Sad Jiangnan

Knowing about Nishi-no-Douden from Dr. Dingguang, Fuji Gonsuke stopped visiting the Nishi-Douden for a time.At night in the mother's house opposite to the east, the clear and sensational sound of the wind can no longer be heard.Lying on the bed, even if the oil lamp and pine light are not lit, there will be no troubles of staring until dawn.The maple forest around the mirror pond cut off all the distant views, and Fuji Quansuke gradually forgot about the golden carp in the mirror pond that he had not set foot in for a long time.

Forget about this wonderful emotion, more like a supernatural inhuman force.Extremely blind in situations beyond time and space.Either contradictory or harmonious, or elegant or secular, or negative or positive, all end in the same direction because of the rigor of that power.This seemingly cruel power has left the front of religion and curled up on the back of religion. There is vitality in the endangerment, and it treats people equally like death.

I still can't deeply understand the age of death, but I am very satisfied with having a partner in death.If one day we can deeply understand forgetting, then the time to understand death is not far away.

One day, the courtyard was bustling with activity in the early hours of the morning, and Fujikonsuke came to the Maple Leaf Forest following the sound.There are three or two people in the woods, and they build a high wall from a well-spaced woods.

Fuji Quansuke stood in the slightly cold morning wind, and the figures in the woods were busy to and fro.When the fog cleared, the crowd came out from the woods, Fuji Quansuke finally saw a familiar face, wasn't that the guard at his father's side, General Zuo Jin.Quickly grabbed him and asked, "What are you doing here?"

Fuji Quansuke thought to himself, Zuo Jin should be very surprised to see himself appearing here.As expected, he stood in place, and the retainer behind him was holding a roll of straw mat in his hand.Fuji Quansuke pointed to the straw mat and asked again, "What's in it?" Speaking of this, Fuji Quansuke saw the fishing net in another retainer's hand.

Zuo Jin stammered, "Oh, this..."

Fuji Quansuke said, "Tell me quickly, I have been working on the edge of the mirror pond for a long time, and I have been standing here watching. That fishing net is used to catch dead fish."

Zuo Jin pointed at the straw mat and said, "Well, it is indeed a dead fish. The master told me that it is not a big deal. Don't disturb the rest of the young masters on both sides. You are here now, I am really shocked!"

Fuji Gonsuke said, "Open that mat and have a look."

Zuo Jin and his retainers looked at each other, and said to Fuji Quansuke, "It's better not to open it, because there are unclean things inside."

Fuji Quansuke pointed to the straw mat without moving his fingers, "Open it."

The retainers looked at Zuo Jin unanimously, "What should we do?"

Zuo Jin muttered softly, "It's not that bad." Then he ordered, "Open it."

The three of them placed the straw mat on the ground, and untied the tied straw mat. The mat was spread out, and the stench fell on Fuji Gonsuke's face like a fishing net.The withered straw mat and the paper-thin white and transparent corpse were glued together tightly under the action of water.The fins can no longer be separated from the straw mat.The black eyeballs linger on the darkness in this narrow refuge of the original, because the golden and white scales under Fuji Gonsuke's shadow are as beautiful as pearls.

Fuji Quansuke looked at the spine, and the complete dorsal fin was like a soaked satin, entangled on the golden carp's body reluctantly.Fuji Quansuke's gaze returned to the fish's eyes, only then did he realize that the fish head of this corpse looked very tender. When the retainers' fingers were pawing on the straw mat, the fish head seemed to have shrunk compared to their rough fingers Generally weird.

"How did you die?"

"Ah..." Zuo Jin peeked at Fuji Quansuke's face, "It's very strange for us to die suddenly."

"When did you die?"

"Maybe it was last night, maybe it was this morning, I don't know. When the person who found the dead fish told me, it had already been floating in the mirror pool for a long time."

"What is the fish going to do?"

"It should be shipped outside..."

"and then?"

"Then, just throw it away. Just find a place to bury it."

"Father didn't say anything else, for example, cremation or something like that."

"My lord, you are telling me a joke. It would be excusable if His Majesty's beloved cats and dogs were buried in a rich funeral. There is no such thing as cremating the fish."

The straw mat was hastily rolled up again, and the knots, because of their rough knots, hung down long from between the retainers' fingers.Zuo Jin greeted Fuji Quansuke, and the group left under the watchful eyes of Fuji Quansuke.

The golden carp really died as he wished.When the wish was granted, which part went wrong.Strange to say, the daffodils have only been removed for a few days, and sometimes looking at this forest, I feel as if the scenery here has always been like this.It is difficult to remember what it was like when the daffodils were still in existence.

Fuji Quansuke walked through the maple forest, and saw the water in the mirror lake overflowing on the white sand ground from a distance, and something looked back at him there.Fuji Quansuke walked over impatiently for no reason, the white shadow was getting closer, and a pair of gray-black eyes in the water stared at him like a ghost.Why is the dorsal fin split into three petals so familiar? Fujikonsuke has some impressions in his mind.

Together with the body floating sideways on the water, it is reminiscent of other white dead things.The white tunic seems to be less rigid.The white porcelain is too stiff.Fujikonsuke thought to himself, if such scales were used to compare Fujinaka Nayan's exquisite mask, it would be just right in all aspects.The three-petal dorsal fin just fits the position of the lips, and blends seamlessly with the lip lines in the middle.

Up to now, Fuji Quansuke dare not look at his brother's masked face.

The rain over the Kamogawa became like an iron cone, and suddenly and violently slapped on each other's heads, forcing Fujiquansuke to nod his head and look at the ground like a threat.

My brother’s voice was so close that it seemed to be whispering next to my ear, “It’s really ridiculous when I talk. I know that the past will never pass...I always think that after a long time, the scars like the injured place will fade away naturally , the scars that belong to me should also fade away.”

But Kamogawa Priest turned a deaf ear to it, and his tone was broken from the dead branch with emotion just now. At this time, he became more official, and asked like a prosecutor handling a case, "Has this mask been worn on your face all the time?"

There was no answer for a long time.Priest Kamogawa began to be intoxicated in his fantasy, "According to your nature, don't take it off when you sleep."

There was only the clear sound of rain.A look of contempt gradually appeared on Fuji Quansuke's face.He imagined the face of the chief culprit who lost control of his emotions when Ling recovered his elder brother.Others' wounds are hurting, but they open them up as much as they like, no matter how self-righteous they are, they will not act like no one else.

Priest Kamogawa seemed to be on the verge of talking, "What should I do when I eat and drink? Are you still stuck on wearing that mask? When there is no one in private, take it off and eat a little. But after wearing the mask for a long time, breathing is difficult." It won't be smooth." After a while, it was decided that Tonaka Nagon would not be involved in this topic, and changed to another kind of entanglement, "When did it become like this?"

Fuji Quansuke's cheeks were hot, and a feeling of shame suddenly surged in his heart.He retracted the imperial sword into the scabbard tied around his waist, turned his body in the opposite direction, and beckoned to the two attendants to leave.Suddenly, my brother's voice came to my ear by rubbing the back of my neck:

"A long time ago, I thought that it would be nice if I died at that time."

Clearly very relaxed tone, a light sentence.Everything stopped for this.Except for the insensitive torrential rain, the world seemed dead.

"Why did you survive? Why do the scars on your body fade away one day? There is still a kind of hope in my heart. It seems that it will return to its original state when I wake up. Those things that I don't want to think about are like dreams. It is a story that happened in a false world. Although it is close in front of my eyes, it has nothing to do with me. Because I should not be the protagonist of those stories. But I saw my own face just now..."

Having said that, I didn't say a word.Kamogawa Priest asked, "When did you get injured?"

The soft and beautiful 筚篥 changed from the sadness just now, and suddenly turned into a dragon flute screaming, "Is she really as you expected? Her appearance and posture are beyond ordinary perfection, but in this world, there must be no Possess perfection. That woman’s spirit or character, there are flaws. Just now I said, will she leave my side because of my face. In the end, to me, there is still no difference between how good a woman is ..."

My brother's voice gradually drifted away, and at the last few words, I couldn't hear what I was saying, leaving only the sound of rain spreading in all directions.Fujikonsuke couldn't keep his eyes on the shrine when he left.Whether it was the priest or the elder brother, the frenzied sound of pain made his limbs and bones feel icy cold.The reason is that the person who said that was definitely not my brother.The older brother he knew, or the older brother he remembered, was the complete opposite of Fujinaka Nayan in the shrine, and they were independent of each other.

Because he doesn't like the color of the ball that his mother gave him.The former elder brother took out his own one and came to Fuji Gonsuke's residence in an attempt to carry out a silent replacement.Who forgives that kind of replacement behavior seems to be almost the same as stealing, Fuji Quansuke, who was peeping from behind the screen, wept loudly.

Fujinaka Nayan was stunned and hurriedly moved, and the two bow balls were respectfully placed in front of Fuji Gonsuke for a while.Fuji Quansuke felt that it was the punishment of his mother's stubbornness that had been taken over by others.The elder brother's gentle voice, like the congratulatory speech being read during the exorcism, is what seduces him:

"It seems that you don't like the look of the ball, and you look at me from time to time. I think Zheng Rong is also very beautiful."

The elder brother deliberately took away the green onion color that no one liked, and left the only chrysanthemum-colored bow ball that blended Tang red and golden yellow to Quansuke Fuji.Kelei Chrysanthemum or Satoyama Fuki can remind Fujikonsuke of his mother.The pale orange light shone on the surface of the ball, which was coated with silk thread, and the ball seemed to be in pain.

Fuji Quansuke doesn't like the color of this one and that one.The ball that the mother took out was the result of her special selection, and carefully ruled out all possibilities of currying favor with Fuji Quansuke.Even so, my mother still taught my brother to choose first.Facing this kind of ridicule, no matter which color my brother chooses, he will end up with a unique ball that does not belong to him.The elder brother swapped his and his own, but the result was the same.

The actual elder brother, however, understood Fujitsu's inner thoughts, put all the balls in front of Fujitsu, and said, "If you don't like it, just say a style you like."

Fuji Quansuke's voice was already hoarse, and he spoke intermittently, "I don't like it..."

Fujinaka Nayan asked carefully, "What kind do you like?"

It's a soft lie, sweet poison.But my elder brother's eyes, which were as calm as mirror pools, seemed to be coated with pain because of the light.

Fuji Quansuke can't tell what kind of things he likes, and he doesn't have a special complex for such things as Teju and Cuju.Fuji Quansuke was not willing to let go of this opportunity to expose Fujinaka Nagon's ugly face, so he remained silent persistently, and after a while, he began to cry again.

Fujinaka Nayan said, "Zhengrong seems to always choose the same things as me. Does Zhengrong like it? Or do you just want to be the same as your brother? My brother wants to hear Zhengrong's own thoughts."

There was nothing wrong with this consolation, although others could not detect it, Fuji Quansuke immediately heard the evil hidden behind it.If there are brothers and sisters in the family, it should be easy to understand. The so-called biggest sin of the family is nothing more than not being able to tell a thing or two about the likes and dislikes of close relatives.

But my brother didn't give him a chance to continue complaining in his heart, "But sometimes, I feel that you have a special liking for Ruozi. Although you never said it, when you choose a post, you always take the lead If you hold the purple ones in your hands, it doesn’t matter whether Tang Guo’s desserts are delicious or not, if they are purple in shape or have novel shapes, ask for some first, and put the ones you are reluctant to eat in your hands. Is this the case?”

Fuji Quansuke couldn't say anything to refute. If he cried for no reason, who else in the family would like him.A few days ago, the balls that were placed in the lacquer bowl after incense were sent to his room.On the purple pattern, there is an ingenious cross-necked crane embroidered with white thread, which is different from the patterns or fabrics on any clothes today.If purple, together with green onion and chrysanthemum, each belongs to itself.

He had proof that his brother's soul had been displaced.But the ball he loves is the result of hysteria, and Fuji Quansuke can't prove that his brother didn't have his soul replaced at that time.

When Fuji Quansuke returned home, his hunting clothes and hat were all soaked, but fortunately half of his arms and skirt were unharmed, so he asked someone to change into a refreshing two-blue diamond-patterned straight dress for him, and sat in the east wing .

Soon the sun was setting on the west mountain, and the evening wind was blowing through the open lattice windows, but there was still no movement from the east and west doors.When night falls, firefly-like standing lamps are lit in the corridor.There seemed to be someone talking vaguely at the door of the east gate. Fuji Gonsuke walked out from the side room to look, and the sound of rain was also amplified in his ears.

Fuji Quansuke clapped his hands and called an attendant on duty, and asked him, "What time is it?"

The attendant went to ask the retainer who was in charge of Lou Ke again, and immediately came back to report, "It's just arrived at Youshi."

Fuji Quansuke said, "Call someone to come over, and then load a silk cart to the east gate."

"Do you want to go out at this time?"

Fuji Quansuke didn't answer, the attendant had to take orders to do it, when suddenly there was a loud voice from a distance.Carefully distinguish from the sound of rain, there are small voices and footsteps.Fuji Gonsuke stretched his neck and watched for a while, the dark purple Naoki faintly appeared in the depths of the pot garden, and the black purple turned into a gorgeous purple red under the double-sided contrast of the night and the light.

Fuji Quansuke hurriedly called someone to bring the rain cover, and propped it into the yard to see that Fujinaka Nayan was coming here from the direction of the east gate.He was followed by Ding Guang Dajin, neither of them was wearing a raincoat.Fuji Quansuke walked in front of them and found that the color of the strange clothing had become dull due to the wetness of the rain. During the day, it should be a two-blue dress.

"Come to the corridor quickly! Why don't you even take the rain cover? It's still raining at this late hour." Fujikonsuke stretched the umbrella over Fujinaka Nagon's head.Fujinaka Nayan just walked on his own, Fuji Gonsuke, who was holding an umbrella for him in front of Fujinaka Nagon, almost stumbled himself in order to avoid it.When he followed up again, he didn't have the slightest intention to stop. That kind of fearless walking was like a sickle itachi who had been freed in the night walk of the ghosts.

Fuji Quansuke struggled to hold an umbrella and asked, "Where did brother go?"

There was a momentary stagnation in the forward pace, and the original steady pace was messed up at this time. Fuji Quansuke hurriedly asked again, "Where did you go? I just came back at this time. I also got this look on my body. When I was at home, I kept I feel very uneasy." Then he ordered the on-duty servant boy to go to the west side immediately to prepare clean clothes.

Kamaitachi's pace stopped in the middle of the road, Fujinaka Nayan turned around, and the white mask was like a will-o'-the-wisp floating in the air, shining brightly.

"What does it have to do with you? Do you think this is to please?"

The true face of the devil appeared in front of Fuji Quansuke so easily, anti-religious Fuji Quansuke felt in his heart that it was unrealistic like a lie, and people were really a little coquettish and hypocritical.

"I feel relieved to hear your voice. It can be seen that your clothes are also soaked. Aren't you going to tell me where I went?"

Saying this, Fujinaka Nayan was not moved by it.Fuji Quansuke then ordered in a strong tone to his brother's entourage:

"Jiao Dingguang serves, come to my room first."

Dingguang Dajin stood on the spot, unmoved, did his feet get glued to the ground?With the thinning of the rain, Fujinaka Nayan's vicious wailing that echoed from time to time in the past, unexpectedly visited Fujikonsuke's vivid memory again and again.But when did that kind of monster occupy his brother's body? A tragedy without warning would befall an innocent person. After all, Fuji Quansuke didn't believe such a thing.Then, the answer in my heart is getting closer and closer to the original appearance.This so-called truth is nothing more than an exhaustive disguise.But without that kind of brother, he can accomplish nothing, no matter what price he pays, how much he hopes that his brother will change back!

The strength of grief and indignation poured out of Fuji Quansuke's arm. He grabbed Fujinaka Nagon's hand suddenly, and the ice-like touch was also transmitted to Fuji Quansuke's fingers. If it wasn't for the cold weather and the night, It was hard for Fujikonsuke to believe that those were human limbs.

Fujinaka Nayan swung Fujikonsuke's arm into the air in an instant as if hot oil had been splashed on it.Fuji Quansuke's blind self-confidence suddenly grew in his heart, but before he could say anything, his brother's slap brought a cold wind to his face.Fujikonsuke subconsciously closed his eyes.The cold wind stopped within a short distance, and the cold slap swirled in the air, and finally landed on Fuji Gonsuke's chest.

Although Fuji Quansuke's feet on the ground remained motionless, he seemed to have been wronged in his heart, and he stood in a stalemate with his brother for a long time.But Teng Zhong Nayan quickly turned around and went into the rain, Fuji Quansuke followed foolishly, his heart was thinking about the temperature of Teng Zhong Na Yan's body like a dead body.

"You've always been like this recently, appearing suddenly and disappearing suddenly. How can you teach me not to worry. Did you go to some woman?"

My brother's pace is getting faster and faster, and soon he will be able to see the maple forest in front of the mirror pool.The great shadow of Xizhi was cast in front of their eyes under Songming's call.As long as Fujinaka Nayan steps there, he will enter another world that is not open to outsiders.

Fuji Quansuke hurriedly shouted, "The Zuobing Weidu saw that you went to the West Market today, what did you do there?"

In the echo of the shouting on a rainy night, the black and purple figure entered the Xitoudu Hall in an orderly manner, and the floor under the orange light also showed black footprints one after the other because of the water.The footprints extended to the front of the board door on the west side, and because there were no lights, everything fell into darkness.