throbbing for you

Shi Yi was more or less aware of Fu Sitian's sullenness. She thought Fu Sitian was still worried about whether Fang Ruohua had doubts about them, so she wanted her to divert her attention and relax.After tidying up the kitchen, she invited Fu Sitian to watch a movie in the audio-visual room.

Fu Sitian didn't want to spoil the fun, so he agreed absent-mindedly.

The movie is a Hong Kong film that has been released for a long time, "Chunjiao and Zhiming".Before Fu Sitian returned to Ningcheng, the two had just watched the first part of the series "Zhiming and Chunjiao". After watching it, they both liked it, so they agreed to watch the next one together when Fu Sitian came back. .

The plot of the second part seems no more soothing and refreshing than the first one. Adult fairy tales have entered real life and fell into clichés, and the passionate and charming love has inevitably become dull and boring.Shi Yi was a little distracted, and Fu Sitian was not paying attention.

She is still brewing courage.

After a long time, she finally clenched her fist and said in a low voice, "Shi Yi..."

Shi Yi casually tilted his head: "Huh?"

When Fu Sitian saw her bright and clear eyes, his throat choked. "I..." She licked her lips, but still couldn't speak, and changed the subject abruptly: "Do you think it looks good?"

Shi Yi was surprised: "A movie?"

Fu Sitian answered her softly: "En."

Shi Yi looked back at the screen. On the screen, the movie was playing until Chunjiao sang solo in the KTV after she and Zhiming quarreled: "A lover's heart should be innocent, why do you keep crying at night..."

She replied, "It's fine."

After the words fell, Chunjiao sang "Don't ask me who I am, please fall in love with me...", she was too sad to continue singing.In that moment of silence, Shi Yi heard that the breathing around him seemed a little rough.

She looked at Fu Sitian in surprise, and through the beating light and shadow, she suddenly found that Fu Sitian was biting his lower lip tightly, and there was a shining water in his eyes.

"What's the matter?" Her body moved faster than her consciousness, and she put her arms around Fu Sitian's shoulders.

Fu Sitian leaned on her warm body and listened to her soft voice, his heart was increasingly surrounded by indescribable sadness and guilt.In fact, the plot has nothing to do with it at all, but when she listened to this song, the line "Don't ask me who I am" was suddenly hit.

She raised her head and sniffed vigorously, trying to pretend to laugh easily, but failed.

She said hoarsely: "It's okay, I... I was just brought in suddenly. She sang so sadly."

Shi Yi asked helplessly and distressedly: "Don't Ask Me Who"? So...

..." Before she finished speaking, she seemed to have caught something in an instant.

But she's not sure.

Fu Sitian blinked his eyes and was still waiting for her next words.

Shi Yi sighed and laughed, and scratched her nose: "I have bad eyesight, and I can always pick movies that make you unhappy to watch."

Fu Sitian quickly defended her: "No, it's not about the movie."

Shi Yi said, "It's my problem."

Fu Sitian said, "No."

"That is?"

"It's my own problem." She spoke with difficulty. Looking at Shi Yi's gentle face, she made up her mind for the thousand and first time, and opened her mouth to speak, but Shi Yi acted as if she couldn't bear to embarrass her. She spoke one step at a time: "That movie made you unhappy, we won't watch it."

She leaned closer to her face, kissed lightly under the imprint of red lips, and said with a faint smile: "Let's do something to make you happy."

Fu Sitian's throat moved, and he blinked quickly, not knowing how to react.Her whole body seemed to be torn into two halves, one half was shamefully grateful to have another breath, and the other half was soberly screaming, and fell into the sea of ​​darkness.

Shi Yi thought her silence was shyness, so he kissed her again, and the kiss became deeper and deeper, and gradually changed to propping up one leg, kneeling and pressing Fu Sitian against the sofa...

When another wave hit, the movie ended, and a sentimental female voice played in the ending song again: "Don't ask me who I am, please fall in love with me, no one can understand my sincerity..."

Fu Sitian hugged Shi Yi, trembling and sobbing: "Shi Yi... who am I? I..." Who could I be?Why can't I choose who I am?

Why can't she be one of the hundreds of millions of ordinary people in this world.

Why, she has this terrible, unwilling mood again.She didn't want to think like this, nor would she allow herself to think like that.She doesn't want to be a complaining, ugly-faced person.She gritted her teeth hard, trying to swallow all the sobs.

Shi Yi kissed her tears, feeling so distressed that his throat became dry.

She was sure she knew why she had been sad all night.

Shi Yi heard her mother's questions and her answers.Shi Yi thought, she really doesn't like being asked about the past, about her family...

She whispered in her ear: "It's you."

"It's me, Shi Yi's present and future."

"There is no past, so the past is not important."

She hoped that Fu Sitian could understand.

But the better she was, the more guilty and greedy Fu Sitian felt.Shi Yi doesn't know that sometimes the past is not just the past, it also affects the future.

Shi Yi lay down on his side, hugged her, and huddled with her on the narrow sofa.Like an ordinary communication after being intimate on weekdays, she continued: "Si Tian, ​​if my mother's arrival today has caused you pressure, I apologize to you."

"No, Auntie is very nice." Fu Sitian denied in a hoarse voice.

Shi Yi was noncommittal, but said: "Parents, we give them time, and we also give us time. It's okay, don't think too much, just be ourselves."

"Many things that seem unsolvable now will naturally be solved when we are more mature and independent. All we need is time, courage and patience. We will have a good future."

Her voice was calm, but there was a convincing certainty.

Fu Sitian was bewitched by her and comforted by her, like a drowning man grasping at the last straw.She paralyzes herself, maybe wait a little longer, when they all grow up a bit, when they all graduate, work, and be able to control their own lives, these pasts will also become irrelevant pasts.I'll tell Shi Yi when the time comes, will Shi Yi not be so hard to accept.

There are still two years before graduation, and four years before Fu Jianze is released from prison.There is still time.She will work hard to give Shi Yi a good future.

"Do you believe me?" Shi Yi looked into her eyes.

Fu Sitian trembled his long eyelashes and nodded silently.

Shi Yi rubbed her forehead hair, stretched his eyebrows, leaned up to kiss her again, snatched away her will, and started a new round of tenderness.

A week later, the trip that had been postponed due to the innovation and entrepreneurship competition was put on the agenda again.Following Shi Yi, Fu Sitian took a plane for the first time, and experienced the feeling of being [-] feet above the ground and looking at the clear sky for the first time.

It is a more novel experience than riding a train.But with Shi Yi by her side, she wasn't timid at all, and even the airsickness became a bit wonderful.

Shi Yi's considerate care and worried eyes are so intoxicating.

On the afternoon of the day they arrived in the first city, because of Fu Sitian's airsickness, the two of them didn't go out and slept comfortably in the hotel all afternoon.In the evening, Fu Sitian repeatedly stated that he was fine, and Shi Yi agreed to go around the ancient street near the hotel.

The ancient street is along a long river, with white walls and black tiles, patchwork, the end of the street can't be seen from the street, and there are characteristic shops with charming lights and unique decorations along the street.Fu Sitian and Shi Yi walked hand in hand on the bluestone road, listening to the gurgling sound of scull boats piercing the water, watching tourists in various clothes shuttle back and forth, their long hair brushed by the breeze by the river, and faint Pingtan was sent.

Passing by another elegant and beautiful cheongsam shop, Shi Yi stopped, and was about to ask Fu Sitian if he wanted to go in and have a look, when a little flower seller wearing a cheongsam and carrying a basket of flowers suddenly stopped Fu Sitian.

"Miss, do you want to buy a bouquet of flowers for the young lady next to you?"

Fu Sitian looked at her and was stunned. Before he could refuse, the other party showed a bright smile, handed over a lily, and tilted his head. "Buy one as a gift for Miss Sister, Miss Sister, you are so beautiful."

She bent her thumbs tentatively and smiled.

Fu Sitian's eyes lit up with a surprised expression.

The little girl knew there was something going on, and said softly, "You two are so well matched."

The blessings and kindness of strangers make people very happy.The corners of Fu Sitian's lips curled up. Seeing her happy, Shi Yi's eyes softened, and he took out his phone to scan the QR code. "How much?" she asked the little girl.

The little girl happily reported the number, but before Shi Yi paid, Fu Sitian covered Shi Yi's camera and said, "I'll buy it for you."

The little girl looked at the two with a smile, handed the lily to Shi Yi, and smiled knowingly.

After the little girl left, Shi Yi handed the lily to Fu Sitian, and asked strangely, "Does it make any difference who buys it?"

Fu Sitian subconsciously took the flowers, smiled and refused to say anything.

Shi Yi asked forcefully with his eyes: "Huh?"

Fu Sitian had no choice but to answer frankly: "Generally, when selling flowers on the street like this, don't they all find boys to buy for girlfriends? So when she first came to me, did I compare..." There was a sly smile in her tone, "Gong "This word, but I still feel guilty and embarrassed to say it.

Shi Yi sneered softly: "She thinks you are easy to deceive."

"..." Fu Sitian blinked his eyes, it made sense.She covered her face and quibbled, "It's not."

The green waves are dull, the blue tiles and white walls, and the upturned cornices, she stands by the river bank, the pear dimples are clear and shallow, the people are more delicate than the flowers, and the water is beautiful and lively, as if blending with the charming night in the south of the Yangtze River.There was a lot of people coming and going, but Shi Yi felt that she was the only one left in his eyes.She couldn't help but took a picture of this picture scroll with the mobile phone she was holding.

Fu Sitian didn't notice anything, she put down her hand, looked at Shi Yi, and heard Shi Yi look at her firmly and say, "What you say doesn't matter."

Fu Sitian showed a puzzled look.

Shi Yi hooked his lips, leaned close to her and said, "Buy two cheongsams, and we'll go back. We'll find out when we go back." She looked up at her like that, so charming, she thought about how she stood in cheongsam , I have no other thoughts.

Just want to go back to the hotel.Watch her wear it, then watch her take it off.

Fu Sitian blushed thoroughly.

Young life seems to have endless enthusiasm and energy. In eight days, they moved from city to city in the south of the Yangtze River, shuttled between modern cities and ancient towns and water towns, walked streets and alleys, visited exhibitions, visited museums, climbed high and watched Going far, rafting and mooring at night, getting frustrated together when the navigation took the wrong way at night, getting confused when getting on the bus without changing change, having fun shopping in the scenic spots from one stop to another, in one big picture after another Have fun in bed.

Those were the most memorable eight days in Fu Sitian's 20 years of life.

On the last day, they sent postcards to friends at the post station in the water town. Fu Sitian wrote, and Shi Yi helped to post stamps and stamp them, and vice versa.The courier station provides forwarding service, and the time can be selected immediately, or one year later, two years later, five years later, and up to ten years later.

Fu Sitian suggested whether to write to the other party ten years later.

Shi Yi felt in his heart that it was still unknown whether the store would be around ten years later.But looking at Fu Sitian's shining eyes, she still indulged her innocence with her, and readily agreed.

The two sat side by side, writing on the postcard seriously.

Shi Yi thought he was writing very fast, but Fu Sitian wrote even faster, stamping and affixing the stamp within two strokes.It was rare for her to be curious to see what she wrote, but Fu Sitian quickly covered the postcard and refused to show it to her, "Now I don't feel surprised after reading it."

Shi Yi glanced at her with a half-smile, didn't say anything, but moved half a body away to stamp, and didn't show her.

Seeing her rare childish appearance, Fu Sitian laughed deeply.

While queuing up to post the postcards that were about to be mailed, Chen Xizhu sent a text message and asked Fu Sitian, "Where have you been playing? Woooooo, Fanlu was temporarily summoned home by her father, I don't know Will we have a chance to meet again before she goes abroad?"

She said: "I made an agreement with her yesterday. If we haven't broken up by the senior year, I will try to get a full scholarship to study with her. If I can't get it, I will take a loan. Now I calm down and think about it. Ah, Am I crazy!"

Fu Sitian laughed unconsciously after watching it.

Shi Yi asked her with his eyes.

Fu Sitian showed her the text message and praised sincerely: "They are so determined and powerful."

Shi Yi looked at her lightly.

Fu Sitian thought for a while, and said with a smile: "We will work hard, and we won't lose to them."

Only then did Shi Yi hook his lips, revealing a satisfied smile.

"Ah."