Ten years in love with GL

Suddenly, but still ask why.

"Senior sister is going to take the exam soon. If you can't get an A in history and Chinese, you won't be able to enter CUHK."

"But grades can't be the reason to break up, and there's still more than a year left."

Cheng Shi sighed and said, "Actually, we all know that Junior Sister fell in love with someone else."

"Anyone else? Are they also from our school?"

"No, it's a student from the boy's school next door."

She stared at a street lamp in the distance for a long time, and said, "Can homosexuals also fall in love with boys?"

"Not everyone who likes the same sex is gay, there are also bisexuals, Lingling."

Bisexuality, do you like men and women?

She was a little angry: "I think bisexuality is really shameful. How can she love men and women, she is not specific at all."

Cheng Shi was surprised: "Do you think that the specificity is only the specificity of gender?"

"At least her lover won't worry that her rivals are both men and women."

"Love is not defined like this, Lingling, love can only be good for one person, even if you fell in love with a man or a woman before, this person or someone else," Cheng Shi looked at her, "When you decide to love At that time, there must be no turning back.”

The eyes are persistent and frightening.

She smiled: "I thought you could only play ball."

"I really know how to play, and I play well. I forced myself to read some messy books just to chat with you." Cheng Shi said honestly, "I don't have any friends, so if I have one, I will cherish it."

She was a little moved, maybe her previous remarks really hurt her.

"But we don't understand love, so why argue," she said.

"That's right." Cheng Shile laughed.

"What books have you read?"

"Qiong Yao's, Jin Yong's, Hometown Return to Dream, Moonlight Love Song..."

She understands, it's mainly the latter type of "you love me but I don't love you"!It's rare for Cheng Shi to be patient and read this kind of book. She said truthfully: "I think this kind of love is terrible."

"They always say that two people come first and come first, high and low, and love should not be lonely and painful. She has her own soul, and what she lacks is equality, not chasing."

Cheng Shi laughed and said, "You are more feminist than me. You admire Sartre and Beauvoir, not Daiyu and Baoyu."

She pouted and said, "That's it."

The two walked to the bookstore where they met the Chinese teacher. There were many students here during the holidays. She loved the atmosphere of this bookstore the most. It not only has a reading area, but also a place where you can drink tea and eat snacks. Other bookstores are mostly dusty. , but this bookstore is clean and makes people want to stay.There was a kitten tied to a bell at the door of the bookstore. When she saw her coming, she rolled over on her own initiative. Cheng Shi wanted to go up and pet her, but the cat slipped away immediately.

She said to the bookstore owner, "Uncle Bao, how long will it take for my book to arrive?"

The store owner told her the exact time, and she bought a few newspapers by the way and left the bookstore. The whole journey took less than 10 minutes.

"You don't want to read?"

"How far is the pier, I'll go with you, don't waste any time."

"Oh... oh, why buy a newspaper?"

"You can't sit on the ground on the shore!"

They caught up with the uncle and aunt bus for sightseeing, and the two sat in the bumpiest back row, one looking inside the bus and the other looking outside.After arriving at the station, there is the breath of the sea. Fishermen unload their cargo at the pier, and tourists walk on the sand along the coastline.

Seagulls flew low and swooped past from time to time, Cheng Shi hid twice, Jiang Yanling took out the prepared bread and threw it out, and after a while it became a seagull rally.

"You don't still have sand shovel tools, do you? Let's build a fort together?" Cheng Shi teased.

"Not so childish."

Her lips trembled a little, Cheng Shi hit the mark, the temperature by the sea was really several degrees lower.But she couldn't admit defeat, she bit her lower lip and walked firmly but slowly.

Cheng Shi understood that she was trying to be brave, after all, she didn't notice that her shoulders were shaking from the cold.Compassionate that there was still a lining under the shirt, I simply took off the clothes and put them on her shoulders, and the other party said thank you.

At that moment, Cheng Shi felt like holding her hand.

Before Jiang Yanling could dodge in time, there was a warmth in his palm.She pulled it out quickly, but was held tightly.

"I don't understand what you mean," she said.

Cheng Shi trembled her lips and hesitated for a while, until the seagulls screamed and begged for food, and she said, "I'm afraid you'll be cold, it's nothing else."

Jiang Yanling smiled with relief: "I was scared to death, I thought you were interested in me."

She didn't look at the man's expression, but let her lead him, no different from other girls.

If I was taken aback, wouldn't she be suspicious of her as taking too much importance?She wants to be a big girl, and she has to handle it well whether her friends are gay or bisexual.

A wave of young students came to visit on the pier, but Jiang Yanling didn't notice that there was a familiar person inside who caught her heart and soul.

But the man found her and took someone else's hand.

"Why do you want to come to the pier?"

"My grandfather used to be a fisherman and fished at sea all year round. Later, he lost contact because of a typhoon and never saw him again."

She didn't speak, and listened to Cheng Shi quietly.

"Every time I'm upset, I come to the pier. Looking at the sea, my heart seems to be at peace."

"Why are you upset?"

"Lingling, are we talking now? If so, I'll continue." Cheng Shi squinted his eyes at her, which made her hard to resist.

"Forget it, you're my friend, now."

Cheng Shi smiled faintly, and said softly, "Because I fell in love with someone who didn't get a response."

"Jiayi? She has a boyfriend. I advise you not to think of Guoxing women."

Cheng Shi didn't answer, so she thought she had guessed right, and she was just tacitly acquiescing.

"You are also infatuated. Fortunately, you followed the rules and didn't rob people. Let me tell you, don't mess with Guoxing. He seems to be a gangster. I told Jiayi before not to associate with that kind of person. We have a friend……"

Since the two became friends in an instant, she talked more and more.

Cheng Shi caressed her fingers nonchalantly, because she was so excited that she never noticed it.

"If you want to be friends with Jiayi, I can tell you. Anyway, you are my friend, and a friend's friend is a friend."

"Do you want to hear the sound of the sea?"

"what?"

She was asked inexplicably, "Aren't we right by the sea?"

"That's different."

Cheng Shi squatted down, picked up a small shell, and leaned against her ear.

It was the quiet and distant sound of the sea, humming, as if you could see the scene of the stormy waves crashing on the shore from inside, stretching and magnificent.

Obviously there are only sparse sounds of waves on the pier, but Luobeili's voice is thick and overall.

She listened for a long time and said, "Can you give me this shellfish?"

Cheng Shi smiled and said, "You have to ask Da Hai about this."

It was already dinner time for the two of them to go back, she declined Cheng Shi's invitation to have Baozi meal, and returned home with the snails.Grandma has already cooked the meals, and the sound of discs can be heard faintly in the room. The old-fashioned gramophone that grandma brought from no one knows where, creating the illusion that time in the house has slowed down by decades.

"Lingling, wash your hands and eat, why is your body smelly?" "I went to the beach to play."

"Okay, ready to eat."

She washed her face casually, and turned back into a pure girl again.

While filling the soup, grandma tentatively asked: "Lingling, do you want to go back to Shanghai?"

"Back to Shanghai? Why back to Shanghai?"

"We always have to go back."

She held the chopsticks in silence, and grandma quickly said, "Okay, okay, let's eat."

For so many years, she hasn't seen her parents, so why should she call her here and leave immediately?

She said, "Grandma, if you want to go back to Shanghai, you can do it yourself."

"Why do you say that? Shanghai is your home! You just get used to it here, and you will get used to it soon when you go back."

"Shanghai is my home, but my friends and my studies are all here!"

"Why are you so stubborn, why don't you go back and live with your parents?" "I don't need it! Besides giving me money, have they cared about me for so many years? I'm already 13 years old. It's too late for them to care about me! She pushed the bowl away, "I won't eat."

"Lingling... hey..."

The elders always have the plot of falling leaves returning to their roots, but why drag her into a thief ship?What is the feeling of missing parents in the most important ten years of growing up?She has accumulated doubts and pains for ten years, but she could not stand the torture of time after all.She locked herself in the room, hugged the quilt and wanted to cry but couldn't cry. Suddenly, something flashed in her mind, and she hurriedly opened the drawer to look.

The piece of paper is still there, just slightly worn.

She kept reading the beautiful words on it, as if she was reciting a spell silently, which could make her feel at ease.

"I'm still so young, why do I have troubles?" She carefully pressed the paper at the bottom of the drawer, as if she kept it in her heart.

Just like "The Sorrows of Young Werther", her troubles also grow along with puberty. The world is not only about study and life. In addition to the inescapable frame life, it is more about the warmth and warmth of human relationships. The veins of love, family and friendship gradually Clear, more choices to make.

She is resentful from time to time, and it would be great if there is someone who can show her the way.

That person can't be Jiayi, let alone Cheng Shi, so what about Teacher Zihua?She is just one of his many students, no different from the delicate and beautiful roses, she has no ability for him to pick, let alone the courage to attract his attention.

Why is life so difficult.

In the next few days, grandma didn't mention it.