Sad Jiangnan

Fuji Quansuke couldn't ask "whether my brother will die" in front of his father.People of this age do not have as deep a concept of death as their elders, nor do they have no concept at all.It would be better to say that Fujikonsuke has always thought about "death" since he was very young.

For example, this body is about to die, and it is necessary to fall into the six realms or the ultimate bliss. As for whether it is a good place or a bad place, it depends on the fate of life.But if you did too many evils during your lifetime, as long as someone can pray for the blessings of the dead, those who should go to hell or reincarnation can also go to bliss.In this way, whether or not one did evil in one's life, and how much one did, seems to lose its meaning.Those who can be begged for blessings by those close to them will in any case dwell in eternal bliss.

But Fuji Quansuke deeply felt that just imagining "death" was indescribably terrifying.If we look into the reason, I'm afraid it's because we deeply feel that the term "Ultimate Pure Paradise" is empty and ethereal, like the wind in the ears and the snow in the sky.Although not unheard of, it is unseen.From the age Fuji Quansuke could remember, even though he often agreed with him verbally, he never felt that the world after death actually existed in his heart.

If death is a kind of happy belonging, then family members and relatives say "that child, Yuanfu will die soon, poor and poor." It is really contradictory and bizarre.According to Fujikonsuke, it should be changed to "gratifying and gratifying", and things like mourning and annual death are superfluous and unnecessary.The closest relatives can go to the Land of Ultimate Bliss, where will there be any nostalgia for this Saha world.Or to say that because the Saha world has nostalgia for it, it will be absurd to say that it has been reluctant to leave for a long time.

Whether it is the afterlife or ghosts and gods, there are many stories and hearsays, but there is nothing I have seen with my own eyes.If you ask Fuji Quansuke to comment, when you die, you will turn into dust. As the "New Theory" said, death is like a lamp going out, and the fire cannot walk alone in the void without a candle.To die is to die, and "death" is by no means a matter of happiness or liberation.

If you think about the sad and painful things, you will find it a kind of comfort.When I think of life in this world, when there are occasional unsatisfactory things and unavoidable things, it is just a breath of the universe and a brilliance of the infinite stars.My life is still alive, it is a matter of luck, I dare not extravagantly ask for other unfavorable favors.And this kind of sorrow and pain accompanies everyone, and the corresponding suffering of oneself also seems commonplace.But if you want to understand this open-minded truth, it is still too early for Fuji Quansuke, and it is something to say later.

All in all, Fuji Quansuke at this moment, the more worried about the illness of his elder brother who has been with him day and night, the more difficult it is for him to express his affection to others.

From then on, it was naturally difficult to get a glimpse of my brother's face among the Xiuyan monks who practice subduing.But now facing those monks who were praying loudly in the open space in front of the west, Teng Quansuke only felt that they were noisy.

Another night, my father called Fuji Quansuke to talk to him again.This time, the father's face was still a little dull and sad, "Your mother Sadako has always been in poor health, you are also very clear about this." Without waiting for Fujikonsuke to answer, he continued, "Always Since then, there have only been two children, you and Zhengxin. After giving birth to you, your mother’s health has deteriorated greatly. Whether it’s Mr. Agu or Mr. Shi, only you and Zhengxin are the children of Prince Nei.”

The indescribable fear in Fuji Quansuke's heart, like a golden carp diving deep in still water, suddenly surfaced.On weekdays, just thinking of "death" would make me feel terrified, but if I say the word "death", I feel that it is absolutely impossible to say it.

His father's words came to his mind immediately, and he said without moving, "Looking at the situation like that, if you die, there is nothing you can do."

Unrealistic emotions poured into his body, and Fujikonsuke lost the strength to sit upright for a moment.No matter what my father said, he couldn't hear clearly.There was a rumble in the ear, as if a dark cloud was pressing on the top of the head, and it was about to rain down with torrential rain, lightning and thunder in an instant.

"Then, I will arrange for you to be crowned next year. So you can't go on leisurely. You shouldn't do whatever you want or on a whim. Up to now, your body has been very healthy, which makes me relieved. When the time comes, I will teach you Your wet nurse will take you to Qingshui Temple to take you into a cage to bless you with eternal well-being."

But no matter what is said, it is not as profound as the word "death". "Death" is like the pine light in the courtyard and the standing light in the room.Like lights everywhere, surrounded by Fujikonsuke.In the quiet night, the light and the soul are always changing with each other, wandering around, getting closer and closer to Fujitsusuke in the cramped bedroom.If Fuji Quansuke just stared at the flooded fire barrel, he sneaked into the orange light like morning mist inside the curtain, but tirelessly disturbed him.Fearing that something would happen in the light, he had to look away from the fire barrel over and over again, and focus on the lights shining in.

Next to the four-legged gate in the southeast, a wall collapsed due to heavy rain last winter. If there are ghosts in this world, they must come in from there to take his brother's life.

If all the lights are extinguished, on a moonless night, above the dark night, there seem to be thousands of souls.The new wind outside the house is their messenger, patrolling the yard, lying by the lattice window, and finally came to Fuji Gonsuke's ear and whispered softly, soul, soul, come back quickly, this muddy world, don't To stay for a long time.If it was because of fear that he hid in the clothes spread on his body.The sound of the wind changed from "uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu" Ripple back and forth.Fuji Gonsuke, who couldn't sleep at night, was afraid of such a voice, got up and called his attendant to light the grease lamp.The light-like soul instantly appeared in front of him in a concrete form.

Fuji Quansuke took advantage of Chenhui to go back to the West Palace.

To the northeast of Banqiao in Huting, Jinglun's reading is sent from afar.Looking from here, it is a wonderful place to watch the mirror pool, but the whole picture of the mirror pool can no longer be seen.The monks piled up like a dark cloud, and the sound of chanting became louder and louder. Gradually, they could hear the doorway of the "Maha Prajna Sutra". face.

It turns out that those monks and monks who disappeared may have been asked to leave, or they were caught and eaten by spirit monsters.Fuji Quansuke felt a little funny in his heart.At this time, in the wing room with bamboo curtains hanging on the opposite hall, there was a strange sound like the new wind hitting the window.Fujikonsuke's heart skipped a beat.The movement of Shuofeng became louder from far to near, and ghosts crying and howling wolves appeared in front of me.It was so similar to the murmur of "Soul, Soul, Soul", Fuji Gonsuke, who was standing on the Nishi no Yushi, could barely move, and the monk's recitation seemed to have gradually stopped.

Amidst the strange screams that seemed to be unstoppable, the curtain suddenly shook.The movement of footsteps in the room and the bumping of furniture, seemed to be performing a temporary show of thieves robbing.The monks were a little startled, and they all took a few steps back, standing helplessly for a while.Among them, a young and upright person stood up and said, "Xie Chong, this is Xie Chong! Xie Chong has revealed himself."

Fuji Quansuke had never encountered such a situation before. He suddenly woke up from a dream. Although his hands and feet were still shaking slightly, he quickly climbed onto the top of the scorpion. No matter whether he was evil or a ghost, he could only be believed if he saw it with his eyes.Then he bent down and got close to the edge of the wing room, and saw that the slender gap between the two curtains was filled with messy colors, blue, green, and golden.A blur of colors, like the colorful sleeves of a young lady under the door curtain of an ox cart, but no clue what it is.In that weird scene, Quansuke Tengsu froze in place in a daze. Could it be that the people from the Paradise of Paradise came to greet my brother, or did the evil spirit really show up and warn me?But after thinking about it carefully, I have some impressions that the green one is Xiaocang Mountain, the green one is Guichuan, the moon-white clouds, and the golden sky.It turned out to be like this, it was a full-painted screen that is often seen in Xi Zhi Dui.Although it is early spring, the mountains are not as lush as in midsummer, but in the green Guichuan, lively fish are playing back and forth, and in the forest of Xiaocang Mountain, it seems that a rabbit or a fox will come to you in the next moment...

However, the ghosts in the wing room seemed to be having their fingers cut off, and the screams suddenly burst out from the gap in the curtain, like stones being thrown at Fuji Quansuke.The ghost's voice became hoarse, but it continued to say over and over again, "I don't want it, I don't want it!" It was like a cracked harp being forced out into high-pitched syllables.Ji Chi tried his best but to no avail to resist the status quo that was blown up, but his own rift became bigger and bigger against his original wish.Is it evil that controls brother?It was clearly the voice of Fujinaka Nagon, who sent out a series of painful wails to the sky above Nishi no Yui, "No need, I don't need..."

The monk commanded just now, "In this way, the evil spirit can be bent down and subdued. Hurry up and ask Pingzi to come over, hurry up."

The so-called Pingzi is the medium through which the evil spirits are transferred to the body by virtue of mana.Just wait for the evil spirits to possess them, and teach the monks to get rid of them or suppress them. Once the spirits are restored by the sons, the original patients will be cured like medicine, and will no longer be threatened by "death".

The monk urged, "What's going on. The Ping Zi and the Xiu Yan Monk must be in order, so that people can feel at ease. Come quickly!"

Then someone ran across the corridor to ask for it.The footsteps of those who ask for the child have not gone far.The figure behind the curtain suddenly moved, and with a "bang", the curtain in the middle of the hall turned several times in mid-air. The collapsed screen formed a semicircle on the three hanging curtains, and finally fell to the ground with a "boom".Ripples appeared in the golden sky, and most of the face was exposed on the screen above the screen.And because of the leaning of the body, it gradually flows completely from the inside of the wing room to the outside of the sheath from the gap between the hanging curtain and the sheath.Everyone outside the church can have a panoramic view of the beautiful picture scroll of green mountains and green waters.

The mother's abrupt voice in the wing room seemed to be crying, and she choked up and said, "Go back and sit down, the pain will stop soon..."

How many times has my mother not spoken to me?From the day when she couldn't go west to face the temple, the figure of mother only existed in dreams.Although there are some prejudices against each other on weekdays, I always feel that my mother does not love him enough.But young people are always very stingy, but there is no mother who really cares about this stinginess.But the strange thing is that if you want to talk about missing your mother, you don't even have an iota of it.At this moment, his mother's voice was too unfamiliar, and Fujikonsuke had the idea of ​​running away.

The elder brother's pleading seemed much smaller. In the gap between the curtains, the elder brother sat down with his mother.The mother's voice was very clear, "Zhengxin, don't you believe what my mother said. I just said that I will go to the room with my mother..."

Fujinaka Nayan repeated, "I don't want it, I don't want it..."

"Mom knows that you are in pain, and she is thinking of a way. You don't know how sad your mother is."

Fujikura thought, what do you want?My brother begged so sadly, why couldn't he do what he wanted.

Soon, there were loud footsteps accompanied by shouts, "Dong Dong Dong" followed by "Get out of the way", as if Ping Zi and Xiu Yanseng came together.Fujinaka Nayan also noticed something, and instead of being strangely calm just now, he jumped up and roared, "Get out of here, get out! I don't need things like this!"

The mother's voice was fragmented and said, "Please, why don't you listen to me? Could it be that my mother will harm you? I really can't think of making it like this now. As long as I get rid of the demons on my body, I will definitely recover." , so listen to what mother says, mother only thinks about you."

Fuji Quansuke trembled almost in fear, the fear similar to "death", the tsubaki cake many years ago, the mother's frown as if there was nothing, and those ambiguous accusations rushed into his heart.In his mind, he could see himself jumping off the grate, breaking through the mountains and hills of monks, and rushing out on the limestone road in the courtyard.But after waking up from the dream, why is Xizhi facing the gray sky.

The hanging curtain fell to the ground, the mother's appearance, the elder brother's back, the flustered maids and servants, the market-like scene appeared in front of Fuji Gonsuke.When my mother said, "Stop him quickly," she and Fujikonsuke looked at each other.

People who bleed the same blood, there will always be some similarities in some places.My brother seemed to have noticed something, as if the evil on his body had left his body suddenly, his crazy behavior stopped, and then he turned around, and was about to show his face to Fuji Gonsuke, when his mother blocked Fuji Gonsuke in two steps. In front of Quansuke.

The mother's face suddenly magnified in front of his eyes, Fuji Quansuke was startled, and quickly glanced away.Now, hearing the mother's voice is already a great fear. When the mother casts her gaze over, it is like a cold blade sticking to the back of her neck.The only strength Fuji Gonsuke had was to climb back from the top of the sheath to the muddy ground, and to stagger away along the limestone path, the monks who broke through the heavy walls and locks.

But as far as the eye can see, the monks scattered in twos and threes, and with the order of "get away" from the elder brother who made a comeback, every face contained horror.How can there be such an expression? The most ridiculous thing in this world is that a scholar does not know the book, a filial piety father lives away, an article student can't hold a pen, and Acharya is afraid of the soul.Fujitsu clenched his fists tightly.The more they showed such fear, the more unhappy they became.Fujitsusuke turned around, wanting to find out.

However, the mother's face, which is more terrifying than the evil spirit, is firmly embedded in the center of the scene.The mother's face, which should not be shown to others, was filled with an expression that was very different from the cowardice in the past, and she stared firmly into Fuji Gonsuke's eyes.

Fuji Quansuke suddenly thought in his heart, what would happen if she told her father about my coming to the West?

It is rare for a child of this age to have the consciousness of being favored by others. Although he can quickly detect the partiality of his elders towards others, once it comes to himself, he always thinks that kind of partiality is for granted.In the days of peace and tranquility in the past, my father praised Fujikonsuke's intelligence and brilliance, but never mentioned Fujinaka Nayan's excellence.Such a father is insincere, no matter how much he tried to erase the "achievements" of Fujinaka Nayan, Fuji Quansuke did not believe that his father would treat Fujinaka Nayan as he dictated.In the end, he learned nothing because of his father's teaching, and worried about gains and losses because of his mother's hatred.Both his father and mother became his enemies.

As a result, it seemed like he wanted to avenge his father's wanton finalization of destiny.In the west hall where the monk Shugen was evacuated, the cleaning and living activities continued as usual.The older brother hovering between dying and dead, lived from winter to next summer without incident.

However, there is a rumor circulating among the family members that Xie Shou has not left Onomiya by far.Just as monks are afraid of their elder brother whose temperament has changed drastically that day, it is rare for a young attendant to dare to approach him in Xizhiduili.

Although Xie Chong didn't take his life away, he wanted to take another thing instead.The eyebrows and eyelashes were removed, and nothing grew on the face since then.The nose and lips were removed, and the shape and appearance were like demons.The skin and cheek flesh were taken away, so that she could no longer show her true face to others.

What Fujinaka Nayan looks like now seems to be an insurmountable Mount Fuji in the game of courage.The valet who dared to stare at Nayan Fujinaka's face was like a monk who showed his might and strength after practicing hard. He would say to everyone, "I'm afraid you won't believe me if I tell you. Face, even if I stare at it for a while, I will be overwhelmed with fright! I just took a quick look, and then quickly escaped from there."

So he asked him, "So, what did it look like?" He laughed at him and said, "I'm afraid I was so frightened that I lost my mind when I saw it!"

This close attendant serving in the west is the son of the two nurses of the Fujiwara brothers, and he is a senior official in Beijing.Da Jin then said, "How can you say that. Sometimes listening to his voice, I feel that he is a gentleman with extraordinary appearance, not to mention the nobleness of his words and deeds. Who would have thought that when he really saw it, he would look like that." Appearance. It's really unlucky. If I had agreed to subdue at the beginning, it wouldn't be what I am today. Thinking about it this way, even if I feel scared in my heart, I really feel pitiful!"

Then he asked, "You don't know what he looks like." He laughed at Da Jin, saying that the young master's appearance is not as rumored, so naturally there is no need to be afraid.

But Da Jin said, "Let me tell you, if I can get rid of the evil spirits on my body, then my appearance will definitely return to the original one. I'm afraid no one will believe me if I tell you about the terrifying aspect of her current appearance."

Once again urging him to tell the truth, he copied the sentences in the rumors and said with some thoughts of his own, "There are no eyelashes on the eyelids, no lips on the mouth, and there is a hole where there should be a nose. Where there should be cheeks, there are only gullies like tree roots. With just one glance, I realized that no one would be born with such a look."

Everyone listened intently, and when Da Jin finished speaking, some shouted in disbelief, and retorted to him, "Not just a glance, can you see it clearly like that?", "I also said that no one would have that look His face, he is using false words to send others away." And some, who were very clear about what happened to Xizhi, pondered for a long time, feeling regretful in their hearts.He couldn't help sighing, "But why he didn't agree to subdue him, I really don't understand. In the end, this kind of willfulness eventually hurt me."

Xie Xing rested on the unrecognizable Nayan Fujinaka, and when he was not attacking, the sound of the zither floated in the bedroom of Xi Zhidu.In the quiet night, the zither sounds like a towering tree, standing alone on the endless wilderness.When it rained at night, the sound of the koto was like the Iroha song sung by my mother.

Once the bright sunlight returns to the earth, the evil spirits in the west seem to be revived as if they were born again.The sound of beating, scolding and crying is often sent.There is no peace in Onomiya every day.Enshrining this evil spirit is more difficult than enshrining gods and Buddhas, and often the slaves of the West will come to their father and cry about their misfortune.So much so that I rolled up my sleeves and hakama feet, and taught the adults to look at the colorful scars.He also vividly described that the eldest son of Xi Zhidu had a "ghost upper body" and had a rather big temper.Sometimes they overturned the desks that were full of food, and sometimes they said bad words to people for no reason. When they were serious, they even took the certificates around them and threw them at their backs.

So the highly respected Seng Zheng was also invited several times, always promising that the evil spirits had been eliminated.But within a few days, Fujinaka Nayan broke out again, still beating and scolding his former servants.

Fujikonsuke couldn't help thinking that there was probably a monster really living in Nishi no Yuu, which was no longer easy for people to get close to.