Feitan is my childhood sweetheart? !

The author has something to say: Believe the headline?You will lose, huh~

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"Stupid Basket, are you too dull?"

This time, I really heard the smile in Fei Tan's words.

_I'm not dreaming, am I? Feitan can speak Chinese? !And you still call me by my nickname in Chinese? !Even in the original world, the only people who know my nickname are my dead grandparents and Xiao Han, but my grandparents usually call me Little Basket, so there is only one person who calls me Basket, but how could Feitan get along with me? That person is related?Is Feitan him... ⊙▽⊙

I felt like I needed some time to calm down, and this sudden event made me want to run away.I can't say why, but I just don't know how to accept Xiao Han reappearing in my life.

I know very well that the childhood affection for Xiao Han when I was a child can only be the innocent friendship between children. For so many years, Xiao Han seems to be just an excuse to escape reality. I am used to using this excuse to tell myself Even if the whole world is indifferent to me, I still have the warmth that Xiaohan gave me, and I once had someone who was completely good to me.

However, Xiao Han like that is just my own obsession. If it wasn't for that unexpected car accident, no one can guarantee how long this good will last. In the end, I am afraid!I am afraid that Xiao Han will appear again, I am afraid that Xiao Han will no longer follow me in everything and treat me well like before, I am afraid that Xiao Han who reappears will destroy the perfection that Xiao Han left for me before.I'm afraid to accept the fact that I'm alone!

no!I can't accept anyone to destroy everything that Xiao Han gave me, only Xiao Han can really treat me well in the world, only he is the one who really treats me best!

I kept trying to calm myself down, and then forced myself to speak, "Well, Feitan, I think we've made a mistake. I think you've got the wrong person, I'm not called 'Basket',"

"Then why can you understand Chinese?" Fei Tan pierced my lie to the point.

I pretended not to give up, "Well, this is a language I learned in an unknown country. They call this language Chinese, but there are very few people who know this language, so when you hear Feitan, you also say Chinese, I was particularly surprised."

In order to enhance my persuasion, I nodded my head emphatically, and told myself in my heart - that's right, I don't know anything like a basket!

"You lie, and once you lie, you don't dare to look into other people's eyes." Fei Tan switched to common language, and his tone was very strong.

I stubbornly stared into Fei Tan's eyes, and told myself desperately in my heart that he is not Xiao Han, Xiao Han is not Fei Tan, Xiao Han is cheerful and loves to laugh, and Fei Tan is eerie, so Xiao Han is definitely not Fei Tan's!

It may be that my admonition played a role, and the long-term staring ended in Feitan's giving up.

"..."

Feitan turned around, my heart relaxed and I quickly turned my head and blinked my eyes again and again.I turned my head again and looked at his thin back, and it seemed that he sighed softly in my ears.I don't know what kind of mood it is, I can't help but have a sore nose, and it seems that liquid is about to flow out of the eye sockets.

Shaking my head, I rubbed my eyes vigorously, telling myself in my heart that these are all illusions, Fei Tan cannot be Xiao Han, and Xiao Han cannot become Fei Tan, this is just an anime world, and Xiao Han can never become Fei Tan A gangster who kills without blinking an eye, Xiao Han will never do anything against morality!

"Teleport me away...you take care of your wounds..." Fei Tan didn't turn around, his voice was as low and cold as ever.

I seem to feel the loss in his words.My heart couldn't help but tighten.Impossible, he is Feitan who kills without blinking an eye, how could he be lost!I need to recognize the facts!

"Fei Tan, that, the knight..."

"I'll tell him you're only here on a mission."

"@x@That, thank you, Feitan."

I don't know how I feel anymore.All thoughts and emotions flooded into my heart at the same time. After sending Feitan away, I hugged the quilt and began to cry silently.

Not sad, not heartache, but despair.despair of oneself.

What the hell did I do!If Fei Tan is Xiao Han...if Xiao Han is Fei Tan...then I'm a real jerk!

How could I not know how special Feitan treats me.

From the time we met until now, he has been very pampering to me.Even though I hate being stared at, it didn't really hurt me. Even if I didn't drive a car, I was still willing to sit in the driver's seat. Even if I didn't want to be restrained, I still listened to my request.He will accompany me to find the members I hate the most, fight with the members I hate the most, accompany me to buy vegetables, help me carry vegetables, and even tolerate my younger brother, even teaching Ham is abnormal Show mercy, and now give up asking because of my refusal.If it was Feitan in the comics, I would have died hundreds of times.Looking back, everything he did was not what Fei Tan would do, he was really Xiao Han.

But what did I do, because I was afraid, so I refused to admit that we were the closest people, so I refused his approach, so I chose to escape from reality.

If Fei Tan is really Xiao Han, how much pain did he suffer to become that cruel and cold-blooded Fei Tan?I dare not imagine.I remember that I once sighed with Aman on the phone, but luckily I didn't travel to Meteor Street.Aman asked me where Meteor Street was, and I simply told her that Meteor Street is a hell where normal people can go crazy without dying.And Xiao Han, who was only ten years old back then, had to survive in such a horrible place. I can't even imagine what he has experienced.

What I am doing now is undoubtedly pushing Xiao Han into a deeper darkness!Thinking about it now, when I lost Xiao Han before, I always felt that I lost all warmth. At that time, I said that I would marry Xiao Han and be with Xiao Han forever. Looking back now, it is really full of irony...

Hehe, it really is as the leader said—betrayal has existed from the very beginning.Xiao Han, who is a spider, should wish he could tear me to pieces. No one would want such a childhood sweetheart who betrayed him...

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From the moment we met, the woman who smiled like a fool made me feel a familiar atmosphere.

It's really similar to the girl in my memory, with sweet dimples and a round face.So when she stared at me in a daze, even though I was disgusted, I didn't kill her heart.

I am Feitan, and I am not Feitan.I'm from another time and space, I don't know why I came to this world, I just remember that my birthday is coming soon, and my mother will come back to celebrate me, and the little girl and I are looking forward to it.I finished my homework that day and went out to pick up some beautifully shaped gravels for her. She has recently become obsessed with a game of throwing stones, but she hasn't finished her homework yet, so I threatened her with a cake.The way she pouts is really cute, I like it very much.

We've known each other for five years, she's my age and a few months younger than me.She is short and round, especially her round face and round eyes and nose.If you don't look carefully, you will really think she is a round bun.She has parents, but her parents don't like her, and they only pick her up to live with her during Chinese New Year throughout the year.

I remember a year after I had known her, I stumbled across her crying behind the school bathroom.She held a 98 test paper in her hand and cried very sadly.At that time, I didn't understand why she was still crying with a score of 98. I later learned that she thought she didn't do well in the exam and was worried that her parents would completely abandon her.I don't know if it's because of this, so I feel that she is very pitiful, always giving her everything and relying on her.

Since then, no matter where I go, I will take her with me. Since then, I know that what she fears the most is not bugs and darkness, but loneliness and being abandoned.

In fact, what I don't want to admit is that, like her, I am also afraid of being alone.My mother divorced my father out of anger, and I often heard gossip from the villagers just like her.But I'm a man, so naturally I can't just hide and cry like her.Even if I want to cry, I have to find a place where others won't find it.Death will not be like her, every time I hide and cry, I will see it. -_-||

We all naively thought that such days would last "forever" in fairy tales.When no one thought that there would be separation, I came to this world unexpectedly and became Feitan.

There are no children in Meteor Street, let alone this 13-year-old body.I don't know why I woke up as a different person, and I couldn't understand what others were saying at first.I want to go back, I promised her to play and wait for the cake together.But I thought of many ways other than death, but I couldn't go back.But I'm glad, fortunately, it's me and not her who came here, she should stay where she was, as long as she's well, it doesn't matter what I do.

Meteor Street is nothing but rubbish, and the lack of resources makes it a habit for people here to rob.And this kind of thing didn't make much sense to me who grew up by 3 years in an instant.

At the beginning, I just thought that if I could pick up food, I would save my energy to grab it, so I just tried to find food in the garbage dump. Sometimes I was lucky enough to pick up better food. If I was unlucky, it was normal to be hungry for two or three days. The most serious one was that I couldn’t find food for five consecutive days. When I was so hungry that I was about to die, I endured the nausea and ate the moldy bread and fan sour milk that I had finally dug out.

I should be thankful that I didn't have much education in the original world, because soon I also lived in the way of Meteor Street. 13 years old is the time for boys to grow. With the increase in food intake, the food I found every day was not enough to resist hunger, so I started to grab other people’s food and valuable things like other children and adults, (because I don’t speak a common language, so I was surprised when I robbed other people’s food but didn’t snatch useful items, only to find out that the valuable items can be exchanged for items in the middle of Meteor Street)

I was getting beaten all the time at first, but I also learned quickly and won four or five out of ten games very quickly.Because every time I fight, I will be very desperate, so gradually no one wants to fight with me.Most people will walk around when they see me.Due to long-term malnutrition, this body has never grown taller since it was occupied by me.I didn't pay much attention at first, until I was 16 years old, after I got to know my brigade partners, and after everyone accidentally mentioned it, I realized that I really didn't grow up.

In fact, I have never cared much about height, but everyone always thinks that I care about height, so they dare not mention it in front of me.

I didn't know a common language at the beginning, so I often had expressions on my face, even coldness, and even my smile was like a sneer.The first thing I learned and said the most was "Do you want to die?"Because every time the words robbing and being robbed have a chance to appear on the stage, I always say "do you want to die" when you unknowingly endanger others.Because I spoke very little in the first three years, even after I learned the common language, I still didn't like to speak much.More threatening and direct hands.

When I was 17 years old, I recommended a man who cheated on me to join the group, but I didn't expect that man to be a pedophile. In order to get me, he almost ruined the whole group.Since then, I have become wary of anyone except the old members of the brigade.Slowly I discovered my own strangeness. I was afraid that my soul was not the original Feitan. I tried to avoid too much contact with strangers, because I would habitually speak the words of the original world.

I wanted to leave the brigade to find a way to go back alone, but found that the head of the brigade was particularly interested in ancient tombs and the like. I think ancient tombs and the like would be of great help to me in finding a way to go back, so I continued to stay In the brigade.

For 15 years, apart from digging ancient tombs with the team leader, I was looking for games.Every time I come out of the ancient tomb, I will look for the game, and then try to recover from my despair.Just when I was about to hate this kind of life, I saw her again who I could never have seen.

It took a few days with her before I could be sure that she was indeed who she was as a child.Her name is Dana now, her appearance has not changed much, and she can still see the shadow of her childhood.The character seems to be more cautious, even cowering like a little mouse.It's the same love of laughing as before, which hasn't changed, and I'm very happy.

But she didn't recognize me, I was a little upset, but when I saw the little boy next to her, I was happy again.That little boy looked almost exactly like the old me.I think she not only remembers me, but also misses me.Otherwise, I wouldn't have found a little boy who resembles me as my younger brother.

But my happiness didn't last long.

The first time she confessed her identity in this world, the object was her, but she denied it.I was very surprised. At that moment, I clearly heard her calling my name in Chinese. Why did she run away when I admitted my identity?

She didn't dare to look me in the eye, but after I exposed her lie, she looked at me with despairing eyes that I had never seen before.What happened to her?Why don't you want to recognize me?

I frowned, not because I was angry, but because I was used to pampering her, just like in that world more than ten years ago, as long as it is what she wishes, I will give it to her.

I turned around and didn't look at her, afraid that I would use the method I used on Meteor Street on her. I asked her to send me away, and then I saw reluctance and a little bit of regret in her eyes.

Although she sent me away in the end, I said in my heart, enough, as long as I can be in the same world with her.