Feitan is my childhood sweetheart? !

I was born in a small village that favors boys over girls, and my family has an older brother who is two years older than me.I was born because of the parents' expectations for boys.But my birth did not bring me joy. On the contrary, the fine for my extra birth was very heavy.Originally holding the idea of ​​being a boy, the father and daughter felt that even a fine was acceptable.But things backfired, the huge fine made my young parents feel very disappointed, what about a girl!

The urgency of the family situation made the parents take their sensible elder brother to work in the city.As a girl, I naturally stayed with my elderly grandparents.

The countryside is very simple, but the more simple it is, the more rampant the rumors will be.At the age of five, I can already feel the pitiful gazes from my fellow villagers.After going to school, after being able to read and write fluently and obediently, I already knew that I was the superfluous person that others often said.

My grandparents are very kind to me, and they can be said to be responsive to my requests under limited economic conditions.So, in fact, I am very happy.

There are very few children in the village. Apart from me, the extra little girl, Xiao Han is the other protagonist of the rumors. ==|||

Xiao Han's mother married a "outside" man who was working outside and gave birth to Xiao Han.It should be very happy at the beginning, but this happiness is limited to before the fiancée of the "outside" foreign man comes to the door.Xiao Han was born less than half a year ago, because her mother lost her temper when she found out that her biological father had a fiancée who was recognized by the family. With a strong personality, she divorced Xiao Han's biological father without hesitation.

I find it incredible.After all, Xiao Han's biological father only had a fiancée in his hometown. This fiancée should not be a big threat to his real wife. Why would she divorce without hesitation?

Xiao Han said that his mother thinks that his own things must be grasped, but it is better not to force things that are not his own.Although his father wanted to live with his mother, he didn't dare to take his certified wife home, and he didn't even have the courage to tell his family.His father was a gentle and timid man, accustomed to obeying strong parents and wives.Sandwiched between his parents and his wife, he can only choose to conceal, but this concealment also includes his own son.

When Xiao Han's mother learned that her real wife and the son born to her real wife had become a redundant third party, her strong self-esteem made this staunch woman divorce her husband without any affection.She took her son alone and wandered from city to city for five years. For Xiao Han's studies and future, she put down her face and begged her parents to raise him on her behalf, while she worked hard in other places to earn as much living expenses as possible.

In my impression, Xiaohan's mother didn't come back many times, but every time she came back, I was deeply impressed.In the impoverished countryside, it is interesting news that Xiao Han's mother returns to the village.Xiao Han's mother is very capable and earns a lot of money. Every time she comes back, she drives a brand new car and dresses fashionable. The car is full of gifts for Xiao Han.So, compared with Xiao Han, the "little son of a rich family", I look like a poor Cinderella.However, as the only heroine who can stand shoulder to shoulder with the gossip male protagonist, ╮(╯▽╰)╭ naturally has an unusual treatment.Under my savage violence, Xiao Han always gave me more than half of the snacks and toys her mother brought back from the city.

Xiaohan is only less than half a year older than me, but he is much taller than me, but it is useless, every time he grabs snacks and toys, I am the winner!Looking back, Xiao Han was never willing to really hurt me. *^O^*

We are in the same class, he is the class monitor and I am the school committee member, and we always go to and from school together.He often has breakfast at my house, and every time I come to his house for dinner.People in the village are also very used to seeing us inseparable. If they only see one of them occasionally, they will definitely ask why the other one is not around.Whether it's going to play in the mountains or go to the market in the town, Xiao Han and I will never leave each other behind.

Up to this point, I always thought we would be together forever.Others think so too.There are always bored adults joking: "Han Han takes Xiaolan with her every day, and she must marry Xiaolan in the future!"

The young and ignorant Xiao Han always responded with a big smile, "Well, I will definitely marry Xiao Lan."

Or—"Xiao Lan, only wives follow their husbands every day. Are you planning to marry Han Han as your wife?"

"Is it only when Han Han's wife can follow him?"

After tilting my head and thinking for a long time, I finally showed a firm expression, "Okay, then I will be Han Han's wife."

"Haha, these two kids are really a match made in heaven. Hahaha..."

The simple countryside, the story of the childhood sweethearts of childhood sweethearts is very beautiful.But there is an old saying that "good times don't last long". After many years, when I understood the meaning of this word, I realized the wisdom of the ancestors and the profoundness of the Chinese language.Maybe there was a more unfortunate encounter than me and Xiao Han a long time ago. ╮(╯▽╰)╭

Xiaohan and I were ten years old that year, and our tenth birthday in the countryside was grand.So when I counted the days and waited for Xiaohan's birthday with great anticipation, unfortunately, my happy childhood came to an end forever.

That afternoon, the sun was very nice, warm and drowsy.I was sitting at home doing my homework, and Xiao Han was playing outside the door.I also wanted to chase him out, but Xiao Han threatened that if he went out to play before finishing, he would not give me a birthday cake.For the only cake a year, I decided to finish my homework first.There is a national highway in front of my house, and there are many vehicles passing by.

Children and roads, very old-fashioned plot.Xiao Han died in such a clichéd plot.

A drunk man and two beautiful women drove a small car for a cool ride on the road, and accidentally bumped into a little boy playing on the side of the road.

No one expected that Xiao Han died without even being able to be rescued in time.

The sound of brakes outside the door startled me in the room, my heart was beating wildly, I finished writing the last few words in a state of irritability, packed my schoolbag indiscriminately, and then ran out.

The ten-year-old me didn't know that this unexplained panic was a harbinger of heartache.When I walked out of the house, I saw my grandparents standing in a row with the surrounding adults, and a very old lady shouted "Sin, sin..." while covering the child lying on the ground with a red cloth.

I was shocked by this scene, my little mind went blank, was the person lying on the ground Xiao Han who was threatening me just now, or who?But not long ago that little boy was threatening me with a sly face, could he be the owner of the pale face lying motionless on the ground now?

I can't react.He couldn't hear the screams of the adults around him, so he could only stare blankly at the people on the ground.how could be?He was fine just now, why did he disappear all of a sudden?

I don't know how I got back into the house, and I don't know how I ate and bathed. When I was lying on my little bed, I realized that it was already dark outside.Closing his eyes, the bloody face and motionless body appeared over and over again in his mind.Throughout the night, I was shaking, and when I was half asleep, I always saw Xiao Han's smiling face covered with blood.

Later, Xiao Han's mother came back, and she, who was always glamorous, seemed to be ten years older.She was crying so badly that she completely lost her usual urban temperament, just like a country woman.

I didn't shed tears, because I didn't know how to cry, as if I was deprived of the right to cry in an instant.

I gave Xiaohan's mother the toys Xiaohan usually gave me and the beautiful pencil notebook I snatched from him, saying that Xiaohan lent them to me and I wanted to return them to him.Seeing this, Xiao Han's mother cried again and passed out.

All of Xiao Han's belongings were burned three days later.I stared blankly at those flames, as if something very important was missing in my heart.

It wasn't until it took me a long time to get used to living alone that I realized what an important thing I had lost.That boy with a particularly bright smile, because of him, I have the best years of my life.Because of his departure, I know the loneliness of being rejected, and the bitterness of being alone.

As always, my parents didn't care about me, they just gave my grandparents living expenses on a regular basis.Without Xiao Han, I still have grandparents.After my grandparents left me one after another, I really realized how it feels to be alone.

From junior high school, I started my boarding career, and this boarding career lasted until I graduated from university.After finding a job, I lived in the school where I worked.I only spend one week with my parents and elder brother during Chinese New Year. Other times, I don’t even have a phone call with my family.Family is just a noun to me.Fortunately, I still have my aunt.Otherwise, I don't think I can live a normal life all the time.

Auntie is Xiao Han's mother. After losing her only son, Auntie almost collapsed.From now on, she will go back to the village for a period of time on Xiaohan’s birthday every year. Every time she comes back, she will chat with me. At the beginning, the topic always revolves around Xiaohan. I tell her about my life with Xiaohan, some trivial things , she listened quietly, always bursting into tears after listening.Later, slowly, they also asked about my life and situation.After knowing my situation, she began to care about me.Maybe because I have the closest relationship with Xiao Han, so she subconsciously looked for Xiao Han's shadow in me.Later, I gradually regarded me as my own daughter.

Under her influence, I gradually learned not to care.For example, not caring about relatives and the like.

When I was a sophomore, I was able to calmly tell my dormitory classmates about my family, about my childhood, and even about Xiao Han.When my dorm friend asked me why I didn't have a boyfriend, I smiled lightly.

"I always thought that I would marry Xiao Han, but unfortunately he is no longer in this world. If he was still alive, he would definitely not want me to find someone else to be my boyfriend! So, at least I have to wait until he comes into my dream Just say that you allow me to have a boyfriend~"

I said it half-jokingly and half-seriously.It's not that I really have to wait for Xiao Han's permission, it's just that for so many years, except for Xiao Han, no boy has really come into my heart.

"Oh~ What a pity, there are boys in our class who want to chase you~"

"Yeah, those boys must be heartbroken."

The author has something to say: I have a kind of rush to write the hunters who should have a tight rhythm and ups and downs into a farming novel...~~~~(>_<)~~~~