senior [rebirth]

In the summer vacation of the first year of high school again, Lin Xi spent the last few days in a daze, unlike the bright sunshine before.

When the senior was around, he looked more lively, and occasionally he would be amused by Xu Hanlai and talk to him.But once the senior is gone and he is the only one left at home, Lin Xi will sit on the sofa with a pensive expression before long.

Especially after taking the school uniform and various things needed to start school and boarding from Li Rende, Lin Xi has nothing else to worry about. Apart from absent-mindedly brushing off the English papers every day, he just nestles on the sofa and thinks about life.

It's not his own life, it's the senior's.

Lin Xi has been thinking about what makes the senior's life so different from the previous life.

Moving out of Xu's family early is one, having a different relationship with Liu Hao is the second, and wanting to study astronomy in Nancheng instead of going to Capital University is the third.

He looked as if he had completely deviated from the trajectory of his previous life.

why?

Lin Xi couldn't figure it out.

There should have been some useful information in his mind, and maybe one or two of them could be sorted out if they were connected together, but Lin Xi thought about it, but there were always some hard-to-remember memories, which became abrupt blanks in the logic chain, and then As for how he couldn't figure it out.

It was as if something was somehow stopping him from thinking about it.

So these days, Lin Xi's thinking process is almost similar.

Recalling the bits and pieces of the time when I was with my senior in my previous life, recalling all the information I knew about the senior from all directions after they parted, and recalling that he didn't open for several days after he learned of the senior's death in Chong Cafe, and finally in the store it was like the world collapsed In general, we go back to this era, and then the various events that occurred in this era.

Lin Xi thought about connecting them all together, but the formed logical chain always had question marks, and every time he tried to dig deeper, his brain became more and more sleepy.

This also means that every time he tried to recall everything, when Lin Xi finally fell asleep on the sofa with the air conditioner on, the doubts in his mind were still the same as before.

Why would he return to this era?And why is the senior's life trajectory completely different from the previous life?

How long can he stay here?What is going on?

None of this has been answered.

After a few days, Lin Xi thought more and more day by day, became more and more sleepy, and slept longer and longer.He is in a daze every day, but the things he finally thought about before going to bed are often forgotten after waking up. Sometimes even if he writes and draws on paper, he still can’t understand the next day. The key point is always blank.

This means that what Lin Xi wants to know has not become clearer under his hard thinking, which is very painful, but he can't stop.

Even if he can't figure it out for a few days, some logical remnants vaguely connected the day before will attract him to continue thinking, even if he has forgotten even the logical remnants, Lin Xi can't bear to worry about the fact that the senior's life trajectory is completely different Live and keep thinking.

He seemed to be caught in a vicious circle that he couldn't get out of, and he became quite silent.

And the bad consequence of this vicious cycle that leads to repeated deep sleep is——

Lin Xi is sick.

Severe cold, coughing and sneezing in turn, my throat was so hoarse that I couldn't speak, and even had a fever of 38 degrees at first.

On the day of the outbreak, Xu Hanlai had already set off for school at six o'clock in the morning. The sun was shining outside, and at first glance it was no different from the previous days, but when Lin Xi woke up, he felt as if the sky had fallen.

Incredibly top-heavy.

Lin Xi endured the dizziness and turned his phone to check the time, it was one o'clock in the afternoon.

Didn't he go to bed after nine o'clock last night?

"..."

Flushed by the turbulent illness, Lin Xi was stunned on the bed for a while, until he realized that although he was in pain, he was still alive, and life was hard-won. Then Lin Xi got up, put on an autumn school uniform, and went out to the clinic for IV drips.

The health center was near Lin Xi's house, and it took less than 10 minutes to walk from Xu Hanlai's house, but Lin Xi took a deep breath outside the senior's home, and took a taxi anyway.

This behavior is really extravagant, even the driver was stunned for two seconds when he heard the hoarse place name, and then turned to look at him more.

The clue can be seen at a glance: "Are you sick?"

Lin Xi hummed.

"The seasons are changing recently, so pay more attention to keeping warm." Yu Xi Tuandui.

The driver brother is a warm-hearted man, but Lin Xi has no strength to respond other than to respond more.

The inside of the car became quiet, and he also looked out the window.

After being ill, his eyes became sensitive, and it was very difficult to open them under the sun at one o'clock in the afternoon. Lin Xi squinted and looked at the familiar street for a long time. Still 27.

And the street in front of him seemed to have countless double images, one time day and one night, one time the summer heat and the other winter snow.The clothes on his body are the same, some are school uniforms, and some are the cotton jackets he used to wear in autumn.

Sometimes looking at it, the most familiar street at the moment even turns into a small road outside Nancheng University, and there are some strange alleys that he has never seen before.

Mood is one after another.

...I'm confused.

Lin Xi rubbed his forehead.

This feeling was so bad that during the process of hanging the needle, a nurse sister saw him alone and asked a few more questions with concern, but Lin Xi didn't answer.

When going out, the old doctor reminded him that he was not infected with the virus and that he should keep his body temperature. Lin Xi just gave a muffled hum without saying thank you.

He took the medicine and took a taxi home. On the way, he passed the same streets again, and those streets looked less and less like the familiar Yizhong neighborhood in his eyes.

The feeling of this messy scene overlapping in front of his eyes made Lin Xi feel very uncomfortable. For a while, he couldn't even be sure that he was still in that era.

It wasn't until he hurried back to the senior's house and returned to the living room full of mint fragrance that Lin Xi heaved a sigh of relief, and after a while, he lay limp on the sofa.

I have a high fever, and once I lie down, I don't want to get up at all.It happened that there was a bed on the sofa. Xu Hanlai discovered in the past two days the thin blanket that he often left behind after falling asleep in the living room during the day. Lin Xi stretched out his hand and lifted it, and he got in, sniffing the mint smell inside, rubbing his cheek against the soft pillow. to fall asleep.

Just then, his cell phone rang.

It is the information of the senior.

Lin Xi's eyelids were about to close, but he opened them forcibly to take a glance when he heard the special prompt.

Xu Hanlai sent him a picture, showing Liu Hao and several other senior seniors sweating profusely and grimacing together. In the camera, there was also half of the senior's hand accidentally placed on the railing of the stairs.

Lin Xi saw it, somehow felt that the scene was familiar, and wanted to return an expression, but his fingers hung on the keyboard for a long time without pressing down, and finally lost his strength and fell into a deep sleep.

This must be the worst sleep Lin Xi has ever had in his life.

After falling asleep, it didn't take long for the brain to feel as if it was on fire, and the whole head felt full of heaviness. On the contrary, the body, as if in a world of ice and snow, was severely divided.

These touches even seemed to be tearing Lin Xi.

The brain tried to burn down from the throat, and the body also produced a chill all the way up.

Lin Xi's weak consciousness was caught in the middle, and he almost felt like he was going to die. He curled up unconsciously, longing for the two temperatures in his body to merge slightly to make him more comfortable.

But it didn't work.

Lin Xi suffered for a long time in this state, until the high temperature of the brain was covered by an extra touch of coolness from nowhere, and gradually merged with the temperature of the body, Lin Xi had a dream.

What I dreamed about...was the picture that my senior just sent me.

But unlike in reality, it was no longer a picture, but strangely changed into a scene that Lin Xi clearly saw.

It was still in the afternoon, and he seemed to come to the school early to make up for something. At that time, there were only senior high school students on the campus.Lin Xi could feel that he was a little scared, not because he was afraid of the senior high school students, but because he was afraid of everything around him. His eyes seemed to be lowered all the time, and he hurried into the teaching office and came out again. When he came out, his eyes unconsciously Saw the scene in that picture.

The third year of high school was on the top floor, and the sun was just right that day. Before the first class in the afternoon, a group of senior high school students had a rare chance to relax after lunch. They gathered in the corridor and joked with each other cheerfully.

Lin Xi saw Liu Hao, he also saw other people, and most importantly...he saw the senior.

The senior in the dream didn't raise his mobile phone to take a picture, but leaned halfway to the railing. His black hair seemed to glow under the sunlight, especially his peach eyes with a gentle smile.

Lin Xi only took a quick glance, but the other party quickly noticed him. When those gentle watery eyes looked over, Lin Xi quickly turned his gaze away.

Then hurried out.

When they got downstairs, Lin Xi subconsciously wanted to rub his eyes, but found that his eyes hurt and his body hurt too.But looking down at the supplementary procedures in his hand, it turned out to be an application for suspension of school.

... leave school?

Lin Xi couldn't believe it, but the dream didn't give him time to react at all. The scene changed again, and he and his classmates who were three years younger than him entered the Law Department of Capital University together.

Lin Xi can feel that he still can't let go, he hides in all social situations, and the relationship with his roommate is also very weak, and he still lives in his own world every day.Until there was a school party, he ran out of the stuffy party environment and saw the man again in the corridor.

Wearing a crisp shirt and suit pants, he was standing by the corridor, with black hair, dark eyes, fair skin, and a cigarette in his hand.

Except for Yan, this person is almost exactly the same as many years ago. At first, he was still smiling with others, and then his eyes turned and fell on Lin Xi.

Lin Xi heard someone chatting about him, saying that he was an outstanding graduate of the Finance Department last year, surnamed Xu.

Lin Xi was uncomfortable with the man's gaze, and walked away when he heard this, and found a quiet corner to relax.When he was so relaxed that he was about to go back to the dormitory, Lin Xi found that the man walked near him.

His heart suddenly beat wildly.

It was also at this time that Lin Xi realized that the person in front of him was different.He is afraid or repulsive of anyone else, so he dare not contact him, but this person in front of him is neither afraid nor repulsive.

It's just... sorry.

He was afraid that the other party would think he was strange, from his personality to his appearance.

But he didn't expect that the other party would take the initiative to strike up a conversation with him, telling the truth that they met once in Mancheng No. [-] Middle School, and at that moment, Lin Xi thought that only he remembered.

It was rare to have a pleasant chat that night. Lin Xi could feel that the other party took care of him in all aspects. Almost every time he spoke, the sense of proportion was just right, but the specific content was not in the dream. Lin Xi only knew that in the end, the other party threw a olive branch.

Ask: "I have something, can I ask you for help?"

Lin Xi agreed without thinking about it.

So in the next long dream, he stayed with Senior Xu. That kind of time should be very happy, because Lin Xi could feel that his mood in the dream was getting better little by little, but the only thing that troubled him was Yes, the senior never told him what the favor was, but after a while, he showed Lin Xi the contract of his company unpreparedly.

At the beginning, it was just a loophole in the rules, but later it became a business violation, and in the end, more than half of the company's accounts could not be read.

Lin Xi saw it, but didn't say anything. Sometimes Xu Han came to ask him to sign, and he even signed.

"Your grades are not bad, and you sign all the contracts with problems?" Once, Xu Hanlai sat behind his messy desk that was completely inconsistent with his style, and asked Lin Xi with his chin propped up.

Lin Xi signed the contract, then looked up at the other party, and nodded silently.

That night, Xu Hanlai must have had some wine, his eyes were slightly narrowed with a captivating light, and he asked Lin Xi, "Why?"

Lin Xi subconsciously lowered his eyes and said, "You let me sign."

So just sign.

There was no echo in the room for a long time. Lin Xi didn't know what Xu Hanlai's expression was at that time. He only knew that 10 minutes later, the other party took away the second contract he was going to sign. wrist and took him out.

"I won't sign anymore, I'll take you out to play."

As soon as the scene changed, the man took Lin Xi to the suburbs for a racing car. The pointer went from sixty to eighty, to one hundred and then to one hundred and two.Lin Xi had never experienced such a scene before, and his eyes widened in the passenger seat.

Xu Han came to ask him, "Don't you like it?"

Lin Xi paused for two seconds, then shook her head: "I like it."

The luxury sports car gallops on the highway, roaring.

...It's refreshing and stress-relieving.

At that moment, Lin Xi's mind flashed a familiar picture in his life.

The way Gao Yiliang raised his hand, the way the gangsters outside the school picked up the wooden planks, they hit him every time, but the pain was completely blown away by the wind in the high-speed car.

The senior finally parked the car at the corner of the expressway, and he opened the storage cabinet on Lin Xi's side. There were a variety of limited edition cigarettes in it, which were expensive at first glance, and some of the cigarette cases were even inlaid with gemstones.However, Xu Hanlai didn't want any of them. Instead, he took out a box with a minimal packaging from the depths, with the words "Nancheng" printed on it.

The price is less than a fraction of other limited edition cigarettes, but Lin Xi knows that he likes this one the most.

"Talk about how the injury came about?" the senior asked as the cigarette lit up.

Perhaps because of being stimulated by the racing car, Lin Xi said a few words in a very simple way, but the other party understood.

Anyone who heard this kind of thing would have to scold at first, but Xu Hanlai asked him, "Does it hurt?"

Lin Xi froze for two seconds, turned his head to the window, and said in a cold voice, "General."

The indifference at that time was purely Lin Xi's uncontrollable disgust when he thought of Gao Yiliang who was still idle around the city, but the senior seemed to have misunderstood it.

Maybe it was his dissatisfaction with seniors asking similar questions?

In short, after the racing, Lin Xi never saw each other again.

"Aren't you taking me out to play?" As soon as the screen changed, Lin Xi silently sent a text message.

However, not long after the news passed, he heard people around him say that Xu Hanlai was chasing a girl recently, and he found it with great difficulty.

Lin Xi paused for a long time after listening.

He thought it was false, the rumor sounded different from the senior he knew and would patiently play with him.

That was the best person Lin Xi had ever met in his life, and it couldn't be like the rumors said.

Until he saw the senior take that woman in and out of the restaurant with his own eyes, he actually ordered her the most expensive dishes in the restaurant and presented her with extremely exaggerated jewelry.

Lin Xi stopped.

The dream has been dark for a long time since then, and Lin Xi seems to have been silent for a long time, until a human voice appeared next to his ear again.

It’s still about the senior, saying that he was dumped after being with someone after a long time, and the company also had problems, and now he is heavily in debt. Even if he has the title of the eldest son of the Xu family on his head, no one is willing to lend him money. .

Lin Xi didn't listen to the latter, and ran to the company after listening to the previous one.

The senior's company was in good shape when it was first started, and it seemed to be thriving, but this time when Lin Xi went there, almost all the people in it were gone, and it looked very cold.

However, when he opened the door of the office, the senior seemed to be watching a movie indifferently.

Chaplin's Modern Times.

"Have you heard?" He was not at all surprised by Lin Xi's arrival, it was always like this, and nothing that happened around him seemed to shock him too much.

Lin Xi hummed.

There was a silent movie on the wall, Xu Hanlai seemed to laugh a few times, Lin Xi endured and endured, but still couldn't hold back, and said, "You have bad eyesight."

The woman didn't like him at first glance, but she was taking advantage of his liking.

Although Lin Xi didn't know what could be regarded as liking, he could tell at a glance what he didn't like.

This sentence seemed to make Xu Hanlai feel a little trouble, he tilted his head to look at Lin Xi, and said with a bit of a smile: "My eyesight is not good?"

"En." Lin Xi nodded, then walked in and said, "Do you still want to sign? If they don't lend you, you can use my name to lend."

Xu Hanlai paused.

He paused for a long time, then laughed and said, "You are so cute."

Lin Xipin came out, which may mean being silly.

But he doesn't care, he is very numb to the outside world. After learning that Gao Yiliang may not be punished by the law because of timeliness and lack of evidence, Lin Xi once lost hope in this world. He felt that life was very boring. His time together.

He wants to win those times back.

However, that was the last time he saw Xu Hanlai in the dream.

Xu Hanlai didn't ask for his name, didn't ask him to stay and sit for a while, and kicked him out without even talking to him.

Then that night he died on the highway on the outskirts of the city.

The dreamland turned into infinite darkness again, and the last bit of emotion left to Lin Xi was the sentence——

He doesn't believe it.

After hearing that Gao Yiliang was imprisoned, Lin Xi went to that section of the expressway, and finally died in the exact same place, and the dried blood on the ground became fresh again.

The world in front of him was turned back and forth, and Lin Xi found a gap inexplicably in a dizziness. He always felt that the person he wanted to see was at the other end of the gap, so he used a lot of strength to get in, and when he opened his eyes, he found a gap. Back to high school again.

Without even thinking about it, he rushed to class two and three to find someone, but that time, class two and three did not have Xu Hanlai.

In the dream, Lin Xi was depressed for a while, but he soon cheered up. He skipped a grade to get into Capital University, and then saw Xu Hanlai passing by near the law department.

He grabbed the opponent's wrist.

And that was also the first time that Lin Xi saw a truly surprised expression in the senior's eyes.

But this time is different from the last time, just after entering school, the relationship between the senior and the woman from the previous life is already boyfriend and girlfriend.

The other party still didn't like him at first glance.

... This man looks smart, but why is his vision always so bad.

In the end, this clip went completely dark when Lin Xi said nothing, and Xu Hanlai turned around and left with the woman.

When it lights up again, it is the highway three years later, and the two sections of blood overlap again.

Only this time when Lin Xi opened his eyes again, what he faced was no longer the indifference and ignorance of the other party.The two met again in No. [-] Middle School in Mancheng. When Xu Hanlai saw him running towards him, he had a little helplessness on his face, and he couldn't help but want to get used to his smile, and said.

"here we go again?"

He also remembers everything.

Afterwards, all the pictures were full of joy. The senior was not with that woman again in that life. He stayed with Lin Xi most of the time and knew a lot about Lin Xi, and Lin Xi’s personality gradually changed. It's not the same as before.

He became more and more aware of what his emotions towards his senior were.

But the other party rejected him.

That time they both lived to old age, Lin Xi walked faster, and there was no chance of overlapping blood, but after he passed away, he still grasped the familiar gap and returned to high school.

Only this time, he didn't remember anything.

All he knew was that everything around him was inexplicably getting better. Gao Yiliang, who committed domestic violence against him, was stopped several times for no apparent reason, and afterward he had conflicts with loan sharks and both were imprisoned.

The street corner gangster who had been eyeing him took the money from him and disappeared near No. [-] Middle School not long after the first time.

Guo Yu in the class suddenly took the initiative to take him to play with everyone.

Everything was fine, Lin Xi became more and more cheerful, and he still chose Capital University.

He wanted to study the Fa and help more people.

Then I saw Xu Hanlai again at Capital University.

Remember it at a glance.

As soon as the scene in the dream went dark, the senior's helpless voice came from beside his ear: "Is it because I can't get rid of you?"

But Lin Xi couldn't understand: "What can't you get rid of?"

"……fine."

"Is this biscuit delicious?"

"……good to eat."

"But you don't like sweets?"

"It's delicious when you make it."

In the vague picture, Lin Xi laughed for the first time.A pair of round eyes are curved, and there are no hideous scars on his face. He looks warm and innocent, like a little sun.

The picture flies, and Lin Xi returns to high school time and time again, sometimes he can have a little memory, sometimes he doesn't.But he would meet Xu Hanlai without exception. From the time he went to find each other, Xu Hanlai gradually took the initiative to find him.

Once there was another scar on Lin Xi's eye, and the senior even apologized to him after seeing him.

Lin Xi, who couldn't remember anything, didn't understand, he only knew that he liked the person in front of him very much, and with just one glance, he could like it to the bottom of his heart.

So I chased him after that gap again and again.

Xu Hanlai seems to always have his own things to do, but Lin Xi is always chasing him, so that the time spent is not even considered life in Lin Xi's eyes.

He was just chasing after the senior.

"When will it end?" Lin Xi's voice sounded from the dark dream.

"Next time." The senior gave him an affirmative answer.

"Will I be able to catch up with you next time?"

"...Well." Xu Han responded, and after a while: "What kind of life do you want?"

"You are here, and then it will be smooth, everyone will be happy." Lin Xi thought for a while.

"Okay." The senior answered quickly.

After a while, he said: "But you can't look for me this time."

He closed and opened his eyes, and he forgot everything and returned to No. [-] Middle School. This time, he didn't remember anything. After being rescued by his senior, he first read the volunteers for a long time, and chose Nancheng, which he had a little impression of, and then he graduated from Nancheng obediently. Back to Mancheng opened a pet coffee.

Lin Xi was never lonely in those lonely days when he was alone, because he always felt that he was waiting for something.

Three springs, summers, autumns and winters passed quickly.

However, what he was waiting for was the news of his senior's death again.

That night when he was sitting in the pet coffee and his emotions collapsed, under Lin Xi's surging sadness, there were two words that he didn't even see.

"fraud."

But these two words quickly disappeared, because he saw the senior not long after he opened his eyes again.

So all the emotions were healed, and he decided to save the senior again based on the remaining memories.

However, half a year later, he found that everything was different from his previous life.

So he always tried to find a way to think, but his brain seemed to be washed by someone, and he couldn't figure it out.His memory always has blind spots. After a high fever, his body even seems to be pulled apart by two extreme temperatures.

……wrong.

His forehead is not as hot as before.

It was as if something slightly cold was stuck to his forehead.

Realizing this again, Lin Xi opened his eyes with some difficulty, and then vaguely saw the figure sitting beside him in the darkness.

The moment he opened his eyes, his brain was so hot that it was about to explode, and his throat seemed to be scorched, but when he saw the senior, he still subconsciously wanted to say something.

"you come back……"

"Continue to sleep." Before he could finish speaking, Xu Hanlai reached out and pressed Lin Xi's forehead, making him close his eyes again.

The cold palm of the other party fell, and Lin Xi felt that his warm head seemed to cool down a little, and the faint mint smell entered his nostrils, and he couldn't help falling into a deep sleep again due to the temperature.

This time, her body temperature dropped gradually, and Lin Xi had no dreams all night.