throbbing for you

After having breakfast together, Fang Ruohua and Shi Yi are going to the hospital to visit Shi Yi's cousin who just gave birth a few days ago.Jiajia is clingy and wants to go with her mother and sister. Fang Ruohua is afraid that she is too young and has poor resistance, so she doesn't like to take her to the hospital, so Fu Sitian volunteers and takes over the task of taking care of Jiajia at home.

Although Jiajia was still shy, she was willing to stay with Fu Sitian in her heart, so she didn't make a fuss and obeyed obediently.The two went upstairs together and played with Lego in the toy room. After a short while, they eliminated their identities and played together affectionately.

When Fang Ruohua and Shi Yi came back, they saw two figures, one big and one small, sitting side by side on the crawling mat, one big and one small, sitting on the crawling mat, concentrating on playing something together.The warm afternoon sun, through the glass, covered their hair, warm and fluffy.

Fang Ruohua and Shi Yi stopped at the stairs, feeling like they couldn't bear to be disturbed.

"Si Tian is very good at getting along with children." Fang Ruohua sighed softly.

Jiajia is a bit self-conscious, and it is rare for her to get close to an adult so quickly.

Shi Yi looked at the unaware two people, his eyes were soft without knowing it: "Maybe she herself is like a child sometimes."

Fang Ruohua's thoughts moved slightly, and she cared about her: "After getting married next year, do you plan to have a child?"

Shi Yi casually said, "I haven't made any plans yet."

"Is that a plan?"

"Not necessarily." Shi Yi tilted his head, held back his smile, and said after a pause, "I don't really want it. If Si Tian really wants it, I'll think about it."

It is a lie and a truth.She doesn't hate children, but she has no obsession with having children.The child hadn't appeared in her plan yet, all she thought was that her life would be complete with Fu Sitian.

Fang Ruohua didn't know if she really thought so, or if she was afraid that she would force Fu Sitian to take the responsibility first.She said enlightenedly: "Whether you want it or not, you should think about it yourself, and you won't regret it. I believe that both of you are children who are sure of yourselves."

Shi Yi looked at her deeply, and Fang Ruohua looked at her frankly.

Shi Yi's eyes softened, and he agreed: "Well, don't worry."

Fang Ruohua nodded: "I don't worry."

After bidding farewell to her father a few years ago, she once read a writer who wrote about parents, "The so-called father and daughter, mother and child, just means that the fate between you and him is that you are constantly watching his back fade away in this life. You stand At this end of the path, watch him gradually disappear at the turn of the path, and he silently tells you with his back: don’t chase.” In these years, during Jiajia’s sprawling growth and Shi Yi’s rapid maturity, she More and more feelings: the reverse is also true.

Children will grow up anyway, and there will always be roads that parents cannot accompany.Parents always have to go from in front of them, slowly to their side, and finally, back behind them.Letting go and seeing off is the last responsibility that can be fulfilled after the responsibility of teaching.

No matter how worried, no matter how reluctant, it should be the same.

Shi Yi has grown up, she won't interfere with Shi Yi's life anymore, I only hope that she will have no regrets in her life.

"Go in and accompany them." She said calmly, "I'll go down and see how Auntie's lunch preparations are going."

Shi Yi responded, "Yes."

Fang Ruohua watched her walk away from Fu Sitian, towards the path that belonged to her, with gentle eyes.

In the evening, the body industry company had an annual meeting, and Fang Ruohua was going to attend, so Shi Yi and Fu Sitian decided to take Jiajia out to eat together, so as to feel the Christmas atmosphere.

The three of them chose a parent-child restaurant with a strong festive atmosphere for dinner.In the restaurant, there is a towering Christmas tree, a carousel decorated in the shape of an elk, and Santa Claus carrying packages, wandering around under the dim light, and distributing candy to the children.

Full of naive and dreamy taste.

Shi Yi and Fu Sitian sat in a separate private seat, separated by a long distance, noticed that when they were full, they ran into the play area impatiently, and got on the new carousel Jiajia.

"Do you like children?" Shi Yi asked suddenly.

Fu Sitian looked at the little figures on the merry-go-round and nodded: "I like it."

"Want it?"

Fu Sitian froze for a moment, then turned to look at Shi Yi.Shi Yi watched her gently and earnestly.

Fu Sitian twitched his eyelashes, straightened his expression, and asked, "Do you want it?"

Shi Yi said frankly, "I don't feel anything."

Fu Sitian hesitated and said, "I'm fine too..."

"But don't you like it?"

Fu Sitian bit his lip, with some difficulty, he answered irrelevant questions: "Can I do well?"

She said softly: "Shi Yi, I don't know what kind of good parents are when children grow up."

She has not seen it.

She is afraid.

Shi Yi felt a sharp pain in his heart for a moment.She got up and sat beside Fu Sitian, Bao held her slightly clenched hand on the side of the dinner plate, and said firmly, "You can do it well."

Fu Sitian was moved and hesitated.

Shi Yi had no intention of forcing her, and said, "But if you're really not ready, then it's fine if we don't."

Come to think of it, Lailai will definitely be the mother who loves children the most in the world.Raising children will definitely take up most of her energy.

She burst into a beautiful and solemn smile: "After all... In this way, you will really only belong to me forever."

"I can monopolize you," she leaned closer, and said in a voice that only the two of them could hear: "Shi Yiyi, I wish for it."

Flick a pool of spring water.

Fu Sitian heard his heartbeat suddenly increased.

She turned her head to look at Shi Yi, and within a short distance, Shi Yi's clear eyes shone brightly under the shadow of the lamp, as gentle as a lake and as bright as stars.

Fu Sitian's heart was pounding like a deer.

She found that no matter how many years she had known each other, no matter how familiar she was with each other, Shi Yi was still the girl whose face would turn red and her heart skip a beat if she took one more look or heard one more sentence.

She covered Shi Yi's eyes, kissed her cheek lightly, and replied from the bottom of her heart:

I have you, baby, and I have nothing else to ask for.

*

In September of the following year, Shenda held its centennial celebration and invited alumni from all over the world to visit the school.Shi Yi, Fu Stian, Chen Xizhu, and Yin Fanlu hadn't seen each other for a year, so they made an appointment to return to Shanghai and visit the school together.

Jian Lu, who is resident in Shanghai, and Ji Ji of everyone who came to pick him up.As early as last year when Shi Yi and Fu Sitian returned to Shencheng for Christmas vacation, they met once.At that time, although it was Jian Luhe who proposed to Shi Yi that he wanted to meet Fu Sitian, but after a long absence, Jian Luhe really saw Fu Sitian, and remembered the unhappy breakup that year, somewhat awkward and cramped. Recklessly reaching out, hugging Jian Luhe, and saying "Luhe, long time no see" to erase all the cracks in the past.

From the beginning to the end, she never blamed Jian Luhe.She thanked her for encouraging and taking care of Shi Yi during those Shi Yi's saddest days.Shi Yi can have such a sincere friend for her, she cherishes it as much as Shi Yi.

When they graduated that year, due to Yin Fanlu's going abroad and Fu Sitian's absence, apart from the class and major group photos, their dormitory did not leave any serious group photos in bachelor's uniforms.This time returning to Shencheng was the first time the five of them gathered together after their reunion.Jian Luhe suggested that everything should be added this time.

Everyone had the same intention, so they agreed with each other, so they made an appointment with a photographer, rented a bachelor's uniform, took off the high heels together, and put on the T-shirt and canvas shoes that students most often wear in youth, and put on the bachelor's uniform , helping each other to tidy up the collars and hats, burying them, comparing them, laughing and making noises, and we went back to the place where it all started.

Like the senior students who are about to graduate, they have walked to and from the dormitories and teaching buildings countless times, in the library with thousands of volumes, beside the rippling Bailu Lake, in the small playground with green grass, in the light and shadow Under the fine shade trees, line up, play with shapes, and enjoy the belated graduation happiness.

Sweat glistened on the tips of their noses, and laughter lingered around them.

They kept walking and taking photos until the evening, when the sky was full of sunset, they walked to the small auditorium where the graduation ceremony of the Industrial and Commercial College was held that year.

Looking up, on the steps, the door of the small auditorium is open, and there are several movie posters pasted on the bulletin board in front of the door, all of which are related to the figures in the history of the school. Prepare.

Shi Yi suggested: "Go in and have a look?"

Everyone has no opinion.

Shi Yi took Fu Sitian's hand and walked ahead, walked into the front hall of the auditorium, walked down, and entered the main hall of the auditorium.In the main hall, the melody of Shen University’s school song was lingering, and a man was standing at the front of the auditorium adjusting the curtain that was lowered in the center, as if he was a staff member.

Fu Sitian knocked on the door and said politely, "Hi, we are alumni who graduated from the Industrial and Commercial College, can we come in and visit?"

The staff lingered on Fu Sitian for a second, then turned to Shi Yi.

Shi Yi nodded unconsciously, and the man agreed, "Yes, welcome, please feel free to visit."

Just as Fu Sitian wanted to thank him, Chen Xizhu and Jian Luhe behind him suddenly burst out laughing, looking uncontrollably amused.

Fu Sitian didn't understand, and turned his head to care about them: "What's the matter? What are you laughing at?"

Shi Yi raised his heart slightly, and squinted his eyes to wink.

Chen Xizhu and Jian Luhe quickly suppressed their laughter and said in unison: "It's nothing."

Fu Sitian: "???" Strange.

Yin Fanlu interrupted to divert Fu Sitian's attention: "Let's go, go in quickly, and see if there are any suitable scenes to take some pictures." Then, she walked forward first.

Fu Sitian didn't doubt that he was there, turned around and followed him.

Shi Yi quietly waved to Fang Ruohua, Jiajia, Jiang Xuemei, Fu Jiantao, and Fu Siyu who were standing at the entrance on the other side of the auditorium, and made an OK gesture.

The five of them took pictures together by the window of the auditorium, with the sunset as the background board. The staff seemed to have finished debugging, and suddenly invited: "Do you want to see the promotional video of the school celebration?"

Chen Xizhu replied excitedly: "Is it possible?"

The staff smiled and said, "Yes."

Shi Yi answered the conversation naturally, and asked Fu Sitian, "Then let's take a look?"

Of course Fu Sitian had no objection.

Shi Yi led her to sit in the first row in the middle. Chen Xizhu, Yin Fanlu, and Jian Luhe chose to sit in the rows behind them on the pretext that they were too close.

Fu Sitian asked Shi Yi: "Then shall we go to the back?"

Shi Yi glanced at her, but didn't answer her. With a smile on his lips, he held her hand, not intending to get up and change seats at all.

Fu Sitian thought it was her petty capriciousness, so he laughed, and let her sit upright, without changing.

The staff thoughtfully lowered all the curtains in the auditorium, and the room fell into brief darkness.In just two seconds, the sound of piano playing brought the white curtain to light up, and Fu Sitian appeared in front of Fu Sitian's eyes, two little bunnies in the shape of animation anthropomorphic standing close together.

One white and one gray, with long ears and big eyes, very cute.

Fu Sitian's eyes lit up, and he couldn't help but praise: "It's so cute."

The corners of Shi Yi's lips curled up secretly, pretending to be indifferent and only let out an "um".

The screen moved, and the promotional video started.

It is an anime version of silent film, with exquisite and smooth pictures, fresh and warm painting style, it can be seen that it is a work made with great care.What is the connection between the story and Shenda? After reading it for more than a minute, Fu Sitian still couldn't understand.

At the beginning of the story, a group of small animals lived together in a forest. There was a little white rabbit who was trapped on an isolated island in the corner of the forest for some reason. A small river separated her from other small animals. She can only look enviously at the other small animals in the forest living together happily, feeling sad.

One day, a gray rabbit came to the forest, found the trapped little white rabbit, cut down the big tree, built a bridge, led the little white rabbit out of the isolated island, and walked into the forest together.

They played games together, caught butterflies together, watched the stars together, and lived happily ever after.

But one day, a big bad wolf suddenly became wild and wanted to eat them.

The little white rabbit and the little gray rabbit held hands and ran away together until they hid in a tree hole.The big bad wolf chased after them, and when they were about to find them, the little white rabbit ran out of the tree hole, led the big bad wolf away, and fell down the valley together with the big bad wolf.

The little gray rabbit couldn't save her, so he went down the mountain to look for her, but he couldn't find her.She was not reconciled, so she kept searching, asking everyone, always remembering the little white rabbit.

As time passed, the little gray rabbit grew up, left that forest, and went to a wider forest.At school in the New Forest, she met a rabbit who was very similar to Little White Rabbit.

They know each other and love each other, study together, go out together, sleep together, embrace under the phoenix flowers, kiss under the starry sky, but finally, they quarrel in the stormy night and part on the street where animals come and go.

They walked back to back, and the moment they turned around to each other, in the picture, all the stars in the sky were darkened, and the world fell into eternal night.

The little gray rabbit walked with its back to the little white rabbit, but the transparent soul floated towards the little white rabbit; so did the little white rabbit.The two bodies are toiling and lingering on the screen that is divided into two, and the two souls are helplessly wandering in the dark night, unable to get out of trouble.

Until one day, they met again in front of a river.

The soul returns.

This time, the little gray rabbit held the plank and didn't want to build a bridge.On the other side of the river, the little white rabbit looked at her and suddenly jumped into the water.

The little gray rabbit was frightened and jumped down too.

The little white rabbit came out of the water suddenly, with a smile all over his face, he swam towards her and hugged the little gray rabbit tightly.

At that moment, all the stars in the picture lit up again.

In the auditorium, the dark blue sea of ​​stars also lit up with the lyrical music at the end of the film at the same moment. The curtain and the wall, the wall and the ceiling, and the entire auditorium formed a vast starry sky.

Starlight is everywhere, as if you are in the Milky Way.Fu Sitian was in a daze. In the dreamlike light, she saw that not only Chen Xizhu, Yin Fanlu, Jian Luhe, but also mother, uncle, aunt, Xiaoyu and Jiajia were sitting in the back row.

"Shi Yi..." She murmured dryly.

Shi Yi's clear eyebrows and eyes were exceptionally gentle under the hazy starlight.She looked at her and asked with a smile: "Guess, if this film had sound, what would the little gray rabbit say at this moment?"

No matter how slow Fu Sitian was, he faintly came to his senses.There was water mist in the eye sockets, she wanted to laugh, but her nose was so sore.She choked up and asked, "What?"

Shi Yi said, "I love you."

She took off her bachelor's hat, took her hand, kissed the back of her hand, stood up, did not know where the roses and rings came from, knelt down on one knee and said, "Come on, will you marry me? Let me marry you." I will accompany you to see all the stars in the future."

Under the rustling meteors, her smiling eyes were as bright as those childhood years, amazing time, gentle years.

Her beloved people in the back row booed loudly.

Fu Sitian's tears suddenly fell uncontrollably, and his heart was so full that it seemed to explode.

She was sure that it would never be dark again.

Everything that fate once ruthlessly took away from her has finally been returned to her in a different form.

She stretched out her hand, hugged Shi Yi, hugged the only star in her life that would never go out, and smiled with tears in her eyes:

"I am willing."

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