throbbing for you

Although Fu Sitian was helping Wang Meifen in the yard, his mind was always on Shi Yi and Fu Jiantao in the living room.She wasn't afraid that Shi Yi wouldn't be able to handle it, but she was still worried that Fu Jiantao would speak badly and make Shi Yi uncomfortable.Enduring and enduring, she finally couldn't hold back, and using the excuse of giving Fu Jiantao and Shi Yi a taste of Wang Meifen's freshly fried nine-section shrimp, she pretended to carry a small plate in to investigate the enemy's situation.

Unexpectedly, the living room was empty and quiet, except for a chessboard that seemed to have not been moved at all—there were no shadows of Fu Jiantao and Shi Yi.

Fu Sitian's mind suddenly became confused.She quickly turned around and was about to run upstairs, but when she passed the door of Fu Jiantao and Wang Meifen's bedroom, she heard Shi Yi's calm "Okay, I will" from inside.

She stopped immediately, feeling a little more at ease, and turned to walk towards the door.

Inside the door, Shi Yi and Fu Jiantao stood facing each other, Shi Yi's back was facing the door, Fu Sitian couldn't see her expression clearly.

She raised a smile, reached out and knocked on the door, reminding the two people of her arrival.

Both Fu Jiantao and Shi Yi turned their heads following the sound.

Only now did Fu Sitian see clearly that Shi Yi seemed to be holding a few kraft paper-colored envelopes and some photos in his hands.

She could vaguely guess what it was, and her heart seemed to be stabbed inadvertently.But she still smiled nonchalantly and said, "Why did you come here? Auntie just fried the nine-section shrimp, let me bring it in for you to taste."

Fu Jiantao took a look at Shi Yi, and Shi Yi knew immediately.She naturally raised the envelope and the photo in her hand to Fu Sitian, and replied: "Suddenly we were talking about your childhood, and my uncle said that he still had a few photos of you when you were young, so I begged my uncle to find it out and show it to me." .”

Fu Sitian confirmed that it was indeed those photos that Fu Jiantao took every year for more than ten years, and then sent them to the prison along with the letter for Fu Jianze to see.

She had seen Fu Jianze caressing these photos when he was alone, but she didn't pay attention to it. It turned out that after his death, these photos were kept by his uncle.

Her throat moved, she narrowed her eyes, and still smiled: "Uncle, you don't even want to impress me."

Fu Jiantao didn't take it seriously: "What are you afraid of, you've never been ugly before." He asked Shi Yi for confirmation: "Is that right? Has our family, Tian Tian, ​​been beautiful since he was a child?"

Shi Yi nodded: "Yes." She looked at Fu Sitian, rolled her eyes and said, "Pretty and cute." Then she put the photo and envelope into her satchel.

Fu Sitian didn't notice at all.She was a little embarrassed to be praised so much in front of her elders, her ears turned red, and she changed the subject: "Do you want a drink? The shrimp is still crispy, and it may be a little dry after eating. Auntie is still frying squid rings outside. I'll send some in too."

Fu Jiantao replied: "It's all right, the drinks are piled up in the back warehouse. Let's go out to eat a little, dinner may be late tonight."

Shi Yi is as good as a streamer.

Fu Jiantao went out and walked ahead, while Fu Sitian was waiting by the door, with the corners of his lips curled up, asking Shi Yi with his eyes.

nailed it?

Shi Yi raised his eyebrows, let out a light laugh, and raised his hand to scratch Fu Sitian's nose.

Fu Sitian's heart suddenly became clear, and peach blossoms bloomed at the end of his eyes, shining brightly.

Shi Yi couldn't help but his eyes deepened.

Fu Jiantao turned around and wanted to ask the two of them if they would eat fried pancakes, or let Wang Meifen fry them a little. Out of the corner of his eye, Shi Yi reached out and grabbed Fu Sitian's fingertips, shaking them affectionately.

He quickly turned back and swallowed the words back into his stomach.

These young people.The smile lines on the corners of his mouth fluctuated involuntarily.Forget it, the female university is not allowed to stay.

Sure enough, they had dinner very late in the evening. During the dinner, several people had been discussing the specific procedures and matters of holding a wine tomorrow. Fu Jiantao and Wang Meifen would chat with Shi Yi from time to time and ask about her and Fu Sitian's affairs, so this It was nearly nine o'clock for the meal, and everyone could go back to their rooms to rest after washing up.

Fu Siyu said that it was the last night of being single, and pestered Fu Sitian to sleep with her, and asked Shi Yi to lend her her sister for one night.Naturally, Shi Yi wouldn't argue with her, so he agreed graciously, took a bath by himself, and obediently stayed in the empty room alone.

The room Fu Sitian slept in before, but the bed frame is very new, as if newly purchased.The entire room is small in size, and as far as the eye can see, there are gray painted cement walls, but I don't know if it is because there is too little furniture, only a bed, a small table and a few storage boxes, so it seems a bit awkward. Very empty.

Shi Yi imagined that every time Fu Sitian went home in those years, how he would hide from her grandma, talk on the phone with him in this lonely small room, and listen to him traveling in Saibei, lingering at parties, feasting and feasting, his heart was wrenched. It hurts.

She sat upright on the edge of the bed, stroking Fu Sitian's youthful and immature face in the photo, and finally had time to open the five kraft paper envelopes that Fu Jiantao gave her to examine carefully.

The letter paper inside the envelope was thin and yellowed with age.

Shi Yi looked at each of the letters, and he could tell that four of them should have been written by Fu Jianze to Fu Sitian to celebrate his birthday many years ago when he was still in prison. The handwriting was neat and sincere, but for some reason, In the end, it seemed that it was not sent, and even the stamp was not posted.

What was stated in the letter was that he had a good life in prison and accepted the reform seriously. I hope that Fu Sitian will listen to his grandmother, uncle, and aunt, take good care of himself, and grow up well. He misses her very much, and he will work hard to get out as soon as possible. What grew up with her, and so on, were all words of love from her father.

At the bottom, the one with the most difficult handwriting is the letter Fu Jianze left for Fu Sitian's future lover.

At that time, I don't know if Fu Jianze's physical condition was not very good. He didn't write much, and his handwriting was clean and tidy instead of the previous few letters.

He wrote:

My son, Zhanxinjia.If this letter can be delivered to you, it means that Tiantian mentioned me as a father to you, and you also know and accept everything about her, and are willing to be with her for the rest of your life, love her, protect her and cherish her, then the greatest thing in my life Worries and concerns, finally have a place to go, can let go.

I don't have the luck, nor the qualifications, to hold Tiantian's hand, walk her through the long red carpet, and hand her over to you with my own hands, so I can only write such a thin letter, Talk about my reluctance and blessings as a father.Hope it doesn't bother you too much.

In this life, I spent too little time with her, and I missed too much.Up to now, I still often think of her appearance when she just learned to walk and was still learning to speak.She ran towards me with short legs, staggered towards me, called me "Dad, Dad" sweetly, hugged my thigh, and melted my heart.At that time, I picked her up, heard her giggling, and turned around to tell her mother that I would change her name to Tiantian when I brought them home in eight palanquins.I said, in this life, I will let Fu Jianze's daughter only eat sweets and not suffer.

However, I am useless.

Damn me.

I became the culprit for all her suffering.

For the first half of her life, she has suffered through hardships. I see it in my eyes and feel pain in my heart.I once swore that when I get out of prison, I will do my best to make up for her, take care of her, and be a good father.But too many bad things have been done, God, don't give me this chance.

It was too late for me to love love her more.

I can't wait to see her smile again.

But she is such a good child, I feel so distressed and can't let her go.

She is kind, tenacious, and responsible, but sometimes she is too self-sufficient, too stubborn, and too horny.My child, to be someone who understands her, show her more appreciation, patience and understanding, okay?

She is weak, but I often don't take it seriously. My child, you should pay more attention to her, take care of her, and watch her more, okay?Your words will definitely work.

She has a lot of thoughts, no matter how much pain she has in her heart, no matter how much wronged she has suffered, she is always used to being bored in her heart and digesting it by herself. My child, you should pay more attention to her, enlighten her more, and be her backer and harbor, okay?

Having me as a father is the greatest misfortune in her life.

But she deserves all the best in this world.

So, child, promise me that you will be the greatest luck in her life, okay?

Respect her, love her, cherish her, avoid her suffering, avoid her suffering, avoid her ups and downs, let us Tiantian be like her name, from now on, only eat sweets and not suffer, okay?

If so, I will die without regret.

I will always watch over you in heaven.

Hold your hand and grow old together.

It's the same sound for each other.

old father he

At the end of the writing, as if exhausted, the strokes are trembling, and the ink seeps through the paper.

Shi Yi saw it with mixed feelings.

Holding this thin piece of letter paper, she felt that what she was holding was not paper, but a heavy father's love, a deep, late father's love.

If I had known this, why bother.

Fu Jiantao said that when he was alive, Lailai never accepted him.Shi Yi doesn't sympathize with Fu Jianze, but she loves Fu Sitian.

Originally, with her coming, what a happy and smooth life she could have.The father is kind and the mother is virtuous, with a hundred pets and a thousand loves, growing up in love and under the sun.

Even if she can't meet her again, even if she can't become her sun or star, it doesn't matter.

As long as she can live a happier life than she is now.

As long as, when strangers meet each other and pass by each other, the smile on her face will not have a trace of gloom.

But there is no if in life.Fu Jianze's belated love couldn't buy regret medicine, and it couldn't heal the burnt wound on Fu Sitian's heart, and even left a deeper gap.

She looked at the deep and shallow handwriting on the paper, as if looking at her girl's lost life, and her heart was blocked.She carefully folded the letter paper according to the original crease, put it back into the envelope, and put it in the bottom layer of the satchel. Then, she turned off the light, lay on the bed, looked at the ceiling, and thought of the sentence "For the rest of her life, It’s all through hardships and hardships.” Thinking about how little Fu Sitian huddled alone in the corner when we met for the first time that year, thinking about Fu Sitian’s self-imposed exile several times in those years that Fu Siyu told her, thinking about Fu Sitian's silent sentence in the morning, "Shi Yi, I have a lot of regrets, I can't make up for it", was full of bitterness in his mouth, and even his nose was sore.

She had insomnia and couldn't sleep at all.

I want to see Fu Sitian, I want to hold her hand, touch her temperature, and confirm that she really exists and really returns to her life.

I don't know how long I have been debating over and over again whether I should have the cheek to go to the next door and make a bed on the floor, when suddenly there was the sound of the door lock turning.

Shi Yi turned his head, his whole nerves tensed.

In the darkness, the door was opened a crack, and under the moonlight, Fu Sitian's slender figure appeared beside the door. With a gentle smile, he closed the door behind his back, and approached Shi Yi step by step.

Shi Yi sat up, and before she could react, he reached out and hugged her into his arms.

Fu Sitian didn't expect that Shi Yi wasn't asleep at all, and he almost let out a scream, but thinking that it was already late at night, he choked it into his throat briefly.

She fell into Shi Yi's arms, with lingering fears in her heart, she smiled sullenly, and said dotingly: "Why haven't you slept yet?"

Shi Yi hugged her and sat on her body, and asked without answering, "Why are you back?"

Fu Sitian laughed, rubbed his forehead against hers, and said softly, "Come back to accompany you."

Shi Yi looked at her soft and bright eyes, hugged her soft body, his heart suddenly softened as if it was about to melt into water.

I will.uncle.Unable to restrain herself, she lifted Fu Sitian's hair on the sideburns, stroked it lovingly, and kissed Fu Sitian's forehead, nose tip, and cherry lips, and promised in her heart:

Come, come, it will be Shi Yi's entire future.

Tian Tian will only eat sweets and not bitters from now on.