throbbing for you

"It's impolite and thoughtful to secretly take pictures of girls and put them on public platforms."

"I really like it. I should have asked you for your contact information in person."

"It's not very candid and not very brave."

Shi Yi seems to be seriously analyzing with her why she thinks this boy is not good, like an ordinary good friend, good girlfriend...

Fu Sitian's uplifted heart sank again.

Even lowered, "Shi Yi, do you like brave people?"

A person who takes his seat on the right number and is not very open and brave--I am also ah.

Shi Yi seemed a little puzzled by her question, paused for a few seconds before replying, "What is the definition of liking?"

"It's more appropriate to use appreciation, the quality of bravery, no one does not appreciate it."

Fu Sitian stared at the word "brave", his eyes gradually darkened.

So how do you define bravery?If she summons up the courage to chase a beautiful dream, is that considered greedy or brave?

Chen Xizhu was still concerned about her follow-up, Fu Sitian briefly told her about Shi Yi's reaction, and Chen Xizhu started dreaming for her again: "Shi Yi's reaction definitely surpassed the boundaries of ordinary good friends!"

Fu Sitian's heart was up and down, and he sat against the wall for a while, rubbed his forehead and sat back in front of the small table, forcing himself to calm down and review.

Can't imagine anything.There are too many dramas.she warned herself.But my mind was still wandering uncontrollably.

The end result of thinking too much is that she didn't review this class very well, and she was not very sure about choosing several multiple-choice questions.After the exam, she joked with Chen Xizhu and asked her to take responsibility.Chen Xizhu pushed it all away, and teased that she couldn't take responsibility, and whoever stirred up this girl's beauty should be held responsible.

Fu Sitian bit his lips and smiled, but couldn't talk to her.

The senior year has already cleared the school, and the schedule for the new dormitory allocation has been issued before the holiday.Jian Luhe and Yin Fanlu wanted to wait until the day after the exam before moving to the dormitory. Neither Fu Sitian nor Shi Yi had any objections. They just asked the dormitory manager over there for the dormitory key, and occasionally they would tidy up some things first.

On the evening of July 7, there were still two days left before the last class—the modern history exam.Shi Yi brought the printed review materials to the new dormitory, and she found that the new dormitory, which had not been occupied by anyone, had a balcony with a wide view, facing the boundless sea in the distance, suitable for reviewing alone, and also suitable for relaxing.

She took the elevator to the 15th floor, and the door of the dormitory in 1510 was ajar.Pushing open the door, by the light of the corridor, she saw a thin figure standing with her back on the balcony.

It's Fu Sitian.

Why don't you turn on the light?Shi Yi closed the door, fearing to scare Fu Sitian, so he called her first, "Si Tian?"

Fu Sitian seemed to be in a trance and didn't respond.

Shi Yi walked behind her in the dark, and called again, "Si Tian."

Fu Sitian was obviously still frightened.She trembled all over, turned her head, widened her big eyes, opened her small mouth slightly, flustered and adorable.

Like a frightened bunny.

Shi Yi said softly, "It's me."

Fu Sitian was still in shock, and when he saw that it was Shi Yi, his face burned, "I'm sorry... did I scare you?"

Shi Yi laughed, "Didn't I scare you?"

Fu Sitian's eyes were wet, "I overreacted."

There was a faint smile on the corner of Shi Yi's lips, and he suddenly asked, "Did you know that rabbits are easily scared to death."

"Ok?"

"Don't turn on the light next time." She smiled vaguely, stood beside Fu Sitian, looked at the dark sea in the distance, and asked casually, "What are you looking at?"

Fu Sitian looked over her profile and looked at the darkness behind her that seemed to swallow everything, and the emotion that had been intense just now slowly sank, "I'm looking for stars." She said softly.

Shi Yi raised his head, "Are there any stars tonight?"

Fu Sitian followed suit and raised his head, "No, there are no stars tonight."

Why use the word "also"?Shi Yi was still wondering, Fu Sitian repeated, "Shi Yi, there are no stars tonight."

The tone was low as a whisper.

Shi Yi was stunned for a moment, and realized belatedly, was Fu Sitian... sad?

Under the vision without lights, she couldn't see Fu Sitian's expression clearly, and Fu Sitian didn't look at her either.She just raised her head, fluttering her eyelashes in the darkness, like a butterfly struggling in a hurricane.

The smile on Shi Yi's lips disappeared, and his thin lips were drawn into a line.

After standing silently for a while, she stretched out her hand and touched Fu Sitian's cool fingertips.

Fu Sitian trembled reflexively, and Shi Yi held her even harder.

"Shi Yi?" Fu Sitian's heart beat faster.

Shi Yi said, "Do you want to talk to me?"

What are you talking about?Fu Sitian's heartbeat was as loud as a drum.

"Talk about your unhappiness." Shi Yi's tone was flat.

Fu Sitian's heartbeat slowed down, and he didn't know whether to be lucky or disappointed.The hand holding her was very soft and hot, and it was not at all the same as its owner's appearance, and she was reluctant to withdraw it at all.

She looked up at Shi Yi, and Shi Yi stared at her, his eyes seemed to be twinkling with stars, so focused and gentle.

Fu Sitian's heart trembled, and his mood suddenly collapsed again.

She thought that she would never talk about these useless emotions to others, but she heard herself still open her mouth and said: "Shi Yi, sometimes I feel that it would be good if I didn't exist from the beginning."

It seems that once you get started, it becomes much easier later.

"My grandma always said that if I didn't exist, my father might not insist on marrying my mother and go all the way to the dark. Maybe everything will be different from now."

"My sister also said that if it wasn't for me, I would s... My parents wouldn't always quarrel now, they would have a good life."

"My younger sister was crying at home just now, because the college entrance examination was not satisfactory, and there was no way to apply for the volunteer application. There was no school she wanted to apply for. It seems that I was the wrong start. During the high school entrance examination, if there is no me, I will add With two points for the only child, she can go to the best high school in the county." Because of these two points, she failed to meet her dream and fell into Pugao, where she had to work hard to pass the first line.

There is another violent storm at home at the moment, and she is hiding here.

"I've delayed a lot of people." She seemed to merge with the darkness.

Shi Yi clenched her hand so hard that Fu Sitian even felt a little hurt.

"But it's not your fault. The cause and effect of life is not deduced in this way." The girl's voice pronounced the sentence for her in a clear and cold voice, "All the results in life are just people paying for their own choices. If you choose, you have to bear it, no matter what you do.”

To vindicate her, "Your existence is not the result of your choice, so what does it have to do with you?"

Just like the sentence she said many years ago, "It's your father who did the bad things, not you, what does it have to do with you?" She always used such an ordinary tone and said such unusual words.

Fu Sitian bit her lip, suddenly an uncontrollable fragility swept over her.

She quickly turned her head away, holding back her jaw trembling, not wanting Shi Yi to see her red eye circles and tears.

Shi Yi's heart was stuffy, he raised his head to look at the sky, pretending he didn't see anything, and just gently rubbed the back of her hand with his thumb.

In the air, Fu Sitian's breathing gradually became heavy.

Shi Yi said, "If you didn't exist, we wouldn't be able to meet."

Fu Sitian's heart seemed to be hit by something, and the feeling of wanting to cry was finally held back, and his throat became astringent again.She plucked up her courage, curled her fingertips to feel Shi Yi's heat, and asked in a low voice, "Shi Yi, is our meeting important?"

He held his breath involuntarily.

Shi Yi let out a soft laugh from his nasal cavity, and said in a very soft tone, "If we hadn't met each other, then the me who was watching the stars with you at this moment would not exist."

"It's a very important thing."

Although not the answer I most want to hear.But Fu Sitian was also satisfied.

She raised her head and looked up at the dark night with Shi Yi.Still the same darkness, but not the same darkness anymore.

"It would be great if there were really stars." She finally got in the mood and smiled.

Shi Yi glanced at her with ripples in his eyes, "Do you really like stars?"

"Well, when I couldn't sleep when I was a child, my mother would teach me to count the stars and tell me stories about the stars. She always said that each star represents a beautiful blessing from the universe to the world. So every time I look at it, There will always be a feeling of being cared for by beauty. Although, it is very far away."

Shi Yi heard the smell of nostalgia.

"There will always be moments with stars," she reassures.

Fu Sitian smiled, but didn't speak.Even if there is, it doesn't belong to her.

After a while, she calmed down completely, and changed the subject to care about Shi Yi, "Are you here to review?" She looked at the materials in Shi Yi's hand.

"En." Shi Yi let go of his hand.

"Then... then hurry up and study as soon as possible, I won't bother you anymore." Fu Sitian said wittily.

Shi Yi could tell that she didn't want them to meet under the lights, at least not tonight.She didn't hold back, but nodded, allowing the conversation to end in darkness.

Fu Sitian was about to go out, Shi Yi suddenly asked her: "Do you have time at this time tomorrow?"

Fu Sitian was stunned, "Yes."

"Then at this time tomorrow, you come here."

"Review?"

"Look at the stars." Shi Yi had a flat face.

Fu Sitian blinked his eyes, knowing that Shi Yi's words would not have the romantic meaning he wanted at all, so his mood was lifted, "Okay."

*

After dark on the second day, Fu Sitian packed up the review materials and came as scheduled.

The lights in the 1510 dormitory were bright, and Shi Yi had already arrived, looking through the documents with his head down.Hearing the sound, she turned her head, smiled lightly as a greeting, stood up and walked out.

Fu Sitian was about to ask her where she was going when the light went out with a "click".

Shi Yi walked back again.

Fu Sitian stood by the desk and asked blankly, "What's wrong?"

Shi Yi seemed to laugh, but didn't speak.She bent down and fumbled for something in the chair in the middle of the aisle.

Fu Sitian was still wondering, the dark dormitory in front of him suddenly turned into a vast sea of ​​stars.On the low blue sky, tens of thousands of stars are twinkling, shining, shining on her.

It's like setting a wasteland, like being in a dream.

Fu Sitian felt dizzy for a moment, like the feeling of weightlessness when stepping on a cloud, or the suffocation feeling like forgetting to breathe.

Suspected that he was hallucinating.

Shi Yi's voice really rang in his ears: "Tonight, there are stars."

Her throat tightened and she turned to look sideways at the source of the sound.

Under the sky full of stars, Shi Yi stared at her, his expression hidden in the bright starlight, so hazy, gentle but so clear.

"At this moment, all the stars belong to you."

"Do you want to count?"

Fu Sitian heard her own heart and blood create a huge wave, engulfing her limbs and bones.Her rationality was struggling to breathe in the huge waves.

There is a desire to ask repeatedly.

If the stars belong to me.

Then can I belong to you?