Domestic Lover [Zerg]

An Ze stared at the bookmark quietly for a while, then suddenly threw the bookmark out along with the book.

despair.

Anze avoided the direction of the bookmark with dull eyes, and turned his head to the other side.

But this obviously had no effect. A huge pain was brewing in his heart, and the darkness continued to surge. He opened his mouth weakly to try to relieve the pressure, but it didn't work.At this moment, he was like a wooden man, sitting quietly with no expression on his face.

Ah, what is he doing?

That bookmark seemed to remind him, do you want to know the truth?

This is not what he wants.

The purpose of his coming here is not for the bookmark, nor for the bird, he wants to get back the feeling of reading a book here, the tranquility contains the feeling of peace of mind.

……

But he couldn't find it.In the future, too, he has been deceiving himself, since earlier, maybe three days ago, maybe yesterday when Evando left.

Evando is still the same as before, he is still a gentle young man, a lover who just confessed his heart not long ago, a warm female who wants to be with him.

Evando also accompanied him once yesterday.

He had borrowed "Brown Earth," which was still sitting on a shelf in his second-floor room.

Evando asked him yesterday, he wanted to get his answer, but he couldn't open his mouth for a long time...

He could lie to himself all the time, but he couldn't give it to his partner while his heart was broken.

As time went on, he couldn't lie to himself anymore.

Anze curled up weakly, the book ladder he was sitting on slowly turned into a corner, he suddenly sat in a dark corner of this bookstore, countless books stood in front of him, blocking all the light.

I just moved around casually, and found the place where I met Evando...

Oh no.

It's because 'An Ze' wanted to go to that place, so that place appeared automatically, so interesting.

Why all this?Why did the more he didn't want to understand, the more those things had to be placed in front of him?Why not continue to keep him in the dark?

As long as he doesn't know anything, it's a happy ending, the ending that everyone expects. Don't those 'friends' rely on this to get close to him.Evando...isn't it too.

Anze's head was buried between his arms, he was breathing rapidly like a dying bird, entrenched in the cage, even if he died of starvation, even if he opened the door, unchained him, and set him free, he would continue to entangle himself , unwilling to leave.

Even though his surroundings had become dark, there was no place where the darkness was more intense than the darkness in his heart.

The mud that had been washed away became more and more entrenched, pressing on his heart, Anze's blood froze and coagulated, and would not run any longer.

Why must he be imprisoned in darkness, born in a cage, struggling in the swamp?

Why is he that bird?

……

.

despair.

despair.

There are footsteps.

The worm that made the sound of footsteps stood quietly in front of the pile of books that surrounded Anze.

For a long time, Anze curled up, but the people outside did not leave either.

blah blah blah.

More urgent voices sounded outside, and a familiar gentle voice asked, "Is An Ze here?"

……

…The voice didn't seem to get the answer it wanted, and left quickly.

despair.

The worm finally moved, and he politely knocked on the pile of books.

Anze wanted him to leave, but he found that he couldn't control the coordinates of the worm, and curled up even tighter.

The worm seemed to feel repelled, and backed away a little.

"..."

Curled up again for a long, long time, maybe a few days.

Anze maintained a posture, his slender back trembling slightly.

There were many footsteps outside, and probing 'eyes' trying to find 'Anze'.

Anze clenched his palms tightly, those 'gazes' quickly withered and disintegrated.

He changed places to hide, and those footsteps disappeared.

When he was about to curl up again, the worm who had been standing outside waiting for him suddenly hugged An Ze.

Anze is like a puppet, he is tired of hiding, he doesn't want to move, he just let other insects hold him.

His eyes were out of focus, and he slowly shifted to the female who was holding him.

The female worm hugged him for a long time.

Anze was awake, but he was in a daze, he would rather be dreaming.

"They still have a chance."

The female worm on the top of the head moved closer to the ear and said this.

……

what chance?

Anze raised his eyes slightly.

"All of this is not your fault." The insect said every word, his voice was very unfamiliar, a voice he didn't recognize at all, but Anze felt familiar.

"Don't be sad, give them a chance."

"Don't you want to believe the truth? I can show you."

"But you should already be aware of the truth of this world."

Anze moved.

"Did you do it?"

So it was you, did you release 'Anze' from the cage?

"Anze." The owner of the voice slowly hugged him tightly: "Don't trap yourself in a cage."

"..."

"...then where should I go?"

"It's not your problem to be trapped in a cage."

"It's the people who put you in the cage, they have a problem."

"You can hide, but you can't hide forever."

"Seeing your own truth, do you want to see their truth?"

"Is the...truth about 'Friends'?"

"...I'm so tired, I don't want to watch it, I want to sleep."

"Hiding will only make you sadder."

"You're so annoying...why don't you go?"

"..."

"...Anze, take a look at this."

The female put Anze down, and they appeared in a small room just by raising her hand.

There was a desktop terminal in that room, and the light curtain covered the entire wall.

Anze looked at these things in a daze.

Suddenly, the room went dark, and the light curtain slowly displayed a video file with nothing marked on it, but Anze knew that it was not something pleasant.

Obviously as long as 'read' is fine.Anze thought slowly...why did you bring him to see it?

The female gently placed Anze on the only soft sofa in the room, and he also sat next to him, selected the file in the air, and the video played slowly.

.........

Anze didn't respond at first, then his eyes froze on the screen and his pupils shrank.

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