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Zhang Lulu stopped Fu Sitian when get out of class was over. At that time, Fu Sitian was carrying his schoolbag and was talking and laughing with Shi Yi to go outside the classroom together. Zhang Lulu suddenly called out loudly: "Sitian!"

Fu Sitian stopped reflexively, turned around to look, and saw Zhang Lulu's classmates who were carrying schoolbags and squeezed through the aisle quickly moving towards her.

"Do you have time? I...I want to talk to you." She asked panting with a bad complexion.

Fu Sitian was slightly stunned: "Now?"

Zhang Lulu nodded.

Fu Sitian looked at Shi Yi subconsciously.

Shi Yi saw the inquiry in her eyes, his eyes lingered on Zhang Lulu for two seconds, and said calmly, "I'll wait for you in the study room."

Fu Sitian thought that it wouldn't be long, so he agreed: "Okay, we'll go find you after we finish talking." As she spoke, she remembered something, put down her schoolbag, opened the zipper, and took out two wafers and a can from inside. Xiao Wangzai handed it to Shi Yi: "If you are hungry, eat some first."

Shi Yi was startled, the corners of his lips raised almost imperceptibly, and without saying anything, he reached out to take it, gave Zhang Lulu a slight nod, turned and left.

Fu Sitian watched her back.

Zhang Lulu said with emotion: "You and Shi Yi have a very good relationship."

This is a declarative sentence, and there is no emotion. Fu Sitian suppressed his smile and looked nervously at Zhang Lulu's expression.

Zhang Lulu's expression didn't show anything: "It's pretty good." Her tone was calm, but it seemed to be a sincere compliment.

Fu Sitian couldn't figure out what she meant for a while, so he just smiled and didn't respond much.She vaguely felt that Zhang Lulu seemed to have changed, her whole person had a calm aura, completely different from her former vigorous appearance.

Zhang Lulu changed the subject: "Is the air conditioner turned off? It's so boring. Let's go upstairs to the rooftop to chat, okay?"

Fu Sitian had no objection.

There is a small multifunctional meeting room on the sixth floor. Outside the meeting room is an abandoned open-air terrace. Except for classes, few people come up to it.

The gorgeous sunset dyed half of the sky red, and the heat on the ground was still hot, with bursts of scorching heat bubbling away.Zhang Lulu put his hands on the iron railings of the roof, looked at the Shenyuan Bridge where the traffic was constantly flowing in the distance, frowned, and said nothing.

Fu Sitian stood beside her, silently accompanying her.

In fact, since they were divided into dormitories, it had been a long time since they had contacted each other individually.She couldn't think that Zhang Lulu would have any special matter to talk to her alone like this, but looking at Zhang Lulu's silent profile, she had a bad premonition in her heart.

Amidst the beating of her heart, Zhang Lulu said, "What do you think... what will happen if you jump from here?"

Fu Sitian turned pale with shock: "Lulu?!" She quickly reached out and grabbed Zhang Lulu's wrist, as if she was afraid that she would really jump in the next second, and Zhang Lulu would feel pain because of her strength.

Zhang Lulu was held by her, examined her nervous expression, but smiled slowly: "I'm lying to you. I just asked that casually."

Fu Sitian couldn't laugh, but still held her hand tightly, frowning tightly, and said in a rare low tone: "This joke is not funny at all."

Zhang Lulu put away his smile, pursed his lips, stared at her for a few seconds, and then said softly: "Is it time to hand in the monthly psychological report again?"

They used to be roommates, and she knew the tasks of the psychological committee members and the time to hand in the monthly psychological report at the end of each month.

"If I tell you that I'm in a bad mood recently, will you write it in the monthly report?"

Fu Sitian's throat felt dry.She doesn't have to write it, but if she still wants to say something terrible like "jumping off a building", she... doesn't know.

She clenched her knuckles and comforted Zhang Lulu with difficulty: "If you don't want me to write, I won't write."

But Zhang Lulu said: "Then if I want you to write, can you just write?" Her dark eyes stared at Fu Sitian unblinkingly, her eyes were obscure, as if she was struggling or begging.

Fu Sitian was inexplicably heavy breathing and uneasy. She intuitively felt that danger was approaching.

But she couldn't refuse, and she shouldn't.Reporting the students who have problems and helping them is the most important duty of the psychological committee.This was not an excuse for her to report to Yang Yue, it was the psychological committee member and herself, her true original intention.

She nodded heavily.

Zhang Lulu stared at her, and suddenly smiled wryly: "You are really stupid sometimes. But thank you."

She turned her head, looked at the golden sea level in the distance, and said, "I was sexually harassed."

"The other party is Chen Hong, my graduation thesis advisor. If nothing else happens, he will still be my postgraduate advisor."

She spoke plainly, but Fu Sitian was horrified.She blinked quickly, her throat seemed to be blocked by something, she couldn't make a sound, she didn't know what to say or what to do to react without being abrupt, so she could only hold her wrist tightly to show comfort.

Zhang Lulu didn't seem to care about Fu Sitian's expression and reaction, she didn't break away from Fu Sitian's hand, and didn't look back at her, she just continued talking on her own.

"I told you before that my parents are both teachers. One is a junior high school teacher and the other is a high school teacher. They have taught and educated people all their lives, and they are respected by others. They have peaches and plums all over the world. So I have a dream since I was a child. I want to be like them. Be a teacher. They also agree with it. They helped me plan a long time ago. First, I will go to a good university, and then I will keep my postgraduate study, study for a doctorate, and stay in school. I only want to take such a path in my life. But you know , After the diversion, my grades are not top-notch. Every time I take the exam, I am at the bottom of the crane. The insurance research must have nothing to do with me. I am afraid that I will not be admitted to a school that is better than Shenda. I don’t want to go to a school that is worse than Shenda. , I just saw that Chen Hong’s research group was recruiting, so I signed up. I thought that I would contact my supervisor in advance and join the group in advance, so that I might be able to maximize my advantages. Unexpectedly, Chen Hong hinted to me soon after that It's not as difficult as I think, he has a way, it depends on whether I can show it."

Chen Hong's so-called "expression" means accepting his sexual harassment, and even... having sex with him.Zhang Lulu couldn't do it, and couldn't bear the disturbance.

She wanted to change her tutor, but Chen Hong didn't allow it. If he didn't allow it, no teacher would accept her additionally.She can only be forced to continue to follow him.

Chen Hong intensified, harassing her on WeChat from time to time, touching her when they were alone, threatening and luring her.

That time when he bumped into Fu Sitian in the office aisle, it was Chen Hong who went crazy. He hugged her suddenly in the office and wanted to kiss her. Zhang Lulu was frightened and disgusted, so he pushed him away and rushed out the door.

That night, Chen Hong came to her again as if nothing had happened.Zhang Lulu asked him if he wasn't afraid of her shouting, calling the police, or reporting.

Chen Hong said: "I just like you, I want to love you, to be close to you, and I won't let you suffer, so why bother. I don't like you when you make trouble, don't you?"

He relied on the fact that girls cared about fame and future, so he was confident.Zhang Lulu was sure that she was not the only victim, she was just the epitome of many schoolgirls who swallowed their anger.

"But now, I can't take it anymore. Si Tian, ​​you know? When I see the hair on a man's hand now, I can't help but feel nauseous. My boyfriend hugs me from behind, and I can't see him When he lowered his head and approached me, I would tremble unconsciously. When I thought that I would stay under him until the next semester, or even do research with such a person for three years, I felt that the road ahead was dark. I was too Scared. I started to have anxiety, I started having insomnia, sleepless nights, my hair was falling out, but I couldn’t tell anyone.”

"Yesterday Chen Hong touched me again. I cried all the way back home. I cried for a long time and told my parents that I didn't want to read anymore."

"My mother couldn't persuade me, and she cried too. She didn't know why I was crying, but she actually said, it's okay, if you don't read it, don't read it, and if you are really unhappy, go home. Mom and Dad are your eternal backing."

"I hung up the phone and started to pack my luggage, but as I packed it, I became more and more sad and angry. Why, why? If it was me who left, I would be the one who was destroyed. He is still fine. Why, I did nothing wrong, I am a victim."

Her accusation was stained with crying, grinding Fu Sitian's eardrums like stones, Fu Sitian felt chest tightness, and didn't know how to comfort her to make her feel better.

She could only caress the back of her neck clumsily, and comfort her from the bottom of her heart: "It's not your fault, it's not your fault..." This world is so strange sometimes, the people who do bad things are justified, but the victims are instead... Be frightened, and even worry about being hurt by others' sarcastic remarks and gossip afterwards.

"So I figured it out. It's not my fault. I'm having a hard time, and he shouldn't think about it either." She gritted her teeth and said, holding the hand holding the balcony railing, the veins on her arm were bulging.

Just as Fu Sitian was about to answer the call, the phone in his pocket rang.

She took it out, and the caller ID was Shi Yi.

Zhang Lulu also saw it: "I should be urging you to go back." She glanced at the sky: "That's right, it's getting dark, let's go down."

Fu Sitian picked it up, and Shi Yi asked, "Are you okay?"

Shi Yi should be worried about her.Fu Sitian said softly, "Well, let's go downstairs now."

Shi Yi felt relieved: "Okay."

"Let's go." Seeing that Fu Sitian hung up the phone, Zhang Lulu turned around and walked up the stairs.

Fu Sitian followed, grabbed her schoolbag belt, and continued what he hadn't said just now: "Lu Lu, don't be impulsive, don't do stupid things."

Zhang Lulu gritted his teeth, the masseter muscles in his cheeks bulged, and said, "I'm not impulsive. I want him to be punished as he should be."

"what are you going to do?"

Zhang Lulu said: "I want to write a letter to the principal's mailbox and report him with my real name."

Fu Sitian opened his eyes wide, shocked by her courage.Her lips were murmured, unable to form the correct words.Encourage her?She thought about it, but she also had a lot of worries and worries. One can imagine how difficult it is for a gnat to shake a big tree.She was afraid that Zhang Lulu would suffer more injuries in the process.

She asked her solemnly: "Do you think about it?"

Zhang Lulu nodded: "I've been thinking about it for too long." After a pause, she fixed her eyes on Fu Sitian and asked, "What about you?"

"Will you report it for me?"