throbbing for you

The soft touch fell on the skin, and for a moment, it was like an electric current ran through the whole body, Shi Yi's movements froze, and the knuckles holding Fu Sitian's wrist trembled almost imperceptibly.

What did Fu Sitian say?She agreed?Shi Yi's sneering smile faded away, he backed away, and looked at Fu Sitian in a daze.

Fu Sitian still stood where he was, neither dodging nor dodging, looking back at her calmly.There was no smile on her face, but her expression was very calm, even showing a little waiting.

Unmoved, let you pick.

Shi Yi suddenly felt an uncontrollable fire rushing up, causing her temples to throb.She didn't know what she was thinking. Compared with being pushed away, this should be the answer she was looking forward to more, but the moment Fu Sitian really agreed, she found that she was more angry than any moment since the reunion. All feel cooler.

Why is Fu Sitian so calm, and even so easy to handle?Or did she guess right, Fu Sitian was simply refusing to welcome, waiting for her here?

To Fu Sitian, what was she?Have a successful career, have a spring breeze after Qianfan's transit, and revisit old dreams?

Shi Yi pursed his thin lips into a cold straight line.A gust of night wind blew, and her thin cotton skirt fluttered slightly in the wind.

Fu Sitian asked her: "Let's go?"

Shi Yi was so angry that he pulled out a smile instead. "Let's go." She raised her chin, the emotion in her eyes faded, she let go of Fu Sitian's wrist, turned around and walked in front of her.

Fu Sitian's wrist was a circle of red.She didn't care, she lowered her hand and looked deeply at Shi Yi's back.She raised her footsteps, stepped on Shi Yi's shadow, and followed quietly.

No one wanted to reminisce about the old days, and silence flowed between the two.

Shi Yi thought, it doesn't matter what Fu Sitian wants to do or what he takes her for, it doesn't matter anymore.She originally played with her, wasn't it just to satisfy the dream of pestering him every night?

Because you can't get it, you will be brooding and thinking about it.When you are satisfied, you will find that it is nothing more than that, boring, and everything will be over.

Adults, what they need.

She persuaded herself like this, but her nerves were still constantly aroused by Fu Sitian's faint fragrance and calm and steady footsteps behind her.

She really just came up with her like that.

Could it be that for her, this is no more than a game that adults are familiar with?

So don't get angry, don't feel shy, don't care.

An indescribable unhappiness surged in Shi Yi's chest again.

In tacit silence, they came to the 23rd floor, the floor where Shi Yi's house was located.

After swiping the smart lock with his fingerprint, Shi Yi pushed the door and entered, and the sensor light in the hallway came on.

Fu Sitian hesitated at the door for a moment, then followed Shi Yi and stepped in.

Turning your head, the spacious living room is looming in the half-light.Compared with Shi Yi's house next to Shenda University, the decoration of this house is very simple, with very little furniture. There is a sofa, but there is no TV, and the whole living room even feels empty.Fu Sitian's heart twitched suddenly.

She was about to turn her head to look at Shi Yi when Shi Yi said, "Wear slippers casually, disposable underwear in the guest room, and pajamas worn by others, but they are clean, do you mind?"

Purpose is straightforward.

Fu Sitian's eyelashes trembled, he supported the wall to change his shoes, and said, "It's okay."

She moved gracefully, lowered her head, and leaned slightly, her fine hair fell smoothly to one side, revealing half of her soft side face.Covered by a few strands of slightly curly hair, her slender neck and delicate collarbone are so white and tender that they seem to glow under the light.

So beautiful, so calm, so skilled.

The tension in Shi Yi's mind was completely broken.

She stretched out her hand to hold Fu Sitian's neck with five fingers, gently rubbed and touched Fu Sitian's ear bone with her thumb, her fingertips felt slightly cool.

Fu Sitian was caught off guard, his legs were soft, and he straightened up to catch Shi Yi's eyes, but Shi Yi's lips were pressed down just in time.

Soft, hot, rude.

Fu Sitian's whole body was numb, and when he closed his eyes, he felt as if his soul was about to melt under Shi Yi's lips.Because of longing, because of contentment, because of these fresh, real emotions that she has not felt for a long time.

She really wanted to reach out and hug Shi Yi.But she dare not.She didn't know if Shi Yi would still want to hug her.

Hugging is a more intimate and purer thing than kissing or having sex.

With her hands on the wall, she raised her head, opened her lips, and responded to Shi Yi.

Shi Yi seemed to pause for a moment, and then, almost maliciously, she crushed her lips repeatedly, recklessly and wantonly plundering, until Fu Sitian felt pain with such brutal force.

Fu Sitian held back his muffled hum, his forearm propped against the wall was trembling slightly.

She opened her eyes and looked at her lover who was close at hand.

Shi Yi's eyes were open, her eyelashes drooped, her face was icy cold, and all her movements seemed to be venting.

Fu Sitian couldn't see a trace of warmth.

Her voice finally trembled uncontrollably: "

Shi Yi..." She turned her head slightly and said, "I don't want to turn on the light. "

Shi Yi was quiet for a second, as if he didn't hear her, he held her lips and kissed her again.

She thought she would be happy to hear Fu Sitian's emotional fluctuations and her fragility, but why not.Shi Yi felt a dull pain in the back of his head.

Fu Sitian didn't avoid her, but the shaking of his chest became more obvious.

It was as if the whole body was shaking.

Like a frightened little rabbit, but also like a stubborn but delicate flower.

Shi Yi warned himself not to care.But the softness and sweetness under her lips seemed to have turned into boiling water, scorching and scalding her.

Shi Yi couldn't maintain his emotions, let go of her poor lips anxiously, and stood up straight.She clutched Fu Sitian's wrist, left the hallway, and walked to the living room in silence.Fu Sitian followed her without any sound except breathing and footsteps.When passing by the switch board, Shi Yi pressed the switch and turned off the light in the entrance.

The room fell into deep darkness in an instant.

Shi Yi couldn't see the tenderness and nostalgia in Fu Sitian's eyes looking at her from behind.

She took Fu Sitian to the sofa, and Fu Sitian obediently lay down, the button of the shirt skirt was half unbuttoned.With the faint light from the balcony, Shi Yi sat and looked down at her.

Shi Yi saw something flash in Fu Sitian's misty eyes, but before she could see clearly, Fu Sitian supported the sofa with one hand, propped himself up, hooked her neck, and kissed her.

Her kiss is different from her presumptuousness, she gently sips and licks softly, the kiss is careful and gentle.

It seems that it is still the same as when it was deeply in love many years ago.

Shi Yi's breathing was heavy, and there seemed to be a severe pain somewhere in his body.He obviously doesn't love her anymore, and obviously doesn't want her anymore, so why can he still pretend to be so affectionate to deceive her?

Don't be softhearted.She should know that her methods of deceiving people have always been so clever.

She avoided Fu Sitian's kiss, slid down, kissed Fu Sitian's chin, pulled Fu Sitian's button, and stuck into it.

Fu Sitian's eyes dimmed, and his body fell weakly.

She rubbed one hand into the hair behind Shi Yi's head, and covered her eyes with the other hand, tensing her body, letting Shi Yi bite her lip to bear it.

The moonlight shone coldly on them, Shi Yi tore off her clothes, and kissed her down.Kissed her neck, kissed her birthmark, inadvertently, her lips touched a slightly convex skin.

She looked up slightly reflexively.

Under the faint moonlight, a small scar with a round hole of more than one centimeter lay quietly on the inside of Fu Sitian's right rib.There are two similar small scars on the side of the lower ribs and on the belly and eyes.The color is neither dark nor ugly, but Fu Sitian is too white, and these three small scars are like cracked marks on the white jade - dazzling and eye-catching.

Shi Yi was stunned on the spot.The past flashed in her mind like a slideshow. She saw Fu Sitian laying down with his face covered, emaciated and helpless, and a heart-pounding pain suddenly hit her limbs and bones.

Don't you have the guts to come?

Her baby, have you no guts yet?

She could hardly breathe, and tears flowed from her eyes, flowing down uncontrollably.

She bit her lower lip tightly and retreated from the sofa without crying.

Fu Sitian noticed that Shi Yi hadn't moved for a long time, moved his hand away, and murmured, "Shi Yi?"

Shi Yi didn't answer her, walked into the bathroom with bare feet and his back to her.

Fu Sitian looked at her disappearing back in astonishment, sat up, not knowing what happened.

In the bathroom, Shi Yi leaned his back against the door panel, squatted down exhausted, raised his head, and burst into tears in silence.

What the hell is she doing?What exactly does Fu Sitian want from her?

"Shi Yi, what's wrong with you? Are you uncomfortable?" Fu Sitian asked her softly outside the door, every tone was the rhythm of her heart.

Shi Yi can no longer deceive himself.

Even if his self-esteem didn't allow it, even if he vilified and slandered Fu Sitian thousands of times in his heart, even if he told himself "it's not worth it" countless times, and hypnotized himself countless times "I don't like her anymore".

She still likes Fu Sitian, and will still be moved by her.

Still feel sorry for her.

From before until now, always has been.There was nothing she could do about her.

She knew it was unseemly, irrational, prideless, spineless to ask.

But she heard herself and asked.

She asked her: "Jiang Cunxi, have you... have you ever regretted breaking up with me?"

Even if it's just a little bit.

If she was willing to persevere for a little longer, even if it was only half a year, they would obviously be able to live well after going through that difficult period and persevering until now.

The blood on Fu Sitian's face faded in an instant. "Jiang Cunxi", Shi Yi's mocking words from that year still seemed to be still in his ears, "Bad genes will indeed be inherited."

Those years of wind, frost, rain, snow, misery and desolation seemed to engulf her again with the name "Jiang Cunxi", gnawing at her flesh and blood.

How she got here, only she knows.That is not the life her Shi Yi and her baby should suffer.

"No." She stroked the door panel with her hand and said in a low voice.

Shi Yi's uncontrollable tears rolled down again.

She was so ridiculously unwilling.

She said: "Jiang Cunxi, don't you know that some people are only suitable to be kept in memory?"

Maybe from the very beginning, she shouldn't let Fu Sitian get close to her, she shouldn't get close to Fu Sitian, she shouldn't think that Fu Sitian's love will be like the birthmark she reflected in her eyes and engraved on her heart. Change.

Fu Sitian's whole body was in convulsions of pain, and the gallbladder no longer existed, as if it was throbbing again.

She held onto the door frame, moved her throat, and opened her mouth several times before she could speak out smoothly, "I'm sorry..."

Shi Yi took a deep breath, stopped crying, and said disheartenedly, "How did you get here?"

"Come here by car."

"Can you go back by yourself?"

Fu Sitian said, "Yes."

Shi Yi stopped talking.

She sat by the door, looking at the dark void, listening quietly, listening to the footsteps sounded, disappeared, sounded again, disappeared again, and then the door was opened and the door was closed.

Everything returned to silence again.

Just like her reunion with Fu Sitian.

Shi Yi thought, forget it.Let Fu Sitian go.

In those few years, she laughed for her, cried for her, went through the wind and rain for her, washed her hands and made soup for her, endured the pain for her, and gave everything she could for her.

She actually loved her seriously.

Now, it's just that he seriously doesn't love her anymore.

Think of it as a dream of Huang Liang, and what I relive is an old dream that I refuse to let go of.

Now, after waking up from the dream, everything can return to calm.

Anyway, after so many years, without Fu Sitian, she would have come here too.

Isn't it the true meaning of life to be flat, without sadness or joy?