Abnormal

Just holding my lovely sister, my heart will be filled with a sense of happiness, and I can't help but want to cry.Gao Tong sighed lightly and let her go.

Qiuqiu should be about to be promoted to junior high school soon, but after only seeing each other for a year, she has grown so fast.Gao Tong patted her head, thinking that the child's development is really much earlier than his own.When he was in high school, he was thinner than he is now, only a little over 1.7 meters, and he looked malnourished.

At this thought, he lost his mind a little, but was suddenly grabbed by the cuff by a cold little hand.Gao Tong glanced down and saw his younger sister looking at him with her lips pouted, her big bright eyes flickering.

"Brother, don't cry."

Gao Tong touched his nose in surprise, and said with a smile: "Why am I crying?"

"My eyes are all red!" The girl pursed her mouth and made a grimace: "Brother don't cry, I'll show you this!"

"...OK." Gao Tong squatted down and looked at her with a slightly helpless expression.

He watched his sister rummage through the pockets of her schoolbag, and finally found an envelope.It is clean white, and it is deliberately folded upright.The little girl carefully took out another note from inside, and handed it to him lightly.

As if afraid of breaking it.

"My classmates are very envious of me. The lottery they got was very unlucky." Gao Qiu's face was filled with a pure smile, with some anticipation: "This is the best lottery! Look, brother, the whole class is so lucky." Me alone."

Gao Tong took it.

It should be a popular game of lottery among children.The drawing paper is very perfunctory, it feels like a few strips are torn from the homework book, and he won’t take it seriously after playing with it; he looked at the paper - the eye-catching handwriting "signed on the top", and he even painted it with a red marker pen. several times.There is a childish smiling face drawn underneath, and there is a line of crooked small characters underneath.

——'Change! '

This is my sister's font.Gao Tong's fingers holding the paper trembled a little, and finally moved his eyes away from the paper, looking at the expectant little girl, but couldn't bear to say anything.

"Brother, don't worry, just trust me! If I get this lottery, it means that God is also blessing me, so Dad will be fine, right?"

"...Of course." Gao Tong swallowed, and said with a wry smile: "Qiuqiu is so lucky, Dad is blessed with your luck, and he will get well soon."

His father has such an illness, but he still can't bear it; his sister is still so young, and she won't understand the seriousness of it.He doesn't want and can't bear to let his young sister know the truth—at this age, he won't understand that sometimes in this world, it may be the last time to say goodbye to others.Even if it is a close relative.

He asked and checked the treatment of acute myocardial infarction overnight, and his father's multiple infarctions in two days can be regarded as very critical and serious.Doctors have also told them to prepare for the worst.

"—It must be all right."

After folding the note and putting it in his pocket, Gao Tong firmly nodded at his sister.

"Brother, didn't you tell me not to cry? Why are your eyes red again?"

Gao Tong was startled, but before he could answer, the other party spoke again: "Didn't my brother say before that tears are an excuse for incompetent people to escape from reality, and crying is the most worthless thing? Brother's words don't count."

"..."

Gao Tong couldn't help laughing at himself.What kind of posture did he use to say such words back then?

Probably in his youth, extreme to the point of neuroticism; fragile and sensitive, inferior and conceited character makes him look down on the weak - that is, himself.

After all, the person I hate and hate may have always been my incompetent self.

Gao Tong took her hand and said softly: "Qiuqiu, brother didn't cry. His eyes are red because he didn't sleep much that night, so he has bloodshot eyes. And even if he really cried, it's been a long time since I saw you and Dad That’s why mom is like this. I miss you very much.” He paused and said, “Brother was wrong before, and now I want to correct you: it’s not the weak who shed tears.”

"There are too many kinds of life in this world, and different people have different ways of living. However, the joys and sorrows of life are not connected, and others will never be able to truly understand and speculate on other people's lives. So tears are not shameful, although they cannot be resolved. It is a problem, but it is a good way for helpless people to vent their pain. And sometimes, the strong is strong because he dares to shed tears."

Gao Qiu said "Oh", pursed his lips, and said, "My brother is quite right. But I think what you said before is more reasonable."

Gao Tong: "..."

At this time, there was a sudden shock in his pocket, Gao Tong took out his mobile phone, and unexpectedly reminded that Deng Lixin had sent him a message.

"Pick up my phone, we can talk about any problems."

Unexpectedly concise and concise.

Gao Tong was silent for three or four seconds, and immediately knew who the other party was.

Again.Gao Tong gritted his teeth and typed with trembling hands.

"...Sorry, we're done. See you later."

As soon as these words were sent, Gao Tong put the phone back in his pocket.Qiuqiu turned his head to talk to his mother, and he just sat on the stool blankly, his eyes always resting on the two edges where the floor tiles meet in front of him.

... until blurred black dots appeared in the line of sight, and the phone didn't vibrate anymore.

"Brother, what's the matter with you?" At this time, Gao Qiu probably finished talking about the school, and turned to call him.He yelled again and there was no response, so Gao Qiu tugged at his finger: "—Brother, brother!"

"Ah?" Suddenly came back to his senses, Gao Tong was slow to reply for a moment: "I was thinking about something." Suddenly remembered that the down jacket given to her younger sister hadn't been given to her, so she took the exquisitely packaged box that had been put aside for a long time Come over, "Qiuqiu, brother bought you a coat, it's nice and warm, it's sky blue, you'll definitely like it."

Gao Qiu took the box over, the corners of his eyes and mouth curled up quietly.The girl rushed over to hug him again: "Brother, I love you to death!"

"...if you like it."

Finally able to show a little smile, Gao Tong stroked his sister's soft hair and said in relief.

It's hard to believe that sometimes the hospital is the place where a family gets along the most lovingly.In the heartbeat of countless people, oil, salt, firewood, rice, and parents' short-lived trivialities are all eliminated, and life and death are the most important things.

Gao Tong goes home for the holidays every year. Most of the time, he goes back to his room after saying a few words in the main room. The family of four seldom get together to chat except for eating.It's just that the current situation of reunion doesn't make people happy.

Not long after, the doctor came over and explained the specific condition of my father in detail.Gao Tong listened silently, and bowed to thank the other party when the other party was about to leave.

"Thank you."

"It should be done." The doctor smiled, waved his hand and went back.

Gao Tong stood where he was, and the woman beside him grabbed him, "Tong, what does the doctor mean? Your father doesn't need to pay for this single room?"

"No." Gao Tong lowered his head, frowning tightly, with a complicated expression: "It is based on the halving of the price of a multi-person ward, and..."

He didn't say anything more, just shook his head and told his mother that he would figure out something about the money.

Gao Qiu blinked, looked at the serious-looking two people, and suddenly said: "Mom, have you noticed that brother is much gentler when he comes back this time?"

Gao Tong: ...

Gao Tong pinched her face, "Brother, go make a call first, and I will accompany you later." He walked to the stairs and took out his mobile phone again.

Probably not being gentle anymore, but forced by life, which made him a boring person.A life that is so lacklustre as plain boiled water, you can directly see Dier's life without waves and suspense, and people will become compromised.

He turned on the phone and hesitated the moment he clicked on the dialog box.

The heating in the stairs was fully turned on, and the side windows were covered with layers of frost, and the faint sunlight in the morning fell.The sliding door on the floor creaked, as if there were footsteps coming and going.

The doctor told him just now that his father had to undergo bypass surgery, and asked them to sign a letter of intent for the operation later; and the cost of transferring to a single ward and the money for staying in the ICU for the past few days have all been paid in advance by his friend .

by a friend?Which friend?Who would have known his father was ill?

Gao Tong thought over and over again, and called Lin Jingyue.

"Ah?" Lin Jingyue probably just woke up, and she was still talking in a daze: "I just wanted to call you today, Gao Tong, I'm really sad about your father, and I don't need to pay back the money."

It really was her.Gao Tong clenched his fists, "Jing Yue, thank you very much. I may not be able to pay you back quickly for my recent expenses. I will write you an IOU first, and I will definitely pay you back when the funds are turned over... ...Thank you so much, I..."

"Hey, it's nothing..." Lin Jingyue said softly: "When my aunt called me, I transferred her five thousand first, but this amount of money is definitely nothing to cure the disease. I'm not in a hurry, my mother has subsidized me a lot recently."

Gao Tong was startled when he heard this, and then asked: "...You said, you called my mother? When is it?"

"The day before yesterday? I added WeChat at the time, and I just transferred the money. Gao Tong, don't worry too much, you and Auntie. Now that medical technology is so advanced, as long as the acute myocardial infarction is survived in the early stage, there will be no major problems in the later stage."

"Well...I'm pretty stable now, I can only hope that my dad can survive." Gao Tong said in a low voice: "I'll contact you on WeChat later, hang up first, and you can sleep later."

"Okay, you should catch up on sleep too, didn't you sleep all night?"

After saying goodbye, Gao Tong put down the phone.Standing there for a few seconds, he walked to the steps beside the stairs and sat down.

Not her.

Even though I had already guessed in my heart, I still refused to believe it because it was too absurd.But that person can investigate his company, address, and all his information, so it shouldn't be too difficult to know such a thing.

Gao Tong suddenly took off his coat like a madman, groped carefully inside and out, and quickly fumbled his inner jacket and trousers again.

——Touched every corner, carefully to the point of being a little nervous, but found nothing in the end. ...But as long as he thinks that the other party seems to be watching him all the time, knowing everything and penetrating everything, with a calm and steady appearance that seems to control everything, a piercing coolness rushes into the body, making the hair stand on end.