Abnormal

Tossed and turned all night.Accompanied by the sound of snoring one after another in the dormitory, Gao Tong huddled under the quilt and recited classical Chinese.

Finally finished the preview and turned off the night light.Gao Tong hugged the cushion and looked out the window absentmindedly, only to find that it was snowing again.A few flakes of snow fell on the window, secretly embellished with the starry night, quite romantic.

Glancing secretly at the bed next door, the other party was already fast asleep, and his sleeping position was the same as his impression, meticulously elegant and quiet.

Gao Tong lowered his eyes and fiddled with his fingers.

I don't know if it's his illusion, even though this person treats others politely, with a gentle and often smiling appearance, it often gives him a cold and alienated feeling.

However, he had never thought about having too many contacts with this kind of person, so he should not think about it so much.

On the second day, Gao Tong got up the earliest as usual.After getting up, he was dazed by the bedside for a while before getting out of bed. He tried to clean up quietly, but he still noticed that one of the roommates sighed impatiently and covered his ears with the quilt.

Gao Tong was also embarrassed, so he quickly went into the bathroom to wash up.It didn't take long before he rang the wake-up bell. He was wiping his face with a towel when the bathroom door was knocked, "Can you hurry up, how long have you been in?!"

Gao Tong wanted to say that I didn't lock the door, you can go in directly, but then he walked out silently.He bowed his head and went back to the bed to pack his things. Another roommate was getting dressed. Seeing him coming out, he asked nonchalantly, "You got up so early."

Gao Tong nodded, trying to keep his voice as low as possible: "Well...my biological clock is like this."

Someone else was sleeping, the one in the bed next to him.The other party was lying flat, his brows were slightly furrowed, and he lightly blocked the half ray of sunlight that came in with his hands.

"Then are you planning to go directly back to class for self-study?"

"No, I'll eat first and then go back." Although he didn't understand why the other party came to ask this question, Gao Tong answered honestly.

"Then bring me some, I want to lie down for a while, I'm so sleepy." The other party said, throwing him a meal card, "One fried egg, two corn sausages, and a box of fried rice. Thank you, when the time comes Just put it on my table."

He didn't even have a chance to refuse, and watched the other party lie on the bed and continue to sleep with the quilt.Gao Tong was not very happy, but he didn't want to waste any more time, so he picked up the other party's meal card and went out sullenly.

The empty playground is covered with a thick layer of snow, and occasionally a little green artificial turf is exposed. The world is white.Gao Tong listened to his shoe boards stepping on the snow, creaking and creaking, and his gloomy mood was finally swept away.

The only sound in the room was the splashing of the toilet water.Suddenly someone asked: "Old Bo, are you awake?"

There was a faint reply from the other end, with a slightly hoarse voice: "Yes."

"Will you go to the self-study early, and if you do it together?"

"It depends."

"Oh, I'm sleepy. I need to sleep a little longer. Fortunately, someone brought breakfast for me." The man stretched idly: "He left so early, why don't you let him bring some for you, Old Bai?" thing?"

It took two or three seconds before the reply came: "I don't like eating in the classroom."

"That's it."

Bai Xiuwen turned over and didn't reply.However, the other party asked again: "Old Bo, what do you think of him? I think he talks to you the most out of us."

Maybe because he was disturbed in his dream, Bai Xiuwen responded with a little displeasure: "It's nothing." He said coldly, "We live in the same dormitory, and the superficial relationship must be maintained."

"Oh oh oh~" The man showed a clear expression, pursed his lips and said: "We are really unlucky too, I think you were woken up by him just now, this kind of person is really dead, and he doesn't care about his family at all When you take a break, think about yourself."

Bai Xiuwen lay on the bed for a while, and most of his sleepiness had disappeared.He just smiled and didn't respond to the roommate's subsequent complaints.

At that time, he couldn't predict the development of everything in the world, and he did exactly what he said he did to this unpleasant stranger in the same house, just to maintain etiquette-he didn't care what the nature of this person was, and he didn't care about it. It doesn't matter the kind atmosphere that a roommate should have, the starting point of all actions is to reduce troubles.

However, in some ordinary and profound night, when the stars suddenly fell, what appeared in his mind when he was dreaming was the downcast and submissive eyebrows, but he would never forget it.

He was no longer satisfied with the ordinary roommate relationship, and began to spy on each other's lives pervertedly after the dust settled in his teenage years.He couldn't tell what kind of feelings he had for this person, but he wanted to get him no matter what, and he wanted these eyes, which were always downcast, to look up at him all the time and only.

The study and life of the junior high school is not too busy, but Gao Tong's experimental class A is the top priority, and the school teachers are watching closely.The books and exercise books on Gao Tong's desk were piled higher and higher, gradually burying himself in them.

He still ranked high in the class quiz, but he rarely got the first place, and even the top three were barely.He admitted that people's talents are limited, but he did not admit defeat.He thought, maybe the questions were not done enough, and the summarization was not in place.As long as he works hard and studies desperately, God will always reward him——

What stood out to him was his roommate. The word 'Bo Xiuwen' has remained unchanged on the school's electronic list for three years, and often exceeds No.2 by dozens of points with overwhelming results.When Gao Tong went to the teacher's office to ask a question, he heard the teacher gossip about his family background. His father was actually the highest official of the municipality, so he forgot what to ask.

All interactions between Gao Tong and him are limited to living in the same dormitory, and other exchanges are almost zero.This roommate is really a well-deserved favorite of heaven, but he is just an ordinary little person.

The floor where their class is located has the most people when the class is over.The women's restrooms usually show a false sense of being full. Many little girls dragged their friends across half of the teaching building to use the restroom, chattering so loudly that Gao Tong couldn't catch up on sleep after class.They shuttled between the classroom door and the toilet, and when they passed by, they quickly waited for an opportunity to look inside and look at Bai Xiuwen.

Bai Xiuwen did have an appearance that could be admired by men, women and children.So many years later, Gao Tong traveled to many cities and met many people, but he has never seen someone with such a good temperament and appearance like him.He was tall and tall, with broad shoulders and long legs, and his facial features were particularly profound. He actually had an aggressive appearance; however, his temperament was casually calm, covering a few inches of sharpness.

Gao Tong sometimes thinks that he still has a little bit, only a little bit, and envies this roommate.

However, envy is nothing but envy, and this little thought was quickly exhausted under the heavy academic pressure.The child of the poor has long been in charge of the family, and Gao Tong knew from a young age that if he wanted to make any breakthrough in life with his background, he could only rely on his grades...

"Knowledge changes destiny!" When he was a child, his parents would often repeat this sentence when they came back from work in the field.In Gao Tong's memory, his father drank small wine, ate fragrant fried pork with garlic sprouts, and dipped his head in oil to eat with white noodles; The yellow kerosene lamps are the same.

So when he was a student, he got up early and worked hard every day, studying under the stars and wearing the moon. The lenses were several layers thicker, and his eyeballs bulged out when viewed from the side; when he read the densely packed small characters under bright white light, his temples often hurt like twisting, but he Always grit your teeth and think, it will always pass.Just make it through.

At that time, he also thought that he would pass through high school simply and smoothly like tens of thousands of ordinary candidates, waiting anxiously and excitedly for the most important exam in his life-starting a new life from then on.

He knows that he is not too strong a person.In those sleepless nights of tears, I used to hypnotize myself with the great future I imagined, to endure as much as possible, but...

——It would be nice if people could predict the future.

·

No one remembers exactly when the accident happened.It's not worth remembering either.

At that time, when Gao Tong returned to class for self-study after lunch, he found that his chair had been taken to sit on it.He thought for a few seconds and didn't say anything, so he took the chair for one person in the back seat and borrowed it, and then recited the textbook.

"Fish is what I want, and bear's paw is what I want. You can't have both, give up..."

"Have you heard about it! The day after tomorrow, I got a few tickets for the XX Gongti concert, and we will take time off to go see it then!"

"Let's see if I can please come down. My dad won't bring me. It's very annoying. My grades have dropped again recently..."

"That's why, that's why I desire more than the living, and hate more than death..."

"That's XX's concert. Tickets are hard to come by! The scalpers have sold out at sky-high prices, so don't come here if you don't miss this opportunity~"

"Gao Tong, Gao Tong!"

Gao Tong was carrying it on his back when his name was suddenly called.He looked back, and heard the other party say: "Gao Tong, are you memorizing the one you are going to write silently this afternoon?"

"...Well, yes." Gao Tong was stunned for a moment before answering, he glanced at the blackboard from the corner of his eye, on which was written today's recitation content.

Although it was inexplicable, Gao Tong didn't think much about it.Just as he was about to turn his gaze back to the textbook, the two girls sat around him.One of them was the girl with bright temperament sitting opposite Bai Xiuwen in the cafeteria that day.

"Gao Tong, you study so well, teach us your experience!"

"Yeah, yeah, we heard about you when we were freshmen in high school, and you have always been number one in the rankings, but you are too good..."

Gao Tong's face became hot all of a sudden.It was rare for him to talk to a girl so closely and receive such praise, so he was naturally a little embarrassed: "No, no, I'm really just average, there's nothing worth teaching..."

The girl with a bright temperament smiled and said: "It's okay! You can just tell us how you learned! Math is really difficult, and I don't know what the teacher is talking about in physics class..."

"Don't worry about singing late, you don't plan to take the college entrance examination anyway." Another girl joked.

"At this stage, we still need to understand what we need to do!" Jiang Changwan pouted and flipped through the notes on Gao Tong's desk, and continued: "So pass on your learning experience to us! Or tell us your day's schedule Tell us all about it?"

Gao Tong had no choice but to answer: "I wake up early in the morning, maybe around five o'clock... Get up and start reciting words, classical Chinese at noon. Then I personally like to stay in the afternoon to do things like physics and mathematics. I am not very energetic in the morning. The evening self-study is to preview and review, and then do more extracurricular exercises..."

"Wait, don't you study late and don't do your homework?"

"As for the homework left by the teacher, you can finish it in get out of class and spare time." Gao Tong said.

"Oh, it looks like this, but it feels like I won't be able to get up in the morning... Hey, Bai Xiuwen!"

The girl's eyes shifted to behind him in an instant, Jiang Changwan waved to Bai Xiuwen, "Come and sit down!"

Gao Tong's spine froze for a moment, then he relaxed, and he turned a page of the textbook.

He felt a gust of wind.

The other party sat behind him and said with a smile, "What are you talking about?"

Jiang Changwan: "I'm thinking about going to XX's concert the day after tomorrow, and asking Gao Tong for advice on how to study."

"The concert was relatively late that day. If you ask for leave in the afternoon, you should have time." Bo Xiuwen paused, and suddenly said: "Gao Tong is very hardworking, and I really have to learn from him."

Gao Tong: ...

Jiang Changwan: ...Actually, I want to learn more from you, but unfortunately I can't match your brain.

Bai Xiuwen: ...

Except for his three people in the classroom, two were in front of him and one was sitting behind him.Gao Tong was caught in the middle, but couldn't participate in their conversation.He tried his best to concentrate on reciting, but he still couldn't do it.

Gao Tong sighed secretly, got up and said in a low voice, "I'm going to the bathroom, and went out to study in the corridor."

——Whether he is proud or inferior, in this class, he often feels that he has nothing to talk about with others.It is also because he has never had a deep relationship with his classmates, and this feeling of being out of place has penetrated his entire student life.

……

Finally finished reciting, Gao Tong was about to take a breath in this afternoon, when he turned his head and saw Bai Xiuwen coming out of the classroom.

The other party also saw him, and walked towards him without hesitation, looked at him and smiled and said, "Did you go to the toilet? Why don't you go in?"

"Uh, yes. The classroom is a bit boring, I'm memorizing it here." For some reason, Gao Tong's hand holding the book was sweating, and he replied mechanically: "You..."

"I'm going back to the dormitory." The other party shook the racket in his hand, "I came to get this just now. Are you going back to take a nap at noon?"

By this time the weather was getting warmer.The window in the corridor was open, and the spring day was bright and the spring breeze was warm. The other party stood in front of him against the light, his facial features were covered with a layer of warm golden light, and he looked extraordinarily warm.

Gao Tong lowered his eyes, said "oh oh", and said, then I will go back.

"See you later."

"Bye-Bye."

He watched the back of the other person go downstairs and reappeared on the playground leading to the dormitory.Suddenly, there was a kind of unknown sadness in my heart.

Just about to pack up and go back to the dormitory, outside the classroom door, I suddenly heard the voice of the girl next to Jiang Changwan just now.

"Have you heard about Gao Tong and Bai Xiuwen?"

Jiang Changwan looked blank: "Huh? I don't know?"

"Didn't Gao Tong share the dormitory with Bai Xiuwen, and then he directly occupied Bai Xiuwen's position..."

"Wait, I don't know anything. Can you explain?"

"I said, why do you call Gao Tong so close? It turns out that you don't know about him... He chose the No. 1 seat when he entered the dormitory, and he won't be seen playing with his mobile phone or studying in the middle of the night in that seat!"

"You mean he wasn't in that position? Didn't Bai Xiuwen tell him anything? His temper is too good..." Jiang Changwan's tone was quite unbelievable, "Why is this so? I haven't seen him before. Such people.."

"Yeah, it's disgusting."

"..."

Gao Tong's foot that was going to step into the classroom never stepped in.The warm and gentle wind just now seemed to have turned into the most piercing cold wind at this moment, scratching the back of his neck like a knife.He sweats a lot.

The back was as straight as possible, but the legs and feet were still weak; a string in the brain seemed to snap, and even the lips were trembling; he kept swallowing, but he couldn't utter a word.

——No, that's not the case.I didn't want to grab...

In the two or three months since the beginning of school, he will say that he is out of place, but it is actually because other people don't pay much attention to him.Anyway, he doesn't like these people, so he can play by himself.

But he didn't fail to notice that sometimes the words spoken by those students were mysterious and cryptic, and they would look at each other after a word with him, with weird smiles.

At that time, Gao Tong had a faint feeling that something was wrong, but he didn't know the details, so he didn't take it to heart.

"I can't bear it, no wonder they all said that Gao Tong is weird. Someone said it before I was divided into classes. I didn't think much about it at the time..."

"Anyway, sing late, you should stay away from him too. Didn't you see that you asked him how to study today, his attitude is so perfunctory, this kind of academic bully is very selfish."

"Hey……"

Changing beds is actually not worth discussing.But everyone was shocked when they heard this, not to mention that the person who was taken advantage of was Bai Xiuwen, and the person who did such a strange thing was the unkind Gao Tong who everyone had heard of.

Everything that happened fulfilled their hearsay, so everyone started the secret 'missionary' in unison.

After all, Gao Tong didn't go back to the dormitory to take a nap that day.He went to the toilet, entered the innermost compartment, looked at his palm blankly, and then silently shed a few tears.

·

The teacher of the first class in the afternoon asked for leave, and he heard the noise in the class from a long distance away.

Gao Tong gently pushed open the back door, and with a creak, the noise in the classroom stopped abruptly.After seeing who was coming, the discussion returned to normal.

He bowed his head and walked back to his seat, but before his butt touched the chair, he suddenly felt a chill behind his back, and suddenly had a bad feeling——

With a squeak, the chair under him was suddenly taken away!

It was too late to prepare, Gao Tong fell back and fell.He only had time to hold the back with his hands, the seats were too close together, and the back of his head hit the table leg in the back seat heavily.

"..."

In this situation, he was really stunned, and his eyes were blurred.In a daze, he saw someone walking around behind him and standing in front of him swaggeringly.

The vision gradually became clear, Gao Tong shook his head and found that it was Zhang Yuanlong.

This posture is too embarrassing.He supported his arms and tried to stand up, but his shoulders were suddenly grabbed by the other party. Those hands pinched the flesh of his shoulders and necks like iron clamps, and Gao Tong frowned instantly in pain——

"Hey, did you hurt from the fall?"

The movement on their side finally attracted the attention of the surroundings.Everyone stopped talking at the same time and turned their eyes around.

A classmate said: "What's the matter?"

Zhang Yuanlong smiled and replied: "Didn't this Gao Tong fall down? I'll ask him if he broke himself."

A small group of boys let out a burst of laughter, and the others seemed to have not understood the situation, and watched quietly.

Gao Tong took this opportunity to break away from the opponent.He clenched his fists tightly, but when he saw a man as strong as Fang Shan, he lowered his head and pulled his chair back, not wanting to cause trouble again.

The students also thought he was quite boring seeing him like this, but it was just self-study, and being idle was idle, anyway, watching the excitement was not a big deal.

Zhang Yuanlong became angry when he saw his indifference, as if he had hit a ball of cotton with his fist, he grabbed the opponent's collar and shouted: "Can't you fucking hear me? Gao Tong, I am Are you concerned about you?"

Gao Tong coughed and brushed off the opponent's hand with all his strength.

"You play tricks on people for no reason," Gao Tong said slowly, "Then ask me to cooperate with you in playing a scene of friendship between classmates. If I ignore you, you will go crazy. Is there something wrong?"

As soon as these words came out, the whole class fell silent.

He didn't even lift his eyelids to look at this person, it was full of contempt and disdain.Gao Tong patted his sleeves and sat back in his seat.

On Zhang Yuanlong's almost purplish red face, his small eyes were even narrowed due to anger.He didn't expect that the usually taciturn and cowardly looking young man dared to challenge him in front of him.However, he laughed out of anger: "Okay, then I'll tell you why I got rid of you."

Gao Tong opened the pen case and took out a ballpoint pen.He took out the calculation paper under the book and began to write formulas silently.

"When I went back to class this afternoon, I saw my stool in your seat, so why don't you tell me?" Zhang Yuanlong stared at him and said coldly, "It's because my stool has long legs and can run away?"

Gao Tong was stunned for a moment, and then he remembered that his chair was taken away when he returned to work at noon, so he just took the one next to him.I wanted to go back after my lunch break, but I didn't expect those things to happen at noon...

He turned his head slightly, and glanced at Jiang Changwan very lightly.However, it was only for a moment before he looked away again.

"I don't like your appearance the most. What are you pretending to be?" Zhang Yuanlong looked at him and became angry again, so he wanted to curse again, but he only heard someone knock on the table a few times in the front row : "Okay, okay, stop arguing! All self-study!"

The squad leader finally came out to speak.He walked up to the two people who were arguing: "It's self-study, what's the matter between you two that can't be resolved after class? Who is responsible for affecting other students' study?" He turned to Gao Tong and said, "Gao Tong, you will be out of class later." Come out."

Gao Tong thought to himself, why should I go out?

Still he didn't say anything.

A few days after this incident, Zhang Yuanlong kept calm and didn't find fault with Gao Tong.Gao Tong also thought it was over, until one day the head teacher called him out.

"Gao Tong, come out."

At that time, he was deriving the formula of conic section, and he couldn't help being stunned when he heard the young and beautiful class teacher call his name.He nodded, made a mark on the calculation paper and got up to go out.

That class was mathematics self-study, Bai Xiuwen sat a few rows behind him, and when he heard the other party's name being called, the tip of his pen paused.

Many people looked up and looked outside, compared to Bai Xiuwen's reaction, it was not surprising.He looked slightly sideways at Gao Tong's thin back, then lowered his head thoughtfully.

No one knew what the conversation was about that day.According to a classmate who took the opportunity to go to the bathroom to check the situation, Gao Tong stood by the wall with his head down, his hands hidden in the sleeves of his huge school uniform, showing no emotion.The head teacher and the grade teacher stood in front of him, their shadows seemed to envelop Gao Tong.

When Gao Tong returned to the class, he still had no expression on his face.Probably he is really boring to the extreme, and the students have finally put out the fire of gossip, and they are busy with their own affairs silently.

Later, Zhang Yuanlong received an apology letter as he wished. He stretched out the neatly folded note, and the paper was shaken off with a crisp sound. He read a few words as if to announce to the world, and then Laughed out loud.

Someone caught a glimpse of Gao Tong's name on that piece of paper, but when he looked at Gao Tong, he found that this person was quietly sitting in his seat, reading as if isolated from the world.

In a blink of an eye, I arrived at the second year of high school.In July and August, Tsu City is like a giant sauna, and everyone is shrouded in a suffocating steamer.After walking outside for a few minutes, most of my back will be soaked, which is extremely painful.

If it is set that a certain world plane revolves around Gao Tong, then it is easy to find his changes.Before, he may be withdrawn and silent, but he has always been sincere and kind to those around him in his heart; however, after that conversation, he became suspicious, vicious and sensitive, accompanied by extreme ego and arrogance, and sometimes his classmates When asking him about his homework, he would reply indifferently, "I don't know, and he can't speak more than ten sentences a day.

He sealed himself in an area, it doesn't matter how narrow and closed the space is, as long as it can accommodate him.

—he had nothing else to do.

The results of the first exam in the second year of high school were released, and Gao Tong didn't check the results immediately as usual.He waited until after school in the afternoon to pack up his things and watch.

Top five, no, that's natural.

Top ten, no.

No.20, no...

That day the setting sun burned extraordinarily hot, the fiery red light illuminated the distant sky, and also reflected the blush on his pale cheeks.

When he saw the ranking of 27, he was not too surprised, turned his head and walked to the dormitory with his schoolbag on his back.Today the school canceled the evening self-study, giving everyone a night of rest and entertainment to relax.

Their dormitory is the one at the end of the corridor, and the rooms next door are also classmates.When Gao Tong passed the dormitories next to him, he heard that the inside was extremely lively, and even when he returned to the room, he could hear the laughter from the next door from time to time.

What are they doing?

Gao Tong just thought about it for a while, and then said, what they do has nothing to do with me.

He took out a book and read it over and over again, but unfortunately he couldn't read it anymore, so he climbed into bed and covered the quilt to sleep for a while.However, the sound outside the door was getting louder and louder. Gao Tong thought that the door was not closed tightly, so he got out of bed and planned to lock the door.

He didn't know why he couldn't hold back at that time, but he still poked his head and looked towards the source of the sound.At this glance, he saw Zhang Yuanlong.