meet you, only pet you

The next morning, Cheng Shen got up early. While washing his hands, Wei Zhehai stood aside and reminded him in a low voice: "Your eyes are a little red and swollen. Use a wet towel to apply."

He glanced in the mirror on the sink, his eyes were indeed red and swollen.He washed his face with cold water, and applied a wet towel for a while, feeling less red and swollen. He hurriedly put on his running shoes, put on his coat and unscrewed the door of the dormitory.

Normally, as soon as he opened the dormitory door in the morning, he would see Zou Bing standing at the door of the dormitory opposite, waiting for him to run together, but today he did not see Zou Bing, and the door of the dormitory opposite was still closed.

Cheng Shen leaned against the wall and kept looking at the door opposite.

After a while, hearing the sound of someone opening the door, Cheng Shen immediately stood up straight and stared at the slowly opened door.

A few seconds later, a person came out from behind the door, not Zou Bing, but Ma Xiaole.

Seeing him, Ma Xiaole asked, "Are you waiting for Zou Bing?"

"En." Cheng Shen replied hoarsely, looking into the dormitory behind Ma Xiaole.

"Don't wait for him, Zou Bing went out early with his schoolbag on his back, saying that he won't be staying at the dormitory during this time, and he won't go back to the dormitory at noon or evening." Ma Xiaole said, he looked around and saw that there were not many people in the corridor, He whispered to Cheng Shen, "Zou Bing may have lost his love. When he came back from outside last night, he locked himself in the bathroom and cried loudly, scaring the rest of us. Do you know who his girlfriend is? Neither have we seen…”

What Ma Xiaole said later, Cheng Shen couldn't hear clearly, he only felt his heart throbbing and hurting, his eyes turned red instantly, he sniffed, said "thank you" to Ma Xiaole, and then turned to Ma Xiaole in despair. Go in the direction of the stairs.

Ma Xiaole stood behind Cheng Shen and looked at him blankly, not understanding what happened, but he seemed to be crying just now when he saw Cheng Shen's eyes were red.

After going down the stairs and out of the dormitory building, it was still dark outside, and the winter morning was freezing and the wind was biting, but Cheng Shen didn't feel the cold at all, maybe it was because his heartache was numb and unconscious.

Cheng Shen followed the crowd and started to run. Today, he ran much faster than usual. He just kept running, running...

After running exercises and punching cards, the sky was already bright, and Cheng Shen walked slowly back to school alone.

When he reached the school gate, Cheng Shen habitually walked towards the student cafeteria. While walking, he suddenly stopped and subconsciously turned his head to look to the left.

However, that person is not around.

Cheng Shen's eyes slowly blurred, and a tear flowed down his cheek.

Cheng Shen still thought that he would meet Zou Bing during the public class, but he didn't. Zou Bing asked for leave or he missed class and didn't come to class.

What the teacher said on the podium, Cheng Shen didn't listen to a word, just stared blankly at the blackboard in a daze.

He didn't see Zou Bing that day, he went to eat in the cafeteria alone, and read in the library alone, and he took an extra seat next to him as usual, but Zou Bing never came.

This night, Zou Bing didn't send him "good night" either. Without Zou Bing's "good night", Cheng Shen tossed and turned all night again.

The second night, the third night, the fourth night... Zou Bing didn't say "good night" to him, nor did he send him another message.

Cheng Shen suffered from insomnia for several consecutive nights, and secretly shed tears a few times. Without Zou Bing's "good night", he was so unaccustomed to it. It turned out that this habit had penetrated deep into the bone marrow. The pain was so bad that I couldn't breathe.

He hasn't seen Zou Bing for several days. Even though the school is only that big, they haven't met once.

If a person really doesn't want to see you, he won't let you have a chance to meet him, not even a chance to meet him.

At the dinner table, looking at her lifeless and unhappy son, Li Yuan asked worriedly: "Xiaobing, is there something on your mind? You haven't been to school for the past two days, did you make some mistakes at school?"

As soon as the word "school" was mentioned, Zou Bing felt a sharp pain in his heart, his hands holding the chopsticks trembled slightly, and his eyes suddenly turned red. He raised his head to look at Li Yuan, sniffed, and said, "Mom, tell me One thing about you... I like boys, I'm gay."

"...What?!" Li Yuan's hand holding the chopsticks shook, and the chopsticks fell to the table with a dull sound, which made everyone's heart tremble.

Zou Bing had been mentally prepared for Li Yuan's reaction. He knew his mother would find it hard to accept, but he still wanted to say it because he was really uncomfortable. Zou Bing said with red eyes, "I like a boy, but he refuses I'm sick... I really don't know what to do, I'm so sad..."

He was really sad, so sad that it hurt even to breathe, a pain that pierced his bones.He forced him not to think about him, but his mind was full of him...

Li Yuan was shocked, angry and distressed, she never thought that her beloved son would like boys, she couldn't accept it and couldn't believe it at the same time: "Son, let's go to the hospital tomorrow, you may be suffering from something... It's probably fine to take medicine..."

"This is not a disease, and it will never change." Zou Bing was a little impatient. He put down his chopsticks and looked at Li Yuan, "Mom, I tell you this to let you know that your son likes boys, and I don't I hope you can accept it all at once, and I am also very sad now."

Li Yuan's face turned pale, and her voice trembled: "Son, you are my mother's hope. My mother has endured it for so many years because of you. My mother will never allow you to have any bad behavior or thoughts. life, do you understand?"

"Mom, I just like boys. This is not a bad behavior or idea. I just won't marry a woman in the future, and nothing has changed. I am still your son. I will still be filial to you, and I am still your hope. "Zou Bing said anxiously.

Li Yuan was very sad: "If you don't get married and have children, what hope do I have?"

Zou Bing has a deep sense of powerlessness: "Mom, I don't like women. If I marry a woman, I will definitely not be happy. A woman will not be happy if she marries me, just like you and my father. Can a marriage without feelings be happy?"

Li Yuan was stunned, speechless for a while, and after a long silence, she blamed herself: "Is it because your father and I often quarreled, that's why you became like this... because of lack of security and father's love, you That's why you like boys, right?"

"No, mom, it has nothing to do with you, I was born with this." Zou Bing quickly comforted Li Yuan, and said earnestly, "I know it's hard for you to accept it for a while, it's okay, you can slowly understand and accept it, I really hope to get your understanding, I know you want me to be happy, and I am the same, when you and my dad divorced, I have always stood by your side, I hope you can stand by my side, okay ?"

Li Yuan's eyes are red, she blames herself very much, and at the same time she is very contradictory, she really can't accept the fact that her only son likes men, it is unfortunate enough that she has an unhappy marriage, Zou Bing is her hope, But now that hope is gone, there is no hope.

But seeing her son begging her so earnestly, she felt distressed and conflicted.

She really didn't know what to do.

Li Yuan stared blankly at Zou Bing, but did not speak.

Zou Bing knew that his mother couldn't accept it for a while, and no one's parents could accept it. If his parents didn't understand, he was also very sad, but what he was most sad now was not this, and all the sorrows couldn't compare to the pain in his heart.

"Mom, eat slowly. I'm full. I'm going back to the bedroom first." Zou Bing stood up, walked into the bedroom, and closed the door.

Sitting on the bed, looking at the keychain in his hand, Zou Bing's tears welled up in his eyes, fell down, and landed on the little whale...

"No. 62, pick up the meal on the 62nd!" The master standing in the food window yelled several times but no one came to pick up the meal. He stuck his head out of the window and looked at a handsome boy sitting in a daze at the dining table not far away. Shouted, "Young man, your stewed noodles are ready, come and get your meal."

"Oh, good." Hearing the cry, Cheng Shen came back to his senses. He looked at the ticket in his hand, stood up slowly, walked to the window, and handed the ticket to the chef at the window. Then he sat back at the table with a bowl of noodles.

After staring at the stewed noodles in the bowl for a while, Cheng Shen picked up the chopsticks and put the noodles in his mouth. After taking two bites, he frowned.

Spicy, with pepper in the noodles.

He forgot to tell the master not to put pepper.

He and Zou Bing often come to this restaurant to eat stewed noodles, and every time they order, Zou Bing will take the trouble to tell the chef "no chili, no pepper"...

Cheng Shen lowered his head and continued to eat stewed noodles. As he ate, ate, his eyes blurred, and tears fell into the bowl like broken pearls.

It turned out that this person, from the first day he was reborn, brought all his care and all his love, and broke into his life bit by bit, so that he would no longer be lonely, no longer hesitant, and let his Life came alive again.

But now, he seems to have lost Zou Bing.