After being read mind, this hand can't be separated

Lu Chen's face was pale, his hands were trembling while standing there, and his pupils were also dilated.

"Brother Chen..."

Qu Leyuan originally wanted to tease Lu Chen, but he didn't expect Lu Chen's reaction to be so strong. He went over and held Lu Chen's hand, feeling a coldness.

He suddenly became anxious, "Brother Chen, I? Didn't leave, just to tease you, you..."

As soon as the words fell, he was hugged tightly by Lu Chen. Lu Chen hugged him hard, as if he was going to press him into "bones and blood", the drooping eyelashes reflected his side face, trembling in his ears Said, "Yuanyuan... I'm so scared."

"I? Scared of never seeing you again."

"No, it's alright, brother Chen," Qu Leyuan felt a little hurt from being hooped, but seeing Lu Chen like this felt distressed, never thought that what happened last time would leave such a deep shadow on Lu Chen.

"I? I'm in the toilet? Where can I go... just to tease you, don't be afraid, don't think about it."

Lu Chen has been hugging him, calling him "Yuan Yuan" and "Yuan Yuan" repeatedly, as if in a daze.

And his face was always a little pale, and his palms were still sweating coldly.

Qu Leyuan was so strangled that he couldn't breathe, and coaxed him, "Brother Chen, me? It's alright... Don't be afraid, me? It's alright, I? I will always be with you."

"As long as you don't let me go, I won't leave you."

"Brother Chen, it's okay, first? Let go and be obedient..."

Qu Leyuan coaxed Lu Chen on the spot for a while, before Lu Chen let go of him, and only let go of one hand, the other hand was still around him, and he squeezed him tightly. Yuan couldn't even move his wrist.

"Brother Chen, let's go back first, Meng Xuan and the others are still waiting downstairs."

After Qu Leyuan finished speaking, Lu Chen didn't respond, but just looked at him like that, as if he couldn't listen to anything.

"Brother Chen, where's your medicine? Let's go out and take the medicine first."

Qu Leyuan recalled what the psychiatrist and Ning Yue had said before Lu Chen met. Lu Chen often went out in the middle of the night. The medicine bottle he saw a few days ago, coupled with his reaction this time, basically guessed that Lu Chen seemed to be It's a little psychological problem.

Worried in his heart, he squeezed Lu Chen's hand, which was still cold, "Why is it so cold, brother Chen, can you hear me now?"

Qu Leyuan found the medicine bottle in Lu Chen's pocket, and he led Lu Chen out little by little. The walk was very difficult, and he bought a bottle of water from the vending machine in the mall.

He was surrounded by Lu Chen, and someone nearby looked at the two of them hugging each other, and they all cast curious glances.Qu Leyuan was a little embarrassed, and whispered to Lu Chen, "Brother Chen, we? Let's go there first. I'll hold you. Don't be afraid, I? I won't disappear."

Qu Leyuan said that Lu Chen didn't respond, and wanted to come over to hug him again. Now Lu Chen didn't seem to notice anything else at all, only him in his eyes, and he couldn't notice anything else.

Before? It was fine in school, why did it change when I went outside?

Qu Leyuan sent a message to Meng Xuan on her mobile phone, explaining a little bit, looking at Lu Chen's situation, she planned to take Mr. Lu Chen home directly.

Jiang Lan sent a message, he replied a few words and turned off the phone screen.

From getting in the car to going home, Lu Chen held him by the hand without saying a word, turned his head to look at him, and never looked back.

It seems that as long as you don't look at it, he will disappear.

"Brother Chen, we? We're going home, don't be afraid...just stay at home."

Qu Leyuan closed the door, and Lu Chen stuck to it again. He whispered patiently, "Brother Chen, how long are you going to hug me? Let's take the medicine first, shall we?"

"Brother Chen?"

Qu Leyuan gently pushed Lu Chen, and when he pushed, Lu Chen hugged him even tighter, no matter what he said, he was unwilling to let go.

He was held by Lu Chen just like that, he took a step, Lu Chen followed him, he was so sticky that he could hardly breathe, and in the end he gave the medicine with his mouth.

Lu Chen was very obedient when he was feeding, without his reminding, he loosened his jaw and looked down at him, with some curiosity in his pale eyes.

Qu Leyuan retreated after feeding the medicine. He was still hugged by Lu Chen. He checked the time on the phone and wondered when the medicine would work.

"Brother Chen, are you okay with me? Tell me."

Qu Leyuan said something, thought about it, and now he can't listen to Lu Chen, so he continued to stare at the phone time.

After more than 20 minutes, the hand around his waist moved, and Qu Leyuan looked along? Lu Chen was still looking at him, but there was some emotion in his eyes.

It's completely different from the autism I just fell into.

"Brother Chen?"

Lu Chen's face was still a little pale, and he let go of him a little bit, his voice was a little hoarse, "You...you know everything."

"What do I know?" Qu Leyuan lifted his clothes and took a look. His skin was not red, but it still hurt a little.

"Lu Chen," Qu Leyuan approached him and asked, "If I don't tell you, are you going to keep hiding it from me?"

In the air? After a while of silence, the white medicine bottle stood quietly on the table. Lu Chen lowered his eyes and moved his fingertips slightly, "I didn't hide it from you..."

He just wanted the boy to find out by himself and give the boy a chance to choose.

"I? I just want to give you a chance to make your own choice."

With such a sentence, Qu Leyuan already understood the meaning.

"Give me a chance, give me a chance to leave?" Qu Leyuan asked, and he was a little angry in his heart. He didn't expect Lu Chen to think so.

"You're already like this, and you still let me? Leave? Who was holding me in fear on the road just now? Didn't dare to let go?"

"Do you think I will leave you when I know you are sick?"

Qu Leyuan was about to be smothered to death by this stuffy gourd, he said angrily, "You don't want me to leave and let me go? You..."

When he was angry, the words he said were ugly. This was the first time he was so angry with Lu Chen. Look at Lu Chen's pale face, he couldn't speak anymore.

Stuffed in my heart? Hearing that Lu Chen gave him a chance to leave, he was very angry, his chest was stuffy, and he didn't calm down after a long time.

"Yuan Yuan," Qu Leyuan's hand was held, and Lu Chen said softly, "I? ? Not good enough for you."

Lu Chen was silent for a while, tensed and loosened his fingertips, and said what was in his heart.

"I? Can't understand the joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys of normal people. Many people have said that I am a monster since I was a child. I can only pretend to be a normal person as much as possible. I can't even tell what I felt for you at the beginning. Is the love sincere? This kind of me? I can’t tell whether I love or not, but I feel that I love you... My love is dirty and heavy? Because of you... the me now? Will always be afraid, afraid that you can't accept me like this?"

"I? Thinking countless times, it would be great if I was a normal person... I want to love you like an ordinary person, and I want to love you without reservation."

"I'm sorry...Yuanyuan, I like you so much, that's why I want you to choose. My love...is itself a burden."

His love for the boy was instinctive, and he wanted the boy to stay, but his reason made him understand that for a person like him, he should keep the boy away.

Rationality and instinct were at odds, and in the end reason overcame instinct. Even though he would be in great pain, he still had to let the boy make his own choice.

It was the first time Qu Leyuan heard Lu Chen say so much, what did he see?

Seeing the struggle and pain in Lu Chen's eyes, he was slightly taken aback.

He had seen Lu Chen's pride before. Lu Chen was so proud, but now he was so low in the dust? He was so humble that he almost begged.

He couldn't tell what it was like in his heart. Anyway, it was uncomfortable, and he was also a little sad. He said to Lu Chen, "Brother Chen, can you tell me directly? It's not like you don't know me? You are soft-hearted... and , I? Since I promised you, I will do what I say."

"You trust me? As long as you don't let me go, I won't let you go."

Qu Leyuan, "And I? I never felt that you were not worthy of me? When two people are together, we need to understand and tolerate each other. We have to face any difficulties together."

"Brother Chen, if I'm sick, we can treat it together. I won't dislike you, but don't tell me to leave you. I don't like to hear it."

"Because I chose you... I made a lot of determination. After confirming it, I won't change it."

Qu Leyuan thought silently in his heart, even though he had experienced a lot in his previous life, he was really dissatisfied with Lu Chen at first, but there is no need for Lu Chen to go through everything he has experienced again.

It is enough for him to bear it alone, and he only hopes that everyone can struggle out of the suffering and don't have to get stuck in the mud again.

"I? It's hard to hear when I'm angry, don't you mind..."

Before Qu Leyuan finished speaking, she was hugged by Lu Chen again. Lu Chen said in a low voice, "Yuan Yuan, thank you..."

"there's one more thing--"

Qu Leyuan put his hand against Lu Chen's lips, his eyes were clear and soft, "Brother Chen, you don't need to say anything, I know it all."

Even if he didn't know, he vaguely knew the answer.

"I? Know it all, so you don't have to worry or be afraid. I? Will stand firmly by your side. I? Like you very much."

"When you secretly sent me flowers, bought a bicycle to send me home, learned to be nice to me clumsily, carried me outside the villa, went back, and got up every night to cover me with the quilt, I knew it all. of."

"I? I'm not a fool. It's good for you to be true or false to me. How can I not tell the difference?"

It was already dark outside, the lights in the room were bright, and the soft light came down. The two figures on the sofa snuggled together, and the light and shadow fell on the medicine bottle. Those printed characters seemed not so cold.

Qu Leyuan talked to Lu Chen the day before, but fortunately the next day was Saturday without class, so Lu Chen took him to see the previous psychiatrist.

When the two of them passed by together, Cheng Yue was obviously a little surprised, and surprise flashed in his eyes under the gold-rimmed glasses.

"Little Chen?"

Lu Chen responded, "Brother Yue, this is Yuan Yuan."

"Yuan Yuan, you should have seen it before, do you still remember?"

Qu Leyuan nodded and greeted politely.

He told Cheng Yue about Lu Chen's situation, and learned that Lu Chen had always been Lu Chen's psychiatrist, waiting for Cheng Yue's next words.

Cheng Yue knew what Lu Chen meant, so he brought people over, and he just said everything.

"This is the self-enclosed phenomenon that accompanies high-functioning. In the past, Xiaochen has never experienced any psychological shadows or received any stimulation, so this phenomenon has never appeared before. He appeared this time because of you."

Cheng Yue paused, and then said, "He is worried about you disappearing, because he was stimulated, so he automatically fell into a short self-isolation, subconsciously reminding him in his mind that he can't let you disappear, so he may react abnormally. Specifically The performance should be to rely on you more than usual, and not let you out of his sight."

"This kind of self-enclosure is temporary, but it is also a manifestation of normal times. He is anxious and worried in his heart, always afraid that you will disappear."

After hearing this, Qu Leyuan went to see Lu Chen, and found that Lu Chen was also looking at him. He held Lu Chen's hand and asked, "Then what should we do?"

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-12-2819:58:51~2020-12-2916:45:59期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who cast mines: 6 at the beginning of the month;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 2 bottles of Yuechu and Ziyi Liuhan;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!