Gay Killing Season

The reason why an angel smiles is because it does not understand the troubles of the world, nor can it experience the sorrows of the world.

Cutting off all contact information is just a desire for peace in my heart. I clearly understand that no one will care even if I disappear for a month or even a year. Fortunately, the motorcycle is still there. I like racing because I am attached to the exhaust pipe when the motorcycle accelerates. The roaring sound, only at that moment will she feel the only tenderness and sense of security.She has always deliberately kept a distance from the world, because she feels that the world has long since abandoned her, and being forgotten by the world, she can only force herself to desperately find an excuse to survive.

Lin Bing put on his helmet and tried his best to accelerate on the field. At this moment, it was empty, as if he only remembered that he had to win this game.On such a hot night, galloping in the wind, he was the first to break through the victory line as handsome as ever. The audience couldn't stop cheering. He took off his helmet, took the money he won by himself, and pushed his motorcycle away lonely. Overly rowdy crowd.

The pier at night is breezy, cigarette butts are piled up under your feet, and the sea is surprisingly calm. This large sea seems to be contracted by yourself, and it only belongs to Lin Bing.

He warmly passed a cup of hot coffee from behind, "Congratulations, the champion is very powerful, the beach is a bit cold, put on your clothes!" Li Dufeng thoughtfully put on a coat for her.

Maybe he really felt a bit cold, took the hot coffee, and didn't throw away his clothes.

"Uncle Lin was just talking angry last night. You know he loves you more than anyone else, but he couldn't find a suitable way. Lin Bing, why are you unwilling to open your door and let us walk in one by one Take you out, aren't you alone in the world where only you are?" Lidufeng put the extra cup of coffee on the ground.

His favorite unsweetened bitter coffee was gone for a long time, and he remembered everything in his heart. With his left hand resting on his knee, he tugged at the coat that was about to slip off.The closer you get, the familiar footsteps and the sound of the sea breeze are particularly pleasant.She naturally sat next to Lidufeng and took the coffee that had just been placed on the ground.Lin Bao immediately extinguished the cigarette between his right fingers and took a sip of coffee.

"I heard from Uncle Lin that at school Lin Bian still listened to you more, not as much as I imagined."

"Lin Ping is very obedient at school, a little girl, but she is very caring and sensible." Yun Xishan's word for word revealed the ordinary relationship between teachers and students.

Lin Bing pinched the shriveled coffee box, full of unhappiness and out of place atmosphere.

"Senior Dufeng, you must be very cold, you have goosebumps on your arms, why don't we go to have supper, the wind is relatively strong here, it's not good to catch a cold!" Yun Xishan gently touched Lidufeng and gradually The cold arms, between the lines, showed concern for him.

Immediately pulled off the clothes on his shoulders, stood up and threw them to Lidufeng, looked at Yun Xishan who didn't notice anything unusual, "I'm leaving first." Because of too much force, the coffee thrown into the trash can "bang" It popped out and splashed everywhere.

Li Dufeng helped Yun Xishan up, and carefully wiped the coffee off her hair.

She didn't come forward anxiously, she used to strongly think how much she was needed in her world, but now she finally finds that she is still redundant. , or maybe it was just her own imagination from the beginning to now, she didn't need her as she imagined, it was just a practice to meet the real him.All courage and impulsiveness were left behind, and he stood there blankly, watching and watching.

Yun Xishan turned around and walked towards Lin Bao, staring at her eyes full of disappointment, and smiled faintly, "It's okay, we know you didn't do it on purpose, let's have some supper together, Lin Bao." She didn't know how to smile It's poisonous, she doesn't know how much damage the "us" blurted out will have.

"May I take you home?" Lin Bi whispered coldly.

Looking back at Li Dufeng behind him, "We all said we'd go to have supper together, finish eating."

"I'm taking you home now, do you want to come with me?" Every word of Lin Bian was the best cooling agent for summer nights. Her heart was already below zero degrees Celsius, so she could no longer speak warm words.

Gradually, he realized that Lin Bao had been trying his best to suppress his emotions, "Let's go have supper together." Suddenly, Lin Bao dragged him away without warning.

In the low pressure atmosphere along the way, after Lin Bing put on her helmet, she accelerated instantly and ran wildly all the way.

Yun Xishan took off her helmet and carefully got off the motorcycle. Lin Bing kept her head down without taking off the helmet, and tapped her head lightly with her fingers.After a while, watching her push the visor of the helmet to the top of her head, Yun Xishan leaned over and took off the helmet from Lin Xing's head, "Look, you are sweating profusely now, do you want to go up and take a rest?" , Put the car in the garage later, drive your car back, ride this car, don’t feel at ease at all, have no sense of security.”

"The relationship between you and him is better than you imagined. You must have always known that I was his sister!" Lin Bian turned off the loud roar of the motorcycle.

The flickering eyes "Well, I definitely don't know. Senior Ting Dufeng mentioned you before, but I haven't seen you before. It doesn't matter!"

"He knew I was your student before I went to school, or did he know it later."

Yun Xishan hung the helmet on the front of the car, "After that, didn't he go to the United States when you were in college?"

"How do you know that he went to the United States when I was in college?" The degree of conviction is getting weaker and weaker.

"Afterwards, we talked about you occasionally when we chatted, Lin Bing, your brother is really good to you, and I hope you will be happy with all my heart, so I hope you can stop being so indifferent towards him." Yun Xi Shan took everything for granted.

Lin Bing swallowed the saliva in his throat, "So you care about him." He silently recited the answer he wanted thousands of times in his heart.

The cheeks covered with smiles and blushes have already given the answer clearly "I don't care, because liking and caring are completely different concepts. At the welcome party for college freshmen, when I saw him standing on the stage in high spirits and giving a speech, It was only then that I understood what the so-called love at first sight means. Lin Bing, you don't know how brilliant your brother was at that time, a complete man of the hour, a real national school girl, I,,,,,,. "

It was like a downpour in winter, mixed with a stinging wind.Yun Xishan still recounted the acquaintance and acquaintance with Lidufeng in all sweetness, completely ignoring the pain in the chest of the unusually quiet Lin Bing at the moment.

Every night, sadness will always be magnified without limit. The sound of car horns stirs in the air and shatters in the middle of the night.

Enjoy the feeling of continuous acceleration of the locomotive to the extreme, you can run ecstasy, the danger is always proportional to the excitement, suddenly there is a second of trance, in order to avoid the old man who suddenly jumped out in front, the panic emergency braking caused the locomotive and the body to fall heavily On the ground, the crisis management learned while racing played a crucial role at this moment.Lin Bing could clearly feel the liquid flowing from his right foot. He supported himself vigorously and looked back at the old man who was paralyzed on the ground due to excessive fright. He took off his helmet and ran to the old man as if he had spent all his energy in his life.

Lin Pan's face became paler, his feet trembled uncontrollably, and he stretched out his hand to hold the old man who was still in shock, "Mother-in-law, are you okay, are you injured?"

"No, it's all right. Are you injured? Did it hurt from the fall?" The mother-in-law squeezed Lin Biao's trembling hands. "Call the hospital quickly, you are shaking so badly."

Suppressing the tears that were about to come out, I struggled to help my mother-in-law, who seemed to be fine, and let go, feeling faint.

Li Yi quickly stepped forward to catch Lin Bian, "What's the matter? Are you okay, mother-in-law."

"I'm fine. This girl must be seriously injured. Ling'er, you should take her to the hospital for a checkup." The mother-in-law looked at Lin Bian worriedly.

Wanting to push Li Yi away, but no more strength left, "No, I'm fine, let go."

"Lin Xing, look at your feet are bleeding, go to the hospital to bandage them, my mother-in-law is my college classmate." Zhao Ling'er looked anxiously at the passing vehicles.

He picked up the extremely reluctant Lin Bing and rushed to the taxi, "Ling'er, you and your mother-in-law go back first and rest early, I will take her to the hospital, and mother-in-law is gone."

"I don't want to go to the hospital, I want to get off the car, the driver wants to get off the car, I don't want to go to the hospital, I don't want to go to the hospital." Lin Bing's trembling voice expressed his resistance to the hospital over and over again.

Realizing that there must be a lot of unknown emotions behind her hoarse resistance to go to the hospital, Li Yi gently put her arms around her bony shoulders, "I will not go to the hospital, but I must take you to bandage, otherwise the wound will be seriously infected. You don't have any extra strength, don't make noise, believe me, I won't take you to the hospital, sleep well, Lin Bian, close your eyes, everything will be fine after waking up."

I don't know if it was too much pain or fatigue, but I didn't resist, and fell asleep in the boy's arms very peacefully for the first time.

Gently lifted up Lin Bing's trousers, everything was too familiar, he used to be young and never changed, and almost tortured himself every day, looking at her feet covered with scars, his heart ached spontaneously, and he patted the sleeping girl Lin Bian, "Treat the wound first before going to bed, otherwise the infection will be very serious, take it easy and drink some water!"

Sleepy, he took the water and sat up with difficulty.

Li Yi skillfully started preparing for the wound disinfection process, and handed the foam on the cabinet to Lin Bing, "Put the foam into your mouth, so as not to hurt the wound disinfection later, you bite your lip, I'm going to start, you are strong." Just a moment."

The bubble was ruthlessly suspended in mid-air, and no one responded. Li Yi glanced at Lin Bian worriedly. She was so strong that she didn't make a sound. How strong she must be in her heart. Facing such a painful wound, she can pretend nothing happened.Li Yi was all too familiar with this kind of heart-pounding pain. He remembered how he cried out in pain every time he bandaged the wound.

Li Yixin gripped very tightly, "Call out if it hurts. Trying to endure it will intensify the pain. In fact, the way girls choose to cry is the best way to vent it. I won't laugh at you." Wrapped the gauze very carefully, for fear of getting hurt. Pain her, "Is there any discomfort in other parts of the body? Anyway, I'm hungry, so I ordered a takeaway, and I ordered one for you, braised pork rice, don't you mind!" Hastily packed up the medicine box.

Li Yi turned on the TV and put the remote control within her easy reach, "If you don't eat, it's okay if I eat two servings. You watch TV by yourself, and I'll eat first. I'm a little hungry." Lin Bian was grateful, he could feel what she was thinking, because he used to be so pitiful.

Through the window, I can clearly see the bright lights outside, no moonlight, no stars, the wound is covered with gauze bandaged by rough handicrafts, and the smell of braised pork rice blows to my face, a series of silent companionship is better than nagging concerns, the lights suddenly went out.

Turn off the noisy TV, "Is it true that you are not afraid of such a dark night, but you will feel safe? I like to sit on the window at such a night and enjoy the thrill of hanging my feet in the air. I have dreamed of jumping countless times. It’s not worth it when I think about it later, because there are too many excitements in life waiting for me to experience. I like the night sky with stars the most, because they say that the stars will bring the soul of the person you miss to you, and the stars don’t He was there all the time. Lin Biao, you have autism and phobia of downtown. From the first time I saw you, I knew that you thought that everyone in the world abandoned you, so you treat everything with you They are deliberately indifferent, you want to keep a distance from them, because you are lonely in a world of one person, you don’t want them to find out your weakness, pretending to be strong is also a way to cover up the pain. Lin Bi, it’s okay to be autistic Yes, as long as you can overcome yourself and come out, there are many people with you outside, and you are not alone. Lin Bi, I used to be autistic, and I came out because I felt that the world needed me. I need my presence to warm more people."

Tears burst out of my eyes suddenly, "This world never needs me, but my own self-existence, maybe because I am too stupid, I can't find any reason to live, but I still pull myself."

"No matter how indifferent the world is, there will always be a moment that wants to warm you, and the person who is eager to get your warmth will find the goal you are desperately needed by the world, gradually."

"There is no one who needs me anymore, she never needs me, I am just a pitiful substitute." Lin Bian's chest hurts and he is about to suffocate, with a compassionate tone.

Li Yi opened the window and sat on it, "Are you sure she doesn't need you anymore, but anyone who makes a decision based on their own imagination is self-inflicted. You are not her. If she doesn't say it herself, don't believe it. The reason why love is called □□ , because you told the other person, let her clearly understand this kind of feeling, and it is not all in your own imagination, that is called secret love. You have to trust her, and you must also trust yourself, Lin Bing, if she does not If you don't do it, you will never get the answer. If you don't try, you will stay where you are forever. If you can't get out, you will only be trapped in your small corner."

He has heard and seen the same truth thousands of times, and his unpretentious and sincere language strikes the heart. He may have had a similar experience, so he is more convinced, and he may be particularly empathetic, so he does not feel disgusted.On such a tragic night, suddenly I was not as sad as I imagined. I talked frankly with Li Yi about the past. For the first time, I didn't hide or pretend.

The author has something to say:

No matter how indifferent the world is, there will always be a moment when you want to warm you, and you are eager to get your warm person, to find the goal you are desperately needed by the world