sleeping formula

【10】

On the surface, Yinshi's reaction was not as intense as expected, but he lowered his eyes and thought for a while before revealing a "Thank you, daddy" smile.But this is scary, because the time for the downcast eyes to go from shock, want to cry, not cry, calm to sincere smile is only ten seconds.Even if he was mentally prepared, it shouldn't be this reaction.

"Now that I've remembered it, let me solve one of my doubts!" ​​Gintoki said.

Really just that?But judging from Yinshi's reaction, it was really just that.Facing the fact that he forgot the name calmly, he asked about the past related to the name, although Gintoki only asked about interesting or embarrassing stories, or about his brother's schooling experience.

"Gintoki wait a minute...why you...?"

"I accepted it so quickly...isn't it?" Gintoki said calmly, "Because what I remember is not only the anger from the car accident, but also many complex emotions that I can't express, such as happiness, sadness, and warmth. It is closely connected with that name, but why the middle process led to the anger of the final car accident, I have not clarified."

Yuan Wai's father was speechless for a while.

"To put it simply," said Gintoki, "the conclusions drawn without definite cause and effect are just slaves to emotions."

Should it be said that this is thorough and extreme rationalism?Does this mean that this boy Yinshi decided not to listen to his inner voice?Or is it because he simply believes in the nature of human kindness?No matter which one it is, Yuan Wai's father couldn't help feeling terrified.

"Dad, don't look so frightened. In fact, it's because I listened to Daddy's advice just now that I think this can protect myself." Yin Shi smiled bitterly again, "Because if I can't hold on anymore, the world will still There is someone who loves him more, and if he collapses, no one will be able to help him. Some people even say that I can "swindle and cheat" by relying on other people's goodwill for this face."

Thinking of others first... eh?Or, in order to protect others, should we protect ourselves first?

"You kid, when did it become so difficult."

"No, I just think I'm nothing but a strong heart and a thick skin." Gintoki scratched his head, "Besides, I still have things I want to do."

Yuanwai's father smiled.

"Yintoki, who is the 'he' you're talking about?"

Gintoki didn't say anything, but he thought of Toshiro Hijikata in his heart.

From that quarrel, Gintoki discovered that Hijikata's motivation for survival was entirely based on that man, and he could do whatever it took to get the truth he wanted.But Yinshi believes that Hijikata, who loves his elder brother deeply, cannot be blind and fall in love with the man who wants to escape.How would such an earthworker feel if he knew the truth about the car accident?Accept or crash?Yinshi can't bet on this five-five-wave gamble, and neither can the Shinsengumi, so he can only bet on himself who can still get rid of his emotions.Just thinking this way, I don't know why, the restless mood has stabilized like this, as if there is some vague reason that I haven't discovered.

After Yinshi stayed at Yuanwai's father's house for dinner, he took a car back to his residence.After putting away his things, he was about to take a hot bath when he received a call from the earthworker.

"Hifang, how did you know my phone number?" Yin Shi never gave it to the other party in his impression.

"Did you forget that I am your boss. ’ Tufang said coldly.

"This is too despicable! Isn't it polite to exchange numbers?" Gintoki shouted.

"If you want to say it's despicable... yes, but it's too troublesome to pay attention to that kind of thing. ”Tufang said, “If you exchange numbers, this is my phone number when I call you, and you are usually not very polite to me, so it will be considered even. 』

Is it too domineering?Hello!Yinshi got angry for a while, so he had to change the topic.

"Here, what are you calling for?" Gintoki asked angrily.

"I'm thinking of having dinner with you. Hijikata said, "How do you know about Hashida, and I would like to formally apologize for what happened that night." 』

What?By the way... what a ghost!This order of speaking and tone of voice, it seems that apology is the main reason, right?How could anyone care so much about something like that?

"I said Hijikata, thank you for your good intentions, but about dinner appointments...can't we talk about it after work?"

Hijikata's microphone fell silent, making Gintoki, who was confused about the situation, go crazy.

"Earth?"

"I am here. ”Tufang’s voice sounded quite flustered, “It’s okay, since you have to wait until you get to work, let’s talk about it after work.” 』

Silver sighed.

"If you have any ideas, I won't know if you don't tell me." Yinshi said helplessly, "Although I look alike, I'm not that omnipotent Yinpachi."

"I know you are not him, even though I subconsciously want to take you as him, I still know you are not. ’ Tufang said, ‘You are different. 』

"Sister Miao also said the same, so you are the second."

"Yeah? 』

Just when Yinshi wondered if he should give Hijikata some time to sort out his thoughts, he didn't expect the other party to speak like that.

"Hearing your voice, I don't know why I feel so relieved. Hijikata said quietly, "It feels like you are still a "human being". 』

Yin Shi was taken aback, then smiled wryly.

"Sister Miao said the same thing." Yinshi said, "Then what is Yinba?"

"God. Hijikata said, "It is very hard to make people love forever, as if I am not in the same dimension as me." 』

There are so many things going on at the moment, Yinshi doesn't know what to say.

"Silver Time──" "Hijikata──"

Hearing what the two of them were about to say at the same time, they couldn't help laughing again.

"What are you talking about, Hijikata?"

『No, I just feel that instead of apologizing to you, it is more practical to say thank you. ’ Tufang said, ‘What about you?what do you want to say? 』

The pictures of the past are turned up again like a moving book of poetry.This time seems to have a different experience, but it also strengthens the vow that Yinshi made secretly at Yuanwai's father's house.In the end, the book of past poems stopped at the scene of the car accident, and was gently closed by Yinshi.

"No, I just feel that, rather than thinking of Ginpachi as a god, it makes me feel painful," said Gintoki, "Maybe I can understand his feelings better by treating him as a human being."