Waking up like a dream

"The one surnamed Tang, are you right? Are you sick and confused or have you watched too many romantic dramas?" Li Dongjin broke away from Tang Sheng and moved a few steps away from him.

He was a little moved, after all, he was someone he liked once, but it's not that he forgot the pain after the scar healed, in other words, he couldn't trust Tang Sheng.

"I'm not confused. I'm serious. I've been looking for you for three years. Since you left, I haven't been in touch with Shen Ting. Don't think too much about it. I'm not forcing you to do anything, but that guy Neo really No, if you are with him, you might as well be with me!"

Tang Sheng was a little dazed. He said this tearfully for a long time, and he was moved. He didn't expect Li Dongjin to be unmoved.

"If you don't want to talk about it, then I will go in person, and I have to ask him face to face, what is his plan with you!"

He pulled Tang Sheng back, "I think it's better for the two of us to be clear. First, we didn't have any relationship before, and it's even less likely that we have any relationship now. Second, is it none of my business that you've been looking for me for a few years? You don't care at all. You shouldn't be looking for me. You don't like me, I don't like you, we both think each other is disgusting, so don't look for each other anymore, okay?"

Hearing what he said, Li Dongjin guessed that he had misunderstood the relationship between Neo and himself, and he didn't know who he listened to, but there was no need to explain it to him, so as not to give him a reason to continue pestering.

"I really like you, why don't you believe me? I was an asshole for those things before, but there was indeed a misunderstanding at that time!" Tang Sheng felt that he was really speechless, "I admit my mistake, and I will change it in the future. .Can you give me a chance, I am really sincere to you, then how can you prove it, I will do it. "

Li Dongjin said: "You don't need to prove it to me, it's not necessary."

Tang Sheng didn't speak any more, but went to hold his hand silently, rubbed his palm lightly with his fingertips, and after a long time, he sighed: "It's not necessary, why are your palms sweating?"

"It's too hot." Li Dongjin withdrew his hand, his ears were blushing, but his face was not moved.

"There is an air conditioner in the room." Tang Sheng locked his eyes on him, "You can't let me go, and I can't let you go, isn't it good to be together?"

Without even thinking about it, Li Dongjin blurted out: "Not good."

You can never wake up a person who is pretending to be asleep. At this time, Tang Sheng can only use this sentence to comfort himself. No amount of confession is useless. The lack of the most basic trust between them is caused by himself. Yes, he was so full of heart that he couldn't speak, Tang Sheng only asked Li Dongjin: "Are you telling the truth?"

It's not, of course not.

Li Dongjin kept silent.

Love is a very tenacious thing, two hearts can make it grow continuously, but only one heart will not die.

If we ask ourselves, when we give wishful thinking, even if there is no gain, even if we are deceived, we still unconsciously want to give a little preference to the person in our heart.

I want to forgive him, because he dare not mention it from the bottom of my heart; I can't forgive him, because I am not willing to be trampled on.

Some people say that only the body is the most upright. Of course, the body doesn't think too much, but the heart does.

At this moment, Li Dongjin suddenly felt that he was very pathetic, no matter which answer he chose, his heart would be broken.

He also really wanted to rush over to hug Tang Sheng, express his grievances in a warm embrace, and ask the other party to promise that there will never be anyone better than him, and then put aside the past and start over.

But he can't, he doesn't have the courage to gamble again, he is the one who lost once.

Li Dongjin felt a little sad, why was he the only one who had to face such a dilemma in love?

Tang Sheng was always smarter than Li Dongjin, he could see Li Dongjin's wavering, "Don't back down! Me too, and you too. Unless you never loved me."

"Tang Sheng, don't go too far!" Li Dongjin turned his face, squeezed his eyes tightly, his expression was a little distorted, and tried his best to suppress the tears that were about to be forced, "I didn't plan to back down, I wanted to wait for you to advance and retreat, but you This sentence came too late! If you said these things that night... At the latest, that night, I wouldn't blame you, and I would forgive you immediately without asking... But not now."

Yes, it's too late, not now.

Even after Tang Sheng punched him, in the car on the top of the mountain, in the last phone call three years ago, he could hear such a confession, he would agree desperately.But it's different now. The longer he spends with Neo, the more he seems to understand what kind of image he was in the eyes of Tang Sheng back then.

No, I can't promise him, I can't forgive him, Li Dongjin thought, if he repeats the same mistakes easily, then what is the harm he has suffered?

Calm down, maybe it's not a pity to lose him, maybe he still intends to lie to you.

Thinking of this, Li Dongjin straightened his breathing, "Shen Ping is now a first-line singer, is it convenient for you to run after him? Or is it that he didn't agree to you at all? You can guess, if he also said that he likes you, how can he not?" What can happen to me. You don't need to rush to explain, it doesn't matter to me what happens between you. I just want to ask you, every time you used to hype me, you were the one behind the scenes, right? You want to make him popular, and Afraid that others will say that he relies on his background like me? You lied to me about many things, and you also lost your last chance to hide it from me, so we have no chance."

"You—you believe me, there were some things that I didn't even know about myself." The words that came out were a little weak, but Tang Sheng couldn't find any strong testimony, "The situation at that time was very complicated, I was jealous, I thought you and Chu Yufeng were a couple, and later I found out that I didn’t really love Shen Ting, but I just happened to listen to his songs and felt it, at most, I was chasing stars.”

"It turns out that you are so serious about chasing stars." Li Dongjin suddenly smiled sadly, "I'm afraid you are also jealous now? Then I might as well tell you that Neo and I don't have the relationship you think, I don't know you Asked someone, but obviously you didn't get the truth. He's my brother, half blood, so you can give up this competitive posture, and don't be jealous that he won you."

Neo is actually Lee Dong Jin's older brother? !

This news was like a firework, which exploded in Tang Sheng's mind, and he was so surprised that he couldn't control himself for a while.

"So, you don't have a boyfriend? Then, I take back what I said earlier. I won't allow you to find someone better. Come back with me!"

Alas, he is so stupid, how could he be fooled by that guy Neo?Because they are not of mixed race, do you think they might be family members?So simply believe it without checking it, what a mistake!

"Listen to me." Li Dongjin's tone was steady, as if he was telling someone else's story, "I am an illegitimate child, do you understand what an illegitimate child is? It means that the parents don't want anyone, but they are worried about being scolded as immoral after abandoning them." That kind of situation. When I was young, I really wanted to run away from home, and I happened to meet Chu Yufeng, so I became an artist. Don’t look at me with that kind of eyes, my father will not abuse me, and my living conditions have always been good. I don't think he's doing a good job except for his father."

"My parents also passed away when I was a child, I can understand your feelings." Tang Sheng really didn't know that Li Dongjin had such a story, at least he never felt that Li Dongjin was vulnerable.

"You don't have to pity me, really." Li Dongjin was telling the truth. If he needed others to pity him, then he would not be like this a long time ago. "I am a very bad and selfish person. Haven't you seen it before? I will find fun for myself, whether it is spending money to enjoy it, or swearing at others when I am unhappy, in short, I am very good at transferring my pain to others."

"No, you don't count. Everyone will be like this, it's nature, but you never control it." Tang Sheng felt that he wasn't all making excuses for Li Dongjin, but wasn't it true that all people were like this?Who doesn't want to spend the money, and who wants to endure the anger?The previous Li Dongjin was disgusting because he magnified the shortcomings of human nature, exposed naked/naked/naked, and did not cover up.

Li Dongjin smiled and shook his head, "You can't do whatever you want, I know this now, but what I want to say is not this. If you want to say that liking Shen Ping is an illusion, then I like you probably is also an illusion. You know me too I didn't know how to restrain myself at all before, so I couldn't stay with anyone around me, and then... Then you came, in fact, you can guess it if I don't tell you, I've grown up so much, people around me are either afraid of me or annoying me, you Well, unlike them, you seem to be the only real person."

Tang Sheng felt a little guilty, it turned out to be like this, it turned out that he was the only person who walked into his lonely world, it's a pity that he was able to be by his side for so long, and it was all because of him to get to know Shen Ping.

"In the beginning, I also felt unwilling. Why would an unknown little singer like Shen Ting be worthy of your devotion? Later on, the more I was jealous, the more I wanted it." Li Dongjin's mouth curled into a self-deprecating smile, "It's just that I thought things were very simple at that time. I always believed what you said. You said that your brother wanted to drive you out. Although my family didn't say to drive me out, I did feel very similar to you. I thought Very similar. If you think that your liking Shen Ting is an illusion, then maybe I am too."

"No, it's not!" Tang Sheng was stunned, regretting that he should have lied to him like that, let alone imagine how he felt when he knew the truth about his identity, "You are different from Shen Ting, I have never started with him, but Me and you, the two of us did indeed have feelings! It is an illusion if there is no fact, since there is a fact between us, can we still ignore it? "

Li Dongjin said: "If the facts cannot be ignored, then you lied to me, and I should not forgive you."

Tang Sheng was rendered speechless by the refutation.

"Let's stop here, so that we can get along with each other. If we have to calculate one by one, I'm afraid it won't be clear." Li Dongjin brushed away the hand in front of him, turned and left.

Just when Tang Sheng wanted to stop him, there were a few knocks on the door.

Li Dongjin opened the door, "Daisy? What are you doing here?"