Abnormal

Gao Tong hung up the phone.At this time, when he arrived at the hospital site, he got out of the car, his feet were cold, and his mind was empty.

——What is your purpose in doing this?

Those once unrealistic fantasies, inexplicable doubts and coincidences quietly overlapped in this short moment.Countless questions surged violently and crazily in his mind like waves.He couldn't figure it out.

... I can't figure it out.

The lights in the hospital were piercingly pale, and the cold light shone on his face, making his face turn blue.As soon as the door of the ward was pushed open, my mother couldn't help being startled.

"Did you come here without something to eat? Why is your face so bad..."

"It's time to eat." Gao Tong coughed a few times and rubbed his eyes: "Mom, let me take over. You can sleep for a while and rest." He looked around, "Where is Qiuqiu?"

"Qiuqiu is going back to your uncle's house first, she has lived there for the past two days."

Gao Tong nodded and found a place to sit.

For unknown reasons, he suddenly suffered from hypotension, dizziness, and countless small black spots floated up on the polished floor tiles before his eyes, jumping and blurring into one piece on the retina.

"They sent your father to have a check-up this afternoon, and they plan to have an operation tomorrow....Tongtong, mom heard that myocardial infarction can't be cured completely, do you think it's true?"

Gao Tong wiped his face and said in a low voice: "I don't know much about this, I'll ask the doctor later. Even if it can't be completely cured, there shouldn't be any problem with normal life."

How dare he tell the truth.With myocardial infarction, the patient's survival depends almost on the number and location of the remaining myocardium, as well as the subsequent rehabilitation treatment; his father had two infarctions in a few days, and they were both high-risk areas. The doctor has said enough, and now he can only hope I can get my life back.

The woman stares silently at her hands.These are a pair of skinny and scorched hands covered with large and small calluses and chilblains, pitted and ugly, as ugly as bare and dry branches on the side of the road in winter.She looked at the man on the bed on the other side of the isolation window, and then sighed softly after a long time.

Gao Tong didn't pay attention to his mother's actions. A voice message came to his mobile phone. He paused and switched to the text to listen.

"Gao Tong, the person you mentioned, he resigned and left last week."

"This matter is indeed inexplicable, and the personnel has not been handled. The newcomer has been working in sales for a few days, and suddenly handed in a resignation letter saying that he wants to go back to continue his Ph. D. The reason is, uh, work is not fun."

Gao Tong typed a few lines, finally deleted them all, and just said: "So that's how it is."

He couldn't trouble Lin Jingyue any more.Ever since the two got acquainted, he kept asking the other party for help, and sometimes even made a request by taking advantage of the other party's position; the word thank you was too frivolous in this situation, but he didn't know how to return it other than that.

Lin Jingyue is really a very nice girl.Gao Tong covered his face, such a person, even if he had any thoughts about her, how dare he delay her.He only hopes that Jing Yue can live a good life in the future, better than anyone else——

But the blessings sent by people like him always feel unreliable.

"Gao Tong, I feel that your matter is quite strange. If you need it, I can report to the higher authorities to apply to check the specific information of this newcomer. Although the hope may be slim, if it can help you..."

"No need," Gao Tong didn't hesitate this time, and replied directly: "[Smiling Face] Actually, maybe I'm thinking too much, maybe the newcomer's phone number is temporarily changed, and then I want to renovate the house. It's also the landlord's fault at night. Go, maybe the decoration team has closed down."

The more I talked, the more I remembered that weird camera.Gao Tong's palpitations made the hairs all over his body open, so he stopped the question.The two chatted for a while, and Lin Jingyue suddenly asked him: "When uncle recovers, do you still want to come back to Shanghai?"

"I didn't report it at the time, and the new company probably dismissed me." Gao Tong smiled wryly, "There should be no chance. Let's look at finding a job then."

"Then do you plan to stay in the north, or look for opportunities in the south? If it's in the south, I can..."

"...It's hard to say." Gao Tong replied to her: "I personally don't like my hometown very much, but I have parents to take care of, so I might not be able to leave."

After a while, Lin Jingyue returned to him: "Well, then I know."

The conversation almost stopped there. Gao Tong looked at the other party's good night and noticed some subtle changes in the other party's attitude.

Next to the ward is the rest area for family members. Gao Tong asked his mother to rest for a while, leaning against the wall and thinking aimlessly.

Bai Zhiyuan.

Mr. Bai...

He was forcing himself not to think about it.Some things should not seek results, which is not good for him or anyone.

Now all I can do is to pay attention to my father's illness.When my father recovers, I will make more money and pay off the family's debts slowly.Days will always get better.It's ridiculous to say that he used to be a man who didn't care about running his life.Now that my loved one is sick, I start to think about how to live a better life in the future.

The night passed like this.At three or four o'clock in the morning, Gao Tong couldn't stand it anymore, so he squinted for a while.After turning off the lights, the room was very quiet, like a place of nothingness.

The door opened with a 'creak'.

The visitor didn't make much noise, and entered the house lightly without closing the door.The cold moonlight outside the window reflected his shadow, very tall and majestic.

He looked at Gao Tong in his sleep, the young man smacked his lips unintentionally, and squinted in a different position.The man lowered his body slightly, as if he wanted to touch the other person's hair, but he stopped suddenly when he was only an inch away.He straightened up and looked around for a week, took off his coat, and was about to cover the other party, but glanced at the young man's own down jacket that was in a mess, picked it up and wrapped it up for the other party.

After just a few steps, a thin layer of sweat broke out in Bai Xiuwen's palms.Luckily he didn't wake up.

He knelt down and stared at Gao Tong for a long, long time.He moved closer to the other's lips, and the young man's breath spread evenly and lightly around his lips, tickling.

How long will this continue?

Bai Xiuwen didn't do anything else, stood up and left the room.

Floating day and night, soon to the day of surgery.

Gao Tong has done a lot of mental construction for a long time, but now he is very calm watching the doctors and nurses push the person into the operating room.The mother is also in good condition. Gao Tong got her some medicine for pharyngitis, and the frequency of coughing has also decreased.

During these two or three days, my father woke up twice.Unconscious and confused, only the mother can understand what the man is saying.He couldn't control his excretion. At the beginning, the bed was covered with feces and urine. The whole room smelled of feces and urine except for the smell of disinfectant, all of which were sheets changed by his mother.At first, Gao Tong was so confused that he went out and vomited, but then he changed his father into adult diapers and wiped his body with a towel.

He gradually regained his composure, and sometimes he even wondered what his life would be like if his father couldn't bear it anymore and just passed away.What a difference.

What's the difference?

The red light in the operating room showed that it was in progress.

Gao Tong stood at the door for a while, and suddenly wanted to smoke a cigarette.He doesn't know what are the benefits of smoking and alcohol, whether they can relieve their worries; or whether they are just the psychological hints of the world, so as to give temporary comfort to escape from reality.

It's just that he thinks alcohol and tobacco are too choking, so he has never tried them.

After being busy these few days, he didn't log in to the chat software, and he also set the notification do not disturb; he didn't know if Mr. Bai had replied to him, and he didn't have the brains to read it.

Finally taking a breather, Gao Tong turned on the phone to check the messages one by one, and found that a bunch of group chats had been uploaded, all of which were happy holidays and red envelope reminders at a cursory glance.

There was no New Year's atmosphere in the hospital, and he was too busy to breathe, so he belatedly thought that New Year's Eve was so close.It's almost Chinese New Year.

The two messages at the top of the message list, one is from Chen Peng, and the other is from Deng Lixin.

Deng Lixin: I am afraid that there will be too many blessings on the [-]th night, and you will not care about my greetings; I am afraid that the firecrackers in the morning of the first day of junior high school will be too loud, and you will not hear my blessings; I am afraid that the dishes at noon on the second day of junior high school will be too fragrant. My text messages will not be seen.So this handsome guy chooses this time to send you blessings and wish you and your family an early year! ! [Firecrackers][Red Envelope][Candle][Sun][Cake]

Gao Tong: ...

Who would have thought that Deng Lixin would reply in seconds: Hahahaha don't mind the group post!Receive the red envelope, Gao Tong!

Gao Tong: Haha no more, I still owe you money for your mobile phone.

Deng Lixin: Someone already reimbursed me! [trembling]

Gao Tong: ...

Deng Lixin: You two haven't reconciled yet, have you?It's almost Chinese New Year, new year and new atmosphere, everything can be changed!Don't couples just quarrel at the head of the bed and make peace at the end of the bed~

Gao Tong was silent for a moment.

Deng Lixin has a really good personality, carefree, hearty and straightforward, and he likes to be friends with such a person in his heart.However, he also knew subconsciously, no.

They are destined to be unable to be close friends, the gap between the two is too great - Deng Lixin is actually the same person as Mr. Bai, they have a sense of superiority that comes from above, and they will intentionally or unintentionally in the process of chatting revealed.Whenever he receives a little bit of preferential treatment, Gao Tong always thinks with inferiority that these people's kindness to him is probably just a superficial effort.

This may also be the reason why he is extremely reserved every time he chats with the other party.It would even make the other party unhappy, but there was nothing he could do about it.

And although Deng Lixin has a carefree personality, he is not really a tiger.It's like it's not like Gao Tong didn't ask about Mr. Bai before, but he was always ignored.

He didn't know how to respond to the other party's message, so he had to send a cat emoji.

Deng Lixin: I probably won't be able to go home during the Chinese New Year, but actually I really want to go back and find you guys for dinner.

Gao Tong: Huh?Why can't you come back?

Deng Lixin: As soon as I go back, I will probably be arrested and put under house arrest hahaha!

Gao Tong:? ?

Deng Lixin: Hey, let's not talk about this.I really want to make friends with you, don't you think I'm handsome and sunny?

Gao Tong didn't expect the other party to directly talk about the question he was thinking just now, so he couldn't help being stunned for a while.He is always dull and reserved at such moments, not knowing how to reply to the other party.

Deng Lixin: Let me explain first, I definitely have no intention of prying Brother Bai's corner!I am the first straight man in the steel and titanium alloy universe!But I'm used to my personality, so I've always had a crush on those kind of... um, gentle, virtuous, how to put it, shy people!Both men and women! (I'm straight).

Gao Tong:?Am I gentle and virtuous?

Watching the other party say a few exclamation marks, Gao Tong couldn't help but laugh out loud.He shook his head, returned to the interface and clicked on another person's message.

Chen Peng: Six o'clock in the afternoon on the 8th, on the sixth floor of Dynasty Hotel!Remember to come [呲牙]

The news records of the two are still at a month or so ago.The other person's profile picture was different from last time. It was an image of a man wearing sunglasses and a ski suit gesturing to the camera.

Gao Tong clicked his tongue and deleted the chat message as if he hadn't seen it.

He will definitely not go to the class reunion.It's not that there is something wrong with his brain. Strangers who haven't contacted him for five or six years suddenly invited him to a party. The participants were all the perpetrators of the year. He couldn't understand the purpose of the other party.

Regarding the events of that year, he can only try his best to forget them and try his best to let them go-no matter how many things there are, he can only hope that he will never meet those people back then, and have no intersection.

But ah.But……

Gao Tong paced to the lounge next door, and curled up in a corner.The surgery is conservatively estimated to take four hours. After playing with his mobile phone for a while, he gradually felt sleepy. He yawned and fell asleep at some point.

Deep sleep.At this time, he doesn't need to care about what it's like to wake up from the dream.At this moment, just wander in the afternoon sunshine and have a sweet and hearty dream.

The mountains and rivers are far away, and the years are mottled.The broken time twisted and pulled away in the tunnel, and finally returned to the blooming boyhood.

Waking up in the warm sunlight, Gao Tong rubbed his eyes, and just about to stretch, he saw a tall boy walking towards him.He froze.

The other party said softly: "Student, move back a little?"