senior [rebirth]

In the end, Lin Xi rushed home in one go. If it wasn't for the fact that he still had a bit of reason in his mind, knowing that he must be dirty after a day of tossing outside, he almost fell directly into the bed.

However, after taking a bath and following the bed, it seems that there is no difference.

Recalling the way Xu Han came to tease him before, Lin Xi hid under the quilt with a bit of embarrassment on his face.

The senior is really too gentle, so for a moment, Lin Xi even thought that the senior in this life seemed to treat him better than the previous life, and compared to other people, he seemed a little special.

Where is it special?

Recalling that the senior didn't seem to be very disgusted with love letters before, a thought flashed in Lin Xi's mind that he might not have dared to lend him a hundred courage in the past.But this idea was too bold for Lin Xi, so he held it down as soon as he showed a small tip.

The whack-a-mole battle of the century was going on in my heart, but the mobile phone on the bedside table suddenly vibrated at this moment.

The quilt on the bed heard the sound, and the rolling stopped abruptly, and then a head emerged from the quilt silently.A few seconds later, a pair of round eyes approached the screen of the phone, and the light-colored pupils were illuminated by the light of the phone. Seeing that it was a message from the senior, he quickly clicked on it to check.

Senior: Asleep?

Lin Xi blinked, typed back and said: Ready to sleep.

Xu Hanlai over there seemed to wait for a while before replying with one word: Yes.

Lin Xi looked at this word, and was wondering if he should ask "Is the senior going to bed too?" to continue the topic, when a message came over there.

Senior: I’m not kidding you, I really recited it, I’ll listen to it another day.

Senior: Good night.

Lin Xi was taken aback by these two messages, and then his eyes turned on these two lines for a long time, imagining the tone of the senior when he said such words, the hand holding the screen fell and rose again, and after a long while, the I buried my head deeply in the pillow next to me.

...he's gone.

The next day was Sunday, so he could sleep in theoretically, but Lin Xi has been studying hard recently, so even if he played late the day before, he still woke up early in the morning on time.

After eating the breakfast left by Li Rende, he obediently nestled into his room and began to read his various study materials.

There is only one year of knowledge points in high school, and they are all relatively basic.Therefore, under the accumulation of previous lives and the focus of Yao Zijing's circle, Lin Xi's mathematics level has improved by leaps and bounds during this period of time.

However, after mathematics, there are physics and chemistry students, and it is not easy to relax because of this, so Lin Xi quickly started his own physics study while keeping a math paper every day.

Originally, for Lin Xi, physics and chemistry should be two big problems.After all, he only saw the sycamore tree in his eyes during the whole first year of high school in his last life. When he came back to his senses because of the appearance of the senior, it was already the end of the first school year, and he went to liberal arts at the beginning of the second year of high school. There are no concepts.

But after carefully reading the physics textbook in the first year of high school in this life, Lin Xi found that there seemed to be nothing particularly difficult.

Although it was really jerky at first, there were many formulas to memorize and many concepts to understand.But Lin Xi found that he has a little bit of magic in the subject of physics, that is, he can always quickly grasp some deep thinking in physics problems, something like a skeleton, and sometimes the problem-solving ideas that come out of his mouth are even fast and accurate. It surprised Guo Yu.

Lin Xi himself didn't quite understand this, after all, in his memory, Li Huasheng and him had never been connected online.

But since he has such a talent, Lin Xi thinks that he can just use it. Besides, thinking is only part of solving the problem, and there are many details that need to be learned besides this.

He spent the morning consolidating the various applications of mechanical formulas. He was stretching his neck and wanting to rest for a while, when he heard a sudden sound from the living room.

It sounded like a door closing.

Lin Xi looked up at the wall in the direction of the gate.

Li Rende doesn't go to work on Sundays, but because of his family's debt problems, he usually goes to help on the construction site to earn some extra money.In order to make more income, it is natural to get up early and work late, so he has already gone out early in the morning.

Although he told Lin Xi last night that he would come back as early as possible to buy vegetables and cook today, but Lin Xi looked at the time and felt that it hadn't reached the point Li Rende said, so this could only be Lin Meiling's movement.

It is a novelty for Lin Meiling to be at home on weekends.

In order to avoid Lin Xi, in the past, she usually tried her best to stay outside, coming back every second late if she could, as if the children at home were some kind of scourge.I don't know how Li Rende did the ideological work for her in the past few days, so that she could agree to this meal tonight.

Thinking of this, Lin Xi drooped his eyes and turned his pen, and wrote two more questions very quietly.

But the second question was still being drafted on the manuscript paper, when Lin Xi suddenly heard a ping-pong-pong sound from outside, as if something heavy was knocked down one after another.

The tip of the pen stroked lightly on the white manuscript paper. Lin Xi sat on the seat and paused for a long time, then sighed softly, put down the pen in his hand and walked out with some helplessness.

"Mom?" Lin Xi called deliberately before entering the living room.

It was a habit he developed later.

In the past, when Lin Meiling had something to do at home, when Lin Xi heard about it, she usually quietly approached her side, with a gloomy aura on her body, and every time Lin Meiling turned her head, she would be startled, and once she even suffered from it several times. Did not come home that night.

That's why Lin Xi slowly developed this habit. He had to let Lin Meiling know that he had come out of the room.

Although Lin Meiling often does not respond to him.

It was the same today, but Lin Xi didn't mind a long time ago, and walked directly to the source of the sound after calling out.

It's the bathroom, the door is open.

The old house of the Lin family didn't have much space, and the bathroom was naturally very crowded, but Li Rende cleaned it up on weekdays. He was very good at these things, so it looked neat and orderly.

In contrast, Lin Meiling does these things less and is not familiar with them, so that some seemingly simple things, once she does them, will immediately knock them down.

Lin Xi walked to the door, saw the mess inside, and showed an expression that was as expected.

Then he walked forward slowly, stood beside Lin Meiling, lowered his head and picked up the bottles and cans, then lowered his waist down to put them away, and patiently explained: "This locker was built by my uncle himself, it cannot be opened like this. , if you forcefully pull it, it will not be able to be retracted, you have to pull it horizontally from this side, and then release it, so that it will not fall down."

As he spoke, he demonstrated it to Lin Meiling.

The little boy's cheeks looked fair and peaceful, and as he bent down, his black hair fell from the corners of his eyes, drawing a beautiful arc in the air.

"Why did you suddenly think of buying this?" Lin Xi said, looking at the new pile of body wash and shampoo in his hand, and asked a little wordlessly.

It's not about Lin Meiling's purchase of these things, but about the things she bought back.

Lin Xi himself had a vague life in high school in his last life. It wasn't until he went to college that he realized that what Lin Meiling had bought him all along was actually the kind of milk body wash for children.

Although it is very easy to use, there is no rule that adults cannot use it, but Lin Xi, who realized it, felt inexplicably... very strange.

"Your uncle asked me to buy it." Lin Meiling lowered her eyes and replied.

She didn't seem to be very used to being so close to Lin Xi, seeing him pick up those bottles and cans, no matter whether they were arranged or not, she got up quickly and wanted to go out.

Lin Xi in the bathroom glanced at her and didn't say a word. He only took advantage of the extra space after Lin Meiling left, squatted down and cleaned up all the bottles on the floor for her, and put them neatly. Then he closed the cabinet and got up. Go out the bathroom door.

As a result, he had just stepped out of the door, and in a blink of an eye, he saw Lin Meiling carrying her bag and going out. Busy, I didn't even hold the key at first, and it fell on the ground, making a loud noise.

Seeing her appearance, Lin Xi couldn't help but pause, and then quickly remembered the countless times before, Lin Meiling ran out like this and left him at home alone.

When this first happened, Lin Xi was still very young and ignorant. When she saw her mother going out, she couldn't help pestering her, and would say things like that she didn't want to stay with her father.

Lin Meiling was soft-hearted at the beginning, and then took him with her, but since her grandmother passed away, Lin Meiling went out more frequently, and even did not return for several days, and Lin Xi was never taken away again--Lin Meiling hardly looked at it To see him.

Lin Xi was sensitive when he was a child. The overly complicated family environment allowed him to detect other people's emotions very quickly and sensitively, and decided his own emotions because of other people's emotions.So when he realized that he was shunned by his biological mother, he naturally felt very painful and sad for a period of time. It was also at that time that he built a shell to wrap himself up, no longer longing for the outside world, and no longer longing for contact with the outside world.

The emotions when I was a child were really complicated and negative, but now Lin Xi doesn't want to think about it, and he doesn't have such violent emotional ups and downs anymore.After seeing Lin Meiling noticed him coming out, she wanted to leave more quickly, but accidentally made more mistakes, and even said very plainly: "Put on your shoes slowly, and be careful not to fall."

Then he stopped looking at Lin Meiling, turned around and went back to the room.

She was left alone at the entrance in a daze.

Lin Xi, who returned to the room, continued to work on the questions, and when he heard the sound outside the door, he didn't care too much, and just focused on brushing the paper.

Seeing that it was noon, he went out to make fried rice for himself, and then continued to return to the sea world.

Li Rende came home with vegetables at three o'clock in the afternoon. When he came back, he didn't see Lin Meiling, so he knocked on Lin Xi's door and asked—he encountered such an unexpected situation, and due to physical reasons, he couldn't give the emotionally sensitive Lin Meiling a direct response. Calling, the relationship with Lin Xi has become more harmonious recently, so I will naturally ask him subconsciously.

Lin Xi told the truth about what happened in the morning, and Li Rende quickly comforted him, basically explaining for Lin Meiling, until Lin Xi said nothing happened, then turned around and ran out in a hurry.

It seemed that it was almost 04:30 when Lin Xi heard another sound of closing the door in the living room, followed by two footsteps.

– Li Rende found Lin Meiling back.

Lin Xi used to consciously shield Li Rende, so he didn't know much about his relationship with Lin Meiling, but now it seems that Li Rende was able to persuade Lin Meiling to have dinner with him, and he was able to get Lin Meiling back in this way. Later, Lin Meiling would pay attention to him. It is not surprising that Lin Xi did not forget to tell Lin Xi not to bully others before he died.

Li Rende is such a good person, Lin Meiling is willing to treat him as well as Lin Xi without any displeasure.

He just couldn't understand why Lin Meiling told him to "not bully" Li Rende.

Where is Lin Xi's character of bullying?For a long time, what did Lin Meiling imagine him to be, so that she finally said that?

Lin Xi paused for a while, and realized that his thoughts were going to run upwards again, so he quickly stopped in time and continued to lower his eyes to write questions.

Li Rende moved very neatly. He brought Lin Meiling back at 04:30, and he was able to prepare a large table for dinner at [-]:[-] pm.

When Lin Xi was called out by him, his face was full of surprise when he saw the meals he had prepared – Lin’s house is small, and the dining table is naturally not that big, usually only Lin Xi can eat alone.So he looked back after seeing the dishes on this table, and found that he had never seen so many dishes on this small square table, and many plates were even stacked.

As for the dishes inside, Lin Xi knew at a glance that they were all his and Lin Meiling's favorites.

Lin Xi sighed silently in his heart, and then sat down next to Lin Meiling who was wearing a uniform and white shirt, picked up the bowl full of rice that Li Rende had prepared for him.

Li Rende, who was on the opposite side, was overjoyed when he saw the two mother and son finally sitting at the same table. He repeatedly gestured to Lin Xi and said, "Xi Xi, eat it. I made it. You can taste it."

He gestured again and said, "Oh, yes, this shrimp was specially bought for you by your mother when she went to the market yesterday. You should try it too. It's delicious."

Then turned to Lin Meiling: "Daughter-in-law, you eat too, you eat too."

Lin Xi followed his gaze and looked at Lin Meiling, who was only staring at her own bowl and not looking at other people at all, feeling helpless in her heart.

How could Lin Meiling buy shrimps for Lin Xi?It's just that Li Rende wants to make the relationship between their mother and son better.

Lin Xi, who can live again, really doesn't have any big ideas in this regard.

Back then, Lin Xi’s grandparents were all intellectuals of that era. Lin Meiling lived in a scholarly family since she was a child, and was loved by her parents, like a daisy growing up in a shed, with no trace of weather on her body.The most exciting thing I've ever done in my life is to marry Lin Xi's father, Gao Yiliang, despite her big belly.

And then paid a very painful price.

After her grandmother accidentally died because of Gao Yiliang, Lin Xi felt that Lin Meiling had entered into unprecedented guilt, which was so huge that it could almost overwhelm her.

And Lin Meiling's life experience has long determined that she can't pick herself out of such a predicament, and she doesn't know how to resolve herself. Lin Xi even doubted many times later that without Li Rende, his mother's psychological The situation may have hit the bottom when he was in high school, and it is hundreds of times worse than it is now.

That's why he said that by now, he didn't want to pursue anything anymore.

He understood that Lin Meiling herself was in a huge emotional vortex, too busy to take care of herself, and it was difficult to distract her children. He might even push some of her resentment to Lin Xi who was still in her stomach.But this is already his maximum limit.

After all, he was the most innocent one in family conflicts when he was still young.Lin Xi has done his best to not hate Lin Meiling or complain about his childhood life.As for whether the relationship with Lin Meiling could become like that of an ordinary mother and child, he never expected it after his rebirth.

But looking at Li Rende, who was trying his best to liven up the atmosphere, eager for their response, and ended up alone as if he was singing a one-man show, Lin Xi couldn't help but feel sad again.

He seemed to be unable to bear the sight of others falling into such a situation, so he finally followed him and said, "Well, the shrimps are delicious, thank you mom."

Then, under Li Rende's almost delighted eyes, he picked up a small green vegetable and prepared to send it to Lin Meiling's bowl, while saying, "Mom, try this, uncle's cooking is delicious."

He wanted to respond to Li Rende, which was the maximum he could accept to respond to Li Rende, but Lin Meiling did not cooperate.

As soon as she saw Lin Xi's movements, she subconsciously moved her bowl back.

Noticing this, Lin Xi's hand stopped stretching forward immediately, and just stopped in place, the original expression on his face suddenly became stiff, his brows were slightly wrinkled, and a needle drop could be heard in the living room in an instant.

Li Rende, who was on the opposite side, realized that the situation was not good in time, and quickly stretched out his chopsticks to pick up Lin Xi's vegetables from below, and then put them straight into Lin Meiling's bowl, gesturing with one hand and saying, "Yes, yes, yes, let your mother taste it. , let her taste it."

Lin Meiling frowned almost immediately, and whispered "what are you doing".

Li Rende hastily gestured to appease her.

Lin Xi didn't look at Li Rende's expression, but glanced at them, then said nothing, and lowered his eyes to eat silently.

At that moment, he felt as if he had returned to the state of Lin Xi ten years ago, quiet and unknown.

Later, Li Rende asked Lin Xi some questions, most of which were that he went out to celebrate his birthday again recently, and had dinner with his classmates again, did he make many friends, how did he get along with friends, and the end of the term, his grades , exams, and so on.

Lin Xi answered very briefly, and then Li Rende thought of something again, and asked, "It's almost the second year of high school, and the school will divide subjects. Lin Xi plans to choose essays or rationale."

Without even thinking about it, Lin Xi said, "Reason."

Then he noticed that Lin Meiling on the side seemed to have stopped eating slowly, and then suddenly looked up at him.

……Why?Because the Lin family is all studying history, is it only Gao Yiliang who is a chemistry teacher?

This idea flashed through Lin Xi's mind, and he quickly suppressed it. He didn't want to speculate on Lin Meiling's thoughts any more, so he just ate the meal with the two of them, and then Without saying anything, he turned and went back to the room.

When he got up, Lin Xi took it to Lin Meiling's bowl from the corner of his eye.She failed to confront Li Rende this time, the small green vegetable was still lying in her bowl, but Lin Meiling didn't eat it, and kept it on the side of the bowl the whole time, without moving.

It was as if Lin Xi had been left at home.

Even though he kept controlling his emotions in his heart, when Lin Xi returned to the room and read the test papers on the table, his expression was still visibly depressed.

Instead of forcing himself, he simply took a shower and went to bed.

But I didn't expect to dream.

Probably due to the influence of what happened at home the whole day before, the content of Lin Xi's dream was very bad, and he forcibly turned out the memories he had tried to keep in his mind in the past.

He dreamed that when he was a child, Gao Yiliang who came home drunk insisted that Lin Xi make fried rice for him.Lin Xi did it, and Gao Yiliang cursed and disliked the taste.

Lin Xi was not very old at that time, only eight or nine years old, and was already used to being scolded. Under Gao Yiliang's fierce gaze, he asked submissively, "Dad... isn't mom coming back today?"

These words seemed to have hit Gao Yiliang's sore spot. After staring at Lin Xi for a long time, he reprimanded a few words, and then he became more and more angry as he spoke, until finally he even raised the ashtray by his hand, and wanted to hit him so hard. Head over.

The ashtray was made of glass, very heavy, and there seemed to be ash from Gao Yiliang's cigarette butts that had not been completely cooled down in it, which brought a suffocating sense of oppression.When Lin Xi was getting closer and closer to the ashtray, almost directly rushing into the eyeballs, his heart shrank suddenly, and then he woke up from the bed, his eyes were wide open, and he held his hands tightly in shortness of breath. quilt.

... Lin Xi remembered the scene just now.

In the previous life, Gao Yiliang almost smashed him like this, but before he could smash it out, there was a sudden knock on the door of his house, and Gao Yiliang's movements stopped.

Tragedy did not happen.

But in the dream just now, for some reason, he seemed to see a very long scar on his face, from the corner of the eye to the cheek, which was really piercing.

It also hurts very much.

Lin Xi seemed to really feel the heart-wrenching pain caused by that large scar through that dream, and couldn't help clenching his hands tightly on the quilt, feeling panic and fear in his heart.

Even though he wrapped himself tightly with the quilt, the surging coolness still lingered.

Fear seemed to pinch Lin Xi's heart so directly, the more he wanted to drive it away, the clearer those emotions became.In the end, Lin Xi felt that the dream had come true. There was really such a scar on his face, and he couldn't help but reach out and touch it for a long time.

Then the mood visibly became anxious.

And under this kind of anxiety, Lin Xi didn't know why, his desire to see his senior seemed to have reached a full mark all of a sudden, and it seemed that only Xu Hanlai was the only way out of this bewildered predicament.

So without thinking, he took the phone by the bedside, turned to the QQ of the senior, called and deleted him, deleted and typed again and sent a message.

Lin Xi: Senior, are you free?

Lin Xi: I

After posting this article, Lin Xi finally glanced at the time vaguely, then found a reasonable excuse and hurriedly said: Let me treat you to supper.

It was already two o'clock in the morning. In fact, the normal situation would definitely not be answered.But Lin Xi didn't think about it that much. While he couldn't help touching his face, he huddled under the quilt almost obsessively, staring intently at the phone.

Then in about half a minute, he received a message from Xu Hanlai.

Senior:?

Senior: Have a nightmare?

Lin Xi replied eagerly: Well, do you want to eat?

It took almost 3 minutes over there before they replied with one word: eat.

Lin Xi couldn't care about the senior's pause, which might be hesitation. Almost the moment he saw the word "eat", he immediately got up from the bed, opened his piggy bank, and took out the money in it.Then he said as if he was afraid that the seniors would regret it if he was a second late: Then I will go to No. [-] Middle School to wait for you now, okay?

This time Xu Han went back and forth quickly and said: Not good.

Then he said: Wait downstairs, I'll pick it up.