sleeping formula

【18】

Yinshi stayed at Tufang's house for another night, but the next day, before Tufang woke up, he left a note and left early.After getting on the subway, one stop after another, unknowingly sat at the end of the line, and finally switched to another line, completely like wandering, shuttling through the crowds of people on the subway.

Think back carefully, Yin Shi.he said to himself.Are you missing any important clues?

Ginpachi, who has been missing for so many years and chose to appear this year, what happened in the past?If Ginpachi meets him, he will simply give him the mobile hard drive, and it is impossible to explain what the motive behind it is.In the end, I still didn't understand the man's thoughts. Although Ginpachi was right, they were indeed alike, but Ginpachi understood his own thinking, and he still couldn't see through Ginpachi, which showed that Ginpachi was still a bit inferior one chip.

For Yinshi, there was nothing to be reconciled to, because that was not his path in the first place.Just like the brother competition witnessed by his father many years ago, he is more eager to see the pure and serious "beauty" in the competition process than to win the final victory.

"Watch the way, uncle!"

Yinshi took a closer look, only to realize that he accidentally knocked down a blond boy in a daze.Angrily reprimanding Yinshi's other boy at the side, Jinhui hurriedly helped up the little guy who was knocked dizzy with nervousness.

"Brother, are you okay?"

"It's okay, it's okay." The blond boy who was knocked to the ground rubbed the hair of another boy, "Xiao Jin is really too, don't be so cruel to others casually."

"No, your brother will be angry because I didn't bump into you, right?" Gintoki said apologetically, "Sorry, are you still dizzy?"

"I'm really fine, uncle." The boy laughed. "Ah, my glasses!"

"Stupid brother, here it is!"

Not long after, the child's parents showed up.It seems that these two little guys walked randomly in the crowded subway by themselves, which made their parents anxious to find no one.Fortunately, Yinshi accidentally bumped into the elder brother among the little ones and stayed there for a while, so the parents also had a chance to find the two little ones in this way.Gintoki waved to the family, barely holding up a smile that wasn't too bad.

"Goodbye uncle who walks without looking at the road!"

The little guy who was a bit fierce to people was hit on the head by his father, and finally disappeared into the vast crowd.Seeing how much the little guy was protecting his brother, he couldn't help but ask himself: What about you?What do you think of Ginpachi?

Yinshi took out his vibrating mobile phone, it was the earthworker calling.

"Did you go back? ’ the earth side asked.The voice sounded like he had just woken up, and when he looked at his watch, it was half past eight in the morning.

"Not yet. Today is a special day. I'm going to buy some flowers and fruits later, and go to my parents' place to offer some incense." Yinshi said, "Did you just wake up?"

"...Yes, I called you first when I saw the note you left. ’ Hijikata said, ‘Thank you yesterday, I’m much calmer now. 』

"Really? That's good." Yinshi listened to the phone and closed his eyes gently, "I have been tossing around here to take care of you for a long time, and I have to go out early today. If you still can't hear you say that, I could literally be running myself into a wall right now."

On the other end of the phone, Tufang smiled unnaturally, it sounded like he was holding back his laughter.

"Don't act like you're my mother or me, go get your flowers. ”Tufang laughed, “If you miss work tomorrow because you didn’t have a good rest today, I will kick down the door of your house mercilessly. 』

"You really know what I'm planning to do?" Gintoki turned around and joked with Hijikata, "Ah, you don't know where I live, so I can still skip work dignifiedly, right?"

"Sakata Gintoki. 』

"Well, don't take it seriously when you're kidding." Yinshi said, "You should rest well today, don't be too horny."

"In the end, it turned out that you are my mother?" 』

"I don't want to be someone else's mother, mayonnaise control." Yinshi said, "That's right. Although I didn't plan to do this at first, but if you are really too bored to think about it, why don't you go for a walk with me?"

Hijikata was silent for a while, as if he was thinking about something.

"I know where there are cheap and delicious fruit shops," Hijikata said, "Which station are you at?"Let me see where you are going to wait. 』

"Can't you just tell me, 'I'm bored and I want to hang out with you'?"

"Ah, otherwise, I also know a good black shop that sells flowers, Gintoki. 』

Swipe your phone, the waiting time will soon pass, and it will take at most twenty minutes for the earthwork to rendezvous with Yinshi.

Does the usual strict guy accidentally have a different flavor in his private everyday clothes?Yin Shi couldn't help thinking.Earthwork's shirt was a little darker than aqua blue, and it was tucked into grayish, tight-fitting suit pants, with a low-key off-white belt buckled around the waist, and a dark blue suit jacket with a casual cut.Finish off with a pale blue-gray scarf and beige oxfords with a touch of brown.

"...beautiful." Gintoki murmured.

"Really? Thank you very much." Hijikata glanced at Gintoki lightly, "Actually, you are not bad, handsome guy."

Hijikata also deliberately bumped Gintoki's back with his elbow.For Hijikata's childish behavior, Gintoki was surprised and helpless.

They spent some time visiting two different flower shops and fruit shops, basically because they were both old acquaintances of the earthwork and had a good impression of the earthwork, so it was logical for Yinshi to complete the task at a favorable price, and it happened to be on the way Went to the resting place of Yinshi's parents.

The closer he got to the destination, Yinshi, who was still talking, gradually became abnormally silent.Even though Hijikata didn't know what Gintoki was thinking, he could somewhat read that point, the aggravated pressure on Gintoki's aura on such an occasion, although Gintoki still maintained a very gentlemanly manner from the beginning to the end. Smile.When Hijikata knew that he was a companion, and it was inconvenient to disturb Yinshi, the quiet two people on the subway and bus were just an ordinary scene in life.

Perhaps because he had longed for such an ordinary life for too long, Tufang could not restrain himself from thinking about the past few years, those days that could be called muddled.The past that Ginpachi gave has long left an indelible memory on Hijikata.Only I remember every shy and happy shutter of those photos of playing; only I remember the quarrel that wished to tear each other apart every time there were conflicts of opinions; How powerful a pat on the back, a hug, or a comforting kiss on the forehead can bring.So much so that when I lost it, I felt a sense of weightlessness from body to heart, as if someone had cut out the most important part of my heart, top-heavy, and the road was unstable.

Does time really heal everything?Hijikata hoped so, so he spent seven years trying to recover and forget.Only at this time, Hijikata hated his stubborn character, except that his resentment towards the world was more profound, and he never felt that his feelings for Ginpachi were diminished by a single iota.Then work hard, so busy that you forget who you are, and you don't have time to miss others.

However, the appearance of Yinshi made the years of efforts of the earthwork come to naught.

Perhaps the feeling was not strong when we met for the first time, but as the working hours lengthened, even the personal friendship outside of work became closer.Gintoki's existence always reminds Hijikata of two contradictory things: Gintoki's "replacement" for Ginhachi in his mind because of the similar appearance; and how different Gintoki and Ginhachi are obviously.As a lover, Ginpachi still makes Hijikata feel that he is being taught and cared for just like a student. That touch of silver seems to be the furthest distance in the world, and he is just one of the people who touches the edge.

Silver, however, was different.

Compared with Ginpachi who is good at being the focus of everyone, while maintaining the supreme loneliness, Gintoki has the habit of entering the crowd and becoming a "companion" of others, as if as long as he is around, all the funny things, no matter how stupid, stupid, or funny can happen.Maybe he is a little grumpy, childish from time to time, like a kid, but he can always play the role of rendering joyful emotions without a trace, silly, just like that, so that people laugh along with him.Sometimes I can't help but doubt Yinshi's IQ and ability, but he is usually lazy and often drags people's legs, and every time at the most critical moment, he accurately clarifies the context of the current incident, or takes a step back. Can give the most critical clues to solve the case.

Looking at Yinshi, who is silently shining brightly in such an ordinary place, Tufang also occasionally found that Yinshi would inadvertently condense her own light in the crowd, blend into the crowd, and lead the crowd to laugh and guide the crowd away from sadness.The crowd also responded to it, like Kagura would cheer for Gintoki when he was sad, and Sougo also found a rare way to help put the smile back on the man's face.

Hijikata couldn't deny that he was occasionally attracted by this happy magic, and his emotions even danced along with it.Gradually, he could feel that the touch of silver in silver is a part of daily life. It is omnipresent but never makes people feel uncomfortable, and it is easy to make people habitually dependent.

Or maybe he had unknowingly longed for the warmth of Gintoki, Hijikata thought, looking at Gintoki who was staring at the moving scenery outside the window naturally.Sensing Hijikata's gaze, Gintoki also looked back at Hijikata, tilting his head slightly.

"What's wrong, Hijikata?"

"It's okay." Hijikata said, "How many more stops will we arrive?"

"About three more stops."

"It's so far away."

"It's quieter this way, isn't it?"

After getting off the station, Yinshi stretched his waist and smiled.The earth side was a little surprised.

"I didn't see you so happy in the car just now." Hijikata said.

"Didn't you see that driver's eyes were fierce, as if he wanted to drag out all the talking passengers and beat him up." Yinshi said, "Besides, the weather is very good, isn't it? Since we are here to relax, we should relax a little bit." look, isn't it?"

"...I thought you were here to offer incense."

"It's almost the end of the day and it happens to be a little free, so let's take it by the way."

"You're not afraid of being scolded as unworthy, are you?"

"Ah, they scolded them before they were alive, so I'm not afraid at all." Yinshi said with a smile, and made a face at Hijikata.

However, even if Yinshi said so, the slightly lonely expression during the worship could not deceive anyone.Hijikata guessed that Yinshi must have loved the two deceased family members deeply, so he didn't want to show a sad face in front of them.Seeing Yinshi pursed his lips and knelt in front of the tomb for a long time without getting up, Tufang patted Yinshi's shoulder lightly, reminding Yinshi that he had been kneeling in front of the tomb for fifteen minutes.

"Ah, I actually forgot!" After Yinshi got up, he suddenly patted his head vigorously, and said, "I forgot that I have to buy a Jump today! I have to find out if there is a convenience store nearby!"

"You still watch Jump at such a time, don't you have any intention of graduating?"

"Graduation? My dad and I have no intention of graduating?" Gintoki said with a smile, "At least until Eiichiro Oda and Masashi Kishimoto end their serialization, we all swear to the end."

"So your father is also a Jump control?" Hijikata asked in surprise.

"I first started watching Jump when my dad pushed me to watch the masterpieces of Zhongzhong, Takahashi and Nozomi at that time." Gintoki said, "He also said, 'Don't watch this one, don't tell me you still have a childhood!'"

"I didn't know your dad was so crazy about comics."

"It's probably because Ginba doesn't watch it often, right?" Gintoki laughed, "Because "Gin's Mom" ​​doesn't end its serialization, it lowers the quality of Jump!"

"How do you know why he doesn't watch Jump?"

"Of course I don't know, Hijikata." Gintoki laughed again, "But that one is really enough, I don't know how to laugh at all, and I don't have passion."

"Really? Do you really think that the picture on the computer screen in your office has the words "silver fuck" written on it in big letters, and I haven't seen it yet?"

"You don't understand this, Hijikata." Gintoki said, "That's for shooting darts."

"If you dare to use the official property of the Shinsengumi as a target, I will stick you to the shooting practice range of the investigation hall and shoot you as a target. Is it fair?"

"Excuse me, Vice President, I was wrong."

Finally, at Gintoki's insistence, I bought this Jump from a nearby convenience store and placed it in front of Gintoki's father's grave.Gintoki clasped his hands together and prayed for a while.

"Let's go, Hijikata." Gintoki said, "I'm a little hungry, let's go find a place for lunch."

The two chose a soba noodle shop for lunch, and Gintoki returned to his talkative appearance, as if his heart was much more relaxed.Seeing the situation, Tu Fang felt much more at ease, and occasionally he could respond to Yin Shi with a sentence or two that should be complained about.After dinner, I walked and chatted nearby, which was quite pleasant.

"Gintoki, you don't mind if I ask you a question." Hijikata said, "What will you do if we find out the truth about Ginpachi?"

Gintoki was suddenly confused by the question, Ginpachi's playful tone from the night before flashed in his mind, his eyes cast a shadow, but immediately returned to normal.

"Should... I will leave the Shinsengumi and return to my happy life as an architect, right?" Gintoki said with a slight smile, "Finding the truth, investigating, the process is very interesting, but how should I put it... I always feel That's not the life I'm after."

"The life you want to pursue?"

"When I was very young, I dreamed that one day I could build my own place with the people I liked, and that's why I wanted to be an architect at the beginning." Yinshi said, "After four years of studying, I went to the law department to complete my studies. It was just to "listen to stories", and if I was interested in hearing stories, I went abroad to study psychology and wanted to know what is inside the human brain."

"It's really rich and free." Hijikata said, "You can do whatever you want, has no one objected to you?"

"No, I'm studying on a scholarship." Gintoki said, "What about you, Hijikata? What do you want to do after the truth comes out?"

Strictly speaking, the earth side did not seriously consider this possibility.

"Maybe I will go on a trip?" Hijikata said, "I have been working hard for the truth of Ginpachi for a long time. Whether he is dead or alive, maybe I am not ready to meet him...maybe?"

The wind blew in bursts, gently ruffling the hair of the two of them.While walking and chatting, the setting sun was setting unknowingly, and the steps on the narrow path were very light.Yinshi suddenly patted his head again, feeling annoyed.

"God, I actually forgot to bring my camera again!"

"Why, you also play photography?" Hijikata asked.

"It's not for fun, it should be said that I was forced to do it." Gintoki said, "There used to be a strange elder sister in the office who really liked the sunset. From the day I knew about it, she forced me to do it." Every time I go out for a long time, I must take a picture like this for her, otherwise I will make things difficult for me at work until I cry."

Gintoki had a smile on his face when he mentioned this matter.

"So I developed this habit later on, and even after I resigned, I still kept in touch with this elder sister, just sending her photos to explain it."

"What happened later? Did you still contact her?" Hijikata asked.

"No. She also left the office later, but it is said that she suffered from severe depression and committed suicide because of an unkind person." Gintoki said, "But I will still take those photos, but I just keep them for myself."

The earth side was silent for a while and did not answer.

"It's okay, you can take pictures with your mobile phone anyway, it won't be too bad." Gintoki said, trying to suppress the spread of silence.

"Hurry up, or you won't have a chance today after the sun goes down." Hijikata said, "...and using a mobile phone, it's more convenient to send... to me."

Although the last two words were whispered, Yinshi could hear them clearly.

"Hijikata, I really didn't know that you like the sunset?" Gintoki scratched his head.

"That's not true, I like photography!" Hijikata said, with a slightly defensive tone, "I just want to say that you should be considered a very experienced photographer, and you can serve as a reference for me."

"I see, but don't expect too much." Gintoki scratched his head again, "Mobile works, you know."

Yinshi's mobile phone made a light "click" sound, Yinshi looked at it and was satisfied, so he handed it to Tufang to have a look.

"Why do you mostly take pictures of our shadows instead of the sunset?" Hijikata wondered.

"Because the beauty of the sunset always comes from the stories that happened to the people at that moment, doesn't it?" said Gintoki.

Tufang was stunned for a long time without speaking.I don't know why, obviously he shouldn't be the saddest person today, but he couldn't help feeling sad, and tears almost fell down.But before this really happened, Gintoki took the lead in kissing Hijikata's forehead lightly, and smiled brightly.

"What, I can't afford to use your way of praising my work." Gintoki said, "Be careful not to be criticized on the bus or subway because you have red eyes?"

"Don't worry about it, I'm not that stupid." Hijikata shot back.

"But my tsundere friend, didn't he just want to cry?" Yinshi said with a smile, "Hurry up, we should all go home, we have to go to work tomorrow."