Pretend to have a lover

Zhuang Jing knows that she is not a man, and gradually she realizes that she is probably not a woman either, at least not the kind of woman defined by many people. Trouble is coming, but she lives in a world that requires people to be either or not. —and the world doesn't bother to explain what "this" or "that" is.

Just like those countless nights holding a trace of stars that have not been forgotten by the real self under the white light, Zhuang Jing threw the movie ticket into the trash can, and then sent a text message: Break up, goodbye.Just kicked off the school grass that was newly handed in less than two days.Turning around, she entered a high-end barber shop. The barber came over with a smile and recommended her the most popular hairstyle this year. He stared at her moonlight-like demure face intentionally or unintentionally, as if he saw a beauty more eye-catching than Megan Fox. , is still attentive and enthusiastic.Speaking of popular hairstyles is just a popular look in the public sense, it may be because Zhuang Jing was born with a unique temperament, whichever match her would be too tacky, in the end, in order not to smash the signboard, the barber decided to design it for Zhuang Jing herself And it was built by him.

An hour later, the curling iron was removed, and the barber applied elastin on her. The sexy and thick dark curly hair added to Zhuang Jing's beautiful face. I couldn't believe it. It was so perfect. The barber couldn't help but said, "Too Great!" Then he immediately smiled at his loss of control just now, it can be seen that he was praising from the bottom of his heart, on the one hand, Zhuang Jing is indeed an extraordinary beauty, on the other hand, he also carefully designed And she was very happy with the ideal effect she received. Of course, Zhuang Jing was also very satisfied. She turned her head and smiled at him: "Thank you." The barber couldn't restrain the joy in her heart and nodded unnaturally. The notification tone on the mobile phone on the dressing table vibrated twice, and the text message that had rang since when she had her head permed just now was unwilling to be lonely and waved her fist in protest at her indifference, Zhuang Jing, who was calm and unhurried, finally clicked Open the long-awaited text message, text message one: why?You make it clear, didn't you make an appointment... Why didn't you answer the call?where are you nowShe directly deleted his three-way incoming calls and six text messages from her mobile phone. As the inbox was emptied, she felt lighter, just like watching the garbage that had accumulated for a day being emptied into the truck in the morning, It was wiped out from the earth without any suspense, leaving no trace.The person in front of the mirror, the smile that had been hidden for a long time like an oasis reappeared, and it was so beautiful that it made people overwhelmed.

Apart from the barber, even a few apprentices looked at her pleasingly from time to time, but Zhuang Jing was not the only person in the mirror. The two mature women sitting next to her looked at her for an unknown amount of time, and one of them happened to be the same as Zhuang Jing's. Their eyes met, but fortunately the thrilling scene was just a firefight in the image, she was taken aback, and immediately swallowed her breath to restrain her sharp jealousy, and turned her head to digest herself, but the other woman didn't seem to pay attention to this, it was obvious Jealousy shoots at her frequently, and she is not reconciled if she can't find a flaw, and her life will be in vain if she can't find a loophole. Pretending to be calm, she had nothing to say to the busy apprentice, but her provocative eyes betrayed her every move without reservation.

Zhuang Jing was amused by all that she saw in the mirror. At the same time, she pulled the steel wire surface on her head that had just come out of the oven. The elasticity was really good, and it was fragrant!The barber looked back at her with a smile, and she smiled innocently back. The charming immediately became romantic, the colorful became frightening, the unconventional became stupid, and the fashion became wild. Do hot women still want to have the most fashionable hairstyle~→-→

Before the age of 15, Zhuang Jing was happy, surrounded by all kinds of girls, they depended on her and liked her, and she loved them too, but since then, life has changed, they have changed, and they have become strangers , she no longer owns each of them, everyone seems to have found their own life and sustenance, no longer need her, no longer rely on her, no longer accompany her, everyone has friends of the opposite sex by their side, I don't know why things have become so embarrassing. The confidant who used to talk about everything has become a stranger. Will always grow old with life, will not think that one day they will leave, no longer look back, return to her side, return to the past, turn around and hug her tightly.

What is left now is only a group photo of the three of them. The innocent and bright smiles are silently sealed in the photo album forever, and remain in Zhuang Jing's deepest memory. It was the most beautiful and happiest time since she grew up. However, three years have passed, and she has to do something she doesn't want to do against her will in order to get back to the past and not get further and further away from their world - agree to the invitation of the opposite sex.

It is true that for a woman who likes men, it is quite normal to reject or accept the opposite sex, but for Zhuang Jing, this is a very troublesome chore, especially if she still agrees to the other party no matter what the reason is. This kind of unwillingness to ask for a decision, every time this happens, she will secretly scold herself, "Unreasonable lunatic, big idiot", and she has already regretted it at the same time as agreeing.She began to naively think that if she was given a reason enough not to have a boyfriend because she wasn't good-looking enough, then at least they wouldn't think she was alien and alienate her, and she could stop losing them, be with them, and then She has indeed planned, worried, and depressed for herself to become ugly, but how can she really become an unwelcoming face? After all, no one wants to be ugly, but she still scored 120 points Determined to do it, there is only one reason, she will not let the tragedy happen again, she does not have the courage to endure such a heartless separation again, but she has the courage to become an ugly girl that no one else can imagine.

But the fact is that those hype ideas are unrealistic. There is no one in the world who can't find a partner because of his bad looks. Don't forget that the bastard looks at Mung Dou—the right eye, and Zhuang Jing can't get a boyfriend is not to pay.

For this, Zhuang Jing never explained, she was as indifferent as a wooden sculpture of clay, so she was dubbed an ice sculpture by boys on weekdays. The ex-boyfriend said, "Zhuang Jing is cold-blooded through and through." Spreading bad words like wildfire is definitely not something that can be achieved by just talking casually. This word quickly reached Zhuang Jing's ears. As if it had nothing to do with her, without arguing.It can be seen that these two people were deeply hurt, Zhuang Jing felt like making a fuss out of a molehill, except for going to class, eating and sleeping, Zhuang Jing only met them for one morning, how could there be such a deep relationship, not to mention the relationship, even the two of them didn't look like anything Impressions, not to mention impressions, even without remembering the name... If they were caught off guard by being dismissed so quickly, then this was also unexpected by Zhuang Jing. Just imagine, they couldn't attract Zhuang at all. For Zhuang Jing, who is already strong, it is no different from Muslims parading in the streets, cruelly getting her faith to the ground.However, Zhuang Jing is responsible for other people's dishonesty, but who is responsible for other people's slander against her? No one will know, because she can’t say it, it’s not that she doesn’t want to say it can’t be said, but no one understands it, even if someone is upset and wants to make use of it, or follow suit or some kind of jealousy, It doesn't matter if she criticizes her behind her back or labels her indiscriminately, and she no longer intends to tell anyone outside of her heart. At this time, Zhuang Jing is no longer the good girl who looks at other people's eyes. She has her own judgment and Decided not to listen to anyone's manipulation and indoctrination. As long as she doesn't want to do anything, no one can change her. Similarly, no one can interfere with what she wants to fight for. Unless she gives up, it is impossible.

Zhuang Jing admits that she has changed, she has become tough, she has become confident, and she has become free, and those rumors will not hurt her, nor will they become the motivation for future efforts. Those words and those people mean nothing to her , they will not affect her in the slightest.From the day she lost her movie ticket, she decided not to dazzle others, not to deceive herself, not to lose herself for the sake of losing others.

Being someone who is far from yourself is the most painful thing. Zhuang Jing will never forget the pain of being on the edge of the cliff between the secular world and the self. Just asked her a question solemnly, "If a girl likes a friend's boyfriend, do you think she is mean?"

Zhuang Jing said, "Of course not."

Han Ya probed: "Then can she continue to like him?"

Zhuang Jing paused, feeling that there was something in her words, "That depends on whether they broke up, whether there is a possibility of getting back together..." She noticed that Han Ya was silent, and Zhuang Jing probably guessed who Han Ya was talking about In fact, she liked Sun Kuan and Zhuang Jing already knew it, but Sun Kuan was rejected by Zhuang Jing, but Han Ya didn't know that Sun Kuan was not in Zhuang Jing's consideration. This boy is together, can they still be friends?

Sure enough, Han Ya finally asked what she wanted to ask the most, "If this girl is with him, are they still friends?"

Zhuang Jing looked at her, thought for a while, then looked at her again, making an expression that seemed difficult to answer, while Han Ya was so nervous that she could hardly take her eyes off Zhuang Jing's face, unable to figure out what Zhuang Jing was thinking.Silence is better than sound. Zhuang Jing's long silence seemed to imply that her reply would not be as she wished. I don't know if everyone suffers from obsessive-compulsive disorder when encountering difficult things. Han Ya was anxious and finally endured. I kept asking: "What do you think, I just want to hear what you mean, it's impossible to be friends...is it?"

She was fooled, Zhuang Jing smiled and said: "Just kidding, I have someone I like, well, from my point of view, Sun Kuan is a good person, you should take the initiative and let him see how good you are, he will definitely like it on yours."

She froze for a moment, but when Zhuang Jing said it bluntly, Han Ya was embarrassed: "What, I didn't mention him." But she could see that she was happy.

"The person you like...who?" Han Ya leaned over.

Zhuang Jing looked at her, she looked at Zhuang Jing, "Ah, is it Gong Yang..."