toxic roommate

The sudden soreness in the corners of her eyes made Tao Mengzhu couldn't help stretching out her hands, and hugged Zhen Shuang into her arms, as if in this way she could no longer hide the fragility in her heart where she couldn't see it.

This time, it was far different from the last time. The gratitude and touch at that time were not as good as her urge to rub Zhen Shuang into her whole world at this moment.

How much she wanted to tell Zhen Shuang a word - you don't know how important you are to me!

But she didn't dare, and just quietly enjoyed the brief possession of this moment, feeling uneasy and unsure of what to do.

Even if they embrace each other tightly at this moment, there was still a slight distance between them before, and they lacked that courage.

For a moment, she didn't even dare to think about how to explain it later, or should she give up explaining and just say what she thought in her heart?

So upset again...

In the silent embrace, Zhen Shuang was as upset as Tao Mengzhu.

For a moment, she felt a trace of panic from the bottom of her heart, which made her almost reach out to push Tao Mengzhu away...but in the end she didn't, because before she had time to search carefully, the short-term panic dissipated without a trace .

She hesitated for a moment, and regained a little bit of thinking ability. Although the hand holding the candied haws was still held stiffly in place, the hugging hand gently patted Tao Mengzhu's back.

She who has always talked a lot, unexpectedly showed a rare tenderness and tranquility at this moment.

It seems that not long ago, she was like this, and was suddenly embraced by Tao Mengzhu.

Suddenly woke up from the dream, and then felt a person's heartbeat very clearly for the first time.

She has always been able to feel that the landlord next door, who is always calm and composed, has actually suppressed too many crazy emotions in her heart. The more you bury such emotions in words, the easier it will be brought back to the bottom of her heart , reciprocating, but still silent, and bear it alone.

Some people like late at night, like quiet, and like to be silent alone in the bustle of others, but most of the time this is not a simple liking, more, it is a habitual escape - avoiding the crowd and seeking the so-called pure land.

But a person's pure land, where is the pure land?It's just silence in the hustle and bustle, and loneliness in the silence.

This kind of loneliness is too obvious, so obvious that Tao Mengzhu looks like a hedgehog who is always on guard.

Her intuition told her that she shouldn't be afraid. Facing Tao Mengzhu like this, she shouldn't even have any thoughts of rejection, because even the slightest bit would be a kind of harm... Even if Tao Mengzhu is a lesbian with a female sexual orientation, she shouldn't suffer any unequal treatment...

After all, she just simply likes being with Tao Mengzhu, not "a Tao Mengzhu who likes men".

Under this understanding and silent comfort, Tao Mengzhu took several deep breaths one after another, slowly stepped back a few steps, turned his head to the side, and said, "I was feeling a little bit emotional just now..."

"Hmm..." Zhen Shuang nodded dully, and couldn't figure out how to continue the conversation for a long time. After struggling just now, her whole brain seemed to be rusted, and she couldn't use it at all.

"Really, thank you very much...you have been with me when I was the most irritable and depressed." Tao Mengzhu bit his lip, and finally swallowed his confession, turned around and greeted Xiao Ritian , and walked towards home.

"Between good friends, you don't need to say thank you." Zhen Shuang pursed her lips, and quickly chased after Tao Mengzhu, and ate the candied haws.

"You are not afraid of me."

"Why are you afraid of you?"

Tao Mengzhu lowered his eyes and stepped on the bricks of different colors on the road regularly. After a few seconds of silence, he said lightly: "When I was in college, a roommate knew that I was gay and moved out of the dormitory in fright."

"Hahaha, you're an idiot, isn't that? It's as if you're dating her."

"Isn't it? There are so many girls in the world, and it's impossible for me to love all of them. Why is she in a hurry?" Tao Mengzhu said, shrugging.

"Hahahahahaha, I instantly felt that I was witty and rational. I abandoned you without narcissism. Isn't it particularly worthy of praise? Come and praise me!" Zhen Shuang looked proud.

Tao Mengzhu felt that he had fooled around once again, and at the same time, he missed the opportunity to confess again. He couldn't help but feel a little tired. He raised his eyes and saw Zhen Shuang waiting for praise with anticipation, so he quickly disguised his wry smile as a smile, without leaving any traces He hid the feeling of exhaustion.

"As witty as you are." Tao Mengzhu said, falling into a moment of silence.

Zhen Shuang took a peek at Tao Mengzhu and said, "Leader, why do you want to write a novel?"

Tao Mengzhu couldn't help being taken aback, and after thinking for a moment, he smiled and said, "At first, it must be because of love. When I was young, my biggest dream was to be a writer...but later, it was for living."

"Do you still love?"

"Love." Tao Mengzhu nodded and said, "It's just not the same as before."

Dreams are still dreams, and hobbies are still hobbies. In the final analysis, they just add some impurities, such as the helplessness of life, and those troubles linked to eating, drinking, sleeping, daily necessities, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea.

"I have been told since I was a child that turning a hobby into a career is a stupid act, because love is something that is easily consumed, and the pressure of life will force it to gradually distort, making people manic and painful at times. , and more often even want to give up completely." She said, "Actually, like me, I have no pursuit of life, and it is not difficult to find a job with enough basic food, clothing and utilities to survive, but I still want to take advantage of my youth. Fight hard, and try hard to see if you can get closer and closer to your dream as long as you work hard."

"I think you are very successful. Not only can you support yourself by writing, but there are so many people who like your stories and the people in your stories. I feel..." Zhen Shuang said, frowning, as if he was struggling Organized the language, just when Tao Mengzhu wanted to ask, she suddenly sighed and said: "Yes! Yes, yes, yes... It feels like they really exist, which makes people happy and distressed."

"But in fact, if it really succeeds, I don't need to rent out the room in exchange for food and clothing." Tao Mengzhu shook his head and laughed at himself, but his heart was warm.

"You have to take your time, this kind of thing needs to be accumulated! There are always many hurdles in life!" Zhen Shuang said, and took a big step forward, scaring Xiao Ritian to lean against Tao Mengzhu's feet, but she didn't care. I didn't care, and continued: "As long as you take a big step, it will get better and better! I'm shrinking from you. Two years ago, I couldn't even pay a month's rent. Now I pay half a year in one lump sum. Don't feel bad!"

"You're showing off your wealth!" Tao Mengzhu looked at Zhen Shuang with disdain, and wanted to pretend to be aloof, but unexpectedly when Zhen Shuang smiled, she laughed like a demon.

It was getting dark, the two were walking home, talking and laughing, they were out to walk the dog, but they obviously ignored Xiao Ritian who looked disgusted at them.

A man came out from the small supermarket on the side and passed the two of them.

The next second, Xiao Ritian suddenly looked at the back of the man and kept screaming. Tao Mengzhu subconsciously raised his eyes to see, only to see the man looked at Xiao Ritian twice, and then quickly stepped onto the road where he parked. next to the car.

"Ri Ri!" Zhen Shuang called Xiao Ritian in confusion, and was about to step forward to comfort him, but unexpectedly, Xiao Ritian suddenly went crazy and chased after the car that was going away, and ran away at a fork in the blink of an eye. Can't see the shadow of the dog!

Zhen Shuang was instantly dumbfounded!