Can't cross by oneself

19.

Mr. Xia and I have always had a good understanding.Regarding the fact that his mother invited Guoqing to his house before, we both seemed to have forgotten it, and we didn't say anything.

It's a holiday on October [-]. He goes back to his house and I go back to mine.

When I saw my mother, I seemed to see Mr. Xia's mother again.Busy before and after, booing and inquiring.Parents all over the world have the same heart.

Mom, do men have to be with women?

What, I want to find a girlfriend.You are so old in a blink of an eye, if you have a girl you like, mom will not object.Just bring it to mom to see.

Where are the boys?

That's fine too.As long as it's your friend.

I don't speak anymore.In Mom's eyes, maybe she doesn't even know what sex and love are.

She became more and more cautious with me, for fear of offending me.The wrinkles on my face and cloudy eyes made me dare not look directly.

This holiday I have been in a chaotic state, thinking wildly or in a daze every day.

I miss Mr. Xia very much.

20.

Mr. Xia said he would teach me English.

In fact, he himself is half-hearted, and he only passed the fourth-level exam twice.Of course it is better than me, I have to prepare for the third test.

I bought a vocabulary, a grammar and a stack of test papers.

Give me fifty words every day, and if I make a mistake, I will be punished.

I asked him what the punishment was.I do all the housework, what else can I do.

Then you will be fined not to touch me for one day.

I sneered, you are sure you are not punishing yourself.

He immediately grabbed my overgrown hair and ruthlessly ravaged it.

Then I will punish you to beat my back for an hour.

So cruel!

This is your spur.

Mr. Xia, you are so calculating, they are all favorable conditions for you.

If you're right all week, I'll give you one request, okay?

Row!

Mr. Xia owed me three demands in the end.

21.

Mr. Xia speaks with a little accent, like Suzhou dialect, with a soft tone.Although he is tall and big, his voice is as clear as a wind chime, but he is still a little hoarse.

He sometimes utters swear words, which he learned in junior high school, and he swears without ambiguity.

I can't stand people who talk badly, except him.

The soft and sticky tone combined with the crisp voice of swearing makes one feel uneasy, as if being molested.

He often said "I X" while doing it, and his movements were extremely ruthless.Turn around and keep apologizing to me, feeling that I have hurt my self-esteem.

In fact, I have been very useful, I think it is probably related to my self-abuse tendency.Of course, it is limited to the person in front of me.

22.

I have been with Mr. Xia for three years.

As usual, I came home from school early to cook.Passing by the vegetable market, I saw fresh carp and bought one.

His time was always on time, and he stepped into the house smelling the smell of rice.

Mr. Xia never cooks, and I also satisfy his machismo.

He put down his schoolbag and rushed to the dining table.Shouting that he was hungry, he began stuffing things into his mouth.

I am quite helpless.

After taking a shower, I held this document and read it.He suddenly pulled out my profile, rolled over and pinned me down, and kissed me.

Happy [-]rd Anniversary, baby!

I was stunned.

Mr. Xia is like this, which makes me love and hate.

23.

Rarely went out to dinner with friends today.Li Zai in the dormitory celebrates his birthday.It is said to be a birthday, but it is actually a name for everyone to get together.

Mr. Xia and I lived outside for more than half a year, and it was difficult for them to see us.

I only know that we have a good relationship, but I don't know the specifics.

Why don't you two have girlfriends all this time, you are both planning to become monks.

I am most afraid of this kind of problem, but I still can't avoid it.

Mr. Xia joked with them with dirty jokes, but I couldn't do it.

Brother Xia, you are hiding your secrets, have you tried?

Mr. Xia smiled inexplicably.Fortunately, he didn't look at me with his eyes, otherwise I would definitely lose my face when I go back.

I think Xiaosu, you must be a chick!

I didn't speak, I couldn't help but look ugly.Mr. Xia lowered his head to drink, unable to see clearly.

Okay, let's not talk anymore, Xiao Su is shy.

When we got back, neither of us spoke.

I can understand him, but I still have a lump in my throat, and I feel uncomfortably cold all over.

When I got home, I couldn't help crying in the shower.Hot water pressed against the cheeks to wash away the tears.There are drugs, gambling, and whoring in this world, and the only thing that is most intolerable is homosexuality.

I'm the kind of person who can't even reach the ears of God.

24.

About why I call Mr. Xia Mr. Xia.

Because we are separate in the eyes of outsiders, only we know each other that we are one.We are the closest people in this world.

Mr. Xia is each other's tacit secret, our hidden head.

One day we will meet like strangers, and I will say to him: Mr. Xia.He will also vividly remember our past and never forget it.

25.

Finally passed the fourth level, but Mr. Xia failed the sixth level as expected.

The new year is coming soon, and we will graduate in half a year.

I didn't realize that the spring dream in the pond was early, and the sycamore leaves in front of the steps had already sounded in autumn.

Before the days could be counted, I came here in a trance, and it was so fast that it made people's hearts jump.

Mr. Xia began to pester me, wanting to be with me regardless of the occasion.It scares me.

Just like the tenderness before parting, the rainbow before the storm.

I'm like a soldier, and I can't live with peace of mind in my whole life.

26.

A lot has happened in the last half year.We are finally no longer tired of being together every day, and I often have no time to cook.We went to a wonton shop at the door to eat noodles.

He said, let's open such a store together when we are old.

Will we still be together when we get old?

As friends, we have to be together.

I swallowed the noodles, feeling extremely uncomfortable, and my throat suddenly choked.

Ok.

26.

The third new year together.

The sound of firecrackers outside was terrifying, and I lay in bed listening to Mr. Xia's voice from thousands of miles away.

It's so noisy in your place.

Neither do you.

Miss me?

gross.

If you talk nonsense, I will beat you.

cut--

To be honest, I miss you a lot.

Ok.

It's almost midnight.

The host Qiqi's countdown came from the news broadcast.

54321

happy New Year!

happy New Year.

You are 21 years old.

You are 22.

He let out a low laugh.

What are you laughing at?

nothing.Just thinking that we will count each other's ages like this every year in the future.On the day when I get old, I said, old man, you are 98.You said, yes, you are 99.

As I listened, tears were about to flow.

baby.

Ok?

Let's spend New Years together in the future.

can you do it?

Let me try.

it is good.

Remember to prepare a present for me this year.

So righteous.What if I'm not ready?

Then I'll fuck you to death.

Get off your mother!

27.

Cherry blossoms in late March.

I took a day off and insisted on taking him to watch it together.

Want to steal a kiss from me again?

Fuck off!

The cherry blossoms are very beautiful, and if they bloom all over, the street will be full of pink, satisfying all the fantasies of girls.There are couples of men and women around, and it might be a bit against the law for the two of us to enjoy the flowers together.

I dare not hold his hand, and he also dare not hold mine.I broke a flower off a tree and broke it in half.Give half to him and hold the other half, it's considered holding hands.

I kept turning the flower in my hand and staring at it. In fact, my eyes had no focus and were scattered.

Why did you promise me in the first place?

Because you are stupid.

Seriously.

I do not know either.

Do you regret it?

No regrets.

I don't regret it either.

28.

Leslie Cheung committed suicide.

It was April [-]nd when I heard the news. I was brushing my teeth and the news was playing on TV.

I thought I had heard it wrong and jumped in front of the TV.The whole person was blinded all of a sudden.My head was buzzing and I couldn't hear anything.

I felt like a puddle of mud, I tried to climb but couldn't get up.

There are only two words left in my heart: it's over.

IAM WHATIAM

I will always love me like this

Happiness is more than one way to be happy

The greatest honor is the glory of the Creator

Don't dodge to live for the life I like

Standing in a bright corner without using powder and ink

I don't know why a man of such courage would commit suicide.I didn't want to pursue it, so I turned off the TV and rolled up the quilt to hide myself.It was like this all day.

The whole day is empty.

I was still dazed when Mr. Xia released me.He covered my face with a hot towel in distress, and I realized that I had already burst into tears.

I don't want to cry, but the tears can't stop.I don't feel bad at all, the tear duct is broken.