visitor here. After a long time, the two of them occasionally chatted about irrelevant topics.

Xie Yu smiled and asked him why he never gave customers contact information. There is no such rule in the store.

Li Yang added two cubes of sugar to his coffee, picked up a spoon and stirred them evenly, and said unhurriedly: "Then do you want it?"

Xie Yu didn't reply, just looked at him with a bit of inquiry.

Li Yang could see that he seemed to be observing his own reaction.

So he continued: "If it is you, then I am willing to give it."

It's all about likes and dislikes.

Xie Yu finally did not add his contact information.

Li Yang actually knew it in his heart, and he never had much hope.

This was the second time they met, Xie Yu had already forgotten about him.

In fact, this is normal, after all, who would deliberately remember a person who is insignificant to him.

When school was about to start, Xie Yu didn't come to the coffee shop very often. Li Yang met the system when he quit his job.

There is not much drama in the real world, as if it was natural, a voice sounded in his consciousness.

Li Yang didn't listen to the system too much, he only remembered that his wish could come true.

any wish.

For a moment, he was moved. What did he want most?It was nothing more than Xie Yu's liking for him.

But if he really granted such a wish, he would even look down on himself, it would be too despicable.

If you like someone, you should show it, show your kindness, put your heart into it, and prove that you are worth it.

Li Yang accepted the test of the system.

Time stood still, and he entered a different dimension.

The system told him that this trial was firstly to test their will, and secondly to exercise the strength of their souls.

After all, those mission worlds are terrifying existences, and without a good ability to withstand stress, they can basically be ruled out.

Li Yang doesn't remember how he survived it, but only remembers the feeling of hundreds of needles piercing his heart, the dense stinging pain, almost makes people scratch their hearts and livers.

Literally scratching the heart and scratching the liver.

In a blur of consciousness, an illusion appeared in front of his eyes.

Someone knelt down and gently stroked his sweaty face, and said pitifully, "It's so pitiful."

His heart relaxed, and his fingers moved slightly, as if trying to grab something.

Li Yang didn't expect that he would be the last one to survive.

But this is far from just the beginning.

The first horror world is far more thrilling than he imagined.

Li Yang was just a student before, at most his mind was clear enough and his fists were trained hard enough.

He is not afraid of any ghosts, but the ghost in the river uses illusion to confuse his mind.

When "Xie Yu" appeared, Li Yang really had the urge to stay.

That was almost what he imagined, Xie Yu sat in the small home of the two of them, turned his head to him and said, "What are you doing in a daze?"

The sun falls between the eyebrows of the sweetheart, and falls on the tip of his heart.

Li Yang escaped by narrow escape, but the system helped him after all.

Li Yang broke through the illusion by himself, and no one knows how he felt when he personally tore open the illusion that blinded people's thoughts.

After the end of the first world, Li Yang obviously seemed to be a different person. He began to learn how to truly restrain his emotions and how to abandon the emotions that should not be left behind.

How to suppress the thoughts in my heart, how to become a person who is perfect enough to make Xie Yu put his eyes on him.

Time passed little by little, and the collision between life and death was still being staged non-stop.

During the day, he is perfect in handling things, and in the eyes of others, he is a perfect male god. At night, he paces in the terrifying shadows, switching between the identities of hunter and prey.

What Li Yang didn't expect was that Xie Yu would come to their school as an exchange student in his junior year.

He is the one who comes to receive.

With a smile on his face, Li Yang said to Xie Yu in the same manner as he treats others: "Welcome to our school for inspection."

Xie Yu smiled at him with curved lips, the alienation and strangeness in his eyes was clear.

The third time we met, it was still as a stranger.

However, Li Yang's mood is no longer as fluctuating as before. He clearly understands that if he wants to leave his mark in this person's eyes, it's useless to just secretly fall in love and slowly approach him.

So he chose to seduce.

Completely different from that kind of frivolous seduction, Li Yang made some small and big coincidences, carelessly touched the back of his hand, and helped Xie Yu solve some new problems.

Naturally, Xie Yu had the best relationship with him in this completely unfamiliar school.

So Li Yang naturally revealed some hints again, such as when Xie Yu accidentally broke the cup when he received the love letter, or when others invited Xie Yu, he casually and without obvious meaning transferred the interest of others to his own heart. superior.

When the two got along with each other, Xie Yu couldn't really feel it, maybe he suspected it, but Li Yang never showed it, he just pursed his lips and smiled, as if the two were just serious friends .

Li Yang has experienced many horror worlds, and blood and disguise have already penetrated into his soul.

Violence planted the hidden factor in his blood.

In many cases, when he encounters things out of control, he just wants to solve them with his fists, or a scalpel or a boning knife.

No one knew that such a gentle and polite person, like a snow lotus on an iceberg, had been assimilated by the darkness and fell into an abyss from which he could not extricate himself.

Li Yang is aware of his changes, but what is reassuring is that with Xie Yu's side, he never needs to worry about losing control.

Xie Yu is the chain of humanity that binds him, and all his love and hope are tied to this person.

As a human being, there are bound to be weaknesses.

The time when Xie Yu took the initiative to pursue him was when Li Yang's illness was at its worst. At that time, he only felt blood red in front of his eyes, and everything seemed to be filled with scarlet ominousness.

Li Yang was afraid that he would not be able to control himself, so he refused.

But what made him think differently was Xie Yu's persistence.

Maybe Xie Yu just wanted to have a relationship, and just regarded him as an object of observation.

But it didn't matter, just that was enough to make him happy.

In fact, Li Yang had a certain amount of consideration in dividing all the power he obtained into the small world. Those powers are full of violent factors. If he keeps them, one day he will lose control and harm others and himself.

This is why the targets Xie Yu encountered had certain flaws, paranoid, violent, bloody, cold, selfish, and pathological.

Li Yang actually didn't expect that Xie Yu would find out, and started dating him seriously.

He thought that he would have to wait for a long time and slowly chase after him, but Xie Yu was probably the only light for him in the original sense.

Xie Yu accepted him, is it because of the dependence that only he accompanied him in the long world?

Li Yang doesn't know, even though he is married to Xie Yu now.

It wasn't until the first anniversary of their marriage that Xie Yu pressed against his ears and released all the shackles on him with his own hands.

"Actually, I always remember you, in high school, in the coffee shop, and in college."

"Because of you, I want to fall in love."

"Because it's you, I choose to rely on you."

Perhaps from the very beginning, the teenager with an emotional disorder had a strange love and attention for him that shouldn't appear.

The reason why he pretended to forget was just to cover up the unnaturally beating heart.

What the Xie family taught Xie Yu has always been restraint, etiquette, and family first.

If Li Yang, the only weakness, is exposed when Xie Yu's wings are not full, everything will go to the unknown.

Li Yang later understood all of this.

Everyone's world may be dim from the beginning of chaos, and darkness always pursues light, so Li Yang pursues his only sun until the sun takes root in his world and becomes his only bond.

For Xie Yu, it should be the same.