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The two came to the audio-visual room again.Shi Yi didn't turn on the light, and turned on the starry sky instrument directly, and the starlight sprinkled all over his body. Shi Yi bent one leg and sat on the carpet leaning against the sofa, and asked Fu Sitian, who was still standing outside the carpet, "Aren't you going to sit down?" ?”

Fu Sitian bit his lip, raised his legs and stepped onto the carpet, carefully weighing, and was about to sit down at a distance of one person from Shi Yi, but Shi Yi suddenly stretched out his hand and grabbed her wrist.

As if holding onto her heart, Fu Sitian's whole heart trembled, and he stared blankly at Shi Yi.

In the darkness, there seemed to be helplessness and tenderness in Shi Yi's eyes.

Fu Sitian's heart beat faster, his mind was a little dazed, and following Shi Yi's strength, he took another small step forward.When she came back to her senses, she had already sat down next to Shi Yi.

Shi Yi let go of his hand, and was looking up at the starry sky above his head, his forearm naturally touching the skin of Fu Sitian's forearm.

The heat scorched Fu Sitian and burned her whole body.Fu Sitian stiffened his shoulders, and raised his head to look at the stars as if nothing had happened.A heart is up and down, beating in a mess.

The starry sky is the first time I saw the starry night in the 1510 dormitory. It is not as gorgeous and bright as the blue one last night, but it is deep and dark, but it has another kind of vast and pure thoughtfulness.It seems that they are willing to help hide the unhappiness of all those who have worries, and they seem to be willing to tolerate the anxiety and hesitation of all cowards.

Fu Sitian regained his courage.

"Time……"

"S..."

The voices of the two overlapped in the silence.

Shi Yi smiled lightly, "I'll talk first this time."

"I'm sorry, my tone was bad in the evening and I scared you." She looked at Fu Sitian with a gentle tone, very calm and sincere.

Fu Sitian was stunned, and suddenly an astringent intention surged out of his eyes.All the tension, fear, and even the grievances that he dared not admit, all disappeared in this simple sentence.She and Shi Yi looked at each other, resisting the soreness in her nose, slowly showing a sincere smile, and said softly, "I didn't do well either."

Shi Yi shook his head: "That's not what I want to hear."

Fu Sitian was at a loss.

Shi Yi said: "If there is no mistake, don't take responsibility on yourself."

Fu Sitian's eyes fluttered, and he tentatively said, "Then... is it okay? I understand that you were in a bad mood at the time?"

"Yeah." The curve of Shi Yi's lips deepened.

Fu Sitian's dimples began to ripple.

The air was quiet for a few seconds, and Shi Yi suddenly said softly: "This starry sky instrument was given to me by my mother during the summer vacation after the college entrance examination."

"Because I was in a bad mood during that time, I often went out to climb the mountaintop park in Shencheng at night. When I reached the top of the mountain, I would stand by the guardrail and watch the stars for a few hours. My mother was worried and couldn't do it again. I followed me every time, so I bought a star instrument, hoping that when she couldn't accompany me, I could also have stars to look at. I understood her request, and then I never went up the mountain alone again. "

"Auntie is really gentle and caring." Fu Sitian answered carefully.She actually wanted to ask her why she was in a bad mood, but she was not sure if she would step on the thunder.

Shi Yi said "Yes" and affirmed: "She is very good." Then, she sighed, and Fu Sitian could hear the bitter taste, "So, she will be happy."

"Shi Yi..."

"Do you know why I applied for the University?" Shi Yi asked her, turning her head.

Fu Sitian guessed: "Because you want to be closer to home?"

She knew that it was true that Cheng Jialuo said that Shi Yi entered Shenda without the college entrance examination, but she also knew that Shi Yi did not buy in through the back door, but was sent in by recommendation.After she chose to walk, Fu Sitian heard Guo Shiyi's teacher feel sorry for her in class.Although Shenda University is already a first-class university, she can definitely go to a top-ranked university if she takes the college entrance examination.

Shi Yi narrowed his eyes, "Yes."

"Since I was very young, my parents' relationship has not been very good. When I was in kindergarten, they had a divorce. My mother took me away from home and lived in my grandfather's house for a long time. I was I am very scared, I am always afraid that one day they will really divorce, and I will have no home from now on."

It should be the time when Shi Yi transferred to her kindergarten and met her?Pain welled up in Fu Sitian's heart.

Shi Yi seldom talked about family affairs. She hardly talked about it when she was a child, and now she seldom talks about it. She once thought that Shi Yi grew up in a harmonious family and was loved by thousands of people.

"Later, with the help of my grandma, they reconciled, and my mother moved back, and they once again loved each other for a while. But the good times didn't last long. After I entered junior high school, they obviously had problems again. I went to When I was in the third year of junior high school, they were arguing for a while. I could hear my mother crying every night, but I asked her what was wrong, and she refused to tell me anything. She only asked me occasionally, if Mom and Dad Divorce, who do I want to marry. Of course I choose her, but I... also want a father. So I began to suffer from insomnia, no interest in studying, and my grades plummeted. The teacher couldn't stand it, so I talked to my parents."

"After the conversation, they reconciled, at least maintaining a superficial calm. My grandma told me that to maintain this family, I can only rely on me, and let me be the bridge of communication in this family. So I have been working hard With this bridge, even the university does not dare to leave too far, for fear that if I leave, this family will fall apart." She spoke plainly, but Fu Sitian's nose was sour.

But the family eventually broke up.

She plucked up her courage, held Shi Yi's hand, and comforted her silently.Shi Yi was held by her, looked at her, smiled lightly, and continued: "But then I realized that it is useless to rely on me to maintain a family, what depends on love and responsibility."

"A few days after the college entrance examination, on my father's birthday, I wanted to give him a surprise. I went to the house where he usually worked and lived without saying hello. When I opened the door, I saw him and his lover naked. On the sofa in the living room."

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Fu Sitian opened his mouth slightly, his head exploded.

"It's disgusting, isn't it?" Shi Yi laughed at himself.There are even more disgusting things, she can't say.

"I later found out that my father had never loved my mother from the beginning to the end. He married my mother only under the pressure of my grandparents. Before marriage, he had always had his own lover. And my mother, too I discovered the truth in my third year of junior high school, but for me, she has endured and never divorced."

"And I don't know anything, and I have been doing the executioner, delaying my mother's happiness."

"You said before that you doubted your own existence, and I doubted it for a few moments. I feel like I am a deformed product." Shi Yi's eyes were dark, and there was no light in his eyes.

Fu Sitian pulled her hand to his lower abdomen and hugged her in his arms, trying to give her a little warmth, "Shi Yi, don't say that about yourself."

"For many people, your existence is everything. For example..." Like her, but she can't say it, she can only say, "like your mother, like those who love you very much."

Shi Yi looked at her quietly, and caught off guard: "Didn't you understand when you persuaded me? Why didn't you know how to tell yourself this?"

Fu Sitian was stunned for a while, and was stuck in the middle of the road for a while, distressed and soft-hearted, and a little embarrassed.

Shi Yi rubbed Fu Sitian's knuckles with his thumb that was pressed by Fu Sitian, as if to comfort him.Looking back at the void in front of her, she said in relief, "So I let myself go. It's not my fault."

"It's just that I can't let my dad go. I'm sick of him. His cowardice, cruelty, selfishness, and irresponsibility all make me sick."

"He killed the father I used to adore so much."

"From that day on, I have no home." Her voice was no longer clear and hoarse. "Si Tian, ​​I didn't mean to anger you."

Fu Sitian's eye circles turned red all of a sudden, and her heart seemed to be stabbed by something, which made her throat feel astringent from the pain.

"Shi Yi, can I hug you?" She heard herself ask in a low voice.

Shi Yi looked at her in surprise, his eyes were soft, and before he opened his mouth, Fu Sitian couldn't help but hugged her.

Shi Yi froze.

She could feel that Fu Sitian hugged her very carefully, with his arms hugging her neck gently, without daring to use any strength, even the breath that spewed into her ears was so soft and warm.

As if he was some fragile treasure.

Shi Yi relaxed, her heart softened and softened, there seemed to be something hot, but she couldn't tell what it felt like.She wrapped her arms around Fu Sitian's waist and rested her chin on her shoulder so that she wouldn't have to be so restrained.

Fu Sitian felt that his whole body was burning hot.

This was the first time she hugged Shi Yi when she was awake.

But she didn't have any other thoughts.She just felt very distressed and really wanted to hug Shi Yi, the girl she wanted to put on her heart.

Shi Yi deliberately teased her: "Did you suddenly become overwhelmed by maternal love?"

Fu Sitian breathed heavily in her ear, and she said, "Shi Yi, I..."

Shi Yi's breathing slowed down and sank following her.

Fu Sitian wanted to say, "Can I be your home?"

But it was too straightforward, she dared not.A sentence lingered in the throat hundreds of times, and finally, it was euphemistic:

"If you need me, besides being your friend, I would also like to be your father, your mother, and your home."

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