Rihu's Pit Brother's Journey

[Husband. 】

Someone is calling.

【Husband? 】

...are you calling me?

In the hazy darkness, there was a woman in a kimono with loose black hair calling softly and reaching out to him.

He looked at the hand, which was too pale, completely bloodless.He looked at the face along his hand, which seemed quite familiar, but when he thought about it carefully, he just couldn't remember who it was.It seems that the name is in the mouth, but there is no way to confide it.

This woman reminded him of his own mother, who was also pale and thin, like a delicate white flower.

He is actually...afraid of such a woman. In front of such a woman, he can't help but lower his voice and act lightly. He always feels that he will hurt her with every breath, and let the soft flowers wither and fall too easily. .

[Husband, wake up quickly. 】

He opened his eyes, and what he saw was a woman with long silver-white hair lying on his quilt and staring at him sideways.

This made him a little embarrassed, and he felt guilty about dreaming about other women.

"What's wrong?" she asked, "You don't seem to be sleeping well."

He sat up and reached out to stroke her hair naturally: "I probably realized that I wasn't with you. Why did you get up so early?"

"Grumpy."

Her face is blushing, like a young girl who is still experiencing love for the first time. She is already an old couple, but her heart is always young. Every day is like getting along with a lover instead of facing a long-term life husband.

They exchanged a kiss naturally, and started the preparations for the morning.There are servants for things like cooking, and there are always some things that are more natural for husband and wife to do. For example, the wife chooses the clothes and accessories for the husband to wear today, and the husband combs the wife’s hair for the wife.

He likes her hair very much, it is silvery white with some translucent color, like the moonlight shining on her body, it is cool and soft, giving him a sense of peace of mind.

... [Husband, wake up. 】

He thought of the woman in the dream, and the guilt of betraying his wife rose again in his heart.

Obviously, it's just a woman whose name she can't remember, why does it make him feel worried?

"What about the children?"

He tried to divert his attention from thinking deeply about what that dream meant.

"They are practicing swords. They will go to Tokyo to participate in the competition next week. I won't say anything about Yuyi. He is originally a special sports recruit. I am always worried that Yumura's academic performance will fall. Doesn't he still want to enter a key school?"

Like any ordinary mother, she is worried about her children's learning problems.

He thought for a while and then made a decision: "If it doesn't work, just hire a tutor, and then just make up for the missed homework. It's rare for them to have something they want to do, and all we can do is to help them as much as possible and implement their own ideas." It's a choice."

She froze for a moment, then showed a happy smile.

"You always follow them too much, and occasionally show the sternness when you lead them to practice swords."

"I don't." He subconsciously retorted, "I always...do not do enough."

...?

Not doing enough?

He had a strange feeling that something was out of place.

Why does he feel that he owes his children?Obviously, he has always been very good to the children and always takes care of their thoughts. Why does he feel that he is very sorry for his children and is too indifferent and cruel to his children?

--child.

My child, in fact, already...already?

A figure of a young man appeared in his mind. It was a middle-length hair with black and blue gradients like mist, a beautiful face, but rough hands, strong finger bones, and a pair of martial arts hands. .

He knew it was because those hands only held his hand, crying and calling.

[Don't leave, it's too early, it's too early, we made an appointment, only I can kill you!Don't...leave so early...]

"Hei Si Mou, what's wrong?"

She stretched out her hand towards him in surprise, but he took a step back and avoided it.

"You are my wife, we have two lovely children, we have been living together...if this is true, please call me by my real name."

The white-haired woman showed a puzzled expression, and then called softly: "What's the matter, dear, are you having nightmares again?"

He looked at her calmly, and finally, his eyes showed pity.

"Maybe... yes, but it's not my nightmare. I... did have a wife once. Although we spent a short time together, we didn't love each other as deeply as those couples in the world," he said softly, "but I have only one wife, her."

Is it an obligation?Is it love?

No.

Obviously, he could have other lovers. In that era, this was the most common practice in order to reproduce, but he didn't.

Because she is his responsibility.Together they had raised a family, and she had made many sacrifices for him—many, many.

She didn't actually get love from him, but she never complained and was always loyal.They are like friends, partners, and relatives. They have never doubted and complained about each other, and the other has never let each other down.

He didn't give enough love to their common child. Apart from that child's schoolwork, he never had any other topics with that child. It was always her mother who gave more.

It was even difficult for him to face her, because she had paid so much but never got anything in return, which made him more sympathetic than guilty.

In fact, she is not in good health, especially after giving birth to a child, but she has been trying to force herself... She obviously could live a more relaxed life, but she took the initiative to share the work, trying to help him and support him.Most of the time, he hopes that she can be more selfish. If she thinks more about herself like an ordinary woman, she might live longer.

And his son... his son too.

There was a mother who was too gentle and a father who was too strict, which made the child too sensible.The only time he lost his composure was when he chose to adopt the child to someone else.The little child cried 'Father', 'Father' while crying and fell into the mud, but he never looked back.

Even... Even if it was a long, long time after that, when he met his descendants with his own blood, he did not give those children the care and love that an elder should give.

"My family is not perfect. My wife and I don't have such a happy fairy-tale love, and I don't pay as much care as a father to my children. I am a selfish person who is for the sword and for myself. have abandoned all evil spirits.”

He told the white-haired woman.

"Even such a life... Even such an unspeakable past, it is the only truth I have ever had. Please don't take away my truth, Kaguya."

Everything around it shattered and fell, making a tragic sound that split people's hearts.

On the dark and empty moon, the white-haired woman looked at him in astonishment, and finally shed tears quietly.

"Even if it's false, even if it's a lie..."

she cried.

"...Can't, stay?"

Maybe she just wanted to say, please stay with me more.

From this point of view, she is really just an ordinary woman who feels lonely, yearns for companionship, and hopes... In the cruel life, there can be a little bit of love, that's all.

He sighed, if... If at that time, when he decided to leave home, if his wife Lingzi was still alive and prayed to him like this, how would he answer?

"I'm sorry. You shouldn't expect a person who once abandoned his family, abandoned everything, and finally abandoned himself. I...will never stop after all. If you don't dislike it, just look at a fool like me, and finally What will happen. I can't stay with you, Kaguya. It's not that you are not good enough, it's just that I... don't deserve the beautiful you."

The beautiful moon, the cold moon, has been illuminating the direction for me——how can a mere mortal have the right to dream of being with the moon?

Hui Ye was stunned.

"Isn't it that I'm not good enough?"

"No."

"I just... want to be happy, want to have happiness, is that wrong?"

"No."

"I just, want to be with people who cherish me."

"……sorry."

Kaguya cried.

"Don't go, please don't go, as long as you wish, all your wishes will come true!"

But he still turned his head and walked in the opposite direction. Just as he never looked back at his son many years ago, he didn't look back at his own moon at this time.

Far away, at the end of the darkness, it seems that a calling can be heard.

He walked towards the voice, and was finally held by a soft and cold hand in the darkness.

"Husband, it's great, you finally heard my voice."

She said, leading him forward.

Before he knew it, he was still crying.

"I'm a very bad man. I owe you all the time, and in the end, I want you to worry about me."

At this moment, he actually felt weak.

Wait a little longer and wake up slowly!Knowing that this is a nonsensical and very dangerous dream, it still gives birth to such reluctance.

"There is no such thing. I," she said, "have always been happy. Although it was a short time, it is a dream-like happiness to be your wife and live with you. In the end, knowing You haven't forgotten me, that's enough, Lord Iwakatsu. You don't know, but I..."

In fact, despite my poor health, I am also a girl who refuses to admit defeat.

At that time, being forced by my father to go on a blind date, I was quite angry at first, especially when I heard that the other party had bad rumors, such as helping the younger brother, restraining the wife, and feeling that the father was planning to sell his daughter to the black bean field.

So she reluctantly ran out with the maid, ready to see what kind of scary weirdo her fiancé was.

As a result, she happened to see the straw sandals flying out of the playful child, which happened to be thrown on the head of the young city lord—the embarrassing scene of being split open by the city lord with a sword.

Seeing that the two halves of the straw sandals fell to the sides of her head, the handsome man was in a daze, as if he didn't understand the situation at all, so she burst into tears from laughing.

Afterwards, when she saw that the other party paid compensation in embarrassment—and was extorted several times by a child—and then fled in despair, she felt that this was the person who would spend the rest of her life with her.

I... Actually I...

very happy.

Have been very happy.

She secretly tiptoed to kiss his lips.

...until death do us part.

Ji Guoyansheng opened his eyes, was dazed for a moment, and then sat up, wiping the tears from his face.

I dreamed it, the person I miss.

——When, go back and have a look, he hasn't visited the grave for a long time.

Thank you, Lingzi, the time with you, I am also very happy.