Abnormal

The back of Bai Xiuwen left paused, turned his head, and looked at him with a complicated expression.

Gao Tong knelt there, still clutching the sweater he just took off.The young man's thin chest was displayed in front of him without any omission, and the light-colored nipples became sharp because of the sudden contact with the air.Bai Xiuwen stared silently, watching him bite his lower lip several times, opening his mouth to speak, but he couldn't.

He didn't say anything, and turned his head to concentrate on warming the cup.

The scalding water was poured into the teapot, and the sound was particularly dull.After a while, the young man's slightly hoarse voice came from behind him——

"...I am a very awkward person, master. In fact, until now, I have not been able to face up to this habit of my own - it is difficult for me to accept that as a man, I will sincerely have feelings of surrender and over-reliance on other people .I can't do the kind of honesty that you talk about that follows my heart and treats each other honestly; I can't completely entrust myself to others... This is not a matter of trust or not, this, this is what I can't do..."

For someone like Gao Tong, it is too difficult to speak out what is in his heart.

Although he has only lived for twenty years or so, he still barely understands the essentials of life and life for a person like him - there is no need to establish a relationship of mutual loyalty and trust, and it is enough to communicate with others; In reality, everyone still likes to be friends with optimistic people. No one is willing to listen to the complaints and talks of such a bad and negative person like him, even parents will never understand.

Suffering has never been magnified, it's just that human beings have never been able to understand the suffering of others.

Gao Tong let out a long sigh of relief, but still felt that something was blocked in his throat, making it difficult to breathe.

"But... I hope you don't abandon me because of this." His tail trembled slightly, and his originally straight back bent unconsciously.Gao Tong said: "I need you to be my master. I long to kneel under you, touch your... your legs, and hug you. Feeling your presence makes me very, very fulfilling."

Later, Gao Tong didn't even remember how he said those words.Mr. Bai is indeed a very charismatic man, and what is even more frightening is that the other party seems to have controlled all the switches of his emotions and desires.Before he could react to all this, he was already inseparable from the other party.

"In the past, you asked me where my m attribute came from. I have never dared to admit it, and I always brainwashed myself to say that it is natural. But in fact, it was because I was infected... after being bullied by school in high school... I don’t know why this happened—but I’m really not a pervert. I’ll be obedient in the future, please don’t abandon me, I’m sorry..."

When it came to the last few words, Gao Tong had already started to speak incoherently.He gasped for breath several times, his chest heaved violently, and a layer of sweat broke out on his forehead.At that moment, he suddenly traveled back to his youth, and the memory of being deliberately discarded was reawakened.

Being stripped naked in the dormitory by classmates, the boy held his mobile phone with a proud face; being used as a target for all violent games in physical education class, being forced to eat snow mixed with mud, and the students pretended to be A friendly appearance, just saying it was a joke; kicking, beating and cursing in the toilet of the teaching building, even with the teacher's cold violence; just because I accidentally bumped into two male students in the next class and kissed and made love, they were rumored by the other party is gay...

Tears were shed years ago.He can't cry at all now, but every time he thinks about it, he still doesn't understand and can't let go.

The other party was still silent, and Gao Tong knelt there, feeling increasingly depressed and sad.

However, at this moment, the body was suddenly embraced tightly by someone.

The body temperature of the other party was transferred to him continuously, a comfortable and gentle feeling.Gao Tong was stunned, and a familiar voice suddenly rang in his ears: "Okay, it's okay. Master will never abandon you."

Even if he didn't know whether the words were true or not, it brought Gao Tong great comfort at this moment.He silently put the bracelet around the opponent's waist, and hugged him back even harder.

"...You chose it yourself." Bai Xiuwen murmured.However, the latter words were not spoken again.

"It's the path I chose, and I won't regret it." Gao Tong answered him word by word.

The smell of alcohol on the other party's body has been diluted a lot, but they can still smell some when they are so close.For some reason, Gao Tong felt that the owner who smelled of wine had an inexplicable courage.He raised his head, and carefully kissed the corner of the other's lips based on his feeling.Just as he was about to move up, his chin was held back by the opponent in an instant.

Bai Xiuwen stopped the impulse, looked down at him, and said, "Gao Tong, it's not shameful to discover your own attributes from violence. You didn't indulge in the joy of violence, but tasted the pleasure of being raped in your later fantasies." It's just the pleasure of coercion and humiliation, which has nothing to do with school violence."

On the contrary, he is the shameful one.