The Legend of Nanshan Jun

On the day I left, there was a long queue following my sedan chair.

I vaguely remember that when I entered the palace, there was also a long draft team, and now they are all the bodyguards who came to "protect" me from the emperor.

"Stop, stop, get off the sedan chair." I stretched out my hand to stop the sedan chair moving forward.

Dieyi walked up to me and asked suspiciously, "Your Majesty, what's the matter?"

I shook my head, only looking at the palace wall outside the sedan chair, "It's nothing, I just... want to take one last look."

Dieyi helped me get out of the car slowly, that was because I was familiar with the palace walls for five years in a flash.

I looked around, taking all the scenery in the palace into my eyes, and then looked at the tall palace gate.

There were only two guards outside the empty palace gate, and no one else.

"Xiaoxi, what are you looking at?" Mu Bin came over and asked suspiciously.

I smiled slightly, "Nothing."

I thought he would come.

It's ridiculous to think about.

What is ridiculous is not Li Zhenrui, but me.

Turning around, I re-entered the sedan chair, and finally left without nostalgia.

The moment I got into the sedan chair, I had a sweet taste in my throat, and I swallowed it abruptly.

I think back to the first time I entered this Daming Palace, I was completely naked, thinking that I could be free if I was submerged in the crowd, but now I am injured all over, and my child suffers with me.

After all, it is my robbery, and I can't escape it.

Back at Xie Mansion, all members of the Xie family knelt in front of the mansion gate to greet them.

I helped my father up, exchanged a few pleasantries, and then ran directly to my mother's bedroom.

As soon as you enter the bedroom, you will be greeted by the smell of medicine.

I saw my mother lying on the collapsed bed with just one glance.

He ran to her bed in three or two steps.

When she saw me, her cloudy eyes lit up.

"Mom, I'm here to see you." My voice was a little choked up.

Thousands of words do not know where to start.

"Xi'er, you're here...that's great..." The mother half-opened her eyes, with a tear falling from the corner of her eyes, struggling to speak a few more words, but she couldn't find the strength to do so.

"Mother, please rest well, don't be in a hurry." I wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes, "We have plenty of time to talk."

"No, we don't have much time, Xi'er..." Mother shook her head, with longing and unwillingness in her eyes.

"Mother..." I wanted to see my mother's face clearly, but my eyes were blurred.

Mother stretched out her skinny hand and held mine, satisfied but saddened,

"Xi'er, my Xi'er was a gentle and gentle son of a noble family five years ago, why has he become like this now? The emperor treats you badly, right?"

"No...not." I shook my head in a panic, and quickly explained, "The emperor treats me very well, but I'm not in good health, and I'm pregnant now, which makes me so haggard."

"You lied to me, knowing son is better than mother, I am your mother, how can I not know how you are doing?" The mother's penetrating eyes seemed to see through everything, "Xi'er, your eyes are hurt, you are unhappy, you It's sad, isn't it?"

"Mother..." I knew I couldn't lie to her, and I was so distressed that I didn't know how to relieve the grief in her heart, so I changed the subject and said, "Mother, do you love your father?"

"Love?" Mother asked suspiciously, her eyes turned elsewhere, as if she was recalling the past, "It was love at the beginning, but it's just that I don't know what love is all these years."

I felt a little sad, and couldn't help asking, "Mother, if the Xie family suffers because of me one day, will you blame me?"

My mother smiled and patted the back of my hand, "Stupid child, life and death depend on life and wealth. You will pay back what the Xie family owes you with your life's happiness."

In fact, there is no need to ask, my mother will always consider everything for me from my perspective.But when I got my mother's answer, I finally let go of my heart.

"Mother, there is a question I've been meaning to ask, can you tell me?"

"You said."

I paused, and asked seriously, "I am from Tianlin Kingdom, who is my biological father?"

When I was young, I often asked my mother whether I was the biological child of my father and mother, and my mother would answer me very positively, saying that I am childish.

Now at this time I asked this question, and my mother finally stopped avoiding it.

In fact, there are many ways to understand who I am.

But I just want to hear what my mother has to say.

Her eyes fixed on me, and it took a long time before she said, "I met your father Xie Kang in the Goulan Courtyard in Yangzhou, and we fell in love with each other and wanted to be together. But Xie's family was strict and refused to let your father Marry me, unless I am pregnant. But I am a prostitute, and I have been drugged since I was a child, and I will not be able to conceive children in this life, until I saved a stunning man by chance."

The mother was immersed in the memory, and her tone became surprisingly gentle, "That man is extremely beautiful, just like you today. He was nine months pregnant when he came, and hid in the Goulan courtyard to avoid being hunted down. "

"We don't know his identity, but we can all guess that his identity is unusual, so we take care of him carefully. It's a pity that he still died of dystocia in the end..."

Speaking of this, there is also a look of regret in the mother's eyes.

"He entrusted you to me, and I promised to take good care of you. At that time, your father went to Beijing to take the exam, and he didn't know what I had gone through. Out of selfishness, I concealed your origin and only said that it was his. Child, so I took you into Xie's house."

"Your father always thought you were his own son, until he realized that as you grew up, your appearance became more and more outstanding, and you looked less and less like him, so he gradually became suspicious."

"Xi'er, it's not that he doesn't love you, but he hates me for deceiving him." The mother sighed with tears, "Xi'er, mother is sorry for you."

"It's okay, even though you're not my real mother, I'm grateful that you treat me like your own son." I held her hand and said sincerely.

"Xi'er, don't you hate being your mother?" There were tears in the mother's eyes.

I shook my head, "I don't hate you, you have been kind to me in nurturing me, and you have protected me from childhood. You are a good mother. If it weren't for you, I would have been killed by the aunt and the second mother. If it wasn't for me, maybe you You should have remarried long ago."

"Xi'er, it's a pity that my mother is leaving." The mother sighed, "You are the most reluctant thing in this world. You have been such a well-behaved child since you were a child. If you didn't enter the palace, you should have a great life. My mother really hopes to see you. You marry a wife and have children, and you are happy.”

"Mother, Xi'er will be there, don't worry." I promised.

"That's good, Xi'er must be happy! Xie Kang betrayed me, I hope the emperor will not betray you." Mother prayed.

I nodded repeatedly, but my heart was extremely painful.

Li Zhenrui did not fail me.

In the end, I am still the same as my mother.

But I still promised with a smile on my face, "Mother, don't worry."

"Xi'er... Mother misses you the most!" My mother held my hand for a long time and refused to let go.

I also held her hand back, hoping that time would stop at this moment.

"Mother, so is Xi'er."

That day, mother, I talked a lot with my mother, and my mother became much better. Maybe this is the flashback.

She waited for me for two days and finally left in the early morning of the third day.

When she left, there were still many things she couldn't let go of, and there were too many things to worry about, but she was still killed by ghost messengers, struggling to swallow her last breath.

For a moment, I almost let her go.

The person who loves me the most in this world has left me, what is the meaning of my life?

Although I am not a mother and a child, she has really given all her heart and soul to me. If there is really one person in this world who gives me selflessly without asking for anything in return, then she is the only one.

It’s just that I’ve been favored until now I’m abandoned, and she’s sick in bed, never enjoying half of the favor. There’s nothing more painful than this in the world.

The tree wants to be quiet but the wind doesn't stop, the child wants to support but the relatives don't wait.

At that moment, I suddenly realized that my life was going wrong.

I shouldn't have entered the palace, and I shouldn't have left my mother alone in this deep palace.

I once imagined that one day I would escape from the palace and take my mother away from Xie's house.

I should have left with my mother before entering the palace.

With my ability at the time, maybe I might not be able to take care of myself without any worries, but I would definitely have no problem escaping from Xie's house.

Why on earth did I agree to enter the palace as a concubine so foolishly?

Why on earth would I offer my body, mind and hands so ridiculously?

Why on earth did I still fantasize that that person would linger on me in the end?

The most ruthless emperor's family, why did I, Xie Lingxi, think so foolishly that I could get this illusory, elusive, and elusive emperor's love.

In this life, I really paid the wrong price.

I thought I would never walk the path of my mother again, I thought I would finally meet someone who treats me sincerely and is willing to work with me to grow old together, but I was too naive to think about it.

The mother used this life to repay the father's redemption and nostalgia that day, and spent the rest of her life trapped in Xie's mansion watching her father and other people love each other until the end of life, and she shed tears.

and I?

Love and love are like flowers in a mirror and moon in water, in the end it's just a dream.

Xie Lingxi, you should wake up.

From the moment Li Zhenrui drugged me, my embankment of trust began to collapse, and now it has collapsed completely.

I still don't want to believe it, no matter how indifferent and decisive I am, I still have a little hope in my heart. Thinking of him as the only husband in my life, and remembering that we were once in love, I still can't be completely unfeeling towards him, even if it is He hurt me because of Bai Yunxi.

My heart was finally emptied little by little.

Today, I finally fully understand that it is time to wake up and come out.

Li Zhenrui, I don't beg for your love.

If you don't love you, I don't love you anymore.

The world is so big, there is no need for my heart to be tied to you alone.

From then on, we will never see each other again.

Kneeling in front of my mother's bed, my tears have dried up.

"Your Majesty, don't be too sad, life and death are fate, wealth and honor are in the sky. Madam has been ill for many years, and leaving now may be a relief for her." Dieyi comforted from the side.

I took a deep breath, exhaled the depression in my heart, and finally returned to my usual calm and calm, "You are right. Seeing my mother leave now, I am more fortunate than sad. From now on, she no longer has to worry about me. , I don’t have to see people I don’t want to see anymore, I don’t have to suffer from illnesses anymore, this life ends here, it’s a blessing.”

"Your Majesty..." Seeing the determination in my eyes at this moment, she looked at me worriedly.

I held her hand and said calmly, "Dieyi, will you still follow me from now on... Do you understand what I mean?"

Dieyi nodded vigorously without a pause.

"Although Dieyi doesn't know what your majesty's plan is, Dieyi is willing to follow you all his life, and will never change until death."

"Okay." My smile widened a bit, "From now on, don't call me Jun Shang again."

"Huh?" Dieyi looked at me wonderingly, and opened her mouth wide in surprise following the words in my mouth.

I parted my lips lightly, "Call me son... Xie Wuhuan."

"Yes...it's Young Master." Dieyi nodded helplessly, as if digesting what she had just heard, "It's a very familiar name..." She couldn't help but recited the poems that have been spread all over the streets.

"Xie Wuhuan, the world is the most ugly, his body is like a ghost, and everyone who sees it is horrified."

She raised her head suddenly, her eyes full of astonishment.