Please stop the behavior of the king of vinegar [e-sports]

It was only at this moment that Lu Feng suddenly remembered that he should have understood why Chu Ya's mood fluctuated so much.

If it were him in the past, he would also be very repulsed to mention his father's persecution to others, not to mention that Chuya's situation is not weaker than him at all.

This is probably the so-called victim shame. It is obviously not my fault, but I can't help but attribute the cause to myself, and I also regard the consequences as my own shame.

When Lu Yan was studying abroad in the past, he talked with the doctor more or less about this matter, and the other party also analyzed this kind of psychology to him at the right time, and took it as one of the main directions of treatment. There have been many positive effects.

But now, Lu Feng wanted to tell Chu Ya about this as well.

Or rather, he should have figured out a way to do so long ago.

***

"I won't leave you alone until you come to me and admit your mistake."

Under the quiet light, Lu Yan waited for Chu Ya to stop moving, then let go of his arms and looked at him, and said first, "Whether you feel sad or angry, I am responsible, do you understand?"

But Chu Ya looked blank, and asked him "Why are you responsible for being an idiot?" Lu Yan couldn't help stretching out his sinful hand, squeezed Chu Ya's face, and replied, "Because I'm your boyfriend. "

"How many times have I taught God Chu about this? Even a puppy should have learned it by reflex?"

Chu Ya's cheeks were obviously hurt by being pinched, and she was stunned: "You, are you saying that I am a dog?"

Lu Yan let go of his hand and replied, "Why, God Chu can spray people, but I can't?"

Then he patted Chu Ya's face: "But correct me, I mean, God Chu is not as smart as a puppy."

The other party was still pursed and unconvinced, but quickly lowered his eyes, took the initiative to get into his arms, barked twice in a very weak voice, and leaned against him in a low voice: "I know that Team Lu is doing it for my own good, so You shouldn't lose your temper."

Lu Yan stroked the top of his furry head, and replied: "I also made mistakes first, you are not losing your temper."

"You, what's wrong with you..." Ke Chuya probably couldn't figure it out, "Why isn't Team Lu angry?"

Lu Yan hugged him, pretending to be curious: "Is it strange? I remember that someone started to output crazy when they met me in the ranking for the first time, and I wasn't angry."

The person in his arms was quiet for half a minute before he realized what was wrong: "...Wait a minute, don't take the opportunity to distort the facts, you've been playing with me all the time in that ranking—"

Chu Ya seemed to want to shake his fist, but Lu Feng raised the corner of his mouth and smiled: "It's good that God Chu knows."

The other party's depressed mood dissipated a bit, and he tried to start a physical attack, but Lu Feng easily dodged it, so he quarreled: "It's not suitable for me, a weak man, to be violent like God Chu?"

He blocked Chu Ya's hand, and the nightgown almost slipped off his shoulders, and his hair was not completely dry, which indeed meant that he was slightly underestimated.

Chu Ya looked at his red shoulders, and muttered, "Those who don't know think I raped you", while Lu Yan handed the hair dryer to Chu Ya, and said involuntarily, "Then help me blow my hair first. No matter how hard you jerk me, you won't catch a cold."

The other party muttered a few times, but had no choice but to kneel obediently on the bed behind him, rubbing his black hair and starting to act as TONY's teacher. In the end, he shook the hair that had become fluffy due to the heat of the hair dryer in satisfaction, He said confidently, "The clothes I changed are still in the bathroom."

The implication is that the underwear that Chuya helps wash every day is also there.

The other party reacted, his face turned red, but he could only admit his mistake and jumped out of bed, and went to get his clothes as usual.

Master ChuY's stubbornness is also reflected in all aspects. If he wants to help wash underwear, there will be no one day.

Lu Yan looked at the warm light with a smile, and closed his eyes quietly after a while.

——He knew that Chu □□ was emotionally agitated earlier, so it was inconvenient to mention many things, and he could only speak when the other party calmed down after washing.

Sure enough, a few minutes later, Chu Ya moved back to him, looking no longer so disappointed, and his attitude was very sincere: "There are only 20 minutes left and I have to go to bed. What else does the road team want from me?"

Lu Feng secretly made up his mind, but on the surface he took Chu Ya's hand and deliberately teased him first: "20 minutes? That's definitely not enough for me to do what I want. I have to start in 40 minutes anyway."

Chu Ya's eyes panicked when he heard this, and his ears were burning red: "I, we haven't—"

Lu Yan interrupted naturally: "Yes, so this is my self-introduction, what does God Chu think?"

"You..." Chu Ya seemed to suddenly fall into some kind of imagination, and quickly hesitated, "I, I don't believe it."

But Lu Yan didn't intend to make a fool of himself at all: "Then after God Chu inspects the goods, I'll believe it."

He Lachuya sat down, a bit reluctant to interrupt the other party's imagination, but still hugged the other party into his arms: "So... let's do something else."

The other party seemed much calmer, without any resistance at all, Lu Yan also became serious, and told him what he really wanted to say.

***

In the room, the gentle light began to flicker layer by layer as time went by. Lu Yan couldn't remember how many words he said, but from the beginning to the end, he never let go of his embrace.

At least he hoped that his hug would give Chuya a sense of security, at least it would make Chuya not shrink back too much when he heard him mention the past.

He also wanted to teach Chuya that it was not the victim who was wrong, but the perpetrator himself—even if the victim did not behave noble, great and perfect after being hurt.

Perhaps, Chu Ya never thought about it. Before he went to Uncle Li's shop to steal snacks, his classmates who isolated and laughed at him were actually doing the same wrong thing.

Lu Yan said: "So don't keep denying yourself because of this matter - at that time, Li Shuoyang chose to forgive you, and you also corrected and repaid, didn't you?"

Such a simple logic needs to be explained, but this makes Lu Yan feel stuck in his chest. He doesn't know how hard Chuya has been against him all these years.

The other party seemed to listen to what he said, but still seemed to be uneasy, and after a long silence, he answered first: "But... at least I don't want you to know about this kind of thing..."

Lu Yan had thought that he would say that a long time ago, so he hugged him tightly and replied honestly: "So... I am also waiting for the day when you will tell me yourself."

Chu Ya was stunned, as if he didn't understand what he meant: "How...how can I tell Team Lu about this kind of thing? Unless I'm full, I have to greet him with Sichuan cuisine and Hunan cuisine—"

Lu Yan's gaze was fixed on him, forcing him to look at himself, and continued to say to himself, "I can wait for ten or twenty years."

He thought of those nights when he couldn't sleep even after taking medicine, ChuY would always send him a private message after training—and at this moment, he knew that he could also have the same tenderness: "I originally planned to always be kind to God Chu. Well, I still thought that one day Chu Shen might slowly untie his knot, but now that things have come to this... I also found that I was wrong, and it is better to be fast than to be slow."

This kind of "quickness" is probably not shy, telling Chuya directly: "I understand, you can't accept those things that I know for a while-but I hope you remember that no matter what you have experienced before , no matter how angry, sad, or mentally explosive you are now, I will be by your side and know what you really want to say."

"As for what I think is bad for you, wanting to leave and want to break up, it is also impossible to happen in this life."

"If you don't know how much I like you by now, then I'm really going to give up on live broadcasting women's clothing."

The lights flowed quietly around for a while, Chu Ya seemed to finally understand, and finally looked up at him—the eyes were full of emotions, Chu Ya also frankly accepted the reality after hesitant to speak a few times Like, nodded slowly.

Although Chu Ya didn't say anything for a while, this nod reassured Lu Yan, knowing that this was the beginning anyway.

Sure enough, the person in front of him contemplated for a long time, and he didn't think of anything at first glance. Instead, with a face of deceit, he gradually started to get into the pit, and promised him: "Then...the matter of Brother Li, we will solve it together in due time , I will try my best to talk about the past with Team Lu when I have time in the future, okay?"

"But...but I may not be able to explain everything clearly in a short while. Don't dislike my poor Chinese."

Lu Yan nodded immediately, and coincidentally, the bedtime alarm clock just rang, Chu Ya came back to his senses, Lu Yan also turned his head and pressed the alarm clock, and grabbed Chu Ya first: "Then go to bed today, and tomorrow's game can't be delayed. "

He knew that the knot in Chu Ya's heart didn't happen overnight, so he teased him for the time being, trying to divert his attention: "After all, God Chu was so fierce just now, it affected my mentality to some extent."

They still have a future and a long future.

Chu Ya was really flustered for a while, and he tried to explain for a long time, but he still couldn't find the reason——Lu Yan put on his clothes, and he weighed Chu Ya's chin, and his tone seemed to be an order: "Today's bed is not warm yet, so God Chu? Forgot? This work attitude is wrong."

The other party thought about this in a daze, so he hurriedly pulled off the quilt and got in obediently, trying hard to start his own bed warming work.

Lu Yan waited for a few minutes, and after Chu Ya said "Okay, come quickly", he lay down and commented: "It's still hot."

Under the quilt, Chu Ya showed off: "Then... of course, if I have a quilt warming professional, I should be able to get a perfect score of eight."

Only Lu Feng could hear the depression in his tone, so he was silent for a long time, and took him into his arms.

"The former Li Shuoyang and the former Xie Ting treated you very well, and you don't have to forget them." Later in the darkness, Lu Yan buried his face into Chu Ya's side neck, leaving a soft sentence, " But from now on, if you want to move forward, you will have a new future and new reliance, understand?"

Chu Ya blushed while drowsy and asked, "Who...?"

Lu Feng was also inexplicably angry, and finally hugged Chu Ya tightly, saying: "God Chu will let me be a man in the future, so, of course, I can only rely on me."

作者有话要说：很想写小沨做男人那一天，但是阿江不允许，我太难了感谢在2020-02-2705:28:40~2020-02-2803:38:42期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

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