When the double black penetrates the if line

Even if Osamu Dazai was not by his side, but half lying on the sofa, Nakahara could still feel his body stiffen for a moment.

Ah... that's right.

Oda Sakunosuke.

The person who stretched out his hand to Osamu Dazai when he fell into the dark swamp.

Although the person has died, but has been sealed in the deepest part of Dazai Osamu's heart, the person who has never faded.

Nakahara Chuya didn't know Oda Sakunosuke at first, but as Dazai Osamu's partner, he had heard the name Oda Sakunosuke more than once either from Dazai Osamu or from others.

At that time, apart from himself, the closest people to Osamu Dazai were probably the other two people who went to the lupine bar to drink together-Oda Sakunosuke and Sakaguchi Ango.

It was only later that it was discovered that Ango Sakaguchi was actually a member of the government and was sent to Hong Kong gangsters as a spy, while Oda Saku died because of the conflict between Hong Kong gangsters and mimic.

And it wasn't an accidental death.

……

During that time, Chuya Nakahara was sent by Mori Ogai to another place, not in Yokohama.And when he came back, what greeted him was the news that Osamu Dazai had defected as a cadre.

After being shocked and unbelievable, even mixed with incomparable anger, Zhong Yuanzhong began to investigate what happened during the period of time he left.

He didn't believe that Osamu Dazai would leave Hong Kong just like that, and he didn't believe that Osamu Dazai would resolutely abandon his identity, his position, and all traces of his past life in just a few days. There is the most important, even——

Abandoned Nakahara Chuya himself.

The Central Plains is unwilling to believe it, and cannot believe it.

Although in other people's mouths Dazai has always been a person who has no attachment to anything, even his own life, but Nakahara Chu also always believes deep in his heart that there is always something in this world that can make Dazai stop. A person with footsteps, there is always something that will make him stay fettered.

Osamu Dazai will not abandon everything in the past so many years for no reason, let alone leave Hong Kong and Heilongjiang suddenly to pursue the light.

"Absolutely impossible." Chuya Nakahara was standing in front of the wreckage of his favorite locomotive, his eyes were aimlessly looking at the void, without focus, and he murmured softly, "Osamu Dazai is absolutely impossible. Just leave."

"He once promised to leave him a pillow like I wanted, but he hasn't fulfilled it yet."

Leaving behind such inexplicable three sentences and his subordinate who escaped after the disaster, Zhongyuan Zhong also turned around and made a resolution in his heart.

He will use every ounce of power he has to dig out the reason why Osamu Dazai left Gang Hei, and dig out all the hidden secrets and plans behind the time when he left Hong Kong Hei.

Then, after that, he would find Osamu Dazai himself.

Then bring him back to yourself.

……

It's a pity that my methods at that time were still too immature.

Zhong Yuanzhong also thought about it, and the corner of his mouth pulled up a slight bitter arc undetectably.

In the end, I can fulfill the oath I made.

I just learned that Osamu Dazai left Hong Kong and Hei, and he is inextricably linked with his friend named Sakunosuke Oda.On the surface, Oda Sakunosuke died with the leader of mimic, but the deeper reason behind it was that the leader Mori wanted the ability license and made a trivial sacrifice in order to obtain it.

So that's it?

Just because his important friend died because of Mori Ogai's plan, Osamu Dazai gave up all his thoughts about Hong Kong gangsters...all his thoughts about him, and resolutely defected?

All the evidence tells Zhongyuan Zhongya that this is the truth, but deep down in his heart he always feels that something is wrong.

In the end, he attributed this slight strangeness to the fact that Osamu Dazai was in a place he didn't know, had so much love and hate, and experienced so many emotional turmoil and ups and downs.

And he left Dazai Osamu's side when Dazai Osamu needed him most.

If he disobeyed Mori Ogai's order just once, and refused to carry out that mission and stayed quietly in Yokohama, or if he could move a little faster during the mission and rush back to Dazai Osamu before everything happened...

So is it, all will not happen?

All the evidence is at hand, all the facts are spread out in front of him, all the complicated emotions in Zhongya Zhongya's heart, all the confusion and bewilderment, can only be turned into helplessness and self-blame in the end.

And I don't know why it came suddenly, but it hurts so much.

Obviously his deadly enemy finally left, obviously after so many years of quarrels and disagreements, he was finally able to part ways, but at that moment, Zhong Yuan Zhong also felt that he could not breathe.

The pain of losing someone is probably like cutting a knife in the heart, and then watching the wound bleed. The blood expands, but the scab cannot heal for a long time.

Maybe the bright red blood that flows out in the end will also solidify, and maybe the turbulent emotions will return to calm in the end, but the scars will never disappear, and they will burst again immediately at the slightest opportunity.

And now, Zhongyuan Zhong just watched the deepest part of Dazai Zhi's heart, that hideous scar was abruptly uncovered, revealing the blood and flesh that had not yet healed.

The leader Osamu Dazai also saw it, so he showed a smile with a little pleasure and hypocrisy: "It seems that I have hit the mark."

"How? Look, don't you have things that cannot be retrieved, just like me?"

"Now, do you still feel that you have everything? Do you dare to tell me again the difference between the two of us?"

The leader Osamu Dazai let out a short chuckle, and said slowly, "Osamu Dazai, we are all the same. No matter which world it is - in your world, or in my world, or in In any one of the thousands of parallel worlds, we cannot escape such a fate."

Speaking of this, his expression was a little ferocious and vicious: "I thought I was different... I thought I could avoid this kind of unfolding... But everything is in vain."

"No matter how we struggle, no matter how reluctant we are, fate is like an old man full of wickedness, smiling while watching us step into the abyss again and again in this layer upon layer of planning."

"Others say that fate is like a piece of blue sky, allowing anyone to fly." The leader Osamu Dazai showed a bitter and disdainful expression, one of his palms stretched forward, and then, like an eagle's claw, made A movement of pulling them together, "It's really nonsense!"

"If fate is really a piece of sky, then there is a death bird hovering above our heads. No matter how hard we struggle, we can't break free from the embrace of death and loss. Because of the god of death, he is attached to our ears, standing behind us, looming over our heads—"

"There is no difference between the two of us, we are all the same pathetic, ridiculous, hateful and pathetic."

Dazai fell into silence.

Then he raised his eyes slightly, and saw Nakahara Chuya looking over.

Those eyes were fierce and full of usual violence, as if telling him that if he listened to such nonsense for a moment, he would hit his head against the wall dozens of times until all the black mud in his brain And pollution has been knocked out so far.

Don't give up.

Osamu Dazai could clearly read the words contained in Chuya Nakahara's eyes.

You still have me.

I will always stand by your side.

Dazai smiled lightly.

"You made a mistake about one thing." He stood up suddenly from the sofa, and said to the leader Osamu Dazai with a slightly astonished gaze, "Maybe I have indeed been hurt and experienced the pain of loss, but I have learned Walking out of this abyss, you have already seen the real blue sky of life. And you—"

He paused, showing a mocking smile: "And you are stuck in that abyss, and you will never be able to climb out."

"You see, I have a wonderful job, have many colleagues who really care about me, have my own savings and a house, and even have a lover."

"And you have nothing."

"How can the two of us be the same? It can be said that we can't find the slightest similarity between the two of us. Except for the same name, we have a world of difference."

Dazai Osamu stepped aside generously, took Nakahara Nakaya's hand by his side, and ignored the leader Dazai Osamu's gradually distorted gaze, the two walked towards the office door together.

"Just stay with your pitiful and pathetic negative emotions, I want to go to a happy two-person world with Chuya~"

Nakahara also glared at Osamu Dazai with a bit of embarrassment, but he didn't say any rebuttal words, and followed him out of the office door obediently.

"This is..." Hongye waited outside the office door, her eyes glanced at the hands held by the two, and she stopped suddenly when she saw the leader Osamu Dazai who was also walking towards the door.

When the leader Osamu Dazai came to the door, Osamu Dazai and Nakahara had already walked down half of the corridor.

"Hey."

When the leader Dazai Osamu's words sounded, Dazai Osamu didn't even turn his head.

However, the leader Osamu Dazai didn't mind.

He stood at the door of the office, his face with a bandaged eye was in the intersection of light and shadow, and his expression could not be seen clearly.

One word at a time, he said clearly——

"I don't care what you say, whether it's going back in time or destroying Yokohama."

"I will do everything I can to get back my Central Plains."