I'm sorry you blocked me

Chapter 57【I don't understand】

The room was very dark, only the moonlight that penetrated slightly from the window unevenly splashed on the corner of the bed.

Jiang Yu also couldn't see Li Hai's expression clearly. Seeing that he didn't respond, he had to take a few steps forward, half of his body broke into the moonlight, "Li Hai? Are you awake?"

Li Hai trembled all over, he couldn't explain what it was like.How many years has it been since I heard this person call my name?

He moved his throat and responded hoarsely, "Wake up."

As soon as he opened his mouth, he realized that his voice was hoarse like split bark. Jiang Yu had already handed the water to him before he could react.

"Get up and eat, you can take medicine after you have eaten."

Li Hai hummed, but didn't raise his hand to get the cup, and took a drink of water from Jiang Yu's hand before throwing off the quilt and getting out of bed.

Jiang Yu's hand holding the cup trembled a little. When Li Hai came over, he subconsciously took a few steps back.

Li Hai glanced at him, then reached out to take the nightgown on the back of the chair behind him.

Jiang Yu's ears turned red, and there was some annoyance and embarrassment hidden in his eyes.

He put down his water glass, and walked out first, Li Hai looked up and down his back slowly, his gaze swung around the too slender waist, and then followed him out of the room.

Jiang Yu warmed up the food and put it on the table, dried her hands again, stood a little stiffly on the other side of the long table and said, "Well, then I'll go back first, remember to take your medicine after you finish eating."

As he said that, his footsteps had already moved towards the door, Li Hai pulled away the arm of the chair, looked up at him, "Are you leaving now?"

Looking at his expression, Jiang Yu was a little at a loss for a while, "Then I... wait until you finish eating."

Li Hai sat down, tilted his head and looked at him, "You have changed a lot."

"Really?" Jiang Yu smiled, and touched the edge of the table with her fingers, "People change, it's normal."

"You weren't so careful before." Li Hai picked up the chopsticks and glanced at the dishes on the table.A tomato scrambled egg, a stir-fried anchovies, a very simple home-cooked side dish, and it is also a list, with red bean porridge.

The color and aroma of the dishes are all available, it looks very appetizing, Li Hai has not been cooking at home for a long time, and it is difficult for the other party to cook two dishes with the limited condiments.

"I... came to apologize." Jiang Yu watched him start eating, and for some reason he breathed a sigh of relief, and then said, "What happened back then... I'm sorry, but you should have told me... Oh no, I That's not what I mean, I don't want to blame you for not telling me, I just..."

Before Jiang Yu came to him, he had planned his speech, but now his mind is in a mess.Unlike the boy in his dream, Li Hai has grown up and has the temperament and aura that an adult man should have. It is difficult for him to match the other party with the boy in his dream, and for a moment he forgot what he should say.

It seems that everything is wrong, it is better not to say.

He sighed, "I don't know that you are not in good health, let's talk about it another day."

Li Hai paused with his chopsticks, with an unnatural expression, "I'm in good health." It was just a misunderstanding.

Jiang Yu nodded, and did not argue with him about right or wrong.

Li Hai felt even more uncomfortable, he took a sip of porridge and said, "Have you eaten?"

"...not yet." Jiang Yu wanted to say that he had eaten, but for some reason, he didn't want to lie again at this time, so he said honestly, "It's not too late, but it doesn't matter, I'll go out and eat a bowl of noodles later. alright."

"..." Li Hai chewed his cheeks, "Eat here, go get a bowl."

Jiang Yu froze for a moment, still hesitating, Li Hai raised his head and looked at him, "Go get a bowl and eat."

Jiang Yu had no choice but to go to the kitchen to get the bowls and chopsticks, scooped a bowl of porridge for herself, and brought it out.

He pulled out the chair and sat down opposite Li Hai.

"... Excuse me." He said slowly.

Li Hai didn't answer, and started eating on his own, the two of them remained silent for a while, only the news on the TV served as the background music to ease the atmosphere.

After a while, Li Hai put down his chopsticks and said, "There's nothing to apologize for."

Jiang Yu was taken aback for a moment, realizing what he said before answering the question, hesitated for a moment and said, "No, it's my fault, I'm too... selfish, I didn't consider your feelings at all."

Li Hai tapped his fingers on the side of the table unconsciously, "Everyone has their own standpoint, there is no right or wrong, we can only say that we were too young back then, and we were not very good at handling our own feelings."

He hesitated for a moment, and then said: "I also have something wrong. You are right. I should tell you about my troubles, so that maybe we can avoid a misunderstanding. But I felt at the time... It's useless to say it , you have always envied my family, I mean that my parents are together and treat me very well, although they are often away from home when they are busy, at least they don't make me suffer."

Li Hai said with a self-deprecating smile, "However, it turns out that if a marriage does not even have the concept of a family, then there is no need for that family to exist. So they finally chose to separate, and soon each had their own family. New romance."

Jiang Yu's heart twitched. Compared to his parents who chose to divorce when he was young, and he never had any extravagant hopes for them, Li Hai was always looking forward to the day when his parents could "earn enough money" and come back. Perhaps it is more difficult to accept the final result.

Jiang Yu said seriously, "I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault that they separated." Li Hai twitched the corners of his mouth, "They are parents, and they are also human beings. It was difficult for me to understand them at the time, and I didn't want to understand them, but now I can understand and be considerate."

Jiang Yu thought for a while, "Then... I heard that you went abroad after that..."

"My dad arranged it for me, and in the end I was sentenced to my dad." Li Hai played with chopsticks in his hand, and said indifferently: "I wanted to leave at the time, but you don't want me anyway, my family members Don’t want me anymore, there are unhappy things in the country, it’s good to change your mood and let yourself learn more.”

Jiang Yu's face turned red, which was not the same as shyness or joy, nor anger, but only full of embarrassment, embarrassment and self-blame.

He squeezed the chopsticks tightly, and it took him a long time to say, "Sorry..."

It seems that there are only two words left to say.

Li Hai frowned, "I told you, there is no need to apologize."

Jiang Yu didn't know what to answer, so she pursed her lips, "...Sorry."

Li Hai put down his chopsticks and stood up.

Jiang Yu could feel his impatience and anxiety, as if his heart was being twisted randomly by a big hand, and he felt uncomfortable all over.This atmosphere is too uncomfortable, even more uncomfortable than going to Liang Bing's house and facing the group of relatives who don't know who is who.

He put down his chopsticks and stood up, "I'll wash the dishes for you."

As he said he put away all the dishes, the sound of water soon came from the kitchen.

Li Hai took the medicine and sat on the sofa frowning. On the surface he seemed unhappy, but secretly he kept paying attention to the direction of the kitchen, with his ears pricked up, for fear of missing something.

Li Hai has never experienced this feeling of wanting to care about and resisting himself, just like he found out that he fell in love with someone of the same sex for the first time, but at that time he didn't understand many things, so the more flustered, the more Care, the more you care, the more you can't extricate yourself.

And now, he's an adult.

He habitually analyzed his emotions, trying to find a solution, and he seemed very rational.

The sound of water was heard.Li Hai couldn't help changing his sitting position, holding the remote control panel in his hand and pressing it randomly, as if he had been seriously watching TV before.

Jiang Yu came out of the kitchen, looked at him, hesitated and asked, "Have you taken your medicine?"

"kindness."

"Then I...there is still food in the refrigerator, you usually cook some at night, don't always eat outside." Jiang Yu picked up the bag on the sofa and put it on his back, "I'm leaving first, you go to bed early .”

"……kindness."

Jiang Yu went to the entrance, changed his shoes, and when he opened the door, he seemed to feel that it was not good not to say anything, so he said, "Then I'm leaving?"

Li Hai felt restless for a while, and changed his sitting position, staring at the TV all the time, "Yeah."

There was a flash of disappointment on Jiang Yu's face, and before Li Hai turned his head, he closed the door.

Li Hai stared at the door panel tightly without blinking, as if the door would be knocked again soon, he even leaned forward slightly, as if he was ready to open the door at any time.

But there was no movement at the other end of the door. In fact, even Li Hai didn't know whether he wanted to open the door or chase after him.

He turned off the TV, locked the door, went into the bedroom and lay back on the bed.

He stared at the ceiling for a long time before covering his eyes with his arms, and the corners of his mouth were pursed down, as if he was enduring something.

What is he thinking?to that person.

Li Hai asked himself, do you want to start over?But Jiang Yu in front of him felt strange to him.Do you give up completely as an old classmate?Obviously, he didn't want to.

"What's going on..." Li Hai picked up the quilt and blocked himself tightly.

Jiang Yu didn't feel the cold at all in the cold wind. Rather, his heart was even colder.

Li Hai's reaction was far beyond his expectation, no, maybe he had expected it, but he didn't fully believe it in his heart.

It's just that the behavior of the other party at the dinner table is obviously...they have nothing to do with each other, there is no need to apologize, and there is no need to forgive. .

But now, they have grown up and don't need to be entangled in the past.

He was right, and because he was right, Jiang Yu was even more disappointed.

In the past, Li Hai would not ignore him like this, nor would he be so impatient and indifferent. He always smiled and had great tolerance and tolerance towards himself. He could treat all his shortcomings and advantages equally.

Jiang Yu stood still in the cold wind. He raised his head and opened his eyes wide, letting the cold wind blow away the unshed tears from his eyes.

Maybe I have been hiding some expectations all the time, hoping that as long as I say something, I can go back to the beginning.Even if you can't go back to the beginning, at least you don't have to stay where you are.

But now he knows that it was all his own delusion, the reality taught him a lesson again, no one will wait for you in place, Li Hai has already gone a long way, and he has to move forward too.

Li Hai took sick leave for three days, and when he returned to the company, he was full of vigor and vitality.

Zhang Zeyi came to him and said, "Social meeting tomorrow! You caught the last bus!"

Li Hai: "..." He forgot about this!

"Would you like to have dinner tonight?" Zhang Zeyi said again: "There is a new noodle restaurant at the crossroads, I want to try it."

"...Nope." Li Hai held a pile of documents in his hand, frowned and said, "Are you free to do? It's working time now, hurry up and disappear for me."

"Then do you want me to go to work, or do you want me to disappear?" Zhang Ze clicked his tongue.

"Disappear in front of me." Li Hai walked around him, and handed the documents in his hand to other staff, "I've sorted them out, you guys give me a simple proposal after reading it."

Others came forward to get the materials, but Zhang Zeyi muttered behind Li Hai, "But my office is next door to you."

Li Hai turned around, stretched out his hand and made a movement of pinching his own neck.

Zhang Ze was stunned for a long time, turned around and left, and muttered, "Childish."

After get off work on weekdays, Li Hai is either socializing, working overtime, or finding a restaurant with Zhang Zeyi to eat, drink, and talk nonsense.

But today Li Hai drove to the entrance of Dali Company by accident. He parked the car on the side of the road, still trying to find some excuse to get in.

In the rearview mirror, I saw a figure riding a bicycle approaching from a distance. The other party didn't notice his car and rode straight past it.

It was the same big black bag, this time with a bunch of messy things strapped to the back of the bike.

"Uncle Yu!" Jiang Yu yelled as soon as he got out of the car, "I got the replacement parts!"

Uncle Yu came out from the inside. His turban has changed to a different color today, but it is still so gaudy, and he doesn't look like a good person.

"It's hard to find this thing recently." Uncle Yu was a little surprised, "You boy, where did you get it?"

"Kung fu pays off." Jiang Yu smiled, his head was sweating in the cold weather, his face was a little red, and he was panting a little, "Just get it."

Uncle Yu didn't speak, patted him on the shoulder, and went into the store with his things.

Jiang Yu locked the car next to the store, took out a bottle of mineral water from his bag and took a few sips, then sat down on the back seat, staring at the ever-flowing road in a daze.

Li Hai watched him for a while, then finally opened the car door and walked over.

"Are you off work?" He looked casual, as if he was just passing by.

Jiang Yu was stunned, then stood up, "Not yet."

"...Thank you for taking care of me a few days ago." Li Hai put one hand in his pocket, and patted the edge of his trousers with the other hand, "In return, I will treat you to dinner tonight."