to deceive

Even more like a transparent person, despite his good looks, he is able to be unnoticed, and Hou Chisu is a person who can easily become the focus. He has been favored since childhood, and girls who chase him can have a large It's hard for Hou Shujian to spend every day with Hou Chisu at the tea party, and he didn't get even a little return rate from him.

Although there is such a big gap in personality, the relationship between the two is very good. Compared with the big brother with an age difference, it is more comfortable for the two of them to communicate without a generation gap.Although after Hou Shujian moved out of the house, there were very few opportunities for the two to meet each other, but the two did not alienate each other because of this.

After eating, when Hou Chisu packed up the dishes and walked out of the kitchen, Hou Shujian was sitting on the sofa in the living room, looking intently watching TV, but the TV was broadcasting commercials, so Hou Shujian was actually concentrating walking god.After Hou Chisu walked over, he stretched out his wet hand to touch Hou Shujian's cheek, and waited until Hou Shujian slapped his hand away with surprise before sitting next to Hou Shujian.

Hou Shujian turned down the volume of the TV a little bit, took the remote control to change the channel casually, and said casually: "You arrived so early today, what's the matter?"

Hou Chisu's gaze was also on the TV screen, and he slowly opened his mouth and said, "Actually, I have something to say today, and these words are not just what I want to say."

Hou Shujian didn't answer, and waited for Hou Chisu to continue.Hearing Hou Chisu say that he was not alone, he basically knew what his brother was going to say.

"Shu Jian, it's true that your mentality recovered quickly at that time, and even I couldn't see any negative emotions in you later... But in the past few years, you have always urged your mother to introduce you to a blind date. It didn’t work, did your sexual orientation change?”

Hou Shujian turned his head and looked at Hou Chisu with a slightly complicated expression.He thought the other party would remind him cryptically, but such a straightforward question made it difficult for Hou Shujian to answer for a while.

But Hou Chisu thought he was acquiescing, reached out and held Hou Shujian's shoulder, and said anxiously and seriously: "Even if you don't like women, it's not a big deal, homosexuality is also normal, just..."

Hou Shujian interrupted Hou Jisu with a helpless smile, "I don't discriminate against homosexuals, but I just want to say that that incident didn't change my sexual orientation."

"But, what's the reason why you failed so many blind dates?" Hou Chisu still didn't give up and asked stubbornly.

"The failure was just because it wasn't suitable." Hou Shujian nodded as if realizing something, "That matter still affects me, and that's because the standards for women are more stringent."

After finishing speaking, he removed Hou Jisu's hand from his shoulder and returned it to the sofa. Hou Jisu let Hou Shujian move before, but when Hou Shujian withdrew his hand, he held his wrist with his backhand.Hou Shujian looked at Hou Chisu with doubts in his eyes, and saw that the other party closed his eyes, just like it had happened countless times before, and said in a slightly trembling voice: "I'm sorry."

Hou Shujian looked calm, "You have said this sentence too many times. First of all, that incident did not have such a lasting impact on me; second, I don't think this incident has a lot to do with you. She is too extreme. ,this is not your fault."

"But...but!" Hou Chisu seemed to want to say something, but stopped talking.Seeing the wavering in Hou Chisu's eyes, Hou Shujian lowered his eyelids, took Hou Chisu's hand that was still holding his wrist tightly with both hands, and solemnly clenched it, "Brother, I don't blame you."

Hou Chisu let go of his hand, and leaned on the back of the sofa with a little slump, covering his eyes with both hands. Hou Shujian didn't know whether the conversation should come to an end or continue, so he quietly watched his brother beside him. .

Hou Chisu took a deep breath, put down his hands covering his face, and looked relaxed as usual, "Shu Jian, you go back to the room first, I will watch TV for a while."

Hou Shujian saw Hou Chisu's almost unstoppable expression, and said hesitantly, "Shall I watch it with you?"

"It's okay. Don't you still have to write something at night? I'll go to bed after reading it for a while. You can go back to your room."

Hou Shujian stopped insisting, and walked towards the bedroom. When he walked in the door, he looked back at the living room. Hou Chisu seemed to feel something, and turned to him and smiled, as if saying that there was nothing to worry about.Hou Shujian came to the door, and suddenly felt that he was cruel to Hou Chisu like this, and he really hurt Hou Chisu.

After returning to the room, Hou Shujian sat in front of the computer for a long time without moving, and after a long time of blank expression, he slowly took out the previous notebook from the drawer.

He started to read from the first page. During the period, he showed his face several times and wanted to close the book, but he still insisted on reading the last page - and after that was Jiang Xiaoran's recipe that he memorized.Hou Shujian's eyes stopped on his own handwriting, and after a long while, he laid the notebook flat on the table, while he leaned back on the back of the chair and let out a long breath.

This book was given to Hou Shujian by Fang Meiche, Hou Chisu's high school girlfriend, but the owner of the book is actually Hou Chisu.It's just that Hou Chisu still doesn't know that this diary is now in Hou Shujian's hands.

Fang Meiche and the Hou family brothers can be regarded as childhood sweethearts. They have been classmates since elementary school, and this fate has continued until high school.

Hou Shujian has been aware of Fang Meiche's feelings for Hou Chisu since junior high school, and Hou Chisu responded to Fang Meiche's feelings in high school, but Hou Shujian, who is the relative and friend of the two of them, has a deep feeling in his heart. Doubtful about this relationship.

In the eyes of others, Hou Shujian is more or less fond of Fang Meiche, so many students are eagerly waiting for them to develop a triangular relationship in order to satisfy the desire to gossip in the boring study life, but Hou Shujian's performance is as usual, no matter Is it for Hou Chisu or Fang Meiche.

The reason why Hou Shujian was full of doubts but still pretended to be calm was because when he was still in junior high school, he accidentally glimpsed Hou Chisu's secret. It was not accurate to say that he had glimpsed it, but he heard something that made him feel ashamed after pretending to sleep. One cannot open one's eyes and say "I was awake just now".Hou Shujian couldn't confide in anyone that his own brother liked him.

At first Hou Shujian thought it might be Hou Jisu's joke, but after learning about this relationship, the signs that were not clear before were clearly written on Hou Chisu, so clear that Hou Shujian wanted to deceive himself and others. no way.

During that time, Hou Shujian became obsessed with the feeling of writing articles. He vented his secret anxiety and insecurity in words, so that he could be as usual when facing Hou Chisu.

What made Hou Shujian even more terrified was that he found that he... could only have desires for men.He wondered in his heart whether he also liked his biological brother, and finally got a negative answer.

Probably out of an evasive mentality, when Hou Shujian mentioned Fang Meiche to Hou Chisu, he deliberately made his attitude ambiguous.Hou Shujian knew that Fang Meiche liked Hou Chisu, so he did not deliberately do anything when he was with Fang Meiche. He just made no secret of his fabricated feelings for Fang Meiche in places where Hou Jisu might see him. .

Hou Shujian thinks his logic is like this, compared to younger brother who likes men but dislikes elder brother, or younger brother who likes women and dislikes elder brother is less harmful to Hou Chisu.But no matter what, it will always hurt Hou Chisu.

Hou Shujian felt guilty, whether it was Fang Meiche who was used by him, or Hou Chisu who was kept in the dark.

Hou Shujian didn't feel that the relationship between brothers was something to be condemned. He also regretted that even though he liked men, he couldn't have any other way to have feelings for his biological brother, so Hou Chisu's this Feelings are doomed to end without a disease.

Hou Shujian was sure that Hou Jisu had noticed his obvious love for Fang Meiche, and every time he mentioned Fang Meiche Hou Jisu's irritability... Could it be that Hou Jisu had really given up on him, Fell in love with Fang Meiche?So those annoyances were actually because he didn't want him to covet Fang Meiche?

It would be great if this was the case, but Hou Shujian was still a little skeptical, but the two of them hadn't broken up in three years of high school, and even quarreled rarely, so Hou Shujian gradually felt relieved.Without the influence of negative emotions in his heart, he could write things more smoothly. He knew that his own article was about to be published, so he wanted to use the news of a fixed pseudonym, so he conveniently used Hou Chisu's name.

He thought, since Hou Jisu let go of that feeling, he can hope from the bottom of his heart that Hou Jisu and Fang Meiche can go to the future smoothly.

The summer vacation after graduating from high school shattered all the beautiful imaginations of Hou Shujian.

The sudden notification sound from the mobile phone interrupted Hou Shujian's thoughts. He shuddered and said to himself: "People only recall the past when they are old. What are you thinking about..." He took the mobile phone and found that it was a message Weibo private message, Hou Shujian thought that the little secretary sent it in a timely manner this time, or else he would have thought of something bad. When he clicked on it, he realized that this time it was not the conscientious little secretary on Weibo, but—— Jiang Xiaoran.

This person just became a fan of Hou Shujian, and was afraid that he would find the wrong person, so he tentatively sent a private message: Mr. Hou?

Hou Shujian looked at this line of words, smiled unconsciously, and tapped the screen a few times: It's me, Teacher Jiang.

After a while, the other party replied: I'm just afraid of admitting the wrong person, so just confirm, I'm sorry to disturb you so late_(:зゝ∠)_

Hou Shujian thought, what an interruption, it's really kind of you to send me a message at this time.

Seven

Hou Shujian was thinking in his heart, and his fingers couldn't help typing this sentence and sending it.